Dominated (15 page)

“Shouldn’t we be getting back to the palace now, Princess?”

“Soon, Nanny. One more run and then we’ll make for home.”

Victoria was cold. She looked forward to sitting on the hot steam pipe below her bedroom window, warming her hands around a bowl of winter vegetable broth, and wriggling her tingling toes inside her slippers.

She checked her pocket watch. Half past two. Time for one last run and still make it back to hug Anne and watch her fly away into the setting sun.

It was time for the big one. The one she’d been daring herself to attempt yesterday before she snapped the runner. The one she’d been building up toward all day today. She gave the end of the frozen loch a wide berth and turned to the massive mountain that loomed over Glen Nevis.

They made a slow ascent, but the magnificent view from the summit was worth the effort. Victoria lifted her goggles and rubbed her gritty eyes.

Way over to their left, on top of Carn Mordarg, the palace windowpanes reflected a thousand golden glints from the low sun. The
Elizabeth
and
Triumph
were moored to adjacent towers beyond the building. To the south and west lay the empty ocean view Victoria normally enjoyed from her bedroom window. Virgin snow glowed all over Ben Nevis and shone from the other Grampian Islands to the east. It lay thick and inviting on the long, steep, smooth slope below them, all the way down to the sheer cliff at the bottom.

She replaced her goggles and lined the sled up at the top of the slope.

“No,” Nanny B said behind her ear. “No.”

Victoria’s shout was half-laugh and half-challenge as she gunned the sled over the ridge and raised the treaded roller.

She gripped her handlebars and screamed as they hurtled down the white mountainside. “Whooo!”

“Noooo!” Nanny B wailed.

It was as fast as she’d expected. Maybe even faster. Powdery surface snow and the polished runners of her sled combined to make them fly, and she hoped the dazzling white smoothness would be thick enough to protect them from rocky hazards beneath.

A quarter of the way down, sudden doubt flooded through her. They were going too fast. Way too fast. The icy wind froze her face and made her teeth ache when she breathed. The handlebars kept trying to rip themselves from her hands, and she wasn’t strong enough to control the sled. She hung on for grim death and fought the fear, while Nanny moaned in a long monotone behind her.

They were already halfway down, and she didn’t know if she could stop before they plunged over the cliff into the sea below. Her brave plan had been to lower the roller by degrees and drag out a wide sweep to bring them to a halt beside the cliff edge, but that seemed impossible at this terrible speed. If she dropped the roller too sharply they might somersault and crash before she could engage it. If she did it too slowly they wouldn’t stop in time.

Nanny stopped moaning and wrapped her strong arms around Victoria’s waist.

It was now or never. She lowered the roller towards the speeding snow. When it ploughed the surface crust she paused at that height for a few seconds, then lowered it again inch by inch.

Flicking her gaze back and forth between the descending roller and the rapidly approaching cliff edge, she managed to slow the sled down to a more manageable speed. Still too fast for comfort, but she might actually pull this off. Probably. Maybe.

Three-quarters of the way down the slope, she started to turn the sled in a wide arc, still lowering the freewheeling roller by degrees and gaining encouragement as it started to drag through the deeper snow. A hundred feet from the edge, she kicked the engine into gear and slammed the roller deep.

Snow slewed out in a solid sheet over their heads, and the sled churned to a reluctant halt only ten feet from the cliff edge. The steam engine shuddered, wheezed, and died with a loud ringing rattle.

“You
naughty
girl.” Nanny B clambered down from the pillion seat. She shook her skirts free and stamped six paces away through knee-deep snow. “You could have died.”

Victoria grinned. She didn’t know why, because there was nothing funny about what had just happened. Maybe it was a nervous reaction. Maybe it was simply relief.

“I don’t know
what
you think you’re laughing at,” Nanny’s eyes flared ice blue. “You were naughty as a child, and you get worse as the years go by.”

Victoria shook her head and grinned defiantly out at the ocean.

“Don’t you dare smirk when I’m telling you off!”

She turned on the robot. “No. Don’t
you
dare tell me off! I’m not a child. And I’m not your precious Anne, either, so don’t even talk to me.”

