Never Say Goodbye (25 page)

After about twenty minutes, Chad emerges from his room.

“Where’s the food?” he asks. At least he has an appetite.

“It’s coming
bro, relax,” Nathan says.

“Sorry about being an ass lately,” he says to Nathan.

“Don’t worry about it, you had good reasons.”

“So fill me in on you two, what’s happening there?” he says
, with a knowing smile.

I look to Nathan and then to Chad, Nathan does the same, yet neither of us says a word.

“Seriously dude, you did not punch Levi for no fucking reason, so spill,” he says waiting excitedly for gossip.

“Wait, what? You punched Levi, When? Why?” I ask shocked and surprised.

I see Nathan glare at Chad for mentioning that information, but I’m not backing down now, I want details.

“It was nothing, let it go,” Nathan says.

“Hell no, you better tell me,” I say piercing him with serious eyes.

“I’ll tell her, it was pretty funny,” Chad says
, as he laughs thinking about it.

“Fine, tell me,” I say sitting with my arms
firmly crossed across my chest.

“We overheard Sophie talking about how pissed she was that Levi never called to check on you. That you tried to justify it, but you couldn’t because you guys are friends
. So when we got back to campus, lover boy here drove straight to the dickheads’ house.” Chad starts to laugh, Nathan looks anywhere, but at me.

“He stormed into the house, grabbed him and beat the shit out of him, and then we left. I think it’s safe to say, he probably won’t call you
ever again,” Chad says, still laughing.

I just stare, dumbfounded at the news I’m just told. Nathan beat Levi up because he never called me? Wow.

“So why did you beat him up and not just punch him a time or two?” I ask out of nowhere.

Chad starts laughing hysterically, “Shit, are you kidding me Liv, he was ready to pounce on that fucker since the first time he saw you with him.”

I now just stare at Nathan, waiting for him to say something.

“What, he’s a bitch,” he says like it’s nothing.

“Is that so?” I say with a laugh.

Luckily for Nathan the conversation ends
, because the doorbell rings, pizza’s here.

The three of us spend the rest of the evening talking, laughing, and watching silly television.

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“What time is Chad comin
g,” Megan asks from the doorway of my bedroom.

“He should be here soon,” I tell her as I finish throwing my hair up in a ponytail.

“If you need any help, Sawyer and I can help,” she says kindly.

“Thanks, I think we can handle it though.”

“Alright,” she says with a sad smile as she glances around Brynn’s side of the room before leaving.

A few minutes later Chad walks hesitantly in the room.

“Hey.”

“Hey Liv,” he says looking towards the floor.

“It’s going to be okay Chad, remember what we talked about last night,” I remind him.

“I know
, it just doesn’t make it any easier to know she’s never coming back.”

“I know. Which side would you like to start on?” I ask nervously.

“I guess I’ll start over here,” he says as he grabs a box off my bed and heads in the direction of her vanity.

We don’t say anything for a good twenty minutes, and I know I need to say something. The look on Chad’s face is only getting worse. I knew it would be hard for him, but he needs to do this.

“Chad, tell me something you loved about Brynn?” I ask with a small smile.

“What’s there not to love about her, she was perfect,” he says sadly.

He makes me laugh out loud, “Seriously? Are you talking about the same girl? She was a firecracker I’ll give you that, but she was far from perfect, even she would have told you that.”

A small smile slips from his face, “You’re right. I guess I loved how
she would dive head first into things and when she did something, she was all in. I admired her for that.”

“Me too.”

“But you’re right, when she was pissed, you didn’t want to be anywhere near her for fear you wouldn’t come out alive,” he says with a laugh.

“Aww so true, so true.
It was great for me because usually I wasn’t on the receiving end of that,” I tell him with a laugh.

“Shit, I can’t say the same,” he says with a laugh.

“She loved you though, you need to know that.”

“I know and Liv I do love her, even now, I’ll always love her,” he says as his eyes get watery.

“I know, me too. She will always be a part of our lives. I don’t think she’d let us live any other way,” I state truthfully.

“Damn, don’t I know it,” he says smiling.

We spend the next two hours talking, laughing, and reminiscing about the girl who made such a huge impact in both our lives.

“Did you want to take anything else?” I ask Chad as he sets down the small bag of things he’s keeping of Brynn’s.

“No, this is good,” he says with a smile.

“Thanks for today Liv,” he says as he sits on Brynn’s old bed, “You were right, this did help.”

