Rockstar Daddy (Decoy Series) (35 page)

I whisper in her ear, she squeezes me and whispers back.

      "Don't be silly, lets get drunk later and forget it all."

Rhys pats my head and says sorry but I wave it away. I see Jessica getting closer to me but give her a glare that stops her in her tracks.

      "Kendal"

I shake my head ignoring her sad tone.

      "I wana strong drink before I talk to you Jess."

I walk away and leave her standing with everyone else but I hear her tell Tanya and Maisy to follow me. I see on the board at the entrance that shows the seating plan that the bridesmaids and Leo and Max are on the table right near the top table. Thankfully Jax is on the top table but his still right in my view. I sit at our table and Tanya and Maisy go to the bar that's set up at the far end. This is turning out to be a very stressful and confusing day. The girls return with drinks at the same time as Jess walks in with Leo and Max. She sits right next to me and I take big gulps of the drink Tanya sets in front of me. I don't want to be mad but I can't believe she outed my feelings like that. Jax walks by and takes his seat at the top table.

      "Why aren't you two and Rex at the top table?"

Leo shrugs.

      "Jax is making a speech and his brother wanted to sit with his wife and kids." 

   "Rhys doesn't trust you to so a speech does he."

I can't help the grin on my face, I would definitely not trust those two making a speech in front of my parents. Jessica puts her hand on my leg and I look at her sad face.

      "I'm sorry Kendal. I just had to tell Rhys, I can see by how Jax looks at you that he loved you. I just want you happy. Hug?"

I fall into her open arms.

      "Lets just have fun today and worry tomorrow."

Can't argue with that.

Chapter 26

~Jax~

   When Max followed me out he lead me over to Leo but all they wanted to do was check the women out. I left them to it and went to sulk in a corner. Should I have told Kendal I want her back? Well I've done it now and looking at her standing with Sophie and Jessica she looks sad. When I see Rhys and they speak alone I'm pleased for him, the guys missed Kendal as much as me. When I see Jessica break them apart I can't help but gravitate towards them, when I get close enough I hear everything Jessica tells Rhys. When I hear Maisy say the name of her ex she used to try and move on with I wan't to kill this guy. I get so angry at hearing about her being with guy I'm about to leave but then I hear Jessica say to Kendal she needs to tell me she still loves me. I don't care that Rhys tells her my feelings because I've already told Kendal I want her back. If she loved me then why did Kendal leave me? I don't buy all the crap she fed me four years ago anymore.

   When I speak up I see Kendal stiffen so I walk right up to her and tell her it's all true what Rhys is saying. She's biting that lip of hers again, trying to fight her emotions.

      "I-I can't do this right now."

She quickly walks away from me so I start to go after her but Rhys catches my arm

      "Let her go man."

   "I need to talk to her."

      "She just needs space."

So I just stand there, watching her walk away. Rhys and Sophie drift away leaving me and Jessica standing side by side. I feel shit that this is happening today.

      "It's good to see you Jax."

   "You too Jess."

I look from where Kendal goes outside and to Jessica.

       "How has Kendal really been Jess?"

Her face looks sad as she thinks about my question.

      "She's been OK, not happy like she used to be but OK. Finley keeps her happy though, whenever there together she has a smile on her face. His the only good part thats happened out of all this."

   "What do you mean?"

Her cheeks blush a little and she clears her throat.

      "Erm just that he keeps Kendal happy."

Okaayy, that was a little awkward and I don't know why.     

       "It it true Jess?"

Jessica smiles at me sadly.

      "Everything I said is true Jax and by looking at you, I'd say you look as miserable as Kendal."

   "You can tell huh?"

      "I'm not blind Jax, I've seen how you look at her. You haven't stopped looking at her since she walked down that aisle. She still loves you Jax and she's going to kill me for telling you for all of this but it's all true. I'm sick of seeing her unhappy, she puts on this fake smile but I can see past it. The thing is she left you because she loves you, as stupid as that sounds."

      "That doesn't make any sence."

If you love someone you stay with them, you don't leave them. I never wanted to leave her, she obviously didn't feel the same as me.

      "You don't understand. She stood on the sidelines watching you four get more popular by the day. That meant more groupies. She knew this was your dream before you met her. The band, the fame and the girls that come along with rockstars. She thought she was keeping you from living the dream you always dreamt of, keeping you back. So she left you to live that dream."

I'm stunned, that was a different speech. She left me because she thought my dream included the girls? When we first started the girls were a bonus but as soon as I met Kendal that all changed. I wanted nothing to do with other girls because I had my gorgeous Kendal. She added  to my dream, did Kendal really see herself like that?

