Forever Viper (15 page)

“Where the fuck is Juan? Jade, please, this pain I can’t take it, kill me now. Fuck this hurts.”

For whatever reason Juan hasn’t turned up yet to feed me. My body can’t cope with the pain. If I didn’t know any better, I would swear I am having an epileptic fit. Jade even bites into her own wrist to feed me and she manages to get a few drops in my mouth but I gag on it. I scream out for Juan again and again but he still didn't come. My body is out of control, I even start to crave my own blood. I can feel myself weakening, so I shouted out in agony one more time. And then comes the warmth, not only from the blood that heats me up from the inside out, but from having Juan near. I’m angry at him, who wouldn’t be? He is the only one who can stop my pain, but he quickly explains why and I let my anger simmer a bit.

When I’m released, I stare at Juan. I’m so conflicted and I know he feels it. If he didn’t, it clearly shows on my face. I’m shocked to the core when he says the words I’ve been waiting to hear and I throw my arms around him to show my gratitude. Excitement ripples through me at the thought of being with Peppa again. Tears start to form and gather at the corner of my eye’s, but I squeeze them shut to stop them flowing.

“When can I see her Juan? You will help me fight this won’t you? Please don’t let me wait too long.” These are some of the questions I blurt out and Juan reassures me and answers everyone. I go on to tell him about what I have done for Peppa and he thanks me, which he has no reason to, I will do anything for Peppa. I also offered to help anyway I can with the band. I wanted to do more, but I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.

That night I write to Peppa again. Putting my emotions down on paper is a form of therapy for me and ending them all with I love you said it all really. Friday is back to being the normal routine, but my approach has changed towards Juan and our sexual tension is back and we get each other off, which is pure bliss. My letters to Peppa left nothing out, I let her know that I wished she was on her knees next to Juan and her tongue and mouth were wrapped around my dick while Juan sucked on my balls.

Juan is in and out the next night as he needs to head back and play a gig, so I'm surprised when a couple of hours later I felt him near and can hear raised voices from the other room.

I walked out to find Cruz and Saul biting at the chomp and ask, “Where’s Juan?"

Saul points to the door and that’s when I’m hit with Juan’s emotions. The depth of them ate away at me. I feel it all and this can’t go on as I fear it’s going to tear us all apart. I let Juan know how I feel when he joins us and I think we are on the same page. We better be or I might have to take matters into my own hands.

I sit there and take in the banter between these vampires. I smile to myself as I’m now a part of their world, but one thing bothers me, ‘Why do they put up with Cruz?’

He’s more concerned with getting fucked than helping out. And then there’s the photo of him, which will be on every front page of the newspapers tomorrow. All publicity is good publicity, so they say, but yet again I can do fuck all about it as I’m stuck in limbo. I have to leave it in the hands of my father and hope he can get Cruz to say sorry. I will mention it to Juan and he can plant the seed in Cruz’s mind to do the right thing. I could, or should, say something to him myself, as I’m still their boss, but right now isn’t the time.

It gets personal for me next, when I’m basically asked if my family would want to destroy the band. I reject their pointed fingers and explain to them my father will never ruin my company’s name. How did I know that? Because he is money oriented. The pound signs will be flashing in his eyes. He will need all my bands to carry on working to keep Devil Records afloat and the money rolling in.

Jade comes up with an excellent idea, but Cruz decides to stomp on it by throwing his toys out of the pram. An argument erupts, but Jade is soon making the phone calls. Juan makes a suggestion to me and there is no way in hell I’m saying no. I’m getting out of this house to breathe in some fresh air.

As soon as the air hits my face, so does the smell of everything around me from dog shit, to car fumes, to cigarette smoke and then the sweetest smell of all. The humans. I sniff the air and my body comes alive. Juan quickly gathers me in his arms to stop me from running and that’s exactly what I want to do. I want to run and find the nearest human and get drunk on their salty iron fluid. Juan’s aroma starts to calm me, and not only that, I can feel the connection to Peppa. It calms me too, in a way, but also makes me want her more. Juan didn’t give me time to think as he drags me along, telling me he wants me to meet the other woman in his life.

“A fucking pig, you brought me to meet a fucking pig.” I stand there staring at Juan appalled.

