Fine Lines - SA (4 page)

Typical y, the only ones I saw were occupied. I waited ten minutes, my mood deteriorating with each second, until I final y turned away in disgust. A sign told me the underground was nearby. I headed towards it.

I had not taken the tube in years. I could remember it being busy, but I was not prepared for the mayhem that greeted me at the bottom of the escalators. I was pushed from behind and jostled from the front as I tried to guess which way to go. Everyone else seemed sure of themselves except me. I looked around for someone to ask, but could see only the countless moving heads of other commuters. The crowds parted and flowed around me as I stood indecisively. I saw a map on the wal and made my way over, final y deciphering that I needed to be on another line. I joined the flood of people heading in that direction and let myself be carried along a tiled, echoing tunnel to the sudden space of a concrete platform.

Compared with the tunnels, it was relatively empty. But it soon began to fil up. I had started near the front of the platform. Now I found myself squeezed steadily back until a press of people stood between me and the edge. I found myself wedged between a West Indian woman with a suitcase, and a tal , shaven-headed youth in a leather jacket.

A sudden rush of air preceded the appearance of the train. It pul ed to a halt, and immediately its doors had opened the crowd on the platform began pushing against the people getting off. The mechanical instruction to "Mind the Gap' was chanted over the top of the chaos. I felt panic-stricken as I struggled towards the nearest door without seeming to make any progress. Then, just as I thought I would not make it in time, a sudden surge practical y lifted me into the train. A moment later the doors hissed shut, stopped, opened, shut again, and then the train lurched forward and picked up speed.

I had been deposited in the walkway between the doors. I had thought the platform was crowded, but now strangers pressed against me from al sides, impassively intimate. The train gave a sudden jolt, and I was thrown against a young woman at my side. I stammered a low apology and quickly looked away from her cold stare. Bright light outside the windows announced that we had come to the next station on the line. The train halted and I was nearly pushed off as people rushed for the platform. The corresponding influx of new passengers forced me further inside until I was jammed into the middle of the compartment with no room to turn or breathe. The air was crammed with thick, unpleasant odours. Diesel, hair and sweat. I grabbed for a handhold as the train lurched into motion once again. The blackness of the tunnel had only just engulfed us when it slowed, chugged forward grudgingly, and stopped.

No one seemed to notice. The darkness outside the window was complete.

Inside, people sat or stood indifferently. I tried to mimic them, but the situation was alien to me. I felt smothered and isolated. When the train jerked forward once more, my heart jerked with it. It eased slowly through the tunnel, slowing several times but merciful y not actual y stopping again. Then there were lights and faces outside the windows. The doors opened, and without knowing which station it was I blundered my way out onto the platform.

I gulped in the cold, diesel-smel ing air, hardly noticing the knocks from the people passing. Above me was a sign saying "Exit', and I headed for it blindly, now moving with as much purpose as anyone else.

I stumbled over a busker's open guitar case, ignoring his shouted insult as I sighted the final escalator. I emerged into grey daylight and saw the line of taxi cabs waiting outside the station with vast relief. I climbed into one, gave my destination, and sank back into the seat. The interior was warm, quiet, and blessedly empty. I gazed out of the window at a world that was once more comfortably distanced.

It seemed like the best drive of my life.

When I arrived Anna had already opened the gal ery. "I was just starting to get worried," she said as I walked in. I instantly felt that it had al been worth it. "I wondered where you were.

Are you al right? You look shaky." Her concern was balm for the morning's wounds. I lowered myself into a chair and closed my eyes. "I had a little accident on the way in," I said, and told her what had happened. It sounded much better in the tel ing than it had seemed at the time, and my description of the idiot woman in the Range Rover actual y had Anna laughing. I warmed to the story so much that I almost forgot what else I had to tel her.

"Oh, by the way," I said, before she could walk away. "I'm having a cocktail party next Saturday. I hope you and Marty wil be able to come." The party had been Zeppo's idea. I had thought it was a good one, until I learned he meant I should hold it myself.

"But I've never had a party," I had objected, appal ed at the thought.

