Forsaken: The World of Nightwalkers (15 page)

“The child is almost here. The way is clear and I am not worried,” the midwife said, reassuring them both. So many Night Angel females died from childbirth. It had been a source of fear for them both throughout the long months of her pregnancy, however much they had tried to reassure each other otherwise. It was the weakest moment, the most exposed a Night Angel female could possibly be.

Faith screamed as new pain tore through her, this one worse than all the ones before. Her fear returned in a rage of emotion.

“It doesn’t feel right!” she cried, panic hurting her heart and laboring lungs. There was another possibility. The child inside her might not survive the birthing process. Whatever happened to her, losing her child absolutely couldn’t happen, she thought feverishly. Leo would never be the same if something like that were to happen. After all he had been through, after so much pain and loss in his life, she wasn’t sure he would be able to open himself up again after an additional loss of that magnitude.

“You must relax and trust me. I would tell you if there was trouble. What you are feeling is the child erupting past your cervix. It is the most painful part of labor, but now it is time for you to push.”

“I feel it!” she cried. Leo moved behind her, helping her to sit up and push into the labor pain. He leaned into it with her, his breathing just as fast and worried as hers. The midwife grabbed the purple-colored scarf they had rested at her feet, looping it around Faith’s wrists and through her hands and pulling her forward and into her first push. Together the three of them pushed forward, bending her toward her knees, helping her to push with all of her might.

After nearly another hour of that hard, pushing labor, the child slipping free of her body was the most relieving sensation Faith had ever known. She cried out with the reprieve of it, tears of pain and relief warring for release. But the tears did not fall until she saw her child in the midwife’s hands, being lifted toward her, screaming with the angry indignity of being ejected from the safe confines of her uterus.

“Oh,” she wept and cooed, reaching to take her daughter in her hands. “Oh now. I know. I know it was so hard. But you’re here now.” She cradled the baby to her breast and felt Leo hard at her back. She heard him sob softly, and then his hands reached to cradle the top of the baby’s head.

“Jesus, Faith. Look what we did.” He fought for composure and lost, tears dropping over his whisker rough face and onto her shoulder. Onto their child.

“I know. I know,” she agreed, holding their daughter up farther into his hands. She was a black wriggly little thing, but it was a fair black, like a dusty charcoal. She was clearly a Night Angel and would one day grow her wings, but she was also part human, part Leo, and who knew what that would mean for her.

Six months later…

Leo panicked.

There was no other way to describe the feeling when he walked into the house and found his wife and his baby missing, the signs of a fight everywhere. He tore through the house looking for them, but already knew he would not find them.

Good. Good, he thought. If they weren’t there it meant they were still alive. Whoever had them wanted them for a reason. To control him, he acknowledged grimly. It was his worst nightmare come to life. He went back into their bedroom, breathing hard, trying to make his mind work. He found her scarf on the bed and swept it up into his hands. He twisted the silken fabric, the bright color of it almost garish as he struggled to tamp down his fear. He tried to think who it could be, then realized suddenly he knew exactly who it was, exactly who would sink that low.

Marissa. She had been the bane of their existence ever since they had failed in their mission to save Jackson’s life. She had blamed them both and her vengeance had been virulent. She had promised to never rest until she saw them hurt the way she had hurt when Jackson’s life had bled away, one soul into the actual death, and one into the Ether, consigned there for another hundred years, leaving her alone and desolate.

In a way part of him understood her grief now. He understood it most keenly that very instant. The loss of either his wife or his child would be something he couldn’t imagine surviving. Just the thought of it sent fear ripping down the center of his soul. And this was exactly what she had wanted him to feel.

Keep it together. Keep your head,
he warned himself fiercely.

But what could he do to battle someone of Marissa’s power when he was merely human, utterly defenseless and without recourse in the face of her wrath?

He realized it didn’t matter. He would offer himself up to her, which was exactly what she wanted. He knew one of them would die today, but he would be damned if it was going to be either Faith or the baby.

