Falling - On the Banks of Lake Saint Clare (Falling - Book One) (52 page)

He looked down at me and I could see he was trying to hold his orgasm, fighting with all his might to make it last.

“Just cum, Michael. Stop torturing yourself.”

He started pushing harder and faster than before, I could feel my fingers digging into his arms
as
he pushed so hard I know I screamed, feeling a gush run inside me. He thrust again and I could feel another strong explosion inside me, he moaned with every release. Just when I thought he was through, he pushed one last time catching me off guard. “Ohhh!” I yelled, feeling dizzy for a minute, relieved that even though it felt tremendous that he was finished.

“Oh, my gosh, that was hellah awesome,” he smiled, kissing me and rolled over on his back. He took my hand and kissed it.

“You Alex,” he said, placing his hand on my cheek, “are irresistible,
” he smiled.

Chapter
28

“That was the most amazing trip I have ever been on. Disney World has nothing compared to a weekend with you,” I smiled as Michael closed my car door.

“You are a suck up,” he said, starting up the car. “But it was a
great
time.” I watched as we passed the
Fayetteville
city limits realizing that this was going to be our home next year.

“So this is the plan, since we have to plan
,
because that’s what we do,” I smiled
.
“
R
ight Derek? We are planners! Gotta have a plan.”

“Stop making fun of me or you are walking,” Michael smiled. “Go on with the plan. You are deciding this one, fiancé.”

“Oh, my gosh, you just called me fiancé’. I totally didn’t think of being called that. I was really shocked when Mom was actually happy.
Kaitlyn
, I called her last night about one in the morning and told her. She was actually happy. I guess Michael has got her snowed, too. I wonder what the Facebook buzz is about
it.
”

“I’ll look,” Derek said.

I knew
Kaitlyn
and Derek were head over heels in like and I also knew that he didn’t get the action Michael did this weekend, but they had just started dating, so I was relieved that they were waiting. I was also worried that they might have heard us, but
Kaitlyn
didn’t act embarrassed when we walked in the next morning. She probably
,
in her virgin mind
,
thought we had a tea party or
if she heard the screaming, thought we were having
a séance all night.

“The plan I am thinking, and you know you
two
can get a scholarship at U of A because as I recall ESPN knew 6 months ago, Mr. I don’t want to sound conceited.”

“Yes, I can,” he rolled his eyes. “Derek, you okay with U of A?”

“Sure,” he said. I looked back to see what they were doing. He was still logging onto Facebook
,
and she was huddled beside him looking at his phone with him. They looked comfortable together. Comfortable was good. Better than groping and hands
y
like Rachel and Tony always was. I swear he got more action at the kitchen table in one dinner than most porn stars got in an entire movie. But Dad with
the
blinders on was oblivious.

“I really liked that duplex with the privacy fence. I don’t want to live alone though. Hey!
This is j
ust a thought. Lloyd and
Monty
are college guys. Maybe, just maybe, I can share a pad with them.”

“I am pretty sure Lloyd is playing college basketball and will be sharing a dorm with Derek and me,” Michael smiled. “Sorry love, hate to break that to you.”

“And you really have to live in the dorm? That sticks.”

“Yep. That’s what the coach said.”

I looked out the window and thought that we had six months together before he moved to college, but it was close enough to drive.
But I could move in 9 months, right after graduation.
“I need a job. I just realized I don’t have a job
,
and I need a car to drive back and forth here.”

“No worries. We can get you one.”

“This is a big decision. I hope you don’t hate me for making you go here instead of
Kentucky
.” I said, looking out the window.

“I totally hate you, Alex. Hopefully it’s just for one or two years. I can handle that. Then if I can’t go through the draft, I will just get a degree and get a job.”

I’m kind of getting excited about grown-up life. I wonder if I will lose my Peter Pan syndrome and penis envy all in one day.”

“You can keep the penis envy,” Michael patted my leg, “I benefit from that.”
             
I smiled and turned around, “What did you find out about Facebook?”

“Hailey is calling you a man stealer, and says you are probably paying him.”

“She’s such a sweetheart,” I smiled.

“Erica and
Abbie
both
want to sing
at the wedding
and are fighting over ma
id
of honor.” Derek continued.

“I haven’t eve
n
thought
about a
wedding. Tell them to chill on that one.”

“I hate the idea you are going home tonight. It was almost like we were living together. I’m not going to like this. What if I
can’t
sleep at night and start having nightmares.”

“I’ll come over or you can stay at my house. It
’
s not hard to figure these things out, you know.”

“What about the trial?” I asked. I wonder when that will be. What if you are gone and I have to go alone?”

“What if you stop worrying about it
till
it happens, th
en we will worry about it. Ok?”

“How come you have to be the smarter and the cuter?” I asked.

Chapter
29

We walked into the cabin and I heard the
house
phone ring. I picked it up, seeing the note that everyone had gone to dinner.

“Alex?”

“Yes?” I asked wondering who it was.

I heard a big sigh, “I know I’m not supposed to be calling you, but I need to talk to you.”

“Who is this?” I asked.