Nanny’s jaw dropped.

Victoria couldn’t help it. She burst out laughing at the ridiculous sight.

Nanny hitched up her skirts, swiveled in the snow and stomped away, following the cliff edge. “I’ll walk home.”

“You do that.” Victoria climbed off the sled and crouched to study the hot engine, wondering if she could get it going again.

A muffled squeak sounded behind her, and she straightened, expecting to see Nanny B blowing her top again, but the robot was nowhere in sight.

“Nanny?”

Silence. Innocent snow everywhere and wind whipping in from the sea, but no sign or sound of Nanny.

“Hello.” Victoria called once, twice, and stopped to listen for a response.

Nothing.

Oh, no!
Victoria’s heart hammered, and her throat closed up so fast she couldn’t even swallow. Nanny must have fallen over the cliff, and it was all her fault. She’d been selfish and childish all day, and now she’d killed Nanny.

Her legs trembled as she followed the robot’s deep footsteps through the snow, carefully, testing each one before she trusted her weight in a new place. She had to know. She didn’t want to see her beloved Nanny’s body lying smashed to pieces on the rocks below, but she had to know what she’d done to her.

Rhonda’s head snapped around, and she mouthed the words “
Oh my God
.” I tried to stifle my laugh, but it burst out as a quiet snort. I surveyed the aisles around us, almost choking when I caught a face staring at me—but it was only my own dark-eyed reflection, beaming back from the glass covering a poster that aimed to recruit new drivers.

Maybe it was my lucky day, and nobody noticed us checking him out. I mean, the jean-clad behind that triggered her silent exclamation was certainly a fine specimen, but it didn’t mean I wanted to get caught admiring it. In the good ol’ boys’ club of long-haul trucking, being a female driver already got me enough flack . . . being new made it ten times worse.

The driver with the too-tight black jeans—or hey, maybe they were just tight enough—turned the corner and disappeared from sight. We scanned the area for witnesses and exchanged a nod, before slinking after him. Both of us were trying to get a better look at the rest of him as he wound his way through narrow aisles bursting with chrome decals, twelve-volt electronics, and beef jerky displays.

I was about to whisper to Rhonda he might be a
butter-face
when he turned and revealed a side profile.

She gave me a quick reverse nod, the question clear.
Do you like him?

Hmm.
I bit my lip. He wasn’t exactly handsome, but he had a face that was clean and honest—although it
did
seem a bit arrogant. Judging by the wrinkle on the bridge of his slightly crooked nose, none of the Glass Hitch’s offerings were to his liking. I felt my hackles rise in solidarity with my favorite truck-stop.
Hey, this is where they have the
good
showers.

Rhonda’s low whistle caught me by surprise. Before I could react, Jeans turned, his dark eyes catching mine. “N-n-o,” I started to stutter, but before I could explain Rhonda was the culprit, he had already made a disgusted face and turned away. Apparently, the image of un-showered me in a tracksuit didn’t exactly start his engine.

As soon as he faded from view, Rhonda burst into laughter. I nailed her in the arm.

“Hey, Rocky, cut it out!” She pouted and rubbed her bicep, but I could
swear
there was a definite gleam in her eye.

“Jeans thought it was
me
! Like I would ever do something so crass!”

She snickered and lifted an eyebrow. “Oh, get off of your high horse. And. . . 
Jeans?
”

My cheeks burning, I cleared my throat and glanced back to confirm he hadn’t returned. The absent aisle filled me with a sense of relief—but also a little bit of disappointment.

I swallowed away my guilt and tried not to hear my mother’s voice. I mean, hey—horniness is natural, right? Everybody’s got feelings, and I was going to
embrace
them—especially if it meant avoiding a life of missing-husband-induced nun-like abstinence.

I groaned and muttered a silent prayer.
Sorry, Mom. I didn’t mean that. It’s just . . . about time that something besides an electric blanket and a bunk heater kept me warm at night.

Thankfully, Luke would be joining me in three days, and then maybe I wouldn’t feel a throb every time I ran into a halfway decent looking man in jeans. My long-running theory that Rhonda could read minds was further proven by her theatric eye-roll and heavy sigh. “You’re too uptight, you know that? Anyways, Randy and I are going to wing night at the Chow Hound. You want in?”

