Make Me Forever (8 page)

So he’d vowed to take a sexual sabbatical.

Almost five weeks without sex. It’d been hard, of course, but he’d kept his eye on the prize. If he wasn’t cut out to be in a serious relationship, best he figured that out now. And if he was? Well, he wasn’t ever going to achieve the gratification of a meaningful relationship until he broke his old patterns and figured out what he wanted . . .

And what women wanted, of course.

Romance.
That was what he suspected they wanted. He wasn’t entirely sure what the meaning of the word was. He couldn’t help but feel that he’d never really appreciated the inner workings of the female mind. He’d certainly never been in a relationship that resembled anything close to what his father and mother, or what his sister and her husband, shared. Like his perennially-single-but-never-alone older brother Kevin, Trey worried he’d missed out on the meaningful relationship gene.

It was time to do a serious self-examination and personal overhaul. So far, that had involved working out for an extra hour every day at the gym, because it was
hell
being a celibate thirty-three-year-old, healthy man. He had a shitload of sexual energy to burn.

Self-improvement also meant taking a class on Degenerate Art at the Art Institute and enrolling in an advanced t’ai chi class that emphasized the meditative aspects. It included daily practice on his guitar and focusing again on writing music, another thing that had been abandoned by the wayside in the energy-sucking process of developing, expanding and steering TalentNet for more than a decade. He’d reapplied himself to his massive music collection too, relearning the medium that he loved and that had originally been the making of his career.

Trey also possessed a respectable personal library in his home. That library had started to represent everything he’d started to resent about his life. Recently, he’d realized that he hadn’t actually
read
anything of significance in almost a year. The library had become a decoration, a novelty talking-point when he gave a guest a tour of the penthouse. When he’d started BandBook twelve years ago, he used to regularly inhale three or four books a week: great works of philosophy, literature, history, biographies of the world’s movers and shakers.

Now, the only action his library was getting was his maid’s weekly dusting. God, it was lame.
He
was.

That’s why when he’d seen the ad for
Leave Everything Behind But a Book
, he’d signed up immediately. It was the prod he needed. The concept was that while people might want to get around to reading that one particular book collecting shelf dust, it was hard to do so in this busy, technology-ridden world, especially during the frantic holiday season, which was just around the corner. The museum came up with a simple idea: grab that book you’ve been meaning to read forever, check your technology at the door, sit your ass down in a chair, and pledge to read for two hours, two nights a week for two weeks in the company of like-minded, committed readers.

With his commitment not only to self-improvement, but understanding the mysteries of the female mind a little better, Trey had chosen
Pride and Prejudice
as his book for the event. He’d never read it in his life, despite all the cultural references to it. He didn’t get its appeal; he often didn’t get women; women loved
Pride and Prejudice.

It couldn’t be more obvious he should be reading this damn book.

By the end of the short first chapter, Trey was feeling mildly optimistic. He hadn’t encountered the adored Lizzy yet, let alone any of the famed romance, but it was entertaining watching Mr. Bennett verbally dance circles around his stupid wife. He flipped the page to Chapter Two, and that’s when it happened.

His attention fractured at movement: a purse swinging at the very top of his vision. He glanced up distractedly and did a double take.

Oh, no
.

No, no,
no.
This was
not
good. What had he done to deserve
this
?

Realizing he was gaping, he lowered his head back to the book, but his gaze shot back up over his reading glasses. He watched, his mouth going dry. The newly arrived bombshell who sat just feet away from him pushed a sexy mane of loose chestnut brown curls behind her shoulder. A rebellious, glossy tendril remained. She slid her fingers down the smooth length distractedly and let it fall on the upper curve of a mouthwatering breast. Lust poured through him, the strength of it surprising him a little.

Sweet Jesus.
She wore some kind of tight, suede vest under her blazer, like a modernized, chic version of those lace-up bustiers women used to wear on the covers of those old-fashioned bodice-ripper romance novels. She crossed her legs. He went rigid.

Everywhere.

Her legs were slender and about a mile long. She wore a pair of tight, supple suede boots that rose several inches past her knees. When she crossed her legs, the tops of her thigh-high stockings eased into view. . . along with a strip of golden, gleaming skin. She distractedly glided her fingers across the tops of her thigh highs. His cock jumped higher to attention.

