Sexy Love (4 page)

“
Before or
after the kiss?”

“
After.”

“
She must have
been a good kisser.”

I smile, “she
is, but that’s not it. We just really connect, y’know? I can’t
explain it but she feels like the perfect girl for me. We can
really talk to each other and she shared a lot of things with me
last night.”

“
What sort of
things?” he asks interested.

I feel
embarrassed, not wanting to share it all with him in case Starlet
is hoping it stays between us.

“
Just stuff
about her past,” I answer vaguely, “but it’s cool that she trusts
me.”

“
Still seems
too much too soon,” he says unsurely. “Is she in love with you
too?”

“
I dunno,
maybe,” I answer, wondering if she is.

She did act all
dreamy last night so she could be feeling the exact same way about
me too. My heart feels like its melting just thinking about
it.

“
It does feel
like I’m going too far,” I admit. “I feel like I’m going crazy and
I want to be with her all the time. Seriously, what’s with that? I
don’t want to turn into one of those clingy boyfriends who have to
be with them 24/7. It’s so not cool.”

He laughs,
“that would be hilarious. Hopefully you won’t forget about your
mates now you’re all love struck.”

“
There’s no way
I’d do that,” I insist. “We’ll still hang out. How else will you
get the girls without your wingman?”

He smiles a
little at my joke, but I can tell he’s a little worried that
Starlet being my girlfriend could change things, “I hope so,
dude.”

After work, I’m
half-watching TV at the flat while thinking about how I’m going to
break the news to Carl. I hope he really isn’t going to kick off
about it and he’ll just accept it.

I look up when
I hear him enter the flat and see that he’s already not in a good
mood.

“
Is it true?”
he asks me. “Are you and Starlet together?”

I look down at
the floor awkwardly, “Yeah…I was gonna tell you when you got in.
Who told you?”

I start to feel
annoyed, wondering if Mick has let it slip even though he agreed
not to.

“
I heard it
from Steph this afternoon. Apparently there’s been rumours going
around for a while, but now everyone seems to know that you two are
together.”

I sigh, wishing
everyone wasn’t so nosy. This relationship is between me and
Starlet, not the whole building.

He sits down on
the sofa beside me, “How long has this been going on?”

“
I took her out
on a date the night before my trip,” I confess to him. “We had a
second date when I got back last night and then I asked her out.
We’ve only been officially going out for less than a
day.”

He looks
surprised at my confession about the first date, “I had no idea all
that was going on. So I guess you weren’t out with Mick those two
nights?”

I know he
disapproves of me lying to him and I feel guilty, “No, I’m sorry I
lied.”

He looks a
little sad that I’ve been hiding stuff from him. We’re not just
brothers, we’re best friends too. We’ve always been close, ever
since we were little, and I usually tell him everything…but not
this time.

“
I couldn’t
tell you the truth ‘cause I knew you’d be pissed off and stop me
seeing her,” I tell him honestly.

“
So why did you
do it even though I told you not to,” he asks
disappointed.

“
I don’t have
to do everything you say,” I argue. “I know you’re my boss but this
isn’t about work. What I do outside it is my business.”

“
I really hope
it stays that way. This better not get in the way of work,” he
warns, “and I don’t want anything happening while you’re both on
the job.”

“
It won’t,” I
promise.

“
I just don’t
understand why you had to do this. You can hook up with any random
girl outside here, so why her?”

“
This isn’t
about me getting off with someone,” I answer, feeling angry.
“Starlet means a lot to me. We’re not just having some silly fling
or short term romance. I want a serious relationship with
her.”

“
Really? I
thought you didn’t have time for those?”

He’s really hit
a sore spot there, “You know why none of my relationships lasted!”
I snap. “It’s not ‘cause I’m jumping from one girl to the next.
It’s because work always gets in the way or has to come first, just
like it did with Nicola.”

I feel sad as I
think back to my ex-girlfriend. She was devastated when I had to
choose work over her and we ended up breaking up. Carl knows about
it so I don’t know why he’s bringing it up and accusing me of being
a player.

“
Things are
different with Star,” I insist. “I want to make sure it works out
this time.”

“
And why is
that?” he asks, not believing me.

“
Because I’ve
fallen for her,” I admit.

There’s a
stunned silence and I feel shy at what I’ve just blurted
out.

“
You’re in love
with her?” he asks, still looking surprised.

“
Yeah, is that
a problem?”

“
No, of course
not,” he looks down guiltily. “I’m sorry. I didn’t realise you felt
so strongly about her. Now I understand why you went against my
judgement.”

“
So you’ll
accept that we’re together?”

