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I was doing the right thing. Leaving was the right thing. Not only was this the job opportunity of a lifetime, but being trapped in a small town and working at a bar, was not how I wanted to spend my days, even if I had Kane by my side.

I hated how I had to leave, but I knew Kane. I knew he’d probably tie me to a chair to keep me from boarding my plane. So I had to do it while he was up on stage. He was on fire tonight, better than I had ever heard him. The gossip was true. I had the pleasure of getting drinks for the unknowns, that we all thought were scouts. Turns out, they weren’t scouts but the very popular group, 4 Alliance. They were sitting with hats and were very well hidden. When I walked over after the guys’ first song, I heard one of the cloaked guys say that they wanted this band on their tour.

I almost jumped up and down and raved even more about them, but I kept my cool and kept to myself. ONS was going to make it. They were going to get out of small town USA and so was I.

“Now boarding, flight 128 Baltimore to New York.”
Finally!
I stood, grabbing my backpack. I stood last in line to board. My flight left at 10:05, and it was now 9:45. The guys had probably been done singing for at least twenty minutes. There was no way that Kane or anyone could make the trip from the bar to the airport in less than forty-five minutes. Still, I couldn’t help but anxiously look around. If Kane showed up, I might not be strong enough to get on that plane.
Thankfully, I’ll never know.
I was next. I handed the lady my ticket, adjusted my bag on my shoulder, and headed down the walkway.

“This is right. I’m doing the right thing,” I said out loud to myself.

I held my arms tight around my waist. The hallway down to the waiting plane seemed longer than necessary. I reached the bottom, getting ready to make the sharp left turn, to finally step over the threshold of the plane.

“Caroline!”

The deep, demanding voice echoed off the walls. I twisted, not surprised to see Kane standing at the entrance of the walkway. He was gorgeous as always, his hair a sexy mess, his body strong and hard with muscle.

“Caroline!” he yelled again.

Deep breath, head held high.
You’re doing the right thing, just--keep--walking.

CHAPTER 34

Kane

I ran through the parking garage, after parking my truck in the first spot I saw. It might have been a handicapped spot. I wasn’t really sure and, right then, I didn’t give a fuck. I bought a ticket so I could get back to the gates. I was rounding the corner when I heard them announce the flight that I knew Kitty was getting on.

I got to the gate, scanning all over but it was nearly empty, the sign above the doorway that lead to the plane was flashing last call. I went to make my way down to the plane, but the ticket lady stopped me. When I looked down the walkway, there at the bottom was Caroline. The large woman still blocking my path, I called to her, “Caroline!”

“Sir, you can’t go down there without a proper ticket,” the pudgy woman said, taking another step forward to block me.

“I need to get down there!” I said frantically.

“I’m sorry but, no ticket, no plane.”

What a bitch.

“Caroline!” I yelled, again.

Kitty stood there, a slight hesitation in the body that I had come to know so well, staring at me. I could have sworn she was going to run back, run to me--that is, until she lifted her chin, fixed the bag on her shoulder, and walked away, taking with her what was left of my heart.

CHAPTER 35

Caroline

Nine Months Later
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pring in the city was my favorite time of the year--people walking the sidewalks instead of rushing for cabs, buds on the trees, excitement all around. Breathing in the warm, spring, afternoon air, I closed my eyes as I sat at a small table outside of an eatery.
So why can’t I enjoy it like I used to?

“I’ve been dreaming of this single slice of cheesecake for over a week. Thanks for coming down here with me.”

That was Sarah. Any excuse to get out of the office, she took it, even if it was to cheat on her diet and get a slice of cheesecake.

“I don’t mind. It’s beautiful out. Your only payment will be a bite of that mouthwatering slice of cheesecake,” I said, adjusting in my seat as she sat down across from me.

“Fine. I guess I can relinquish one bite, but that’s it! You want more, get in line. It starts down there,” she said, pointing down the sidewalk, where the line ended from out of the eatery. “Did you get everything done for the Miller project?” Sarah asked through a delicate bite of cheesecake.