Realizing he was staring, he lowered his head and covertly traced the profile of her face from beneath a lowered brow. She wasn’t your standard beauty, but that made her even more of a knockout. Unique. Exotic. Off the charts on the sexy factor: Those were a few descriptors that came to his mind. Her neck was slender and graceful, her facial features delicate and finely wrought. He couldn’t get over the color and quality of her skin. It was a feature meant to be flaunted. She looked like she’d tan easily, but refrained from roasting in the sun. The result was a smooth, satiny texture and a pale gold, dewy glow. His gaze stuck on the expanse of skin at her chest and the incredible tease of the upper swells of her breasts in that suede lace up vest-thingy she wore. She’d be so soft there, her curving flesh firm and velvety against his lips and tongue. He imagined unlacing that vest and exposing the treasure of her breasts, cradling them in his hands, and then—

He abruptly became aware of his runaway fantasizing. Was this some kind of a joke? How was he supposed to concentrate on reading a book with
this
goddess just feet away? It’d be torture enough if he hadn’t sworn off sex for the past month, but considering the circumstances, this was nothing less than downright cruelty.

He glanced aside, half-expecting someone to be filming his lechery. Unfortunately, he wasn’t unfamiliar with the possibility. Some joker to the left of him stared at the woman in slack-jawed wonder, his book forgotten in his lap:
The Iliad
. Trey suppressed a strong urge to laugh. And he’d thought
he
had it bad trying to comprehend a word of
Pride and Prejudice
with sex personified sitting just feet away. A quick survey of the room told him that the woman was having a similar effect on more than half a dozen other helpless saps.

Forget it. Forget about her. You came here to read. Remember, the self-improvement campaign?

Right. Focus.

Mr. Bennett was among the earliest of those who waited on Mr. Bingley.

What? Who was Mr. Bingley, and who was this waiter, Mr. Bennett? Why should Trey care? He read the line again, but apparently, his brain had been turned to sex-mush.

Sometimes, it was just plain shit being a guy.

Movement caught his eye again and he glanced up against his will. The goddess was pulling her book out of an expensive handbag. (He’d bought enough designer purses as gifts for girlfriends over the years to know that the woman’s bag did
not
come cheap.) His stare got stuck on her legs. She must be pretty tall to have legs that long. Five foot eight or nine? At six three, he liked a tall woman . . . liked the feeling of long, strong legs wrapped around him, pulling him deep. He liked seeing them spread-eagled and tied to his bed, too. He’d love to see this woman in that position. The boots? Hell
yeah
, he’d keep those on, right along with those stockings.

She settled into the wooden chair, shifting her hips ever so slightly. Ever so
distractingly
. The stockings she wore weren’t lacy lingerie; they were opaque. In combination with the boots, short skirt and legs that seemed to extend all the way up to her armpits, they struck him as ridiculously sexy. His gaze locked on the juncture of smooth, toned thighs. His mind zeroed in on what was snuggled in that dark, tight crevice. She shifted her hips again slightly, as if she was getting friction on her pussy, stimulating herself ever so subtly.

Not that she
was
getting off on exhibiting herself so enticingly, of course. That was just his filthy man-brain pulsing with hormones and going into overdrive.

Wasn’t it?

She set her book on the top of her thigh and opened it, the cover facing him. He immediately recognized what was quickly becoming an iconic cover.
Born to Submit.

You have
got
to be fucking kidding me.

He started to sweat. He hadn’t read it, any more than he’d read
Pride and Prejudice
. Both the book he held in his hands and the one she held in hers were considered women’s reading, even if they were drastically different in content. Of course, he, along with every other salivating schmo in this coffee shop knew that
Born to Submit
was about sex. Raw, hardcore, BDSM. Trey didn’t consider himself to be some kind of card-carrying BDSM master, but he enjoyed being the dominant in the bedroom.

He was aware of the cultural buzz over the book, the massive sales figures, the talk shows, the
Saturday Night Live
and YouTube spoofs, the snarky newspaper and magazine articles. But he’d never thought about it much until tonight, seeing it in this woman’s hands. Surely
she
knew what the book entailed, too. Yet she’d brought it to a high-minded reading event at a museum.

Well, she
was
wearing that sexy, sophisticated outfit, wasn’t she? This was no naïve little girl.

Then she began to read, and Trey found himself doubting. He had the bizarre thought that the somber, endearing expression she wore while she focused on the page was a completely natural one for her. This was how she looked often: sweet and sexy and utterly absorbed in her task, her succulent, full mouth pursed ever so slightly, her brow wrinkled with the innocent hunger of curiosity.

Suddenly, she looked up and met his stare dead-on. He started slightly at being caught red-handed at gawping. Huge greenish-gold eyes—cat’s eyes—held him in their hypnotic trap, making it impossible to look away. Then she smiled, slow and sexy, the widening of her pink lips corresponding with the swelling of his erection.

And he wondered how the hell he could have ever thought she seemed innocent.

Beth Kery
is the
New York Times
bestselling author of over thirty novels, including
Glimmer
,
The Affair
,
Since I Saw You
,
Because We Belong
, and
When I’m With You
. She lives in Chicago with her family.

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