“I’m glad. It helped me to. What are your plans for the rest of the day?” I ask changing the conversation.

“Just hanging out with your boy,” he says with a smirk.

“I don’t have a guy Chad, you already know this.”

He starts to laugh, “You know you’re going to end up with Nate right?” he says out of thin air.

“What? No, I don’t know that,” I say quickly.

“It’s going to happen. The way you two stare at each other, you might as well stop undressing each other with your eyes and just do it already,” he says laughing.

I throw a pillow at his head, “I don’t do that,” I retort quickly. Though it has crossed my mind what he looks like without clothes on. Stop, can’t go there right now.

“I’m not stupid and yeah you do, you both do. Make a move, let him know he didn’t royally fuck things up with you when we were being jackasses to you,” he says like it’s easy.

“Yeah, sure, you make it seem so simple.”

“It is. Girls…you make shit way too complicated,” he says laughing, “Seriously Liv, make a move, and please do it soon. The man needs to get laid,” he says with a devilish smirk.

“What makes you think I’m that type of girl?” I ask harshly.

“Oh you’re not. Brynn already told me,” he says laughing, “Levi…that I will never understand, but to each its own
, I guess.”

“What did Brynn tell you?” I say frustrated.

“That you’ve had sex with two people, one from high school and the other being Levi. Yeah, Nate wasn’t happy hearing that,” he says with another laugh.

“You told him?” I scold.

“Hell yeah, why wouldn’t I? Now do you understand why he hates Levi so much?”

Nathan hates Levi, because of me?

“No, I don’t really understand,” I say looking confused as hell.

“Levi had what Nate wants. It’s pretty simple,” he says
, like I should already know this.

“Nathan doesn’t want me, maybe our friendship, but I’m sure that’s it. He’s never done or said anything otherwise.”

“Oh Liv, I really didn’t take you for a dumb person. So you’re telling me when you two had to make out and you had to give him a lap dance, you couldn’t tell he wanted you?” he says, piercing me with his eyes.

I’m sure I look
ed like a deer in headlights, because yeah I could tell during that moment, but what guy wouldn’t get turned on by a girl stripping and giving a lap dance?

“End the man’s misery would you? I’ll see you later,” he says as he picks up his bag of Brynn’s belongings and walks out the door.

Nathan likes me, like really likes me? I mean growing up as best friends is one thing, wanting me is entirely different.

I can’t help but be excited about this possible information.

Chapter Twenty-Two

To say things have been going my way would be an understatement. As much as I want to pursue Nathan, I’m a chicken shit.

Now, their basketball season is underway and he has practice all the time, and when he’s not practicing, he’s in the gym.

Damn me and my nerves.

It’s been exactly one month since Brynn passed away. I have my moments, but I keep reminding myself she’s in a better place. I know she’s probably cursing me for a bunch of shit too.

Sophie recently moved into Brynn’s side of the room and at first it freaked me out, but I’m getting used to it now.

I’m hanging out with Nathan and Chad tonight after their practice, so hopefully by then, I can build up the nerve to do something.

And Chad was right about Levi, I haven’t heard or seen him since Brynn was killed. Whatever Nathan said to him must have made him scared. I heard from a few people that he had a busted up face and lots of bruises, so I’m
guessing it made an impact.

He was a friend though and it was fun hanging out with him, so I’m sad to see I lost a friend, but was he really ever my friend if he wouldn’t
even call to check up on me? I guess not.

I decide to head over to Chad and Nathan’s place around 7 p.m.

“Hey Liv,” Chad says as he lets me in.

“Hey, how was practice?”

“Fucking sucked, I’m beat,” he says looking tired and sore.

“Oh, well if you guys don’t want to hang out, we can do it another time.”

“Umm, actually it’s just you and me, Nate’s got a date,” he says with a big smile.

Shit, I guess I did wait too long.

I guess Chad can tell I’m bummed by my facial express, “Liv, I’m kidding, that was too easy,” he says as he starts to laugh.

I slap him on the arm, causing him to say ouch.

“That wasn’t nice,” I spat.

“Then you better do something about it, because
chicks try to pick him up every fucking day,” he says, as if it’s something I don’t already know.

“Thanks for the reminder,” I mumble.

“Anytime sweetheart, anytime,” he says still laughing.

We head into the living room
and I take a seat on the couch.

“So is tonight the night?”
Chad asks out of nowhere.