“Yup, I finished last night.”
Because I don’t have a life, so I just work, and work, and work.

“I don’t know why you take work home with you?”

Well, it’s not like I had anything else to do, and working kept my mind off things.
“It’s not that bad. I don’t mind,” I replied, shrugging my shoulders and wiggling my fingers for the fork. “I’ll take that bite now.”

Reluctantly she handed it over. Sarah was the first friend that I made since moving back to New York. It helped that we worked three cubicles down from one another in the beginning, until they gave me my own office. It was small and nothing to write home about, but I had worked my butt off and was rewarded greatly.

Sarah was the type of friend who took my mind off my own problems. I’d sit day after day at lunch with her as she ranted about all the men she had coming in and out of her life. The drama that came with each one was enough to keep me occupied with trying to figure out her love life, rather than dipping into mine. I had been dragged on a number of double dates with her. The guys were all nice, good-looking career men, but they weren’t--

Okay, fine, I had slept with two of them. I’m human, a girl has her needs.
Was it good? Hell no, it was almost torturous. I didn’t want to admit it, but I had been ruined.

One hour left. I sat at the large desk, my fellow colleagues talking about the project at hand. The sounds of their voices lulled me into a daze. I found myself drifting off more and more as time went on.

“Caroline, do you have the charts?” Danny, the lead director, asked.

He was young for attaining the lead position, somewhere in his late thirties. A handsome guy with slicked back brown hair, he had a few hints of gray around his temples, which was the only thing that gave his age away. He had a sexy full beard--which was perfectly maintained so he didn’t look like he just came out of the woods--dress slacks, button up shirt, dark blue tie, and thin suspenders.

Danny was the talk of the office. The women here couldn’t get enough of him.

“Caroline,” he said, a little more urgently.

“Yeah, I’ve got them right here.” I stood from my chair and handed the papers to him.

His gaze held mine a little longer than necessary. He furrowed his brow. I knew he was asking if I was all right. I smiled back and then sat down in my chair again. I made sure to stay focused for the rest of the meeting, adding my input and staying alert.

Sitting at my desk, I was wrapping things up for the evening when Danny knocked.

“Can I come in?” he asked, peeking his head in the door.

“Yeah, I was just closing up for the weekend. What do you need? And I swear to God Danny, if you ask me to get you the Walker papers, I’m going to stab you with this pen.”

We had a good working relationship. Mainly because I was amazing and got his ass out of trouble all the time. So in return, I was able to talk to him like that without getting fired, but if we were in a group setting, I knew my place and didn’t step on his toes.

“Calm down, tiger, no need to stab me today. I was concerned about earlier. You were frozen for a little while in the meeting. Anything you want to talk about, you know I’m here for ya.”

Danny was a sweet guy, under all the commanding dress clothes and beard. He was a considerate, caring guy. I think he played up the whole badass business guy to cover up the shy sweetheart that he was.

“I’m fine, really, you don’t have to worry about me,” I said, unclicking my pen and putting it in my drawer.

We were small talking about an upcoming project when there was another knock at my door. Sarah came in, eyeing up Danny like the rest of the vultures in the office. Sarah had let Danny know her intentions. I thought it was a little game the two of them played. “Danny, looking good, love the suspenders,” she said, licking her lips.

“So you’ve told me, every day that I wear them,” he replied, leaning on my desk.

“What do you need Sarah?” I asked, looking around Danny’s lean body.

“Umm, there’s someone wondering around the office looking for you. Should I send him in?” she asked.

“Yeah why not, party in my office.”

Winking at Danny, she turned and left the room.

“I still don’t see why you’re friends with her,” Danny said, turning his head to look down at me, but still leaning against my desk.

“I think you two should just fuck and get it over with,” I said, smiling up at him.

“I don’t think so. You and I both know that girl’s track record. I’m not trying to be a part of it. I’m in the market for normal, not psycho.”

We laughed until there was another knock at my door. A tall man in a suit walked in and headed straight for my desk.

