I grabbed her neck, pulling her to me, and
then I started to kiss her.
Her hands immediately went to my hair, and
she let out the sweetest, softest moan I’d ever heard. I pushed her
back against the wall as I started to move my other hand down her
body. I lifted up her leg, hooking it over my hip.
“Heather,” I whispered against her lips.
I was waiting for her to come to her senses,
but then she pushed her hips against mine. I went for it. Moving my
hand all over her body, I caressed up her side to her chest. When I
cupped one of her breasts in my hand and I let out a moan. She fit
perfect in my hand.
Then, I moved my hand down to between her
legs and touched her clit. She bucked her hips into me while she
grabbed a handful of my hair. As she pulled me closer to her lips,
I put one finger inside of her and then another.
“Oh god,” I moaned.
She’s so fucking wet.
“Josh, please don’t stop.”
I put two more fingers inside her She was so
tight. I started to move my hand faster while she pushed harder
against me. The next thing I knew, I was capturing her screams in
my mouth.
Fuck me. Am I dreaming? Is this really
happening?
She pulled away from my lips to catch her
breath. When she started to move her leg away, I grabbed it and
picked her up.
“Wrap your legs around me, princess.”
She did just what I asked and didn’t even
hesitate. Shit…It had been so long since I was with someone and all
I wanted to do was be with Heather and only Heather. I pushed her
back against the wall again and kissed her with as much passion as
I could.
She pulled back away from my lips just
some.
“Josh,” she whispered so softly. “I want you
so badly.”
Holy
fuck
.
What was she
saying?
“Heather, I want you, too, but.”
“Please, Josh, I need this so much.”
I moved my lips back to kiss hers. I loved
her so much, and I didn’t want to rush making love to her. It had
to be special.
With her legs wrapped around me, I slowly
walked us up the stairs and into the room where I was staying. I
stopped right at the edge of the bed. She removed her legs from
around me, and she gently slid down my body to sit on the bed. She
started to move back, I crawled over her, just barely kept my body
weight on top of her.
Then, she smiled at me, and
my heart melted on the spot.
I would do
anything for this girl. I’d give up my own life for her.
“Heather, I don’t want your first time to be
like this. It needs to be special, a night you’ll always remember
with a smile and without any regret princess.”
Her smile faded. “Do you not want me?”
Wait…what?
“Holy shit, Heather. I’m using every goddamn
ounce of energy I have not to make love to you right now.”
Leaning up her head, she captured my lips.
She tasted like honey. She was so sweet and delicate. I needed
more. I started to move my hand along her body.
“Wait, Josh. Was that the front door
opening?” Heather whispered.
I stayed completely still and listened.
“Josh? Heather?”
“Garrett!” We both said at the same time.
I immediately flew off of her. I grabbed the
comforter and threw it over Heather. I ran to the door and looked
down the stairs to the hall. I could hear Garrett in the kitchen,
so I ran downstairs to get Heather’s robe. I took it back to the
room and started to help her put it on. She kept hitting my hands
away.
“Jesus H. Christ, Josh. I can put it on
myself. Go distract him so I can get dressed!”
“I’ve never heard you swear so much,
Heather…it’s kind of a turn on.” I said as I gave her a quick kiss
on the cheek. She smiled back at me and told me to go.
I ran down the stairs and jumped over the
mess that was on the floor in the hallway and made my way to the
kitchen. I was gonna have to tell Jeff that he needed to make sure
his damn doors were locked if Garrett was just going to help
himself inside.
“Hey, Garrett, what’s going on?”
“I called for ya,” Garrett said as he held up
the empty coffee pot.
“Damn, where do I have to go to get a cup of
coffee? I had to get away from all the clean-up from the party.
Gunner said y’all are going to head into the honky-tonk in town,
huh?”
“Um, yes, sir, we are. I’m just waiting to
hear back from Jeff about how Ari is doing. I still can’t believe
she lost the baby.”
Garrett shook his head and
sat down on the bar stool at the kitchen island.