“Is what tonight?” I ask confused.

“You going to make a move or what?” he says staring at me.

“I don’t know. How do I plan something like that?” I ask
, looking for any guidance he can offer.

“You can’t plan it Liv. You’ve known the guy for ages, so yeah he may have treated you like shit for reasons he thought were legit, but deep down he’s still that kid you knew.”

“Yeah, sure, plus lots of muscles, tattoos, and sexy as hell,” I say, more to myself than to Chad.

“Who’s sexy as hell?” Nathan says as he
enters the room.

I can feel my face turn beat red, unsure of what to say.

“Me, dipshit,” Chad says with a smile.

“Ha
, yeah sure,” he says as he sits on the couch, opposite ends from me.

“So what’s on the agenda for tonight?” Nathan asks looking between me and Chad.

“Well sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but I’m backing out. Next time,” he says as he heads towards his bedroom.

“So?” he says piercing me with his eyes.

“So, what?” I ask confused.

“What do you want to do tonig
ht?” he says with a sexy smile.

“Umm whatever you want is fine,” I say slightly nervous.
He starts to laugh, “What’s so funny?” I ask, looking directly at him.

“O, what’s going on?”

“Nothing, why?” I ask feigning ignorance.

“Because something’s wrong.
You are fidgety, quiet, you turned bright red when I walked in, so tell me what’s going on,” he says looking at me intently.

“I guess I’m just a little nervous,” I say half truthfully.

“Continue,” is all he says.

“That’s it, nothing else to say,” I say hoping we can change the topic, “Can we watch a movie?”

“Sure, scary it is,” he says as he stands and pulls a scary movie from the pile and puts it in the Blu-ray player, “Would you like anything to eat or drink?” he asks kindly.

“No
pe, I’m good right now,” I tell him before he sits back down beside me on the couch.

He doesn’t touch the lights, but he doesn’t need to, they are already on the lowest setting possible.

After about ten minutes Nathan asks, “Do you mind if I lie down?”

“Sure, can I lay with you?” I find the nerve to ask.

“Yeah,” he says as I stand up so he can get comfortable before I lay down, “Okay, come here.”

And I do. I lay, my back to his front, using his arm as a pillow
.

He rests his other arm by my hip, but I pull it so it’s wrapped around me.

“I missed you,” I whisper.

“I missed you too O,” he says
then presses a kiss to my head.

“I’m sorry for what our parent’s did to us.”

“You don’t have any reason to apologize, you didn’t know.”

“But still, you practically hated me,” I say
, blowing out a deep breath.

“I never hated you, I couldn’t hate you.”

“You were so mean, it was pretty close to hate,” I say, bringing up a conversation that we don’t need to have.

“I was angry; you broke my heart as a kid. We were best friends, but it was so much more than that,” he says sounding regretful.

“And here I thought you broke my heart. I had this whole thing figured out in my head,” I say honestly.

“What thing?”

“That we’d always be best friends, would do everything together and one day get married, have kids, you know, that sort of thing,” I state matter of fact.

“Aww O, was I your prince charming?” he says reminding me of the princess movies I used to make him watch.

“You were my everything,” I say as I feel my eyes start to get teary eyed.

Nathan moves and he pulls me to where I’m lying on my back, staring in to his beautiful blue eyes. He continues to stare into my eyes, not saying a word.

I don’t give him time to say anything, much less think; I pull his head down for our lips to connect.

Nathan kisses bac
k, never pulling away from me.

Oh, how I’ve waited for this to happen again.

I start out slow, not sure how he will react, but I can feel him start to kiss me with determination. I open my mouth slightly giving into the temptation that is Nathan, and he takes advantage of it. He’s tasting my mouth, and devouring me.

His kisses feel like an electric shock is going through my body. I can’t even begin to
explain the pull he has on me and my body.

He starts to slowly pull his lips away from mine, “Please, don’t stop,” I plead.

“O, we should probably talk more first,” he says as he kisses the tip of my nose.

“What’s there to talk about?” I ask abruptly.

“Us,” he says in a calming tone.

“What about us? You know I want you, hell I’ve always wanted you. I’ve been in love with you since we were kids,” I say
, shocking the hell out of him based on his facial expression.

He’s looking at me and his eyes darken, I can tell what I said affected him, but he’s not saying anything in response.

“Nathan,” I say taking his face in my hands so he’s looking me directly in the eyes, “I want you, only you. Yes, you were an asshole, but you had a good reason, but it doesn’t change how I’ve always felt about you.”

