Ryan's Love (31 page)

“
No
Mom, I can
’
t leave Sunshine
here alone. I want to be here when she wakes up.
”

“
I
know son, but you need rest.
”

“
Mom, thank you for worrying about me, but
I
’
ll rest we she is back home.
”

“
Ok
son, I understand. I
’
m here for you if
you need me.
”

“
Ryan,
”
I call out to him.

Oh my
sweet sweet Ryan is here with me. He loves me. I want to touch him
so bad right now. I suddenly feel the softest touch on my lips. It
feels and smells like Ryan is leaning over and kissing me. I try
and will myself to kiss him back but I can
’
t seem to get it
right. I can
’
t seem to make my
lips move.

I can hear Ryan sitting down on the
bed with me and laying down beside me.

“
I
will wait on you forever. I love you,
”
Ryan says.

Then he kisses my
forehead.

“
I
love you too,
”
I breath then I fall back asleep.

The
next time I came too I felt very different. I felt warm and I had a
massive pain in my stomach. I also didn
’
t feel Ryan next
to me and I started freaking out.

“
Ryan. Ryan, please Ryan where are you,
”
I said as my right hand
barely lifted off the bed to search for him.

No answer.

I tried calling him
again.

“
Ryan, I need you,
”
I cry.

This time I hear movement and feet
walking towards me. Then I feel a hand squeeze mine.

“
Baby, did you call for me. Please tell I
wasn
’
t hearing things,
”
Ryan asked then kissed my lips
softly.

This time when he kissed my lips and
I moved to kiss him back, he felt it.

“
I
knew I heard you. Say something else, please,
”
Ryan
pleaded.

“
I
love you,
”
I whispered, my eyes fluttering halfway
open.

I see Ryan smiling down at me with
tears in his eyes.

“
I
’
m so happy to see those wondrous eyes of
yours,
”
Ryan says bringing my hand up to his mouth and kissing
it.

I just looked at him and smiled;
taking in the beauty of the man before me. As I lay there gazing in
his eyes, he reached over and called for the nurse and told them I
was awake.

“
How
do you feel,
”
he asked.

“
Happy,
”
I
say.

As Ryan was leaning into me the
doctor walked into the room.

“
So I
see our lovely Mrs. Callahan is up,
”
he says coming over to my
side.

“
Yes,
”
is all I say.

He then turns to Ryan and asks him
what happened, and Ryan quickly tells him. The doctor then turns
back to me and shines a light in my eye; then he gives me a little
work over. As well as asks me a few questions. I did everything the
best I could. But I was tired still.

“
Alright, I
’
ll let you rest for a
bit, I
’
ll be back in a few hours to check up on
you,
”
he says to me.

Ryan walks him to the door and talks
with him for a few minutes, then he comes back to my
side.

“
What
did he say to you out there?
”

“
He
says that you look good. That we have to see how you are in a few
hours before we discuss anything else,
”
Ryan says smiling.

“
Ok,
”
I
nod.

“
Where
’
s the
baby,
”
I ask, remembering the baby.

“
They
are great. The doctor said that they need to stay here for a week
or so. Just long enough to gain a pound or two, then they can go
home.
”

“
They,
”
I question.

“
Yes,
they. We have a boy and a girl; and they are
amazing,
”
Ryan
beams.

“
Ryan, really. I
’
m so excited. I
can
’
t wait to see them. Where is everyone
else,
”
I
ask?

Ryan
smiles brightly down at me and says,
“
Oh I
’
m sure they are in
the nursery with the babies.
”

“
Did
you name them yet?
”

“
I
was waiting on you,
”
he says.

“
Well
my Mom
’
s middle name is Clara. I always thought that was a
beautiful name for a girl,
”
I say tears falling down my
face.

Ryan brings his hand up and gently
wipes the tears from my eyes.

“
I
think its perfect for her. Honey wait until you see her. She
reminds me of Mom so much. Except she has your wondrous eyes and a
dimple by her mouth on her left cheek; and I swear her hair is as
thick and soft as yours. I know when she gets older
I
’
m going to have to crack a few
heads,
”
he says beaming at me.

“
What
about our son? What is he like,
”
I ask?

“
I
was thinking about naming him Seamus. I
’
ve always loved
that name. He also has your eyes. But half of his right eye is the
color of mine. He has big hands and feet. I think he might be a
footballer or something when he grows up.
”

“
Wow,
Ryan,
”
I gasp in wonder.

“
Exactly what I said when I saw them.
”

“
So
now that I
’
m awake when do I get to taste my
Daddy
’
s Honey lips,
”
I say smiling.

“
You
’
re so bad,
”
Ryan says as me bends down and kisses
my lips; running his tongue over my bottom lip, nibbling on
it.

“
Better than I remember,
”
I say against his
mouth.

Quickly turning serious Ryan says,
“
Baby, I was so scared
that you wouldn
’
t come back to me. I
don
’
t know what I would have done without you. I love you
so much.
”

My
bring my hand slowly to his face and say,
“
Ryan, I dreamt of your
sweet face the whole time I was out. Even though I
couldn
’
t move I heard you talking to me, telling me you loved
me, telling me you would wait for me. Baby, your strength and love
for me brought me back. I love you. I
’
m so happy I get to
spend my whole life with you.
”

Ryan
sighed happily and gently hugged me. He held me like that as he
tenderly rubbed my hair, lulling me quickly to sleep at the soft
caress of his hand and the musical thumping of his heartbeat. Life
is amazing. My babies are healthy; and I
’
m here in the
love of my life
’
s arms. I
couldn
’
t ask for more.

Epilogue

“
Mommy why can
’
t I go with Daddy and
Seamus,
”
Little Clara says with a pouty mouth.

I lean
down in her face, gently cup her cheek and say,
“
Because Daddy promised
that after he and Seamus got back from the store he would give you
one of his famous piggyback rides; and you know how much he loves
giving his special little lady a piggyback ride.
”

Clara
’
s face lights up at the thought of getting a
piggyback ride, and she bounces away and back onto the swing set.
She happily pumps her legs as she sings about getting to play with
her daddy when he comes home. I smile as I think about how
wonderful life is. I have the love of my life Ryan. I have our
twins Seamus and Clara who are 4 1/2 years old; and our new little
boy who is just 7 months old. He is just as sweet as our other two.
He has bright eyes just like Ryan. We decided to name him Killian
Patrick Callahan after his two uncles, both of whom love him with
everything they have. Patrick grumbled a little bit at that one,
but Ryan assured him that the next one would be named after
him.

Now all I have to do is find a way
to tell him that, that may come a lot sooner than he
thinks.