Infinite Desire (28 page)

Resting
my head on my hand I look off at the horizon, watching the sun slowly creep
over the trees. Finally I take a deep breath, and turn back to Reagan, “Just
because we’re having twins doesn’t mean we’re going to turn into hermits,
Reagan.
We’ll still come to LA and see you. We’ll go out and
let loose…Hell, I’m having twins! We’re going to desperately need one weekend a
month to get out with friends.” I yell slapping him on the chest playfully.

“Yea,
that’s fuckin’ crazy! I can barely imagine you with one baby, let alone two.”
The sarcasm in his voice instantly relaxes me; I can see I’m getting through to
him.

“Hey!
I’m going to be a fabulous mom!” I laugh slapping him again.”

Having
a flair for the dramatics he holds his hand over the pec I just assaulted twice.
Giving me a pained look, he says, “Okay, okay, I’m sorry; you will be a kick
ass MILF.”

God
I want to slap the cocky grin off of his face. Reagan knows how to get me fired
up unlike any other person in my life.

Smiling
at him I shift, sliding my legs under my butt and face him,
“You’re
not just a friend Reagan, you are like my big brother. You can never get rid of
me. Face it Reagan, you’re stuck with me forever.
They’re going to need
their uncle Reagan to teach them how to be the most stylish in school if we
have girls, and how to win the ladies over if we have boys.”

