Riding and Regrets (16 page)

“Google,” Jody said, laughing a little. “I wasn’t hiding. I have a Facebook and a MySpace, not that I use either one much now. Helped me not to feel so alone before I got on here. She did some background check thing and traced me here in a matter of hours. Made sure I knew Dad had meant it about me being dead to him. He’d wanted her to hand Prissy over to Child Protective Services, but she said that would make the family look bad, so he told her to find me and deliver Prissy to me. For that, I can forgive him everything else. At least he didn’t deny me my daughter, no matter what his reasons.”

“I think he’s a first rate cunt,” Noel said vehemently. “Sorry if that makes you mad, but it’s the truth. He wouldn’t have bothered with Prissy if he hadn’t been worried about the gossip.”

“True enough, but it still got me her.” Jody smiled despite the icky feeling in his stomach. “She’s worth everything else.”

“I have to agree there, but I’m sorry you went through the rest.” Noel caressed Jody’s cheek then kissed his brow. “You think maybe you’re gonna do the therapy thing too?”

“It probably wouldn’t be a bad idea.” Jody moved until he was able to recline on the couch and pull Noel down with him. “I don’t know if I want to remember everything from that night. I know enough. I helped make Prissy, and there was a wreck that resulted in my uncle and cousin’s deaths. I lost my family, but they didn’t ever love me in the first place.”

“You have a good family here,” Noel reminded him. “A really good family.”

Jody ran a hand down from Noel’s shoulder to his chest. “And a good boyfriend.”

“You do. Almost as good as mine.”

Jody lightly swatted Noel’s butt. “Flatterer. Why don’t you kiss me and make me feel better?”

“I can do that.” Noel nuzzled his cheek. “However you want me to.”

Jody considered their options. The front door wasn’t locked. Everyone knocked, though, but if Prissy were to come running in…

“Bedroom first.” He knew what he wanted. Noel and Jody got up and kissed and groped each other as they made their way to a more private area. By the time they were in the bedroom, they’d got their shirts off and pants open. That was good enough for Jody. He walked Noel backwards until he was against the wall, then Jody kissed Noel, letting the need for this one man drive him. It wasn’t a gentle meeting of tongue and lips, but a hungry battle with nips and gasps.

Jody turned Noel’s face to the side and rubbed his cheek over Noel’s. He had to go up on tiptoe to do it. He loved the feel of their stubble scraping together. Jody ran his hands down Noel’s body, found his nipples and played with them while leaving faint red love bites on Noel’s neck.

He moved down, working his way to those little nubs. Noel always started to come undone for him when Jody went after his tits. He licked and suckled on the taut points until Noel tugged at his hair and pleaded for more.

“More what?”

“Everything, anything,” Noel panted out. “I’m so close.”

“Can’t have you shooting just yet.” Jody pulled Noel’s pants and underwear down far enough to free his balls and cock completely. “Not yet.”

“Jo—” Noel gasped as Jody buried his nose against Noel’s sac. Jody inhaled deeply, taking in the musky scent of Noel’s balls. He shivered and lapped at them while fisting Noel’s dick.

Noel thrust into his hand. Jody tried to fit Noel’s entire ball sac in his mouth, but he couldn’t manage it. He settled for one nut, tugging gently on it, flicking his tongue over the slightly furry skin.

“Sweet hell, Jo.” Noel cupped his nape. “Suck me, please.”

Jody almost pulled off and said that he was sucking Noel. After all, he had a mouthful of ball. He wasn’t going to be a tease. He gave his treat one last lick, than dragged his tongue up from the base of Noel’s dick to the leaking tip.

Pre-cum was all right. Jody could handle the taste of it. He hadn’t been brave enough to let Noel come in his mouth before, but today he was feeling adventurous. Almost as if a burden had been lifted, so perhaps there was something to that whole thing about sharing a burden making it half a load.

He sucked the crown and kept tonguing Noel’s slit. Jody kept one hand around the bottom of Noel’s dick and used his other hand to cup Noel’s balls.

“Jo, look at me,” Noel got out between breathy exhalations.

Jody glanced up and his heartbeat tripled at Noel’s expression. There was something in his eyes, a deep and abiding emotion that Jody was afraid to interpret. Noel used one finger to trace along the tight seal where Jody’s mouth covered his dick.

Flicking his tongue, Jody teased at the sensitive bundle of nerves on the underside. Noel clenched his hand in Jody’s hair.