“Sorry, it’s Brad.”

I shook my head thinking he sounded different
. Maybe it was because he was quieter
and it was a different phone.

“Ok,” I said, watching Michael carry my bags in. He looked at me and mouthed, “OK?”

I nodded.

“I just called to tell you that I am going to plead guilty.
They should be calling you anytime with the dates. It
should
be next week sometime.
I figured it would be easier to get it finished before you go back to school. The last I heard, your lawyer wants six years. I’m not sure that is enough for what I did to you.
”

I didn’t know what to say. I thought that it was a joke. He was so quiet. I could barely hear him.

“Please don’t tell the police I called. I can get in a lot more trouble if you do. I know I deserve everything I get. I truly don’t remember anything I did to you, but I believe that if you said I did, then I did.
I guess that’s it, Alex. I hope you had a good birthday.”

“Thanks,” I said, not knowing what else to say. “You
,
too. Thanks for calling.”

“Hey Alex,” he said before I could hang up, “
I’m really sorry.”

“It was Brad,” I said
,
hanging p the phone. “He’s pleading guilty. He said he was sorry.”

Michael walked over and hugged me.

“I don’t know what to think. I
don’t
know if he wants me to
go to court and say he didn’t do it. I don’t know if he is trying to feed off my kindness
.
I don’t know what he’s thinking. He said he doesn’t remember doing it.”

Chapter
30

We walked into the court
house
. “Hey,” mom smiled, walking over to me. “How do you feel?”

“Sick to my stomach. I have no idea why I am so nervous. I am so scared that when I speak I will sound insane or sound like I am lying about everything. I wish I would have written down what I want to say. Michael, why didn’t I write it down? I don’t know what I am going to say. I don’t want to go,” I said.

“This is it. This is your chance to get the last word. This is your opportunity to tell him exactly what you feel and he has to listen. This is your victory speech, Alex. You won.”

We headed to the door
, I felt
Mom grab my hand, “Alex, what ever happens in there, I want you to know that I believe in you. I will be there for you unconditionally and am so proud that you are my daughter.”

I looked across the room and saw Brad’s
mom
sitting quietly in the corner. “Why didn’t
she
want me, Michael? What was wrong with me?”

Michael kissed my hand, “I have no idea why anybody wouldn’t want you. Maybe one day you can ask
her
.”

“
She
hate
s
me. I know
she does
. I would hate anyone that
tried to
sen
d
my child to jail.
She
hated me when I was born and
she
hate
s
me more now.”

“Alex,” he sighed, “
d
oes it even matter?”

“I just want answers. For the first time, I want to know why
she
threw me away.”

Michael took my hand and started pulling across the room.

I wondered if he was mad. He wasn’t saying anything as he pulled me. “What are you doing, Michael?”

He didn’t answer.
We walked straight toward Brad’s
mom. My mom.

“Michael, no,” I begged. I knew I was the last person
she
wanted to see and wondered why he was doing this to
me
.

We stopped directly in front of
her
, “Tell her,” Michael ordered, “tell her why she wasn’t good enough to keep. She wants to know and you at least owe that much to her.”

She moved over, making room for me on the bench. “You are wrong to think I didn’t want you,” she sighed, “I finally get to tell you.” She sighed again.

“
I started dating a guy named Steve when I was in high school
. He had joined the Navy. Neither one of us had time for a long distance relationship, so we lost contact. I found out 4 months later, after he left for
Kuwait
that I was pregnant. I tried to contact him for months but never had any success, so I had to do it alone. My parents disowned me and your mother was so kind to take me in. We were close friends even though I was younger.

“I went into labor 6 weeks early. The doctor had made a few comments about an echo heartbeat, but you never showed up on any ultrasound. Brad was so large that he completely blocked you from view. We had no idea I was having twins. I was so happy, but in panic of how I could do it. You were so tiny and they said you would be in the hospital at least 4 weeks for your heart to develop more. There was no way I was going to be able to care for two babies and continue school. I wanted you so badly, but I didn’t have insurance
,
and I was scared to death that I wouldn’t be able to care for you like I knew you deserved. I could sense Ted was getting tired of me being there, but I desperately wanted to finish high school.

“Your mother offered to take you with two stipulations. I was never to tell a soul that you were mine and that I could never have you back. I agreed and signed the papers, knowing that your mother was the kindest person
alive
and
would love you and take care of you better than anyone in the world. I left town with Brad and moved in with my grandparents to finished high school. I went on to college and got my degree in nursing. There wasn’t a day that went by that I didn’t cry about the decision I had made. 

“I kept in touch with your mom daily and realized that even though I couldn’t have you as a daughter, I could at least watch you grow up. So with the understanding that I would still honor my promise, we moved back to Noel. Your mother and I talked everyday on the phone, but we were so paranoid that people would figure out our secret, that we never acted like friends in public. It’s strange that I look back now and wonder why it would have mattered. Your mom loved you so much
.
I couldn’t do that to you. It was easy being at all your school functions since I had Brad. I was always afraid that you would think I was weird,” she laughed, “
b
ecause I was watching you all the time.