We
sit out on the swing for a few more minutes before heading back inside. I’m
glad I talked to Reagan one on one and helped him understand marriage, kids,
moving, none of that will ever cause him to lose our friendship…he’s stuck with
me forever.

~~~

Kayden

“Are
you going to tell me where we’re going?” Savannah asks from the back of the
four-wheeler.

As
soon as we finished breakfast this morning and Reagan left for the airport, I
told Savannah to throw on some jeans, boots and a hoodie, because I had a
surprise to show her.

I
lucked out that it’s another sunny day today.  We’re now on the trail just
behind her parents’ house, flying down it with the wind whipping against our
faces. Savannah’s sitting behind me with her arms wrapped tightly around me,
and her body is pressed firmly against my back.

Pulling
off of the trail, I slow down as we move over rugged terrain; the last thing I
wanna do is shake my babies all over the place. I’m new to this whole pregnancy
thing, but I’m pretty sure bouncing her around is not safe.

Savannah
was blushing a million shades of red at her first doctor’s visit. The doctor
asked if we had any questions after she went over everything with us. I asked
if having sex was safe, she said yes that sex is allowed up until the ninth
month. I then proceeded to ask if they advised against rough sex, because we can
get pretty carried away at times. Embarrassed, Savannah just shook her head.

For
the safety of my babies, I felt full-disclosure was needed. I thought Savannah
was going to leave the room when I made my final statement that I was packing
some pretty large heat – way beyond average and could I hurt the babies.  The
doctor thought it was funny; but I was damn serious! I don’t want to be pokin’
my kids in the head or something!

She
gave us the go ahead “in our usual form” but suggested we use caution as she
gets further along. Savannah gave me the look of death. Her and those crazy ass
hormones…the girl’s all over the fucking place.

One
minute she’s ripping my clothes off wanting to fuck me anywhere she can have
me, next she’s crying or pissed the fuck off. Pregnant woman are fuckin’ scary!
I blame it on being pregnant with twins. Because; damn, when you think about
it, that’s double the hormones coursing through her body. So I try the best I
can to roll with the punches and keep my adorable, mood-swinging, horny every
second of the day wife happy.

Pulling
up beside the pond I park the four-wheeler. “Okay baby, were here.”

Climbing
off, she walks to the edge of the pond and gazes across the water. From here, you
can see the spot where we laid on the grassy hill last Christmas; that’s
precisely why I picked this spot.

Walking
up behind her, I wrap my arms around her waist and rest my hands over her
growing belly. She’s not that far along, only three months, but she’s already
sporting the sexiest little bump I’ve ever seen.

The
doctors told her it’s because of there being two babies, because at first she
had a meltdown thinking she was gaining weight too fast and I was going to
think she was fat. That’s the farthest thing from the truth. I can’t wait to
watch her body change and grow, she will only get sexier. I am definitely
enjoying her boobs getting bigger, but right now they’re off limits. I tried to
play with them the other night and she practically bit my head off, bitchin’
about them being tender. You can’t blame a guy from tryin’.

Leaning
her head back against my chest Savannah rests her hands over mine, “I
absolutely love the view here, and it’s so beautiful in the fall.”

I
nuzzle my face into her hair breathing in her sweet coconut scent as I pull her
tightly against me. Standing back up straight, I rest my chin on top of her
head, “I do too…are you ready for your surprise?” I can’t wait another second
to tell her.

Spinning
around she links her fingers together behind my neck, and stares up at me with
her big baby blues practically bringing me to my knees with just that God damn
smile. “Yes! You’re killing me, what’s the surprise?” I can’t help but smile at
how fuckin’ beautiful she looks right now.

Cupping
her face in my hands, I press a kiss to her sweet plump lips before spinning
her back around so she’s facing the pond again. I quickly run around her and
hold my hands up in the air, “This is your surprise, baby.”

Folding
her arms in front of her, she scans her eyes over my face as a look of
confusion flashes over her face. “This is my surprise? You lost me?” She lets
out a nervous laugh as she waits for me to specify for her.

Running
down a little further I look at her over my shoulder, “What would you say if I
told you I bought this land from your father.”

Making
her way down towards me, she snakes her arm through mine, and rests her head
against it, “I’d say you have got to be the most amazing husband in the entire
world. It’s been my dream to build a house on this pond.”

Hearing
the excitement in her voice is like waking up on Christmas morning and finding
that Santa got you everything you asked for.

“Well
darlin’, that dream is becoming a reality. I’m going to have Dixon help us draw
up the plans and find a good contractor here in Memphis. I hope to have the
house completed by next Christmas so we can have everyone over to celebrate the