My mouth slackens when I watch Juan put his hands over the pigs ears and says, “Don’t be mean, you will upset Dolly.”

My hand goes to my mouth to stifle the laugh that rests at the back of my throat. “You called the pig Dolly? Wasn’t Dolly a sheep?”

Juan actually gives me a dirty look and strokes the pigs head. “Don’t listen to the nasty man, he doesn’t understand you like I do.”

Ok, that tipped me over the edge and I laughed a full on belly laugh. Dolly started squealing and Juan abruptly told me to shut up and started to sooth Dolly by talking to her. Once she has calmed down, Juan glared at me, “Noah come closer so you can see what I do.”

I move closer to him and he starts chatting to the pig again, “Dolly, I’m going to show Noah how I feed from you and then he will get to taste you too, so be a good girl and stay still for me.”

I shake my head at him when it registers what he wants me to do, “Fuck off Juan. I’m not sucking on a pig. That’s disgusting and she smells bad.”

One of Juan’s eyebrows raises, “Really? I guess you don’t want to see Peppa then, because believe me this is the only way that’s going to happen. You need to control your hunger. I can’t have you attacking Peppa. So, get on your fucking knees and watch.”

I want to tell him to fuck off and it’s on the tip of my tongue, but he’s right, I need to do this for Peppa. I lower myself down, bending my knees, but there is no way I’m kneeling, not in all the pig muck that is lying on the ground, so I balance on the balls of my feet.

“The only veins that show on a pig is on its ears. You can feed that way, if you wish, but I prefer the good old way of taking a bite into the jugular.” Juan’s fangs descend and in a flash they sink into Dolly’s neck and I watch with fascination as he gulps down her blood. He pats her with every mouth full he takes and when he has finished he thanks her. “Ok, pig hater, your turn.”

Juan steps away from Dolly and I move closer. He then bends down close to me, “Put your mouth here and bite, simple really.”

I give him a sarcastic look and move my head closer to the bite mark Juan has left on Dolly’s neck.
Ok you can do this Noah, it’s only a smelly pig, and you are doing this for Peppa.
My fangs descend and I bite. Then everything goes to shit. I gag on the blood and spit it out all over Juan, while falling flat on my back in pig shit. Dolly scarpers for her life, oinking and squealing. A voice shouts out, “Get off my land you thieving bastards! I have a gun and I’m not afraid to use it!”

My senses come alive and my mind flashes the words in big neon lights ‘Human blood come and get me.’ I don’t even glance at Juan and don’t think about anything else but sinking my fangs into a warm neck and feasting on blood. In a flash, I’m on my feet running to the man who’s blood calls out to me. He didn’t see me approach, he didn’t know who knocks the gun out of his hand and he certainly didn’t know who bites on his neck and sucks hard. I get a good couple of mouths full of the sweet nectar before I feel myself being pulled away from the man.

“Noah get off him! You will kill him if you don’t stop!” I can hear the desperation in Juan‘s voice but I don’t stop. “Noah, think of Peppa for fuck sake! Think of Peppa!”
Peppa, my Peppa, I need her, I want to see her, to hold her.
That’s when I stop sucking and pull my fangs out of the man’s neck. “Oh fuck Juan! What have I done?”

The burden of my circumstances weighs heavier on me, I can't even look at Juan, and hung my head in shame. I hear Juan talk quietly to the man and even with my head lowered, I can see they have both risen and watch their feet as they walk away from me. Mortification flows freely through my body, I begin to self-loath because I know I have let Juan down.

A hand grips my arm firmly and I’m pulled up to my feet, "I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, I lost control.”

He lets out a loud sigh, “I should have had better control over you, it’s my fault. Come on let’s get you back to Jade’s house.”

He starts to move but my hands come up and I grab both his arms to stop him and find the courage to stare him in the eye, “No, this is all on me. It’s not your fault, so please don’t blame yourself. You told me from the beginning to fight and I didn’t, I let my greed take over. I hate myself right now.”

He frowns at me, “I know I can feel it. I knew it was too soon, it can take months to show you everything you need to learn. And even in the short space of time you have done well. I’m not going to lie to you, I’m scared of what you could do to Peppa.”

