One Good Hustle (9 page)

I don’t know if Marlene’s just being a brat or if she’s actually gone crazy. At the end of that call, she didn’t sound crazy. She sounded pissed off.

What the fuck is she
doing?
I don’t get it. And where the hell is Sam? What if he called Jill’s house and they never told me? Maybe they forgot to write it down on the little pad on the wall. I wonder if I should just phone him again. Just to say hi. That’s what a normal daughter would do.

I need to think. I need to feel air in my hair. I wish I could be in a convertible, by the ocean, downtown at English Bay. A person like me should live downtown.

I keep walking west on Kingsway in the direction of downtown Vancouver. It’s only about seven or eight miles from here. Man, I’d like to move back to town. Marlene says I’m an urban snob. Fact is we were both die-hard urbanites before Sam buggered off, and even then, for the first couple of years at least, we managed to stay in the city. Until all that shit happened. One bad hustle pretty much turned Marlene off The Life for good. Mostly it was welfare after that. And moving farther and farther east every year, to cheaper and cheaper places, until we were smack in the middle of Burnaby. The Burbs.

Burnaby used to have one thing going for it—I was closer to Drew. But now I can’t bear to look him in the eye. Not after everything he’s seen. He sure as hell didn’t need to know about Marlene and me. I should never have phoned him that night; I should have kept him pure and separate from our bullshit.

But it was getting so I started to really panic when Marlene didn’t come home till late. Once upon a time, she used to leave me notes. Then that whole note thing went out the window. Meanwhile, if I’d ever disappeared and didn’t call or leave a note to say where I was, she would’ve
peaked!
It felt like the only thing worse than Marlene being home was waiting for Marlene to come home. Three nights before I left, I got so freaked out, I wrapped my arms around my knees and sat there on the couch, squeezing and rocking back and forth like some mental patient. What if she got hurt, who’d call me? I got so riled I actually found Fat Freddy’s number and phoned him.

I had to go into Marlene’s file box for his number. Marlene has a small plastic file box with alphabetized index cards that detail every bar she ever hit with the Birthday Girl and a few other scams. She used to be very systematic. She wrote down the town, the bar, the bartender, the jewellery involved and who she was with at the time. This stuff dates back to when Sam was around. Freddy’s card has his phone number and any leads that are specific to Freddy. The details are coded. I don’t think a cop would ever know what he was reading.

“Heya, kid,” said Freddy when he picked up. “Na, I haven’t seen your mother lately. I figured she was either workin’ solo or lambin’ it. Ha ha …” That’s Fat Freddy for you, like some prehistoric creature from the late, late show. My dad kind of talks like that too. Sam calls crooked guys “rounders” and regular guys “square johns.” I was pretty old before I realized most people don’t talk that way.

“You all alone over there, Sammie?”

“My boyfriend’s here,” I lied.

“Uh-oh! I won’t tell if you don’t!”

Talking to Freddy only made me more paranoid.

I hung up. But I couldn’t shake that black-cloud kind of feeling. I got out the White Pages and flipped chunks of grey leaves. It was almost nine o’clock now.

I started by phoning hospitals to see if she’d ended up in the emergency ward: Burnaby General, Vancouver General, St. Paul’s. It wasn’t as if Marlene had never had a wreck in the past. She’d totalled that old Nova of hers last year.

When the hospitals didn’t have her, I wondered if she’d be stupid enough to get drunk and try to work. Marlene’s not the kind of girl to learn from her mistakes. And what if she got busted? Who’d call me?

I phoned the main police station downtown. When they answered, I hung up. People like us don’t call cops.

Then I panicked some more.

There are perfectly legit reasons to call the cops, I told myself. Normal people call the cops all the time.

I phoned back. I asked if anyone had come across a woman called Marlene Bell.

The cop laughed. “No. Should we be expecting her?”

“She’s—She should be home and I thought … an accident, maybe.”

