SAVAGE LOVE (A Back Down Devil MC Romance Novel) (19 page)

“
Why
are you sorry?
”
Miller
asked.
“
It
’
s fine. I
’
ve had worse shoot at me.
”

Miller brought Beck close again and
wiped the baby
’
s chin.

Beck pounded the rest of the
bottle. Miller put a cloth over his shoulder and burped the baby again and then
stood up. He rubbed the baby
’
s
back and faced Ella.

“
This
is crazy,
”
she said.

“
What
is?
”

“
You
holding a baby. Holding my baby.
”
Ella then frowned.
“
Sorry.
”

“
Why?
”

“
I
shouldn
’
t have said that.
”

“
Hey,
it
’
s okay. Beck is your
baby. And, yeah, years ago, I wouldn
’
t
have held a baby. Times change, darling.
”

“
Sometimes
I wish he was your baby,
”
Ella blurted out.

She then blushed and covered her
mouth.

Me too, darling.

Beck started to whine. Miller held
Beck in his hands with arms stretched out.
“
Well,
little dude, I think you shit yourself. And that
’
s
something I
’
m not dealing with
right now. We
’
ll stick to
bottles, deal?
”

Ella took Beck and placed him on
the bed. She started to open the little buttons on the kid
’
s pajamas.

Miller took her by the arm and
forced her to face him.

“
What?
”
Ella asked.

“
You
can
’
t go back and change
things,
”
Miller said.
“
If I could, I would. And to
answer your question
…
yes.
Jerry had something to do with it. He was the one who did it. I saw him. He
pulled the trigger on a rifle that killed Griffin. I don
’
t want you wearing that guilt though. It
’
s not your job. I
’
ll do everything I can to tell
you what I know when I can. I
’
ll
never lie to you, darling. I
…”

I still fucking love you.

Miller gritted his teeth.

Beck broke out into a full cry.

Miller settled for a kiss and left
the room. He shut the door and walked to the wall and made fists, hitting the
wall. He put his head to the wall and stared down. It was like he was out of
breath. Or angry. Or
…
something.

In reality, it was easier than
that.

Miller was in love. With Ella. And
the baby.

seventeen.

Trev threw a shot of whiskey back
and chased it down with a glass of milk. He then shoved both glasses to the
edge of the bar and stood up. He stood and folded his arms, Miller watching the
entire scene.

“
How
’
d that taste?
”
Miller asked.

“
Wonderful,
”
Trev said.
“
What
’
s our plan for today?
”

“
Brace
ourselves for hell,
”
Miller
muttered.

Blaine and Jace came into the
clubhouse from the back hallways. Jace grabbed a pool stick and offered one to Blaine.

“
Shoot?
”
Jace asked.

“
No,
I
’
m good,
”
Blaine said. He stared at the
floor.

“
What
’
s wrong with you?
”
Miller asked.

“
She
used her teeth too rough?
”
Trev asked.

“
No,
”
Blaine said.
“
I hurt her.
”

“
You
hurt someone?
”
Miller
asked.
“
How bad?
”

“
A
little blood,
”
Blaine said.

“
From
what hole?
”
Trev asked.

“
Jesus,
”
Jace said.
“
I love these conversations.
”

“
No
hole,
”
Blaine said.
“
Her tit.
”

“
Her
tit?
”
Miller asked.
“
What did you do to her tit?
”

“
I
don
’
t want to talk about
it.
”

Blaine made a move for the bar. He
waved for a beer.

Miller took out his gun and pointed
it at the prospect.
“
Give
him a beer and I
’
ll shoot
you.
”

“
Fuck,
”
Blaine said.
“
Come on, brother.
”

“
What?
Are you actually embarrassed for once?
”

“
No,
”
Blaine said.
“
I don
’
t want you to get mad at me.
”

“
Why
would Miller get mad at you?
”
Trev asked.
“
He has his own
tits to suck on.
”

“
Shut
it,
”
Miller growled at
Trev.

“
That
’
s the problem,
”
Blaine said.

“
What
is?
”
Miller asked.

“
Promise
you won
’
t hit me?
”

“
No,
”
Miller said.

“
Fine,
”
Blaine said.
“
This
reliever
…
massive tits, man. I mean
…
put your face between them and you
’
re dead. Like fucking beautiful
watermelons smacking you in the face when she
’
s
on top.
”

“
Okay,
we get the picture,
”
Miller
said.

“
I
started sucking. Going at her left one. I couldn
’
t
stop, man. I just kept sucking and biting.
”

“
Biting?
”
Trev asked.

“
Yeah,
”
Blaine said.
“
I was waiting for something to
happen.
”

“
Like
what?
”
Miller asked.
“
Trying to make her come?
”

“
I
guess you could say that.
”

“
So
you bit her tit,
”
Trev
said.

“
But
I couldn
’
t stop,
”
Blaine said.
“
I wanted
…
milk.
”

The bar seemed to fall silent.

Jace dropped his pool stick.
“
Say that again.
”

“
Oh,
fuck,
”
Miller groaned.

“
Milk?
”
Trev asked.
“
Why the
…”

“
Are
you kidding me?
”
Miller
asked Blaine.
“
Because of
Ella?
”

Blaine frowned and nodded.
“
I can
’
t stop thinking about it, bro. That baby sucking on
her. I don
’
t picture Ella,
okay? But I just picture myself with a woman who
…”

“
Wait,
”
Trev said.
“
Tell me what the hell is going
on.
”

“
He
caught Ella feeding Beck,
”
Miller said.
“
He shouldn
’
t have seen anything but he did.
”

“
You
’
re a sick guy, Blaine,
”
Trev said.
“
Now you have a milk fantasy?
”

“
I
don
’
t know,
”
Blaine snapped.
“
It
’
s
just there.
”

“
Hey,
”
Trev said, leaning by Miller.
“
Be honest. How did it look? Were
Ella
’
s tits super big and
full?
”

Blaine grinned.