He had smiled. "Wel , now's your chance." The invasion began on Saturday afternoon with the arrival of the caterers. Cartons of cutlery, crockery and glasses littered the floor. My home was soon bustling with strangers. I fretted about breakages, stains, and theft, and tried to keep an eye on everything that was going on. By the time the first guests came my nerves were in shreds. I hated the thought of countless people trampling through my home, making it as public as any bar. But as more people began to appear, and the onus of conversation was taken from me, I began to calm down a little. When Anna and Marty arrived the entire downstairs was already quite ful . Even more surprisingly, everyone seemed to be having a good time. As far as I could see, almost every person I had invited had come.

Except one.

My impatience turned to anxiety. If Zeppo failed to show up, then the entire exercise was a complete waste of time. My smile became increasingly strained. I could not even bear to talk with Anna and Marty for long. It was an effort not to constantly glance at my watch, and I had almost decided to telephone him when the doorbel rang.

I went to answer it, wil ing it to be him. It was.

"Zeppo! Glad you could make it!" I hoped he would notice the barb in my voice. He only grinned.

"Wouldn't have missed it for the world. This is Angie." The girl was obviously some sort of model, blonde and flamboyantly beautiful. I said hel o and stood back to let them in. She took off her coat and held it out for me. Underneath she wore a very short, very tight red dress that clung to her undeniably spectacular body. She was another of Zeppo's suggestions. I had not been enthusiastic. Now, seeing her, I felt even less so.

"Let me get you both a drink," I said. Zeppo caught my look.

"I'l come with you. Won't be long, Angie." We left her in the lounge and went to the drinks table. "Where have you been?" I demanded, keeping my voice low. "I thought you weren't coming." He seemed unconcerned. "Blame Angie. I didn't think we were going to make it at al . She wouldn't leave the house until I'd fucked her." I almost dropped the bottle I was holding. Zeppo laughed. "Don't worry.

We both showered afterwards." I tried not to let my distaste show. "I hope neither of you are too tired to make a further effort."

"Oh, no. We're both raring to go."

I looked over to where the girl was standing. Her pose was self-conscious and displaying. "Are you sure she's suitable?" I asked, doubtful y.

"Angie? Christ, I should say so. Her nickname's Martini. You know, anytime, anyplace, anywhere. Anybody."

"You don't think she might be … wel , a little too obvious, do you?" He popped a canape into his mouth. "I'm sorry, Donald, but I couldn't find a Girl Guide at such short notice. Come on, relax. I bet there's not a man in the place who's not panting at the sight of her. Present company excepted, of course." I wondered if he was drunk. But he seemed sober enough. I ignored the jibe. "What exactly did you tel her?"

"Just that we'd got to go to a boring party. I bet her she couldn't get off with whoever I picked out. To give us more chance I said she could have a week to do it in, so long as she makes a start tonight."

"And she agreed?"

"Oh yeah. Provided I didn't pick anyone who was either gay or too old to get it up."

"Good God." I looked at the girl again. Two men were already talking to her. "What on earth did you bet her?"

"Whoever loses has to be the other one's slave for a day. They have to do whatever the other wants." A rather unpleasant smile touched his lips. "I've already got one or two ideas if she loses." He shrugged.

"But she'd stil have done it if it had only been for a packet of crisps. Angle's game for anything. Now why don't you pour me a drink like you said, and point the happy couple out for me." I glanced around to check where Anna and Marty were. "They're over by the far wal to your left. What would you like to drink?"

"A Manhattan. Same for Angie, since you forgot to ask her." He glanced over. "The one with dark hair and the black dress?"

"Yes." He raised his eyebrows. "Not bad. I see what you mean about the boyfriend. No wonder you're pissed off."

"Quite."

"He must have a big cock." I slopped the vermouth on to the table.

Zeppo grinned. "Sorry."

I handed him the drinks, impassively mopping up the spilt liquid. "I don't real y think that sort of talk is appropriate, do you?" I said.

"I trust you'l be able to restrain yourself when you talk to Anna."