An emotion I have never felt before bubbles up inside of me and when I speak next my lips tremble, “I would never hurt her, please don’t take her away from me. I’m barely surviving now without her. I promise to be stronger, to do everything you say, but please don’t make me wait to see her again.”

Tears streak my cheeks and I watch them fall down his face too. He takes me in my arms and we hold each other, it’s then I remember the man, “Is he ok? The man I drank from?”

I feel him nod his head, “Yes, he is fine. He will wake thinking he was attacked by one of his cows.”

I don’t know what to say so I quietly ask Juan to take me back to Jade’s. Once we walk through the door, we are told we stink and Saul and Jade stand there holding their noses laughing. I trudge to my room not uttering a word to anyone and walk straight to the bathroom, undress and get in the shower. Not even the water can wash away my feelings. I’m so scared I will never see Peppa again.

“That’s not going to happen Noah.” Juan says as he opens the shower door and steps in. He walks up behind me and places a kiss to my neck, “We will try again another night, and you will see Peppa again, I will never keep her from you.” I mutter a thank you. “Noah, turn around and look at me please.”

I turn to gaze into his sad blue eyes and he gives me a weak smile, “I believe in you, and tonight shouldn’t have happened. You could have killed and believe me, you will feel a hundred times worse than you do now, but we will work on it.”

I can only nod at him as the thoughts of,
I could have killed a man
sink in. “Noah, please shake yourself out of all this negativity, it will get easier I swear. I’m here to help you. I love you and Peppa loves you, remember that. Hold on to that, because you will need it to help you through it.”

Juan lowers his head and places a hard kiss to my mouth then pulls away. He reaches for some shower gel, squirts some in his hands and lays them on me and begins to wash me. In a split second my body flames with lust and when Juan’s hand wraps around my dick and starts pumping away, I beg him to make love to me. I wanted to feel more than disgust at what I had done, I wanted to feel Juan’s love for me. That he indeed still loved me, because I didn’t deserve it. So when he tells me to turn around and positions me the way he wants me, I do it without hesitation. He didn’t bother to prepare me, in one hard thrust he’s inside balls deep and proceeds to show me how much he truly loves me. He even shouts it out when he cums and I do the same.

Chapter 12 (PEPPA)

As soon as I awake I smell bacon frying and for a moment I smile to myself thinking it’s Noah out there making breakfast and he will walk in here any minute naked and serve up what he has made. But that soon disappears as I get an image of Jacob standing there, sneering at me. Panic whirls itself through my body and I need to take deep breaths in and out to calm myself.
Where’s a paper bag when you need one?

Jacob scares me as I know what he is capable off, but I’m more worried he knows what Juan and the others are. He would sell them out in a heartbeat. I start speaking to myself aloud, “Come on girl, you can’t show him how much he gets to you. You can’t let him win.”

I close my eyes, after everything that has happened to me, it’s no wonder I have started speaking to myself. I’m losing the plot, I’m going mad. But I tell myself one thing:
as long as I can stand on my two legs, I will fight, you can drag me down but you don’t have my soul, that belongs to Noah and Juan.

A beep from my phone informs me I have a message. I open it up and read a text from Monica,
Get your ass in the kitchen Sleeping Beauty, Hans is cooking breakfast and he’s naked.

Naked? Is she joking? Well, only one way to find out!
I drag myself out of bed, head for the bathroom and brush my teeth and hair, throw on my dressing gown and walk to the kitchen. When I enter the room my eyes fall straight to Hans who is standing at the cooker stirring something.
Naked my ass, he has jeans on.

I hear Monica giggle and turn to see her smirking face. “Good morning Peppa, you sure made it here fast enough.”

I mouth ‘Bitch’ at her and her smirk gets wider.

Hans turns around from what he is doing and says, “Good morning. Can I interest you in a fry up Peppa?”

I think about refusing him but ask, “I can manage some eggs and a cup of tea, if there’s any going spare?”

He smiles at me, “Sure is.”

I also feel Monica give my knee a squeeze. Hans turns back to his cooking and my heart drops a bit, along with my face as sadness fills me.
It should be Noah standing there.

Monica nudges my shoulder and whispers to me, “Can I have him? Look at him. He’s a walking knee trembler.”