Authors: James Michener
Then, to my astonishment, the cortege of black-suited men
came straight at me, and a big crowd gathered behind me, so that
I was wedged into position. President Alcalá Zamora—a fussy
lawyer who was known, in a mixture of affection and contempt,
as Botas (Old High Button Shoes)—spoke casually to several
people in the crowd, then stopped and faced me.
‘You are a stranger, I believe?’
When I returned to the hotel I found that the picador had
departed with Ortega’s cuadrilla for a fight in some other part of
Spain but had left me an envelope containing a free ticket for the
novillada (a bullfight in which novices rather than full matadors
appear) scheduled for that afternoon. The young matadors put
on a fight of some skill even though facing bulls somewhat smaller
than the full matadors had fought. Having tasted the day before
the essence of bullfighting in the work of Lalanda and Ortega, I
was eager to apply what I had learned to a less professional
performance. I saw much that day and have often wondered who
the three aspirants were. Did they go on to glory? Were they men
whose names I am now familiar with? Or were they merely three
more among the hundreds who manage a fight or two in Valencia
or Sevilla or Córdoba and then vanish? I suppose there must be
some way I could track down their names, because for that one
Monday in Valencia they were proficient.
When the time came for me to leave Valencia, I reflected: I’ve
seen the best Spain has to offer. The well-dressed businessmen.
The luxurious clubs, they’re as good as any in Europe. The gaiety
of a first-class fiesta. Good hotels, good restaurants, good
entertainment. A substantial city that seems to be well run. I’ve
even seen the president himself, moving unguarded among his
people and willing to talk with a norteamericano. I have seen
Spain.
But as I rode out to the port of Valencia to rejoin my ship for
the long haul back to Scotland, I could not help recalling the
peasants of Teruel and the abysmal and almost terrifying poverty
that was their lot. Between these two Spains, and remember that
I had not yet seen the superarrogant nobility of Sevilla, there
existed such a gap that I simply could not bring it into focus. It
was like the test the oculist gives you when you have weak eyes:
‘You will see before you two halves of a picture. Use all your
muscles to make them form one single picture. Try! Try!’
Now, if the two halves are things like a countryman in Scotland
as opposed to a banker in Edinburgh, there is at first a discrepancy,
but as one exercises his muscles he can bring them together into
one fused portrait of Scotland that is not difficult to comprehend.
The countryman remains a countryman and the banker a banker,
and they can stand side by side with no embarrassment. In the
same way you can fuse a coal miner in Johnstown, Pennsylvania,
and a storekeeper in Pittsburgh. But to fuse the rural peasant of
Teruel and the rich clubman of Valencia lolling in his leather
chair after a gorging meal was for me impossible, and I began at
that moment to formulate that series of speculations regarding
Spain which were to exercise me for the next decades. Whenever
I read about Spain it was to find answers to these questions, and
remember that they were posed some years before the Civil War
disfigured the country. These are the questions of peace, and
whenever I traveled in Spain or talked with Spaniards in America
or England, I continued to study only these permanent questions.
Later, after the war had ended, I applied myself to these
speculations and did not torment myself with questions as to who
was right or wrong in the war, for I have always regarded Spain
as my second home and I have wanted to know about its enduring
quality, not its current preoccupations. These are the speculations
which have concerned me.
In other words, to travel in Spain is not like traveling elsewhere.
The people are exciting, but so are they in Greece; the land is
compelling, but so is it in Norway; art forms like flamenco, the
bullfight and the decoration of the central plaza are unique, but
so are the art forms of Italy; and if reflections on Spanish history
drive the stranger to speculation, so do reflections on German
history. What makes Spain different is that here these speculations
are positively unavoidable. The people are so dramatic in their
simplest existence that one must identify with them, and when
one does he begins to think like a Spaniard; the art forms are so
persuasive that the stranger is sucked into their vortices, even
against his will; and the problems of history are so gigantic and
of such continuing significance that one cannot escape an
intellectual involvement in them. Some travelers, of whom I am
one, find also an emotional involvement in Spanish history, and
when this happens we are lost, for then Spain haunts us as it has
haunted our predecessors, Georges Bizet, Henry de Montherlant,
George Borrow and Ernest Hemingway.
What I am saying is that Spain is a very special country and
one must approach it with respect and with his eyes open. He
must be fully aware that once he has penetrated the borders he
runs the risk of being made prisoner. I believe I sensed this danger
on that silvery dawn many years ago when I stood off the shore
of Burriana and watched the heaving men and the straining oxen,
dimly aware that in nearby Castellón there was a fiesta which
awaited me and in the hills cold Teruel, which would be forever
one of the principal cities of my mind. I knew then that Spain
was a special land, and I have spent many subsequent trips
endeavoring to unravel its peculiarities. I have not succeeded, and
in this failure I am not unhappy, for Spain is a mystery and I am
not at all convinced that those who live within the peninsula and
were born there understand it much better than I, but that we all
love the wild, contradictory, passionately beautiful land there can
be no doubt.
Badajoz still lay forty miles to the north. In a hot bus that talked
back to itself I was plodding through the vast region called
Extremadura, that empty, rocky section of Spain lying southwest
from Madrid along the Portuguese border. It was a day of intense
heat, with the thermometer well above a hundred and ten. For as
far as I could see there were no towns, no villages, only the brassy,
shimmering heat rising up from the plains and the implacable
sky without even a wisp of cloud. When dust rose, it hung in the
motionless air and required minutes to fall back to the caked and
burning earth. I saw no animals, no birds, no men, for they refused
to venture forth in this remorseless heat.