Motherfucker
. Less than
five minutes ago, I was in heaven with the girl of my dreams,
naked, and now I was standing across from Gunner’s grandfather,
wondering what the hell he was doing here.
“Did you need something other than coffee,
Garrett? Anything that I can help you with? I asked.
I could hear Heather picking up everything
she’d dropped in the hallway. I reached for my phone in my back
pocket but it wasn’t there.
Shit!
I dropped it when I ran into Heather.
“Nah, I just needed to get away from the
house for a bit.”
***
Garrett and I talked for about another ten
minutes before Heather came into the kitchen. She was dressed in a
white shirt, jeans, and cowboy boots. I smiled at her, but she just
glared at me.
What the hell?
It wasn’t my fault that Garrett had shown
up.
“Garrett, do you think I could catch a ride
up to the house with you? I’m going to meet Ellie and Gunner
there,” Heather said.
“Are you going out, too? That’s good, honey.
You need to cut a rug once in a while. Sure, let’s head on up.”
Garrett stood up and started to make his way to the front door.
I just stood there, staring
at Heather.
Why does she want to leave
with Garrett?
I stepped in front of her and held her
back.
“Why are you leaving with Garrett,
princess?”
Heather looked up at me with tears building
in her eyes. My heart stopped, and I had the worst feeling in my
chest.
“Heather, what’s wrong?” I asked as I reached
for the side of her face.
She backed away from me as one single tear
rolled down her cheek.
“I’ve never been made to feel so foolish in
my entire life,” she said, her voice cracking.
“What are you talking about? We just
shared.”
“Stop! Don’t even talk about it.”
She tossed my phone at me, and I just barely
caught it.
“Your fuck buddy is waiting for you.” Heather
walked around me and left out the door.
When I hit the home button on my phone, I saw
the text message I had sent to Lynda.
Damn, girl… ur looking hot…looks like I’m
might be getting lucky tonight with this.
Motherfucker.
I had forgotten that I’d sent this
message.
It took me a few seconds to get my wits about
me before I ran out after Heather. I caught up to her at the Jeep.
Garrett was waiting in the driver’s seat.
“Wait! Heather, please wait. You have to let
me explain.” I was ready to fall to my knees and beg for just five
minutes.
She turned and looked at me. Her eyes were
filled with such sadness.
“To think that I almost…I wanted to...” She
started to move her head back and forth, like she was trying to
clear her mind.
“How could I ever be so stupid to think that
you would only want me? Enjoy your night with Lynda.” She jumped in
the Jeep.
Garrett looked at Heather and then at me.
“Heather, darling, are you sure you don’t
want to stay here and talk with Josh?”
“I have nothing left to say to him, Garrett,
but thank you. I’m just ready to go.”
Garrett started the Jeep and gave me one last
look. It was almost like he was trying to tell me something.
“Heather, please don’t…please don’t do
this.”
I reached for her hand and she pulled it
away.
“Garrett, please leave,” Heather said as she
wiped away tears rolling down her cheeks.
I stood there, watching as the Jeep got
farther and farther out of sight.
The moment I could no longer see it, I fell
to the ground and buried my head in my hands.
I was pretty sure that I just lost the only
thing I ever loved and wanted.
CHAPTER
THIRTY-FOUR
HEATHER
One the way back to Garrett and Emma’s place,
I tried desperately to keep my hands from shaking. I could tell
that Garrett was trying to give me some space. I kept replaying
what had happened between Josh and me only thirty minutes ago.
“Heather, I don’t want your first time to be
like this. It needs to be special, a night you’ll always remember
with as smile…and without any regret, princess.”
He didn’t want to make love
to me because he was planning on fucking Lynda tonight.
I should have known. He’ll never change.
Ever.
Just then Garrett pulled me from my
thoughts.
“Heather, are ya gonna let the boy
explain?”
I spun my head toward Garrett and just stared
at him.
“What?”
“Are you going to at least let him explain?