“Shit,” he says as he moves off of me and sits up on the opposite end of the couch.

Oh no, what the hell did I do? Maybe I read the signs wrong. Maybe he’s not interested in me, maybe Chad was wrong.

“Liv…look, if we take things further than kissing, it’s going to be because you’re mine, no one else’s. I won’t share, I’ll never fucking share you,” he says in a demanding tone piercing me with his dark beautiful blues.

“Good, then we are on the same page,” I say with a smile.

“No Liv, we aren’t. I lost you once, I’ll be damned if I lose you again. I need you to really think about what you want because if it’s anything else, then we need to stop now.”

“Nathan,” I say as I crawl toward him on the couch, “I want you, now, and always,” I tell him happily.

Nathan crushes his mouth to mine, “You have no idea how much I wanted to hear you say that,” he says as he pulls me onto his lap where I’m straddling him.

I rock back and forth on his growing erection, telling him I want more. I’ve dreamed of this day with him.

I reach down and pull his tee-shi
rt off, revealing his beautiful chiseled chest.

I’m not sure what I want to do first, do I lick his chest and pay special attention to his tattoos, or do I head further south, or just stick with kissing right this second?

“Is there a reason you’re staring at my chest in the dark?” he asks with a slight laugh.

“Sorry, just debating on where I want to start,” I say licking my lips.

“How about here?” he says pointing to his lips, then presses his lips to mine.

After what feels like hours kissing, I pull away, “Bedroom, now,” I demand.

I try to stand, but Nathan doesn’t give me the option. His lips are back on mine, and his arms are firmly around my waist keeping me in place.

I have no idea how he does it, but he stands with me still around his waist. I wrap my legs
firmly around him and he walks us to his bedroom, his lips never leaving mine.

After he kicks the door shut
, he leads us to the bed. I have no idea how he doesn’t knock anything over, but he doesn’t.

He slowly
lays me on the bed with him planted firmly between my thighs. I can’t help but run my hands over his arms and his back feeling nothing but muscles.

Damn he’s built.

I lean forward to pull my shirt, but he beats me to it and pulls it over my head slowly. As he tosses the shirt, he somehow uses one hand and unhooks my bra. Wow, talk about a multi-tasker. I remove my arms from the bra and that goes sailing to the floor.

I try to reach down to unhook his pants, but he catches my hands and pins them above my head.

Pinning my hands with one of his, he uses the other to unbutton and unzip my jeans.

I let out a whimper. He’s holding me in place teasing my body and I want nothing more than to climb him like a monkey.

He takes a taut nipple into his mouth and lightly bites causing me to moan.

He starts licking and sucking hard on my erect nipples causing me to moan loudly. I wiggle beneath him trying to get closer.

He unpins my hands and moves to pull the jeans from my legs. I’m laying here in my pink thong, that’s soaked with want.

He takes his jeans off and they fall to the floor. He’s in nothing but a pair of boxer briefs that let little to the imagination.

I feel my mouth water just watching this beautiful man.

I reach down between our bodies pushing his underwear down to reveal his glorious erection.

I try to take him in my hand and feel the tip of his ever ready erection, surprised with running over something round.

“What’s that?” I ask nervously as I touch the ball again.

“A piercing,” he says in between kisses to my nipples, like it’s no big deal.

“You have your dick pierced?” I say louder than intended.

“Yeah,” he says as he brings his lips to meet mine again.

I have so many questions running through my head that I want to ask
, but figure they’re probably better to ask at another time.

“I’m dying to taste you,” he says as he peels my thong off my body.

Just hearing him talk like that is driving me insane.

“Then what are you waiting for?” I say excitedly.

He wastes no time licking at my core. I move when I feel him enter me with two fingers, wanting him inside of me.

“Damn O, you’re so wet,” he says as he continues his assault with his tongue.

“Nathan, I want you inside of me now,” I argue.

He stops moving his
mouth, his fingers, everything.

“O, I’ve waited for this moment for years, don’t rush me. I have ten years to make up for,” he says in a dark sexy tone.

“Ten years? We wouldn’t have had sex at nine silly.”

“Y
ou know what I mean. Patience sweetheart, patience,” he says as his fingers start sliding in and out of me, while his tongue starts to move at my core.

I
grab his hair and lightly tug.

“Oh shit, yes, yes right there,” I moan, while holding his head in place.