Tying her scarf into his belt loop, wearing it like a knight would wear his lady’s colors before entering the field of battle, he went into the basement, taking the stairs three at a time. He walked past the reloading press and the digital gunpowder scale he used to make his own bullets, then headed straight to his gun safe. He’d never had a safe before the baby had been born, but things had had to change along with a lot of his ways of dealing with the world. Ever since Faith had come into his life. But one thing that had not changed, that would never change, was that he knew with cold truth what evil there was in the world. Evil that had almost destroyed him. And not just on a physical level. He would have been able to tolerate the physical destruction of his body. Had even anticipated it, never once thinking he would die a natural death after a long lifetime and a tenure as an old man.

But Chatha had nearly obliterated his mind, nearly eradicated who he was at his heart. If not for Faith, there was no telling what would have become of him. He would have descended into a dark hole, become something else. Become something he would have hated.

He keyed the safe, pressing his thumb to the scanner for the fast release fingerprint combination. The safe clicked open and he pulled the heavy door forward. Not many people had a gun safe big enough to walk into, but then again, he was not many people. They had built the house around this safe. It couldn’t possibly have been brought into the basement otherwise.

In a rack, above the assault weaponry, were his handguns, both the collectible and the serviceable. He passed over the shiny stuff and went right for the cold stone killers. He grabbed his gun belt, the weight and style of it almost exactly like the ones most law enforcement used, but with a few personalized tweaks. No cop would be walking around with seven spare clips along his back. Handcuffs were in their usual place, but in a loop at the rear of his hip was a bunch of zip ties. There was nothing handier that a strong zip tie, he had discovered over time.

He changed out the spare ammo on the preloaded belt, however, to armor-piercing ordnance. They would get through just about anything, and then cause as much damage as possible once they hit flesh. As powerful as she was, Marissa still had a human, mortal body. She could be killed. It was just a matter of whether he would be able to get some rounds off before she saw him coming. But with Faith and the baby in the mix, she would definitely be expecting him. After all, that was the whole point, wasn’t it?

He slung the belt around his hips and put his Desert Eagle into the holster. But that was just his first backup. His second backup, a Glock G29 10mm, was strapped around his ankle in a holster. Then he shrugged into his shoulder holster and grabbed his primary weapon. It was a Smith & Wesson 500. It used 50 caliber bullets and he had made damn sure four of his spare cartridges were loaded with the beastly armor-piercing rounds he had made for it.

Yes, she could die just like any other human if enough damage was done too quickly for her extraordinary healing processes to work, but he was more worried about the Gargoyles that protected the property. Their ability to turn to stone made them nearly invulnerable.

Nearly. Fifty caliber bullets would take a hell of a bite out of them no matter what they were made of. They too could be killed, he’d learned some time ago, it just took a lot to pull it off.

He didn’t care. He’d use every skill he had, every bullet he’d ever made, to get his daughter and wife back.

Then he grabbed his assault rifle and a flack jacket with flash bang and tear gas grenades attached to it, and left in search of his family.

“I swear to God, Marissa,” he said, his breathing heavy and his whole body shaking with the agony of the injuries he had sustained. “I’ll kill you where you stand.
Give me my family.
”

His family was locked behind glass in an enclosure about thirteen feet by thirteen feet, a few mere strides away from him. But Marissa stood between him and them, in spite of a bullet wound that had hit just to the left of her heart. He’d used the 10mm to do it, having burned through all but half a cartridge for the S & W 500, and he needed that half cartridge to blow that glass apart and get them back off the property. All he could do was pray no more Gargoyles materialized. And they would in time, so he had to hurry and get this done.

“I’ll kill you where you stand first,” Marissa hissed at him, the fever of her rage and hatred burning in her eyes. He knew the feeling well. She looked utterly unfazed by the promise of death he held targeted onto her forehead. One clean headshot and it would all be over.

But he couldn’t kill her because she held a remote control in her hand, her thumb pressing down on a dead man’s switch. If he shot her, the instant she let go his family would fall victim to whatever it was that she had rigged up to murder them. Faith was kneeling on the floor of the glass room, their child clutched to her bosom. She was weeping…no, sobbing uncontrollably and rocking forward and back in some kind of attempt to comfort herself. He had never seen her like this, not even during the terrifying and long labor she had endured while in fear for her and her baby’s life. It wasn’t like her to fall apart like this. It made his mind race with fear and anger, made him wonder what had been done to her.