Spurred on by Noel’s reaction, Jody bobbed his head down, taking more of Noel’s cock into his mouth.

Noel’s lips formed a perfect O as his lashes fluttered. Jody pushed at his balls, applying a little pressure. He came back up to concentrate on Noel’s glans, then sucked that thick length down again and swallowed as it breached his throat.

Noel started to shout, but his voice gave out after only a second or two. Jody moved quickly then, sucking, bobbing, using his tongue and his hands to bring Noel as much pleasure as he could.

When Noel began to thrust, mindless for his own release, Jody didn’t pull back like he normally did. Instead, he pushed a finger back behind Noel’s balls and rubbed at the sweet spot there.

Noel clutched at Jody’s head with both hands. He called out Jody’s name, then thick, hot spurts of semen hit Jody’s tongue.

The bitter taste wasn’t too bad, but Jody had to work to make himself swallow it. The texture would take getting used to. He’d manage. He wanted every bit of Noel’s spunk in him, however he could get that to happen.

Once Noel had stopped fucking his mouth, Jody released his cock and resumed nuzzling his balls. He took his own shaft in hand and started jerking off, needing to come so badly he could hardly think.

He found himself being nudged onto his back, with Noel crouching down on the floor with him. Noel took him by the wrist. “Let go. This is mine.”

Jody let go and instead pulled at his nipples. He liked tit play as much as Noel did, and often stimulated them when he masturbated.

“That’s so fucking hot,” Noel said. “I could sit here and watch you turn those tits red, just let you work them over real good.”

“Need to come,” Jody managed to get out.

Noel smiled wickedly. “You will.” He bent and sucked Jody’s dick in to the root.

“Fuck!” Jody shoved his hips up, seeking more of the silky wet heat. Noel pinned him down with a firm arm across Jody’s lower belly. Being held down did strange, erotic things to Jody. He pinched his nipples harder and thrashed his head from side to side.

Noel sucked his cock until Jody’s world went bright white behind his closed eyelids. Ecstasy spurted from his cock with every jet of his release. It seemed to go on and on, yet end entirely too soon. Jody’s head spun as he struggled to draw a full breath while his entire body quivered.

As much as he’d have loved to take a nap with Noel, Jody forced himself to open his eyes and push up onto his elbows. “We gotta get over to the big house.”

“I know. Can we take a quick shower first?” Noel asked. He sounded completely fucked out.

“We should.” Jody rolled to his feet and hitched his jeans and briefs up. “Come on, take my hand, lazybones.”

Noel chuckled and peeked at him through one narrowly slitted eyelid. “Fine, fine.” He took Jody’s hand and stood up. “Jeez, you blew my mind right along with my dick.”

Jody thumped Noel on the arm. “Don’t be lame, it kills the afterglow.”

Noel waggled his eyebrows then dipped his head for a soft kiss. “You taste good with my spunk on your lips.”

“Ditto. I mean, yours with mine, it’s—” Jody huffed. “Aw, you know what I mean. C’mon.” He took his man into the bathroom. They didn’t have a lot of time left alone, and he wanted to play with a wet, soapy Noel while he had the chance.

Jody enjoyed a very awesome hand job from Noel, and would have reciprocated but Noel wanted to wait. He claimed to have dirty, sexy plans for his cock and Jody’s ass later that night. Jody was all for that combination.

Even more, he was all for Noel spending another night with him.

Chapter Twelve

Staying at Jody’s was becoming a regular thing. Noel only spent a couple of nights a week at his Aunt Gertie’s, a fact that she loved because, as she said, she wanted to see him settled and happy. Noel was getting there, and today he’d taken another step on the road to recovery. Jody had, too, with both of them having their first sessions with a therapist.

Noel wasn’t sure it’d do a lot of good. It seemed to him that all he’d done was talk about a few basic things before time had been up. He reckoned Jody’s session would go the same way. Still, the therapist hadn’t promised any miracles. Noel knew better than to expect any. He’d had plenty of his old friends jabber on about going to therapy. It had been the ‘in’ thing to do. Noel, River and Josie hadn’t been allowed to do any such thing. Their parents wouldn’t risk being bad-mouthed even to a professional bound by law to keep his or her mouth shut.

The waiting room was fairly packed. Noel fiddled with his phone. After a small argument about it, he’d agreed to let Jody add him to his plan. Noel wasn’t mooching. He paid his part and would continue to do so.

He’d heard nothing more from Clive, nor had Ian said anything about it. As far as Noel knew, Ian still had his phone. He should probably ask about it, as a little more than a week had gone by.