Silence on his end, and then, “Okay, why don’t I call you back if I hear anything? Who knows, eh?”

I couldn’t hang up now. That’d be suspicious. What if he traced the call?

Normal people phone the police
.

I told him my number.

An hour later he called back. They had Marlene.

I asked if she was okay. “Will she lose her driver’s licence?”

“She wasn’t driving. We found her wandering around Broadway and Main. If you want to come get her—actually, we’ll hang on to her for a couple more hours, let her sober up. Come after midnight. You driving?”

“I don’t have my licence yet,” I mumbled. “I just turned sixteen.”

His silence was the worst part. “Do you have someone you can call?” he finally asked. “And bring her some clothes.”

“Clothes?”

“She was wearing a sleeping bag and one clog when we picked her up. Come by anytime after midnight.” He rattled off the address.

Who do you call when your mother’s in jail? How totally screwed is that?

Who did I have? My dad? No. Fat Freddy? Forget it. Who? Drew. I had Drew. Drew was the only one in the world who really gave a shit.

I called his house and his mother answered. “It’s ten-thirty at night, Samantha.” Her voice was suspicious and tinny.

Drew’s mother had my number all right. Drew told me once that she’d said I was a bad apple.

She called her son and told him to be quick about it.

I kept swallowing and looking at the clock. After midnight, the cop had said. How could Drew help me after midnight?
And if he did help me then he’d know. He’d know who I was and what kind of people I come from. For real.

Drew pulled up in his dad’s car at five to one. He had told me he’d be there at quarter past twelve. “What took you so long?”

“You think he just handed me the keys? My dad’ll shit a brick if he catches me.”

“Sorry.”

He glanced down at my hands. “What’s in the bag?”

“Nothing.” I scrunched the plastic in my lap. “Clothes. Can we go?”

Drew carefully put the car into drive. Streetlights illuminated the hard, red bumps on his skin, turning them purple in the night. He was so embarrassed about his zits. In this light they made him look wounded. I wished we could be quiet and hug for a long time. But we didn’t do that sort of thing. Drew and I aren’t touchy types. So, instead, we eased forward, Drew’s hands firmly at ten and two o’clock on the wheel.

As we got closer to the station, the streets got grimier and lonelier—as if the whole neighbourhood was a place that served you right for being a screw-up. It was past one-thirty when we parked in front of the station, a big, ugly brick building with small, caged windows lit yellow. Drew turned off the ignition.

“I can’t do this,” I blurted.

He looked at me. “You want me to go? I’ll go.”

I nodded and handed him the bag of clothes. He handed me the car key. “In case you want to listen to the radio or something.” He got out.

He blinked up at the police station a moment. I watched his skinny legs as he climbed the concrete steps.

Once he disappeared through the doors, I stared at the dashboard and listened to the engine click as it cooled.

“
I’ll kill you!
” someone yelled. I twisted around to see two guys staggering down the block. One guy threw a fist into the other’s chest and sent him sprawling. These two assholes were loose and Marlene was behind bars. In the movies, they always make it look all adorable when some chick is drunk off her butt. But in real life, people hate her—they want to make her disappear.

I clicked the lock down on my door.

Eventually Drew and my mom pushed through the front doors, Drew with a red-plaid sleeping bag under one arm and his opposite hand under my mother’s elbow. Marlene pulled free, leaned on the banister and slid the rest of the way down the stairs. She stumbled off the last step and Drew caught her elbow again.

Giggling, she said, “You are my prince,” and grabbed Drew’s face.

“Shut up,” I said to the dashboard.

“God, you’re
cute!
” she yelled at him.

Drew kept a hand across her back and brought her over to the passenger side. I shoved my door open. Marlene’s face lit up when I got out.

Then, reading my eyes, she said, “Oops. I’m in trouble. My little girl thinks I’m a
loo-hoo-hooser
.” She made an
L
out of her thumb and finger and planted it on her forehead.