      "Jess, I didn't want the girls. I had
the
girl.
My
girl. I felt sorry for the guys because I was living the best dream, playing music and falling in love. The fame wasn't a huge dream of mine but if you want to play music and get better it comes with the package. It gets annoying to be honest but I never forgot her. I think about her everyday. Now I've seen her again I can't let her go. I know I sound like a pussy but I can't, if she loves me I'm fighting for her. She can't get rid of me again."

Jessica starts to cry but she's smiling at me.

      "Please don't give up on her Jax. I want her to be happy. I didn't realize how much she loved you but seeing her without you these four years it's obvious. She loves you, please don't let her go. No matter what Jax, fight please."

I feel like there's more she wants to say to me but Sophie and Rhys come back. It's time to eat and when we walk outside I see Kendal. She's talking to Tanya and Maisy, Leo and Max are standing close watching her. They look to me and wink, I watch Kendal and Sophie as they have a little moment together. Jessica tries to approach Kendal but by the look she just threw at her I wouldn't go near Kendal either. She looks pissed and I can't help but feel sorry for Jessica, Kendal's too hurt to see she's just trying to help her. When Kendal storms off with Tanya and Maisy behind her I say sorry to Jessica.

      "Don't worry, she will forgive me. She loves me too much."

She smiles but I can see she's hurting. I don't think I ever saw Kendal act like that with Jessica.

      "Ah man Tanya is still smoking."

   "Leo do you always think with your dick?"

Leo and Max look at Rhys like his grown an extra head. I guess it was a stupid question to ask him. Jessica is looking at Leo shocked who has his hands up in surrender.

      "Hey, I'm only saying. Beside I was trying to get Jax on Kendal's good side."

I cringe, I can only imagine what he said to her.

      "What did you say to her?"

   "Well we talked, she told us where she lived. Unlike you did. Max told her that she was blind to not see you only wanted her pussy and no-"

I cut him off glare at Max.

      "You fucking said that?"

Someone fucking give me a break here. Max shrugs. Oh just great. Sophie and Jessica are laughing. I'm glad someone thinks this is all so funny. Sophies still laughing when she tells us it's time to go and sit down.

   I let Jessica and the guys walk in first and try and cool myself down before I go in. I need to be calm. When I walk past Kendal's table I see she already has a half empty glass in front of her. No guessing it's alcohol. I'm going to leave the questions for today. She's had enough and we all need to enjoy today. I watch as I see Jessica pull Kendal into her arms, Jessica looks at me over Kendal's shoulder and gives me a thumbs up. I can't help but smile, at least I have her best friend on my side. Leo looks very pleased with himself sitting next to Tanya with a big stupid grin on his face. I can remember he used to be the same around Tanya.

~Kendal~

   During the delicious meal Leo and Max have been making us all laugh and after two vodka and lemonades I'm
beginning to relax. As the desert dishes are taken away Max taps my on shoulder, his on my left where Finley would have been sitting. Even though I'm missing Finley like crazy, I'm glad he didn't come because not only would today have been more awkward but Leo and Max's table conversation definitely wasn't suitable for Finley's little ears. I turn away from Jessica and Maisy's conversation and look to Max.

      "Can you remember our song?"

I laugh in embarrassment, I do remember. If me and Max were out together and we heard Nicklebacks song Rockstar we would dance and sing every word. It quickly became our song and it fit that Max wanted to be a rockstar.

      "How could I forget?"

   "Yea well if it comes on later I'm coming to find you. You can't sing our song without me."

      "Deal."

I talk to Max about places we did sing our song, they were some crazy nights. During my chat I I have the feeling that I'm being watched. I've felt like that though most of the meal and whenever the guys would make me laugh. I know without looking it's Jax again, our table is right next to the top table and he can probably hear everything we say. Max wraps his arm around my back and leans in close.

   "Kendal, since you left he hasn't moved on. I'm not gona lie, he did try. I can tell he still loves you Kenny."

The thought of Jax being with someone does hurt but that's my fault.

      "Max, I just wana have fun today OK? All this serious shit can wait until after the wedding. I'm meeting Jax tomorrow again and we will do the grown-up talk."

Everyone around the table has heard me and nods, I have a quick peak at Jax who is looking right back at me. I quickly look away and see how Rhys and Sophie are doing, I watch Rhys look at Jax and then follow his line of sight to me and he winks which makes me smile. I'm so happy for Rhys and Sophie, I still can't get my head around how this has all happened. All this time and none of us figured it out.

   Sophie's dad makes his father of the bride speech which makes me cry and most of the other women here. It was so emotional, so glad I have waterproof mascara on today. Sophie stands next and I can tell she's a little nervous.

    "Thankyou all for coming today, it really means a lot. I know the bride doesn't usually make a speech but I just wanted to thankyou all. You all mean the world to me and Rhys. I just want to thank Rex, Jax, Leo and Max for not getting Rhys into trouble on his stag and for returning him to me in one piece."

There's a chorus of laughter and Max and Leo raise there drinks to Sophie.