"Fuckin' packed Upstairs, huh?" he said, under a belch. "We should open a bar.
I
should. Front somebody the liquor license. Drinking and money, combine my two loves."
Doug said, "Not so sure how well a gay bar would do here."
Gloansy howled, stamping the floor, Jem smiling like he had the secret murder of a thousand men on his mind. Doug turned, seeing himself in the bar mirror, Krista having arrived at his side without a word.
"Bully's was fucking hoppin'," said Jem. "We started there. Pitchers, he serves. And no cock-ass tourists."
"Bully's clears maybe twenty cents a beer," said Doug. "And no ladies show up there without they wheel in their own oxygen."
Splash was yelling at them from the end of the bar, pointing upstairs, disappearing.
"Old McDonough chased us outta there," said Jem. "Weaving around the place, waving his fucking walking stick, offering up laments for the Town. Weepy, bandy-legged old fraud."
"Lived all his life three streets down from me," said Gloansy, swiping at his nose with glee. "So how's it his brogue gets thicker every year?"
"It's the fucking brain damage," said Jem. "This guy needs to be put down humanely. Bumming pitcher hits off everybody, singing his songs. Making his toasts. How the old Town is gone, gone, gone..."
Doug felt Krista lean into him, making
Hi, I'm here
hip contact. Of all the associations the Tap Downstairs held for him, hers was the strongest. Once upon a time they had ruled this cellar together, back when Doug's nights never ended. Downstairs was old territory and so was she. Old habits he had kicked but kept close. The only difference being, beer bottles couldn't jump down off the shelf and rub against him.
Doug started a little trouble to distract himself. "Isn't it, though? Isn't it all gone now?"
Jem smacked the air with a grandiose backhand. "Fuck that."
"So it's not gone? It's just hibernating? Taking a little break?"
"These things're cyclical," said Jem, the last word rising up on him like a curb.
"Sickle-lickle," said Doug. "You think those bananas upstairs're going to drop all this money on real estate here, and someday just walk away from it?"
"Run, not walk," said Jem. "I got a plan."
"You got a plan," said Doug. He looked to Gloansy. "He's got a plan."
"I do have a plan," said Jem. "You know sometimes I feel like the last fuckin' sentry on the watch here. The only one who fuckin' cares about the auld Town at all."
Dez came up on them then, rapping knuckles with Doug and singing, "Here he is among us!"
Doug slowed him down with mock-seriousness. "Jem has a plan."
"Ah," said Dez, draining his High Life, eyes shining behind his eyeglasses. "About blowing up synagogues again?"
Jem horselaughed, then punched Dez in the left tit.
"Taking back the town," said Doug. "Turning back time. Being Marty McFly and all."
"Ho, yeah, great idea," said Dez, rubbing his chest, but not backing down. "I'm all nostalgic for those busing riots and street-corner stabbings."
Jem feigned at Dez again, then let it go, confident enough in his drunken scheme to proceed, showing them a scarred-knuckle peace sign. "Two options."
Doug repeated this for the benefit of the others. "Two options."
"F'r'instance, lookit these twats right here." They came off the rubber-carpeted stairs together-- safety in numbers-- like candle-holding virgins entering a horror-movie cave. One wore a shapeless black blouse, the other a mint green cashmere sweater hanging over her shoulders, sleeves knotted into a tit-covering bow. "The papers're right-- it's single women overrunning the Town. Neighborhoods're safe, there's street spaces for their fuckin' Hondas and Volkswagens, and so on. Now I ask you, are we seeing any of this action?" He pointed up. "I think not. We gonna go sit Upstairs with the turtlenecks, sipping Chablis, fuckin' sweaters tied around our waists?"
"Sipping Chablis." Gloansy appreciated that one.
"Gotta scare them all out of Town. How? Okay. First thing would be, a chemical spill. The environment, bad air. Fumes. They start worrying about their ovaries, all that. So fucking health-conscious it makes
me
sick. Then? Like, a serial rapist."