I handed Drew the keys and got into the back. I wanted her up front, not sitting behind me, playing with my hair or trying to maul me. I watched Marlene watching Drew as he closed the passenger door and I wished we had put her in the trunk.

As he walked around to the driver’s side, Marlene turned around in her seat and looked at me. “He’s a
doll
,” she said. “You should marry him.” She blinked and then reached for my face. “Look how pretty you are … my angel. You’re my sweet angel.” She went suddenly serious. “If it weren’t for you, I’d be dead, you know.”

My mother’s fingers kept reaching, and so I leaned forward, took hold of them and pressed them to my cheek. Her eyes welled up until tears dribbled down.

You’d think, after everything, that Marlene would have given up hustling and drinking. That she’d have gotten religion—maybe joined a choir! Instead, it was me nosing around the church pews hunting for peace and someplace quiet.

It was going on three in the morning by the time we got back. Marlene giggled as Drew and I steadied her down the hall of our building. Coming through the apartment door she started to groan about being tired.

“I got to catch a few Zs,” she said. “A few Zs!” she repeated, and laughed her head off.

I flicked the light on in our hall. Drew had never been in our apartment and now the dirt on the walls stood out in relief,
the stains on the carpet, the stale smell of the place. He seemed to avert his eyes, trying not to look around.

Marlene suddenly grabbed Drew’s chin and kissed his cheek with a loud smack. “Jesus Christ, you’re cute,” she said.

“You too,” he told her. “I think we should put you to bed.”

“Are you coming?” she asked.

“No,” he said with a jittery laugh. “I have to go home.”

“You can take off now,” I said. “We’re good.” Drew stared at me and I looked away. “I mean it’s late. You don’t have to stick around.”

Drew let Marlene’s arm go as I pulled her toward her bedroom.

“Why is everybody leaving?” she said.

I didn’t answer.

Her room smelled of stale booze. I didn’t bother to turn the lights on as I shouldered her to the bed. I pulled the rumpled covers back and what sounded like a glass hit the rug, along with a few other bits of junk. I gave her a light shove and she squealed as she hit the mattress.

“
Show me the way to go home
,” she sang, “
I’m tired and I want to go to bed
.” She interrupted herself with, “I’m hungry.”

“Tough.” I took off her shoes, hauled her legs onto the bed and yanked the covers over her.

After closing her door behind me, I went back into the hall to where Drew stood waiting.

“Do you want me to—?”

“Okay, well, thanks,” I said, cutting him off as I headed for the front door.

“Are you going to be all right?” He glanced back at my mother’s room and followed me.

“Yup. I’ll talk to you later.” Opening the door, I kept my eyes on the rug.

He paused, stuttering a little before he said, “Do you have, like, a social worker type thing? Because of the welfare?”

“No,” I snapped. I forgot I’d told him about us being on welfare. But how else could I explain how we paid the rent? “I mean, some chick comes nosing around once a year to make sure we’re not rich. But I’m not calling her.”

“Maybe you should,” he said. “I’m scared if you don’t—” His eyes flicked away. “I’ll talk to my mom. She—” Drew stuttered till his words went straight again. “Maybe you could sleep in my brother’s old bed.”

“That’s very um—No, I’m—” I could feel my face getting hot. Drew came from people who were clean and good and right. I held the door open farther and kept my eyes away from his. “I’m okay. I’ll talk to you later.”

He stepped into the hallway, turned and looked at me. I should have said something more, but I just closed the door. Flicking off the light I leaned against the wall until I heard him moving down the hallway.

I haven’t talked to Drew since. I can’t look at him and I don’t want him looking at me. I wish to hell I’d just left her in the drunk tank that night.

NINE

I WALKED AND
walked, staring at the sidewalk, thinking of Drew. Plus what a fuck-up Marlene is these days. And when I look around me, I realize that after twenty minutes of walking, all I’ve done is get closer to her. I try to picture Ruby and Lou standing in my mother’s living room.
Mind your own business, you tubby little dyke
.