Miller grabbed his gun and pointed
it at Trev.
“
I
’
ll kill you. Nobody would miss
you, brother.
”

“
I
don
’
t give a fuck,
”
Trev said.
“
Kill me.
”

“
Enough
tit talk,
”
Miller said.

Blaine laughed. Jace burst in
laughter. Trev snorted.

“
Conference
room,
”
Miller said.
“
I want a full fucking table
right now.
”

Trev put an arm around Blaine and pulled at him.
“
Come on,
man. Don
’
t piss off the
President. Plus, I want to hear all about these tits. The two women I had last
night weren
’
t all that
great. Barely a handful on one and mosquito bites on the other.
”

Miller gritted his teeth. He wanted
to explode but knew he had to keep himself level. If anything, it was a little
flattering. Blaine had a woman fucking him and he was thinking about Ella
’
s body.

“
Give
me a fucking shot of something,
”
Miller yelled.

The prospect served the shot.
Miller turned and saw the conference room filling up. The last guy to enter was
Landon. He let the door shut behind him.

Griffin was usually last and he
’
d stand there and hold the door
for Miller. Then he
’
d pat
Miller on the back and say something.

Miller threw the shot back and
walked to the conference room. He tore open the door and everyone stood behind
their seats.

“
Everyone
but Trev sit,
”
Miller
ordered.

The table listened.

Miller walked his way to his seat
and remained standing. He looked around at everyone.
“
We know why we
’
re
here. And I know I skipped voting to fill Griffin
’
s
chair. But there
’
s nobody
better to sit right there than Trev. He
’
s
seen it all, done it all, and will take a spot in his grave for anyone in the club.
I trust him with my life. If anyone here is against this decision, take it up
with a bottle and a
reliever
. I don
’
t
want to hear it. Right now we focus on our plan of attack.
”

Miller paused. He then nodded to
Trev.

The room was in dead silence as Trev
pulled the chair back from the table. Nobody was supposed to sit there but Griffin. Slowly, Trev sat down, a steel look on his face. His eyes were narrow like a
rattlesnake ready to attack. He looked up and down the table, nodding.

“
Trev,
”
Blaine said and raised his beer
bottle up.

“
Trev,
”
Jace said.

The table went down, member by
member, all saluting the stand-in member of Back Down Devil MC.

“
Thanks,
”
Trev said.

Everyone drank, smoked, whatever,
and then Miller sat down, bringing the meeting right back on track.

“
Now
that we
’
re done there, let
’
s talk business. Let
’
s talk fucking murder.
”

The table lit up with cheers.

Miller smiled.

He really loved the ruthless
attitude of the club sometimes.

“
We
know what happened. We know what we have to do. The message has been sent to
Coast Road MC to leave us alone. They
’
ll
try to fight back eventually. We
’
ll
worry about that when it happens. Right now, the focus is on Jerry. And how to
kill him without bringing the entire MC down.
”

“
Let
me do it,
”
Trev said.
“
I
’
ll
fucking put a bullet between his eyes. Let the rest of the PD see it and take
me down. I
’
m not wearing a
Back Down Devil cut. What the fuck do I care?
”

Miller was taken aback by Trev
’
s offer and boldness.

He stared, trying to find the right
words.

“
Is
that how we want it?
”
Nate
asked.
“
It
’
s an outside hire. The PD will
light up Trev and then come after us. They
’
ll
know about Trev and his connections to Frelen. It
’
ll
still bring heat.
”

“
But
nobody will go to jail,
”
Trev said.

“
Hold
up,
”
Miller said.
“
That
’
s quite the offer, Trev. It
’
s a very tempting offer. It
’
s the easiest offer. But I think Nate is right. It
’
s the pussy way out. I want
Jerry to look into my eyes when he goes. I want him to see that I
’
m alive and he
’
s dying. I want to pull the
trigger. I want you all to vote me on that. I
’
m
asking you, as your President, to let me avenge Griffin
’
s death.
”

The room fell silent again.

Voting on a kill shot was risky. It
meant the window of opportunity had to be left for Miller and anyone else who
had the chance would need to pass up on it.

“
I
’
d vote aye,
”
Shay said.
“
But I want that fucker dead now.
”

“
We
all do,
”
Miller said.
“
Trev makes the table whole.
Which means we can raise some hell.
”

“
Meaning?
”
Gaige asked.

“
What
if we split ourselves up and create havoc in Frelen? Isolate Jerry from the
rest of his men and women. I fucking hate the police but I
’
m not out to hurt anyone that
doesn
’
t deserve it.
”

“
Got
ideas?
”
Landon asked.

“
What
if Landon and Jace drop their motorcycles in traffic and need help?
”
Miller asked.
“
At the same time, Gaige and
Blaine could start a bar fight. Then Trev and Nate could go stir up some break
in trouble. Before you know it, Frelen PD is all broken up with calls and
situations.
”

“
Isolate
the chief,
”
Trev said.
“
You
’
ll need help. At least some kind of backup in case
he comes with men or guns. Or both.
”

“
I
won
’
t be alone,
”
Miller said.
“
But I want the final pull of a
trigger. Unless shit really hits the fan.
”

“
I
’
ll vote yay on that,
”
Erik said.
“
Griffin was your best friend.
You should get the kill.
”

“
He
was all our friend,
”
Gaige
said.

“
True,
”
Miller said.
“
So let
’
s put some feet on this thing.
”
Miller reached back and grabbed
a piece of paper and pen.
“
We
need to come up with places to be able to make this work. Spread the PD out
across Frelen. I
’
ll have to
tell Jerry I want to meet him.
”