Love Resolution (Black Cat Records series) (19 page)

“Is that what we are?”

“If that’s what you want.”

She sighed. “Yeah, friends sounds good to me.”

“It’s been a while since I had a girl just as a friend,” he admitted sheepishly.

“You’ve been really quiet,” Bryan said as they settled into the backseat of the SUV for the drive back to the hotel. “You wanna clue me in what’s going on?”

“No.”

“It might help you to talk about it.”

“Doubtful.”

“Red, come on. I know things are messed up between you and Marcus. I saw how angry he was at the club. I wanted to come by and see you at the hospital.” He scrubbed a hand over his hair. “But I didn’t want to make things more difficult for you.”

“He broke things off with us,” she blurted out. “He thinks we moved too fast.”

“Why? Because of that one dance?” He made a disgusted noise. “He must keep a real tight leash on you, if that’s all it took to set him off.”

“The dance was only part of it.” She looked out the window evasively. “There were other things.”

“Uh-huh.” Bryan’s light eyes flashed with emotion. “Like his drinking.”

“How do you know about that?”

“Please. Everyone knows his history. If they didn’t before the accident, they certainly do now. It’s all over the news. He should never have gotten behind the wheel impaired like that, especially with you in the car.” He shifted to face her. “Do you agree with him? I mean about moving too fast?”

“No,” she replied instantly.

His grey green eyes searched hers. “How long had you known each other before he proposed?”

“Several weeks.”

“Seriously?” he laughed.

“It’s longer than some,” she said defensively, twisting the hem of her cotton t-shirt in her hands. “Bryan, I…I shouldn’t have danced with you…not like that. I was angry with him, but even so.” She blew out a breath. “I didn’t think. Everything I do now ends up on the internet, and he’s been burned publicly before.”

“Who hasn’t? It comes with the job. He knows that. You’d think that he would have developed a thicker skin by now.”

She stiffened. Marcus’ sensitivity was one of the qualities she loved most about him. Most people never got past his gruff exterior. “Can we change the subject, please? I probably shouldn’t be talking about this with you.”

“Ok, but you can trust me, Avery.”

“Can I?” She squinted at him. “Maybe, but I don’t even really know you.”

“Fair enough,” he replied. “I understand. I’ll prove it to you in time.” He paused thoughtfully. “You sure were good with the kids today.”

“Thanks. It wasn’t so long ago that I was in their shoes. I like encouraging them to tap into their creativity. The future is wide open in front of them, full of possibilities.”

“For a few of them, if they’re lucky and dedicated and talented. Like you.”

Her face heated with the compliment. “The kids seemed to like you a lot, too. I noticed that they all seemed really fascinated by your tattoos.”

“Hmm, really?” He glanced down at his arms and then looked back at her. “What about you, Red? Are you fascinated by them?”

“Yes. I mean, no. I mean, I’ve always wanted to get a tattoo.”

“Why haven’t you then?”

“I don’t know. Money at first. Now, I guess I’m just afraid I’ll get a disease from the needles.”

“Reputable artists don’t reuse their stuff, so that’s not likely. What kinda ink would you get?”

“Musical notes,” she said wistfully.

“Where?” His hands brushed the small of her back. “Here?”

“No.” She shifted away. “Around my right wrist like a bracelet. With my mom’s name written out along a musical staff.”

“That’d be beautiful.”

“Music means everything to me.”

“And your mom obviously,” he prompted. “You must be pretty close.”

She shifted uneasily in her seat. “She died when I was eight.”

“I’m sorry.” His eyes softened and he lightly touched her hand. “I didn’t know that.”

“It’s alright.” She moved her hand to her lap. “I mean it’s not really. I still miss her every single day, but it was a long time ago.” She gestured to his arm. “Tell me about your tats. I’ve never gotten a close look.”

He scooted closer, stretching one arm out in front of her. “Here’s my mom’s name in Japanese script.” He pointed to characters interwoven into the complex designs. “And here are my sisters’,” he said proudly.

“Are they coming to a show?” she asked, touched by the obvious affection he held for his family. “I’d love to meet them.”

“Yes. The second one in New York.”

“What about your dad, is he…”

“No,” he said abruptly. “He’s been out of the picture for a long, long time.” His gaze hardened. “I have a lot of unresolved issues with my old man.”

“So do I,” she said soberly. “So do I.”

The walk of shame continues
, Marcus thought after dutifully submitting to not only one but two interviews that Beth had arranged for him this morning. The videotaped interview for ET had gone well and had been conducted at a decent hour, but the phone conversation with New York City’s Star magazine had been at five a.m. Not that he had been sleeping. From the moment he walked into that hotel room and looked at the empty bed he’d abandoned all thoughts of doing so. He’d pulled out the old running clothes and hit the treadmill, instead of the bottle as he’d been sorely tempted to do.

No matter what, though, the memories relentlessly played out in his head. Even taking a shower reminded him of the last time that he’d made love to her. His heart hurt just thinking about it. The connection they had outside the bedroom was something he’d never experienced with another woman. They had forged a close friendship before they became lovers. There would be an irreplaceable void in his life without her.