Noel just wanted to let that part of his life go. He’d hash it over in therapy if that would help accomplish his goal. The nightmares weren’t nearly as bad as they had been. Not on the nights he spent with Jody, anyway.

Noel often thought about the things Jody had said in regards to them. They were a couple now, and for the first time, Noel felt secure in his relationship with a lover. Jody didn’t want him as arm candy or as a yes or whipping boy. He didn’t talk down to Noel or ignore his needs. Jody treated him as he’d always dreamed of being treated—with kindness, respect, and if not love, something close to it.

Love. Such a scary word for being so short. Four letters, each innocuous on their own, but put ’em together in that particular order, and it’s the biggest word, ever.

As many times as Noel had thought he’d loved one of his exes, he knew now he hadn’t. Not ever. What he felt for Jody eclipsed those prior feelings like they hadn’t ever existed. That was how Noel knew, he’d just been playing at being in love, wanting it but not seeing his own worth. If he had, he would never have let anyone treat him so badly.

Obviously, he needed therapy. Noel tried not to laugh out loud at that. It seemed a bad idea to burst out laughing in a psychologist’s office. He looked around the room. There were older people in there, younger ones, parents with kids. Noel wondered what their stories were. He hoped none of them had dealt with anything awful, but realised the chances of getting through life unscarred, emotionally or otherwise, had to be zilch.

When Jody came out, Noel stood up. Jody didn’t seem upset, so that was good. “Ready to go do the other thing?”

Jody beamed at him. “Get tested? You bet. You have to come back next week?”

“I do.” Noel held the office door open for Jody. “I’m going to have to trade days off with someone from now on, but it won’t be a problem. Gertie wants me to do this.”

“Same here. Or, maybe we can make evening appointments. I didn’t think to ask.” Jody stopped walking. “Jackson made the appointment for me before I left his office. Should we go back and ask about later times?”

Noel took Jody by one elbow. “Nah, we can call after we get the tests done and have lunch.”

“You’re going to be okay, right?” Jody asked, staring at him with a hopeful expression. “I’m not asking for me. I’ll be with you no matter what. I just want you to be healthy for your sake.”

“I should be,” Noel assured him. “I’ve never had unprotected sex. Not anal,” he whispered. “Um, blow jobs, yes, but the chances of anything bad from those is small.”

“I read up on all of that before we started dating.” Jody blushed. “I wanted to make sure I wasn’t ignorant. I knew some from when me and Frankie decided to mess around, too, but things change. Information is always being updated, so I checked.”

“That’s really smart. I haven’t done that since…” Noel couldn’t remember exactly when. “You’ve got a good head on your shoulders.”

“Thanks.”

The clinic was only ten minutes away. The tests were done quickly, and Noel was relieved to get a negative. “You need to come back in a month,” the nurse told him. “No unprotected sex with anyone until you’ve cleared three months with your last boyfriend.”

Noel counted back. It’d been close to three months, but not quite, and he wouldn’t risk Jody’s health. “Yes, sir. I’ll be back in a month.”

“I’m kind of disappointed. I wanted—” Jody pursed his lips then smiled. “I can wait a month. It’s almost been three months since you moved here, right?”

“Almost,” Noel agreed. “We needed to do this, though. It’s a good thing to make a regular part of our medical care.”

Jody’s smile turned into a frown. “Even if we’re monogamous? That’s like saying we don’t trust each other.”

“Then we do it until we’re a hundred and ten per cent sure we do trust each other. Don’t jump to that point right now. Let’s take our time and give us a chance to grow. Besides…” Noel was just going to have to risk sounding like the corniest guy ever. “I kind of think it’s okay to hold off on ditching the condoms until you know you’re in love with your partner.”

Jody stepped away from him and rushed out of the clinic. Noel only took a second to realise how he’d sounded. He popped himself on the forehead and hurried to catch up to Jody. “Come on, don’t run away when you get mad. We have to talk,” he said as he reached Jody’s side. “I didn’t mean— I wouldn’t presume—”

Jody stopped so suddenly that Noel was two steps past him before he caught on. He turned and moved to stand closer to Jody. “I—”

“No,” Jody said firmly, those blue eyes all but kicking off sparks of anger. “You listen to me. I’m not mad. I’m hurt, and okay, so that maybe makes me mad, but you know what? I do love you, you jerk. I
do
and I ain’t too young or immature or—”