A smirk played around his mouth. "I'l be a perfect gentleman, don't worry." In view of his strange behaviour that was easier said than done. "When do you intend to start?" He shrugged. "No time like the present. I'l get Angie away from those two before she drags them into the bedroom, and we can al go over." Trying to ignore my misgivings, I led the way to where Anna and Marty were talking with a middle-aged woman, an acquaintance of mine who ran an interior design business.

"I don't think any of you have met Angie and Zeppo," I said. I performed the introductions, then turned to Marty. "There's someone over here you might like to meet. A fel ow countryman of yours."

"Oh ... yes, okay." He gave Anna a quick look as I guided him away, pretending not to notice his lack of enthusiasm.

"I'm sure you'l enjoy talking to him," I said, steering him towards the other American, a man I hardly knew, and who I had invited expressly for that purpose. I left them together and wandered off, catching Zeppo's eye and giving a brief nod. Shortly afterwards I saw the girl he had brought detach herself and go to the drinks table. But instead of returning to Zeppo, she strol ed over to where Marty was listening with a bored expression to the older man. He seemed pleased at the interruption.

I poured myself another drink and tried to relax. Then I noticed that the designer was stil talking to Anna and Zeppo. I went over.

"My dear Miriam, I almost forgot! You must come and have a look at my new acquisition. I bought it for purely commercial reasons, and I would love your opinion. Personal y, I think it's awful, so there's a good chance you'l like it." She laughed. "In that case you're probably right." I explained to Anna and Zeppo. "We have a long-standing argument over what qualifies as art and what's simply design, and I've been dying to fuel the fire with this particular monstrosity for ages."

"Donald, you're just a nineteenth-century throwback," Miriam said.

"Sometimes I despair of you."

"Then there's hope for me yet. But I doubt even you can defend this abomination. I can't wait to sel it, to be honest. I only kept it here to show you." I took her arm and eased her away. The painting was in another room. As we went out I looked back. Anna was laughing at something Zeppo had said. At the other side Marty and the girl seemed deep in conversation. I took both as hopeful signs and tried not to speculate any further.

Zeppo and the girl left shortly after midnight. I did not have a chance to speak to him privately again, but as far as I could tel there was no repetition of the strange behaviour he had exhibited earlier. At least, both he and the girl spent considerable time alone with their prospective if ignorant partners, which was encouraging.

"I'l phone you tomorrow," he said when I walked them to the door. I concealed my impatience and said goodnight.

Back inside, Anna and Marty were also getting ready to go. I had to leave them in the hal way while I attended to a glass of red wine one oaf had knocked over. Neither of them noticed when I returned. Marty was standing behind Anna, helping her with her coat, and as she shrugged it on he leaned forward and gently kissed the nape of her neck. She smiled without turning around, bending her head slightly.

The moment was spontaneous and private, and I could not bear to watch it. Clearing my throat, I quickly walked towards them.

"Ready for ofi?" I said, brightly. "Wel , thank you both for coming." They had moved apart when they heard me. Anna smiled. "Thanks for inviting us. We've real y enjoyed it." Marty fiddled with his glasses and murmured in agreement.

I could not resist probing. "I'm sorry I've hardly had a chance to speak to either of you al evening. I hope you managed to find someone interesting to talk to. I shouldn't say it, but I know some of the guests were a little dul , even if they are friends of mine."

"No, it's been lovely. Real y." They were clearly waiting to leave. I said goodnight and let them go.

As I closed the door I felt a sense of anticlimax. The introductions had been made, and now al I could do was wait to hear from Zeppo. Frustration mingled with the now familiar hol owness the thought of Anna going home with Marty gave me. I stood in the hal way until both had faded to a manageable level, and then went back to the remaining guests. About a dozen stil remained. I gave them another half-hour and then began to usher them out.

I no longer had any interest in being a host.

I tried unsuccessful y to contact Zeppo al morning, but there was no reply. Even so, when he final y telephoned me in the afternoon, I was too eager to hear what he had to say to complain.

He sounded pleased with himself. "There's good news and bad news. The bad is that Angie drew a blank with Mr. Universe."