first Christmas in our new home.” As soon as my words come out, Savannah’s eyes
begin tearing up.

I
motion for her to sit. I sit with my legs bent and with her sitting between
them, “So what is Savannah Knox’s dream house?” I ask as I press kisses to the
top of her hair.

Picking
up a stick near her feet, Savannah begins drawing in the dirt near the shore,
“I’ve always envisioned a big log house here, with the entire front completely
made of glass overlooking the water.”

I
never imagined designing my own house before. I used to just think: fuck it, I’m
only going to eat, sleep and party there, so what the hell does it matter.

Now
I understand why Dixon and Brooklyn are building their own house down the road
from us in Sugar Land. There’s nothing like knowing you’re living in a home you
envisioned for you and you’re family. Together, we can build a dream house. It
won’t be one we’ll live in full time, but it’s going to be the best fuckin’
vacation house ever. I’ll be giving Savannah the home of her dreams, at her
favorite place on earth.

Savannah

Today
is the big day. Kayden barely slept last night he’s so excited. We’re going to
the doctor for my sixteen week check-up to find out the sex of the twins…as
long as they cooperate. I think it’s a boy and a girl, but Kayden insists we’re
having two future Longhorn football players.

Everyone’s
got bets going on what they think the twins are, so it’ll be fun to announce
the sex to everyone. To make our big announcement, we are ordering cupcakes
from Crave Cupcakes with colored frosting in the center.

Wrapping
my towel around myself, I quickly get to work blow drying my hair while
Kayden’s downstairs in the gym getting his morning workout in before our
appointment. He took the morning off, so he’ll be working late tonight to
make-up for it. I’ve asked to be home by eight so we can have everyone over for
the gender reveals.

Tomorrow’s
Christmas Eve, so first thing tomorrow morning we’ll be flying back to Memphis
to spend the holidays with my parents. Then we’ll be back in Texas in time for
Mya and Braxton’s annual New Year’s Eve Party. I missed it last year since I
was in a coma; so this year, I’m making sure I get my New Years’ kiss with
Kayden.

Walking
into our bedroom, I make my way into our walk-in closet to try and find
something to wear. I desperately need to do some maternity shopping; my low
rise jeans, t-shirts, and dress outfits are not going to cut it much longer. I
grab a grey sweater dress, black leggings and knee high grey suede boots and
head back into the bedroom to get ready.

I’m
just zipping up my boots when Kayden rounds the corner walking into the bedroom.
Kayden is never sexier than right after an intense workout. His body is
sheathed in sweat, his hair damp and tousled. Before I was pregnant I couldn’t
get enough of Kayden, but now it’s like my sexual desire is in overdrive. I
want him every chance I can get. The orgasms come harder and faster too, it’s
like my nerves are overly sensitive now. Kayden definitely hasn’t been
complaining.

Wiping
his towel over his face, he flashes me that panty droppin’ smile as he makes
his way towards the bathroom, “I’m going to take a quick shower, then we can
get goin’.”

Standing,
I adjust my sweater dress “Okay, I’m just going to do my make-up and curl my
hair and I’ll be ready.” Following Kayden, I head into the bathroom to finish
getting ready.

I
slowly rub my hand over my belly, as I feel the babies tumbling inside of me.
For the last several weeks I’ve been able to feel them moving around; Kayden’s
been dying to feel them kick.

Rubbing
my belly, I talk to my babies, “Are you two doing gymnastics in mommy’s belly?
You sure are movin’ around a whole heck of a lot today. Let’s hope you sit
still for the doctor’s appointment.” Just as my last words come out I feel a
small kick against my hand.

Dropping
my eyeliner I run over to the shower and sling the glass door open. Kayden
spins around with suds all over his head, giving me a puzzled look, “Everything
okay?” He asks, looking me up and down.

I’m
so excited I can barely form a word, as I beam up at Kayden holding my hand
against my belly. “I just felt one of the babies kick! Like felt it felt it!
Against my hand!”

As
my words sink in, Kayden’s eyes grow wide, and he quickly jumps out of the
shower still covered in shampoo. Drying his hand he presses it against my belly
where mine was. He’s stares down at his hand and we’re both holding our breaths,
neither saying a word as he waits. I feel the sudden flutter again and then the
light kick against my stomach.

“Oh
my God! It just kicked my hand!” Kayden shouts squatting down and bringing his
mouth next to my small bump. “Did you feel that, baby?!” He asks, gazing up at
me with the biggest smile on his lips. His eyes are sparkling with excitement.
I’m so happy we get to share this first together.

I
shake my head yes, letting out a small laugh, “Yes, I feel it…isn’t it amazing!
It’s crazy, feeling them moving around…it’s crazy, there are two little babies
growing in there!” I rest my hand over Kayden’s and stand there a few more
moments relishing in this awe inspiring moment.

Finally
the baby stops kicking so Kayden climbs back into the shower to finish washing
the soap from his hair. I can’t stop smiling. What a way to start off the day.