“Just give me my family and we’ll both just walk away from this,” he lied. There was no way he was going to let an open threat remain alive, especially someone with her position of power and endless resources. There would be no rest for him and his, no safe harbor, unless he ended this here and now.

“You’re going to know what it feels like to lose everything you love,” she said, “and I’m going to watch while it happens.” She held up the remote tauntingly. “Prepare for the worst moment of your life.”

“
Puta,
the worst moment of my life has already happened, believe you me. And if you throw that switch you’ll never have the chance to enjoy my pain, which I know is why you’re doing this.”

“My enjoyment is in the knowing. My delight is in using my empathy powers to feel the raging, painful emotions you are both suffering this very instant. And I can watch your agony from the Ether as well. I do not need this body for that. Do you think I’m afraid of death? If you kill me you will send me back to my beloved who waits for me in the Ether. I will win this day no matter what you do, Leo. Now say goodbye to your wife.”

Leo exhaled and prayed with every fiber of his being.
Please, God, let me be fast enough.

He pulled the trigger three times. Once to blow up her hand and the remote within it, once to send her brains blowing out the back of her head, and once to shoot the glass keeping him from his family. All within a single breath of time.

Glass shattered and fell. He had been afraid it was bulletproof, and was relieved to find it was not. But he did not take even an instant to enjoy his victory because until he got them out of that room, until he could pull Faith and the baby out of there, he couldn’t so much as blink. Shooting a dead man’s switch was no guarantee that the signal would not be sent. He had to get them before they could be harmed by whatever it was Marissa had planned for them.

He leaped over the sea of broken glass and grabbed for his wife and baby. But Faith was not moving, not reacting in the least. Instead she just knelt and rocked, and clutched their child.

“Faith, move! Get up! We have to get out of—”

She opened her eyes, tipped her head back and looked up at him, devastation written all over her face. Then she turned her attention back to the quiet baby, hushing softly to her, as if she were just as upset as her mother was.

And that was when he knew.

“No,” he rasped aloud, falling to his knees as all of his strength left him. He reached for his daughter with a trembling hand, his soul shredding apart, his whole essence sucked clean out of him in a savage rending that left him gushing out his life from every pore of his body.

At first Faith cried out and jerked the baby away from him, then she doubled over, her body bending into her devastation.

Leo reached out once more, and this time he touched his cold child.

Leo roared out with agony. It was an agony of the heart and soul that left the bitterest of all tastes in his mouth. He choked on blinding, pent-up sobs, gasping for his breath, clawing at the ground with both hands as if trying to root himself to the spot.

It was the feel of soil in his hands that made something inside him pause a moment, made him realize on some minute level that things were not as they were supposed to be.

He opened his eyes and found himself kneeling on hard-packed earth, not shattered glass, the room nearly pitch black as opposed to lit brightly in order to best show him the plight of his family.

Family? As his furious gasps for breath finally sent enough oxygen to his mind, he became aware of more things. There was no gun belt around his hips, no shoulder holster under his arm, no gun resting tightly to the inside of his left ankle. He was not injured from the pounding of a stone fist into his ribcage.

The only thing that was as it should be was the colorful scarf tied through the front loop of his jeans. He touched the thing with shaking fingers, feeling the silky texture of it, watching the silver in it shimmer, grounding himself further with it. Confusion warred with the white-hot grief that was still dragging at his heart and soul.

And then he heard a feminine outcry, the wail of it filled with the same insane grief his soul was bubbling over with.

“No!” she shouted out, and he recognized her voice instantly.

“Faith!”

He crawled over the floor to reach her, not caring about what dangers he might find in the darkness. All he wanted was
her,
to touch her, to ground himself with her.

“Leo?” she cried out just as they made contact with each other. She threw herself into his body, her arms locking like a vise around his ribs just under his arms. He held her just as tightly in return, her head cradled in one of his hands, the other on her back. The skin at her back was electric, turning blue, the eruption of her wings imminent.

“Where are we?” she asked, her voice hitching with her emotions. “Where is…”

She floundered, searching for something, and he knew it was about the baby. Their child. Floundering for…

A name. What was the name of his daughter? Why couldn’t he remember?