Danny stood, moving aside.

“Are you Caroline James?” the man asked.

“Yes, what can I--”

“You’ve been served,” he said, pulling an envelope from the inside pocket of his suit.

I stood from my chair, taking the letter between my fingers.

“Have a nice weekend,” he said, before turning to leave.

“Yeah, thanks.” Turning the envelope over in my hands, I read the return address. Slumping down in my chair, because my legs couldn’t hold me up, I stared at the letter. I had just been summoned to Nowheresville, Maryland, next week.

***

I packed a bag and headed straight for the airport, a million scenarios running through my head. I was being summoned to testify in court. The case was Janet Hallows vs. Nathan Rodgers. I honestly hadn’t thought about Nate since I moved up here. He was in my past, a past that wasn’t supposed to make a reappearance.

I called my dad on the way to the airport. I had kept my promise and I talked to him almost every day. It was hard at first. He was mad at me for leaving, but our conversations got easier.

I told him about my new life, my new friends, hell I even told him I was dating. My father reciprocated by telling me the entire goings on at the bar. He hired a few new girls to take my place, and Kara was still running the bar like a well-oiled machine. He told me the guys were still playing every once in a while, but they were on tour with another band. He’d always stop there because I’d change the subject.

Kane was a big part of why I left, I was just happy to know that he was doing well. I didn’t need details. It hurt too much when my father would tell me how down he was, or how he’d drink himself stupid over me leaving. We’d end up fighting over the phone, and I’d eventually hang up, but either he or I would call back the next day. After about a month or so, my father stopped bringing it up. He would tell me funny stories about the guys but never pinpointed Kane.

The only thing I knew about him now was that he was on tour, opening for 4 Alliance. I hadn’t talked to him or any of the guys. I tried calling JJ once but he didn’t answer. I didn’t leave a message, and he didn’t call back. I understood why. I had hurt his best friend, but I missed the guys, I missed seeing them in the beginning. They were such a big part of my life those four months I was there. But time went on, and it got easier--kind of.

I waited, sitting in a cab that smelt like a potpourri jar.
One ring, no answer. Two rings, nothing. Dammit.

“Hello.”

I froze on the other end; I was going to have to tell him about Nate, if he didn’t already know. “Hey, Dad.”

“I guess you got your letter?” he asked.

“Yeah, I got it. Do you know what it’s about?”

Now, there was silence on his end and I knew without a doubt he did.

“Yes, I know. I’ve known since you left.”

“How did you--”

“Kane,” he said, cutting me off. “He told me everything.”

Why am I just finding out about this?
“Why didn’t you tell me? And why the hell did Kane tell you? I asked him to keep it to himself.”

“Well, Caroline, when you just packed up and left without giving anyone, especially Kane, time to process, I guess telling me everything was his way of getting over you.”

“Dad, you knew I wasn’t staying. He knew I wasn’t staying. Are we really going to have this conversation again?”

“Caroline, you put us through hell by leaving. I love that boy like a son and to see him spiral downward was almost as hard as watching you leave me, again.”

We had had this same conversation or some version of it at least twenty times before and, frankly, I was tired of explaining myself.

“Dad, I said I was sorry. I’m not the same girl that left you high and dry when Mom died. I’ve called you every day, you’ve come to visit me. I don’t know what else you want me to do. This is my life. I grew up, moved away. I can’t stay with you forever.”

“I know that, I do, but dammit, Caroline, you broke that boy’s heart, his spirit, by running away like you did.” His voice got deeper with his impending anger.

“Dad...” I didn’t know what to say to him. I knew that I had done all those things. My heart was breaking too, but people moved on. I had moved on--I had tried to move on.

CHAPTER 36

Kane

“Baby, what’s wrong?”

A tender hand came up my arm as I lay on my side in bed.
What was wrong with me?
I turned over in bed, meeting a concerned face, green eyes, and black hair. Every morning for two months, I expected to see a mane of blonde hair, liquid blue eyes, but every morning it wasn’t, because she was gone.