Doug nodded at his reasoning. "You planning on handling that work yourself?"
"Just rumors, that's all you need. Put it out there. This 'safe neighborhood' rap-- that's what's bringing them in by the carload. Make it unsafe. Put a little fear in them, and--
fffft!
The sound of housing prices falling all over Town."
"So basically," said Dez, upon a moment's reflection, "you'd shit in your own backyard just to keep people away."
Doug said, "I think it's foolproof."
"Fucking
genius
is what it is," said Gloansy.
Splash reappeared with four uncapped High Lifes tangled in his fingers. "You guys're onna tear tonight. Hadda hit Upstairs for more cold ones."
"And four more again," said Jem, dealing out the brews, setting one down on the bar in front of Doug.
Miller High Life had always been their weapon of choice. A tawny brew, cold gold in a crystal-clear, long-neck bottle. The Champagne of Beers. Something about the label always reminded Doug of a bill of currency, the easy-twist cap a serrated silver coin.
Jem had laid a loaded gun down in front of him-- the bottle waiting, misting.
Krista leaned around Doug. "Jesus, Jimmy."
Jem guzzled his, coming back angry. "Fuck's your problem?"
"You."
"
I'm
your problem? Think I'm more like your freeloadin' fuckin' solution."
"Don't be a drunk prick. Pick one, be a drunk or a prick, but don't be both."
"So long as you're drinking on my dollar, why don't you just
shut the fuck
."
She squinted at him like he was so far away. "What's wrong with you? This is like the same thing with you bringing Ma all those fucking pastries."
Jem's eyes went dead white. If he reached around to smack Krista, Doug would get dragged into it, and the last thing he wanted to do was rescue her from anything. The truth was that Krista preferred Doug drunk and pliable too, but right now her brother was a convenient, common enemy.
And then, just as suddenly, some blue leaked back into Jem's eyes and he smiled, if only to himself. He leaned in close to Doug's elbow. "You understand me, right?"
"Well as anyone," said Doug.
"We always said, did we not-- one of us takes a fall, the others keep the split going four ways, hold his cut. That's what this is. I buy a round? I buy four, always four. You die tomorrow, and I buy a round tomorrow night? I buy four. You're always in for a quarter. Even in this jail of yours, serving your own self-sworn sentence. In my head I been count-culating your share these past two years-- "
"Count-culating?"
"I-- fuck you-- been
calculating
your share, and you're in for a motherfucking bitchload. When the floodgates open, brother, you drink free and long-- on me. This is my
brother
right here!" he announced to the bar, standing up on the foot pipe as four more beers arrived. "This is my
sister
here, and this is my fuckin'
brother
!"
Heads turned, but there were no cheers, nothing like that, the Downstairs accustomed to his outbursts. Jem killed his beer, then traded his empty for a new one, his sudden affection carrying him away into the room. Dez extracted from Doug the promise of an ass-kicking later at the bubble hockey table, and then Gloansy disappeared, Doug finding himself alone with Krista at the bar.
She pushed aside her half-empty bourbon and Coke and took up Doug's untouched beer. He tried not to watch as she drank half of it. "Proud of you," she said.
"Yeah." Flat smile.
"I mean it. Strongest guy I've ever known. Stronger than any of these-- "
"Yeah, okay." Doug got Splash's attention, pointed for another soda.
Krista took another pull, running her knee along the outside of Doug's thigh. "What was it that happened to us? Haven't we come through all that bullshit now? I mean-- here we are, the two of us. Still."
"Still."
"If you think about it honestly," she said, choppy, dirty-blond hair falling off her ears in daggers, "is there anyone else for either of us? All this history that we have."
The tilted bar mirror gave Doug a good scope on the room. Dez had retreated to his jukebox confessional. Joanie sat on a stack of Beck's cases, one hand gripping a Bud bottle, the other hooked in Gloansy's back pocket while her drunken fiance tossed off a nasty compliment at a woman walking past. Jem was back with the two unknowns-- Townie kids, young and eager-- regaling them with his stories, hands out like he was revving a Harley, getting laughs. The kids listened like bright-eyed disciples, and Doug felt an immediate distaste.