He looked pretty torn up.”
Oh. My. God.
“No! Not to be rude, Garrett, but you have no
idea what happened between us back there. Josh is a womanizer. He
will never change, and I was crazy to think that I might be the one
he would change for.”
I started to think about my father telling me
how someday my prince would come for me. I felt the tears welling
up in my eyes again.
I missed my mother and father. Why did they
have to leave me all alone?
***
We drove up to the house just as Gunner and
Ellie were pulling up. I flew out of the Jeep and started to make
my way over to Ellie. The moment she saw, me she knew something was
wrong.
“Ari?” Ellie asked in a panicked voice.
Oh shit. How could I forget about Ari? What
kind of friend am I?
I shook my head and tried to smile. I needed
to pull it together. Ellie didn’t need to hear me bellyache about
Josh.
Fucker that he is.
“What’s wrong, Heather?”
“I guess I’m just thinking about Ari. Have
you heard from her since you left?”
Ellie’s eyes filled with tears.
“No, but I did talk to Jeff. He’s not doing
so well. He’s blaming himself. He was crying so hard on the phone
that I could hardly understand him.”
“What happened with the whole Rebecca
thing?”
“Oh god, I’ll fill you in on the ride over to
the club.”
Gunner let out a laugh. “Ells, it’s not a
club. It’s a honkytonk.”
Ellie shrugged her shoulders. “Whatever.”
As we walked up to the house, I heard someone
pulling up the driveway. I turned around to see Josh’s truck. I
started to walk faster, taking the steps of the porch two at a
time, only to run right into Lynda.
“Jesus, watch where you’re going,
Heather.”
I took one look at her and wanted to puke.
She was dressed in a low-cut, very low-cut light blue shirt. I
could see her bra through the shirt, and her shorter-than-short
skirt was damn near up to her crotch. Her black cowboy boots
rounded out the whole hooker-looking outfit. I ran my eyes up and
down her.
“You think Josh will like what he sees?” She
asked, giving me a wink.
I had an incredible urge to knock the crap
out of this girl. I was just about to say something back to her
when I heard Josh behind me.
“Heather, I really need to talk to you.
Please.” His voice was practically begging me.
I turned around to face at
him.
Damn.
He
looked good in his white button-down shirt, jeans, and boots. I had
the most intense feeling between my legs, I actually felt myself
pushing my legs together.
What the hell is wrong with me?
“Heather, please don’t walk away from me
after what happened between us. You have to let me explain.”
I glanced over at Ellie and Gunner. They both
looked very confused and looked at me and then at Josh.
“Wait…what do you mean what happened between
y’all?” Lynda asked glaring at me.
I didn’t want to air my dirty little secrets
in front of everyone, especially the tramp standing next to me. I
started to walk toward the barn and Josh followed me.
Lynda tried to stop him. “Josh, wait, I
thought we.”
“Lynda, please, I just need to talk to
Heather for a few minutes. Just give me a couple of minutes.”
I walked as fast as I could down to the main
barn. Before I could turn around, Josh grabbed me and pushed me up
against the side of the barn.
He kissed me with so much passion that I
almost lost myself in him. Finally pulling my lips away from his, I
tried to push him away.
“Stop, Josh! Just stop right now! How dare
you even think of kissing me after what you did to me! How could
you?”
Josh went to say something, but I cut him
off.
“
You never had any intention
of sleeping with me because you already made plans to fuck Lynda
tonight!” I screamed at him.
Josh closed his eyes. When he opened them, I
swore it looked like he had tears in his eyes.
“Heather, I don’t know how to explain this to
you. I was trying to do something the only way I’ve ever known how
to do it. I wanted you so much, but you just kept pushing me away,
and.”
“So, you’re saying this is my fault? I tried
to explain myself the other day, but you wouldn’t let me. You just
acted like a stubborn ass, and then you started hanging all over
Lynda like the man whore that you are.”
The moment I said it, I regretted it. The
look on his face just about killed me.