In her absence even music had lost its ability to soothe him. She had become his inspiration, his muse, from the first moment he’d looked into those expressive emerald eyes of hers. His creativity was held captive by her, and he feared that he might never release it again.

His resolve to do the right thing and keep away from her had waned by the time the sun came up. Only pulling out her bracelet, the one she’d worn the night of the accident, had helped him regain it. Focusing on the talisman had reminded him how he had failed so miserably.

Don’t be a selfish bastard
. Their relationship had always been lopsided. He needed her a lot more than she needed him. She wasn’t made of glass. She’d bounce back from the accident and the breakup soon. With her determination and inner strength, he was confident she would emerge even stronger than before.

Dwight flopped down on the plane’s sectional beside him, jarring him out of his morose musings.

“Little brother,” he said, slapping Marcus on the knee and giving him a searching sidelong glance. “You look like crap.”

“Thanks for noticing,” he grimaced.

“You’re welcome. You and I need to talk.”

Great
, he thought. Then his cell phone buzzed. He glanced at the display.
Red alert. Red Alert
.

Worse and worser. A lecture from his brother was preferable to the dose he was about to take. Gut check time. He showed the display to Dwight.

Dwight’s brows rose. “I’m not here,” he said, waving his hands in front of his body and went over to the mini-fridge. He pulled out a can of soda, and popped the tab.

“Coward,” Marcus told him before sliding open the call. “Hey Mom.”

“Marcus.”

Dwight slumped down in a chair and flicked on the television, scrolling up the volume.

Marcus gave him the finger. “I don’t have much time to talk, Mom. We’re getting ready to take off for LA.”

“That’s ok. I didn’t call to talk. I called for you to listen.”

Shit.

“I’ve already expressed my displeasure to you about the drinking. I think I made it perfectly clear that I expect that to stop.”

“I know, Mom.”

She was on a roll, proceeding as if he hadn’t even spoken. “Your father and I love you, but I’m sure you understand that the consequences of this DUI are yours to face. Now about you and Avery. Exactly when were you planning to tell me?”

Double shit.

“What do you mean?” he hedged.

“Marcus Thomas Anthony, don’t try that with me. I’m your mother. I don’t need to be there on that tour with you to know everything that’s going on.”

“Alright. Ok, Mom. I broke it off with her.”

“She called her brother last night, you know. Your father and I had to talk Justin down. He wanted to come down there and I quote, ‘kick your egotistical ass.’”

There was a long uncomfortable pause on the line. Marcus ran a hand through his hair before finally speaking. “I don’t know what you want me to say, Mom.”

“Did she give you back Grandma Susan’s ring?”

“No. Not yet, but…”

“Then there’s still hope.”

“No, Mom. It’s over. I know you’re very pro Avery.” Marcus stopped to clear his throat.

“I want the best for
both
of you,” Rheta responded. “I just don’t understand why you would throw it all away.”

“It’s not open for discussion,” he told her firmly, glancing up as he heard the sound of voices. “I’m sorry, Mom,” he said as Avery walked in accompanied by Trevor, Sam, JR, and Ray. “I’ve gotta go.”

Her gaze met his. She bit down on her lip, her eyes filling before they slid away.

“Where have you guys been?” he growled. Seeing her like this tore at him, knowing it was his fault, and also knowing he couldn’t take care of her anymore. “We were supposed to take off fifteen minutes ago.”

“So what?” JR shrugged. “You need to chill, man.” He dropped down on the couch and pulled Sam onto his lap.

“Sorry, Marcus,” Trevor intervened, setting down his bag. “We ran into a bit of traffic.”

Sam giggled as JR brushed his mustache against the side of her neck.

“Hmm,” she murmured, eyes closing.

“Take that shit in private,” Marcus remarked acidly, looking away to find Avery staring at the couple, sadness swirling in her misty eyes.

“I’m taking the bedroom,” she blurted out to no one in particular. “I need to lie down. I have a headache.”

Avery fell into a shallow sleep for the short flight from San Francisco to LA. When the plane touched down, her eyes opened and her head started to pound, hurting for real this time.

She slipped on her shoes and went back out into the lounge. “Does anyone have any Tylenol?” she asked.

“I do,” Sam answered. “In my purse.” She dug around and pulled out a bottle. She uncapped it and handed a couple to Avery.

“Thanks,” Avery mumbled, taking a seat near the window, avoiding making eye contact with anyone.

“I’ll get you a water,” Trevor said moving to the fridge.

By the time she’d finished the bottle, the portable stairs had been rolled up to the jet. “What’s on the schedule today?” she asked Trevor, watching disinterested as the others gathered their things.

“You’ll have a couple of hours of free time at the hotel, Mr. C. Beverly Hills. Then you have a sound check at the Forum at two, and then I need you back at the venue at eight for the concert.”

“Ok.” Avery stood slowly, head throbbing. Rubbing a hand over her eyes, she moved across the plane to throw her empty bottle into the recycling bin. She ran right into Marcus who apparently had been heading full steam for the exit.