Frank G. saying,
Those faces you see staring back
. The haze of the room and Krista's closeness was working on him like deja vu.
"I don't want to spend the rest of my life down here," said Krista. "I really don't."
Doug didn't quite believe that. He didn't quite believe anything Krista said, even the stuff he knew to be true.
"Can I tell you a secret no woman should ever tell a man?" She leaned in close, her warm breath tickling his ear. "I'm starting to feel old here."
She hung on Doug's reaction. "I'm feeling like I'm a hundred fucking years old," he admitted.
"I think we're being replaced."
Doug nodded and shrugged, dunking the lime wedge in his soda water. "Maybe that's not such a bad thing."
Her beer was gone. "Not if you got someplace else to move on to. Someone else to be."
So routine was the sensation of Krista's hand inside his thigh that Doug only registered the touch when her fingers started to creep along his inseam.
"How long has it been for you?" she said.
They say drowning men feel the water get warm before they slip under. The pull of familiarity here was like the tepid bath of sleep.
That's who you are-- the people you attract, who you keep around you.
"It's been too long for me." She had a magician's ability to keep talking into his ear while her trained hand worked. She was all over him now like the humidity of the room. "You know what I miss? Your high-mileage sofa. The grip I used to get on that armrest. I like thinking that every day you walk by it and see my nail marks there."
Doug stayed focused on her forgotten bourbon and Coke, the stirrer standing in melting ice, its tip nibbled. He felt a stirring himself.
He smelled her foxy grin along with the High Life on her breath and lips. "The strongest man I know...."
As the first chords of "Mother Macree" reached him, Doug stood, her hand sliding off his leg. "Be right back," he told her. He set out in the direction of the john, but once in the crowd of merrymakers he cut back, slipping through the doorway and moving up the rubberized steps two at a time.
* * *
SURFACING UPSTAIRS WAS LIKE climbing out of a subway station into a cocktail party. A room full of pleated pants and necklace-twiddlers and roving, impatient eyes. Kids with drinks in their hands, aping their parents, trying to outshine one another. Guys pretending they cared, girls pretending they didn't. The big charade.
The hand-stamper at the door asked if everything was all right, making Doug wonder what the look on his face said. An alcoholic's rage, his apartness. The line waiting to get inside stretched almost to the corner, and Doug walked fast, stuffing his hands deep inside his pockets so he wouldn't hit anybody, heading south on Main.
Closer to Thompson Square, the sidewalk beneath his feet changed from cement to Colonial brick. He noticed a pale light inside the hazed glass of Fergie's flower shop across the street, glowing faintly like the withered power of the old mobs that, until just a few years ago, ruled the Town like royalty. Fergie, Doug figured, knew about as much about flowers as Doug did, which was zilch. The light winked out as he passed, the front door opened by a big white-haired mick in a tracksuit: Rusty, a supposed ex-IRA gunner who was Fergie's guy. Rusty scanned both sides of the street, warily tracking Doug's shadowed form-- then Fergie appeared behind him, a head shorter, his boxer's hands tucked into his sweatshirt pouch, the tight hood stretched like a cowl over his head. The old mobster filled out the zip-up pretty well, though Doug could recall his father telling him long ago that Fergie wore women's sweatshirts because the female cut accentuated his size.
Doug took only that one brief glance before switching his focus to the lit point of the monument. Best not to gaze curiously at a gangster, especially not on a dark street at night, and especially not at one so paranoid and tweaked as Fergie. Triple especially if you're already feeling pissed off: true killers can read that shit and turn it back on you, and next thing you know there's rounds whistling into your chest. He heard the car doors close and the engine rumble as the living ghost of the old Town sank into his black, hearselike Continental and cruised away.