“I-I don’t un-understand,” she stammered, her grief faltering. He stroked a hand over the sugar white of her hair, the loose and tousled sheet of it the only thing visible in the dark.

“Extend your wings,” he instructed her gently. “The light will help.”

She did so, the blue energy unfurling right through his hand and wrist. The sensation was like receiving a thousand electrical shocks conducted through the tips of a thousand needles spread out all over his skin, but more stimulating rather than painful. It had a surprising quality to it. A newness. As if he’d hardly ever felt it before. But how could that be if they had been lovers for over two years now? If they had been wedded to each other? Surely he would have felt it over and over again in that time? Hadn’t she wrapped up his whole body in her wings during their lovemaking?

The light from her wings was blinding at first, but then lightened the entire room as they stretched to full breadth. The blue light cast a strange, ghostly illumination over everything.

…Like the iron bars and locked door that was caging them.

“How did we get here?” she asked, loosening her hold on him enough to look around, but not even coming close to letting him go. He was as much an anchor for her as she was being for him.

As he looked around he absently brushed his thumb over his left ring finger. The ring that should be on it was gone. As if it had never been there at all.

All of it was as if…as if he had never been married to her at all.

And the more he thought about it, the more he realized he didn’t actually remember their wedding ceremony. Not because it was a lost memory, he realized, but more like it had never been. How could that be? How could he remember asking her to marry him, remember all the feelings that had gone with it, yet not the wedding? He remembered when he had asked, remembered that they had conceived their first child that very same day, and yet…nothing about the wedding itself. He remembered the birth of their child, all the pain and fear, all the excruciating joy but remembered nothing beyond that event. Had she been christened? Given a name? Why couldn’t he remember dressing her or changing her or playing with her? All the things that should have been burned into his memory and onto his heart were missing.

“Leo…what’s happening? How did we get here?” She was growing stronger in his embrace, her body tensing with her strength. He could feel it eddying into him, feel it under his hands. This was the woman he had changed his entire life for, who had somehow made him heal from the trauma Chatha had subjected him to…and yet he recalled nothing of that process. How had he begun to feel his attraction for her? At what point had he confided in her about the deep-seated, horrific things Chatha had done to him…all the things he had stolen away from him.

It was as if it had simply never been.

“Jesus,” he said as understanding finally began to dawn. “It was…”—he was choking on his own words—“it was a lie. All of it was…”

He looked down at his clothing, and then shifted his attention to the blue dress with the blue cornflowers that she wore. He remembered that dress. Remembered her coming into the room at the manor house with it on and being stunned at the contrast between it and her black skin. It brought him back in time, brought him back to a gingerbread house made of brilliant pastel colors and a little old lady who had served him sweet tea.

“What the sweet Mary fuck is going on here?” he roared out into the room. He should have shoved away from Faith and all the false emotions he had been made to feel for her, but he simply could not make himself do it.

False or no, a lie or no, it had felt really goddamn real to him. Even now, as the smell of her wafted into his senses, he found his body reacting to it, found himself longing with the urge to bury his face against the side of her neck just under her ear and touching his tongue to the erogenous spot he knew was there. He felt his blood pressure change, felt himself growing hard even in the face of their circumstances. It was as though it had been ingrained into him to feel this way, the way a deep repetitive memory would do. All of it in spite of the fact that he was coming to realize he hadn’t ever so much as kissed her lips.

And that was when he realized that, once again, some sick Nightwalker bastard had fucked with his head. Hadn’t he been through enough? Couldn’t the fucking cosmos be happy with the screams of horror, pain, and rage Chatha had wrought from him? Wasn’t it enough that every last ounce of trust he’d had left had already been burned to dust and ash?

A victim. A weak, powerless nothing. A toy for the universe to play with, like a child ripping the hair out of her Barbie doll’s head just to see what she looked like bald. Chemotherapy Barbie.

“Sweet God,” he heard Faith whisper. And that was when he knew she had also realized what was going on. She too was realizing they had been taken on an imaginary journey, no doubt to entertain the sick delights of a bored Djynn. The Djynn that they had come looking for. A web they had willingly thrown themselves into.