~~~

Sitting
in the waiting room, I flip through a pregnancy magazine as I wait for the
nurse to call me back. It feels like my bladder is seconds away from bursting,
especially since my rambunctious twins have decided to play kick ball with my
freakin’ bladder!

“Savannah,
you can come back now.” The nurse I’ve come to know as Trish, pokes her head
into the waiting room. For it being December twenty-third, this place is pretty
busy. I assumed it’d be quiet since everyone’s preparing for Christmas.

“I’ll
be right back.” Leaning down, I give Kayden a quick kiss before heading back to
finally pee, do my weight and check my blood pressure.

After
using the bathroom, I head into the little nurses office and removing my boots,
I step up on the scale. “So how are you feeling today, Savannah?” Trish asks as
she writes down my weight on her chart.

“Pretty
good, nausea has gotten a lot better, and we felt one of the babies kick
today.” I say with excitement looking over at her before stepping off and
sitting in the chair so she can check my blood pressure.

We’ve
done this enough times now that I’ve got the routine down pact.

“Well,
that’s fantastic! The fathers are always so excited to finally feel the babies
move since us mommies get to feel it for a few weeks before they can.” She says,
giving me a warm smile as she writes my blood pressure down.

Sliding
my boots back on, I glance up at her as she finishes documenting everything,
“Yeah, luckily Kayden had just finished his workout and was upstairs when it
happened, so he was able to
feel it before
the baby stopped kicking. Watching him experience that moment was the most
amazing thing ever.”

~~~

After
sitting in the waiting room for fifteen more minutes, we’re finally called into
the ultra sound room. Climbing up onto the bed, I’m a ball of nerves. I’m
blessed and thankful that the babies are healthy, and don’t care if they’re boys
or girls, but it’s the most surreal moment waiting to finally learn what we’re
having. Then we can finally settle on baby names!

Kayden’s
standing beside me holding my hand, as he looks around at all the ultrasound
equipment. He’s so cute when he’s nervous. I’m surprised he has any hair left
on his head, because he’s been raking his fingers through it for the last
thirty minutes we’ve been here. He’s itching to know if we’re having boys or
not.

Finally,
the ultrasound tech walks in and giving us a big smile, she sits down in front
of the machine and gets to work setting everything up, “Y’all ready to find out
what your havin’?” She asks, with the sweetest Southern drawl.

She’s
done the last two ultrasounds. Each time she is always so sweet and helped us
understand everything at our first appointment. We had
no clue
what we were
looking at.

Lying
back on the table, I drape a white sheet over my thighs and pull my dress up,
exposing my small growing bump. The cool gel she disperses over my stomach
causes me to jump slightly. They really need to invent a better warmer; it is
2013 for Christ sake.

“All
right, let’s see if you’ll be buying blue or pink…” She says as she swivels the
little wand under my belly button. I instantly snap my eyes to the screen as I
hear the whooshing sound of our babies’ heartbeats.

“Aww,
look Kayden! One of the babies has its finger in its mouth.” I can’t take my
eyes off of the tiny screen. It’s one of the most amazing things I’ve ever seen
in my life.

Leaning
towards the screen to get a better look, Kayden asks, “That is so cool baby;
it’s crazy we can see what they’re doing in your belly!”

After
the ultrasound tech finishes checking the babies to make sure they’re growing
properly, and everything looks okay, she announces it’s time to see what we’ll
be having.

I’m
squeezing Kayden’s hand so tight I don’t think he has any blood flowing to his
hand. I stare at the screen as I watch her maneuver the wand as she focuses on
baby number one, who has their legs wide open. I mentally do a woo hoo! Then I
hear Kayden whisper under his breath “that shit’s not funny”, I giggle knowing
he is having this thought in case its girls.

“Well
congrats you two, baby one is a boy…” She says beaming at us as she circles the
area between his legs. “I definitely want a picture of that!” Kayden says
bursting with excitement. “See baby! I told ya we’d be havin’ a boy…future
Longhorn’s quarterback right there.”

I
get choked up as I watch Kayden’s eyes mist over as tears of happiness fall
from his eyes. He’s getting his boy and I couldn’t be happier.

“If
baby number two will stop wiggling around for one second, I think I’ll be able
to get a good picture so we can see if it’s a boy or girl.” She says as she
chases my overly active baby around.

God
help me, it’s already wild. This isn’t good.

Kayden
leans down and sliding his fingers over my temple, graces me with the sweetest
little kiss. “I love you.” He whispers in my ear, before looking back up at the
screen.

“There!
Well you’ll be seeing a lot of blue. Well in your case, I think it’s safe to
say orange due to daddy’s apparent love for the Longhorns,” She laughs,
glancing at Kayden and me before turning back to the screen, “Baby number two
is a boy, also.”

Kayden
braces himself on the edge of the bed and looks at the image on the screen,
“Holy shit! Sorry ma’am,” he laughs giving the tech an apologetic smile before
looking down, “Two boys! I would’ve loved a girl…but two boys!”

I
am so overcome with emotion as I watch Kayden celebrate. My tears freely fall,
sliding down my temple and over the bridge of my nose. I stare at the screen
watching my babies wiggle around and listen to the most beautiful sound of
their beating hearts.

I
can’t wait to tell everyone. My father’s going to be just as excited as Kayden;
there’s just something about guys and having sons. My house is going to be overrun
by football and camo.

Lord!
Help me!

Before
leaving we got some fantastic 4D pictures. It amazes me how realistic they look;
you can see their little noses, lips, fingers everything. It’s fascinating! I
cannot wait to frame them. We also have a DVD and two short recordings of the
babies wiggling around and their heart beats to share with family and friends.

After
a short drive, we’re pulling up to Beaumont Industries. With cooler weather
we’ve been taking the black Audi A7 and leaving my car in the garage. Kayden’s
truck is a gas guzzler so he’s only been driving it around Sugar Land.

Parking
the car out front, we jump out. Just as I’m about to take the key’s from him
and head over to Crave Cupcake to update our order, Kayden cages me in against
the car, “Come up with me? We can order some lunch then you can take the car
home. I’ll call Jax to come get me with the orange car.”

How
can I say no when he uses that mega-watt smile against me?

“Ok,
I guess I’ll can just call Crave Cupcake and let them know we’re going to need
blue frosting.” I giggle as Kayden playfully slaps my butt.

He
hooks his arm around my waist as we walk towards the doors, “Ya got that
right…my boys sure can swim, huh? I can’t believe we’re having two boys!”

I
give him a glance over my shoulder “Yea, yea, you and your swimmers…two eggs,
remember, two eggs baby.” Kayden laughs and reminds me that it took his
super-swimmers to hit both eggs…sigh.

~~~

We
order Chinese because I am craving egg rolls so bad right now; I swear I could
eat pork egg rolls all day! It’s going to be twenty minutes before it’s
delivered, so to pass the time I’m thinking about a quickie with my,
too
sexy for his own good,
husband.

He’s
sitting on the couch in front of a wall of TV’s with different stock markets
and news channels on, while taking a business call. I slip my boots off, then
my leggings and panties before hiking my dress up over my thighs so I can
easily straddle Kayden’s lap.

As
I slide onto his lap and get to work undoing his pants, he clears his throat
and lets out a low growl. “Oh um, sorry, I had a tickle in my throooat.” He
says into the ear piece as I slip my hand into his pants and pull his cock out
of his briefs.

I
slowly jerk it as I trail kisses along his neck. I laugh lightly against his
skin as he slaps his hand against my thigh, squeezing it as I quicken the pace.
I slowly drag my tongue along his neck and trail a path to his ear before
sucking his lobe into my mouth, whispering, “Fuck Me!”

He’s
trying so hard to be quiet and focus on his call, which is turning me on even
more. My pussy is aching to be pleasured; it’s almost painful how badly I need
him. These hormones have my sex drive shifting into high gear…My clit is overly
sensitive, just the slightest touch has me coming undone.