I stretched my neck to each side. Each pop and click—and there were plenty—brought me a little much-needed relief. “Sorry, Rhonda. Need a shower—and my number is up.” I waved my ticket at the screen behind her.

Her face brightened with a giant grin. She was the only other woman on the FLEX Canada Team, and she no doubt understood my desperation. “All right. Well, if you change your mind, you have my number.” She gave me a sly wink and nodded behind me. “Think he’s back.”

My cheeks burned. I ducked and sped down the aisles that led to the showers. I didn’t want to face him again, and besides, I was already drooling like a zombie.
Hot water. Massage head.
The last three days had held nothing but road dust, diesel fumes, and second-hand smoke, and just thinking about it made my skin itch. I darted around the hall to shower twelve, consulted my ticket, and mashed in my pin-key.

The door clicked open to reveal a vista of sparkling-white tile. I had to pause and drink in the sensation of something recently cleaned just for me. I whirled in, flipped the deadbolt, and dropped everything on the bench by the door. Physics kicked in and it all fell in the messiest way possible, the clean clothes somehow sliding down the shower bag and onto the floor.

I groaned. If I didn’t sort and hang them, they were all sure to get wet—but I couldn’t get my body to move.
Maybe it will be all right. I’ll just be careful in the shower.
I stripped off my clothes and fought off a monster yawn. Naked and shivering like a Chihuahua, I took a deep, cleansing breath—
in through the nose, out through the mouth
—and turned to face the mirror.

Gut-shot!
Even if you didn’t consider the mussed hair and dirty streaks that covered my once-tan skin—and how in the hell had I lost a tan that fast, anyways?—I looked exhausted. Sick, even. The bags that oozed out from under my bloodshot eyes were almost as dark as my hair. My t-zone shined, my cheeks were flaky, and the sides of my nose and my forehead bristled with whiteheads and blackheads and God-knew-what-else.

“Fucking reefer,”
I muttered, although the noisy cycles of the condenser during my sleep was only part of the reason I looked like crap. After all, the other drivers up here could just drop—lay down for a nap and be fully unconscious thirty seconds later, refreshed when the alarm went off to deliver their load. I still needed
time
—time to unwind, time to drift off, time to wake up, and I couldn’t fall asleep during the day. As a result, I was starting to look an
awful
lot like a zombie.

My gaze dropped lower, past the birthmark on my collarbone and okay, larger than average bosom, to my gradually flabby-fying stomach. I felt the sob start in my throat, and I choked it back. Three months ago, I’d clocked in at a hundred and fifty pounds. Curvy, maybe even chubby, but only on a bloated day.

The budding gut that stared back at me from the mirror almost needed a
name.
I mean Jesus, what would Mom think, God bless her soul?

It’s the chicken fried steak. And the biscuits and gravy. And the Boss Hog burger. And the wings, and—

I sighed and rubbed my belly. Good thing I had turned down wing night.

I wonder what Jeans would think if he could see this?
Would his eyes bug out of his head? Would he snicker and move on? Would he point and laugh?

I stiffened as another thought rose, like a deep-sea monster, from the depths of my subconscious.
What will Luke think?
He hadn’t laid eyes on me since before I left for Driving School.

I managed to break myself away from the mirror and pulled a one-eighty. With a quick breath, I flipped the shower handle and jumped in.

Mistake
.

Ice rained down on my skin. “Mother
Fucker
!”

I leaped out. Shivering and dripping water on the floor, I could suddenly hear music. The sound was muffled from forcing its way out of a pile of dirty clothes and over the shower’s hiss, but I could make out the song. It was “Happy Together,” by the Turtles.

I didn’t react in time to catch the chill that went through my gut. Things with Luke had been tough lately. He was always picking little fights, not returning my calls—

But he’ll be here, soon. He’s giving up everything to move onto a truck. That’s how much he loves you.
By the time I managed to find the phone and flip it open, my apprehension—and part of my ice bath—had been driven out by a warm glow. “Hey, baby.”

“Hey, Charlie. You busy?”