And yet…Faith did not let go of him. She still grasped him for comfort. Still held her warmth against him and drew from his strength in order to embolden hers. And as much as he knew it had all been a lie…he couldn’t change the way it made him feel. Needed. Depended on. Loved.

He pushed himself out of her hold at that thought, cursing himself for being twice a fool. It was an
illusion
! There was no
love
! It was smoke and mirrors and more fucked-up torture from another fucked-up paranormal piece of shit!

Yet when she gasped in shock from his withdrawal it dragged on his soul, the idea of causing her pain, of setting her adrift in the world. God knew that was what had happened to him. He had been forsaken, cut away and cut into, nothing and no one reaching out to catch him.

She reached for him then, catching his hand in both of hers tightly as she knelt at his feet. Her upturned face was ravaged with emotion, but most of all he saw pain. She was exposed to her core, just as much as he was.

“Please don’t feel that way,” she begged of him, her voice rasping roughly from her throat. He opened his mouth to shut her up and shut her down.

“You don’t know a damn thing about what I
feel.
And whatever I feel, whatever I
felt,
was obviously a saturating deception. Your familiarity is inappropriate. You act as though you have a special insight into me, but I can assure you that you don’t. That, like everything else, is a lie. It was all a
lie,
Faith. I wouldn’t even consider touching one of you people if it could at all be avoided.” He pulled his hand out of hers sharply, coldly. “Never mind becoming a lover to one.”

He watched her wings wilt, dropping slowly until their neon lines were piled onto the floor. Her hands drifted down into her lap. She turned her stricken expression away from him. It baffled him that she was so affected by this. Surely, as intelligent and strong-willed as she was, she could shake this nonsense off and get back to business, couldn’t she?

Her limp hands slowly curled into fists, her wings shuddered a little then snapped into shape, the gracefulness of them missing, however, as they stood straight and stiff.

“Of course,” she said, slowly gaining her feet. “You’re right.”

She turned sharply away from him and he had to pull back in order to avoid getting smacked with the energy of her wings. He was disconcerted enough without the radical sensations coming in contact with her wings caused. “The Djynn was toying with us for a reason. This was a very intricate thing, and he no doubt expended a lot of energy. There must be a reason he would—”

She was whipped out of existence right before his eyes and he felt the shock of it, as if she had been connected to his solar plexus and then was suddenly yanked free of the connection. The feeling infuriated him and he balled his fists tightly.

“I swear to God, if you do this to us again,” he shouted into the sudden darkness, “I’ll rip your fucking heart out!”

And see how you like it,
he thought viciously.

That same instant he felt himself get yanked aside, as if he was about to be thrown over the back of a sparring partner. He hit the ground and light exploded all around him, as though someone had suddenly thrown on every light in the world. Of course, that could just be because he’d been in darkness up until then. Not liking being blinded and on the ground, two craptastic defensible positions to be in, he rolled up onto his feet and narrowed his eyes to try to defray the power of the light. The first thing he saw was Faith. It was impossible to miss her, since she was the darkest thing in the room. That and she was standing in front of him. He swept the room for enemy bodies, but was so shocked by what he was looking at that it took him a minute to get his head right.

Gold. Everywhere everything was made of gold. Treasure. Coins in trunks that were overflowing, lamps and jewelry and boxes all made of gold and encrusted with jewels. The walls were covered in beaten gold, the floor tiled with it.

“You gotta be fucking kidding me,” he uttered.

“I hardly think this could be conceived as a source of humor, seeing as how it’s my home.”

Leo’s head whipped hard to the right as he turned his gaze face-front. There was an elaborate throne of gold before them, the back high and curved at the edges like a wing chair. Its seat, a plush red velvet cushion, had been empty mere seconds ago, but now a man was sitting there, lounging indolently, a knee hooked up over the right arm of the chair. He was tall…very tall. Tall enough that Leo could see it in spite of his slouching posture. Also, the muscular build of the man belied the projected image of laziness he was trying to exude as he filed a nail gently and with care for detail, using a file that was, of course, made of gold.

Even his clothing and his hair were as gleamingly rich as all the treasures around them. Leo had never seen anyone with hair color so akin to true gold. Not even out of a bottle…though many women had no doubt tried.