“
Okay,” he
agrees, defeated, “but I still think it’s a bad idea. You have to
realise how complicated it will get if you two have an argument or
break up. You’ll need to come in the next day and work together as
if nothing’s happened. Do you really think both of you can do
that?”

“
I’m sure I can
handle it,” I promise, although it breaks my heart to think what
would happen if Starlet and I did ever break up.

“
Good, because
there’s no way I’m losing you or Starlet through an emotion
matter,” he says. “You are one of my best employees and Starlet’s
showing great potential too. It would be a shame to throw that
away.”

“
You won’t have
to,” I say. “Things will be exactly the same as they’ve always
been. I’ll still work hard and Star will too once she’s finished
training. Whatever’s happening with us will stay outside of work
like I promised.”

“
Okay,” he
looks relieved. “Just make sure it does.”

After dinner, I
send a text message to Starlet, hoping we can talk so I can warn
her that Carl knows about us:

Hey Star, can
I c u tonite? I really need to talk to u about something
Xxxxx

She replies
back right away:

Yeah sure, Im
free. Just come round any time xxxxx

I quickly type
in a reply before setting out of the door: Cool.
I’ll b right over xxxxx

It only takes
me a minute to walk over to her flat and she answers as soon as I
knock.

“
Hi,” she
greets me with one of her pretty smiles.

“
Hi Star,” I
reply, feeling really happy to see her and go in for a
kiss.

It feels just
as good as it did last night and we eventually stop kissing and go
into her flat.

“
So what’s so
important?” she asks as we sit on the sofa together.

“
Carl found out
about us,” I tell her. “I never told him about our dates ‘cause he
didn’t like me tryin’ to get with you. I was gonna tell him about
us today but he heard it from someone else first.”

She looks a
little anxious, “what did he say about it?”

“
He’s pretty
annoyed at me for going against what he said,” I reply, “but he
finally accepted that we’re together and I think he’s okay with it
now.”

“
That’s
good.”

“
He wants us to
act professionally at work, so that means we can’t kiss or anything
during work hours,” I say. “I know we shouldn’t but I bet it will
be hard.”

“
It’s fine. We
need to anyway,” she says, not fazed by it. “We have to stay
focused, plus we’ll be pretty busy and have missions to do, so I
guess we won’t have time for other stuff.”

“
I guess you’re
right,” I agree. “I promised him we would keep our relationship
outside of work… but he says that if we do have any problems then
we have to just carry on as normal.”

“
I’m sure I
can,” she says, although she looks a little troubled. “Do you think
I should go and speak to Carl about it? Just so he knows that
everything’s fine?”

“
Maybe not,” I
tell her. “I don’t think he really wants to discuss our
relationship, especially when it’s with me. I think he trusts you
to do everything right, it’s just me he was nervous
about.”

“
Okay, if
you’re sure.”

I start to feel
nervous, “You don’t mind all this, do you?” I ask, hoping that the
issue of Carl and all the work stuff won’t put her off wanting to
be with me.

“
No, it’s
fine,” she reassures me. “We’ll handle it.”

I smile,
feeling so lucky to have an amazing girlfriend like her.

“
I’ve missed
you. I know we only saw each other last night,” I say, hoping I
don’t sound clingy, “but I love it when we hang out.”

“
Me too,” she
says and snuggles up to me happily. “It was great last night and I
still can’t believe I have an amazing boyfriend like
you.”

I feel touched,
“aww, thanks. That’s sweet, and I’m totally happy you’re my
girlfriend too.”

We kiss on the
sofa for a while and I feel so relieved to finally be with her
again. At least I won’t get any more cravings until I have to
leave.

Chapter
8

Starlet has her
last day of training four weeks later and I can’t wait to celebrate
her qualifying once she’s finished for the day. Luckily, Carl
mentions that he’ll be out working until late and I feel so happy
that we’ll be able to have the flat to ourselves. I take my chance
and ask Starlet over to the flat to eat pizza and watch a movie, so
we can spend some time alone together.

Starlet is
buzzing with excitement when I see her later on, feeling happy to
finally be one of us and start real freedom fighter work tomorrow.
She agrees to come over and I feel excited as we walk there
together. I’ve tidied the flat especially and made sure I looked
good enough, getting my hair style perfect and putting on some
expensive cologne.

Starlet is
wearing ordinary clothes, just a t-shirt and skinny jeans, but the
way they both cling to her body and show off her figure make it
look so sexy.

We don’t even
get to watch a movie or order a pizza at first. She’s so
irresistible that I pull her onto the sofa with me.
She giggles and snuggles up to me and I put my
arms around her, looking into her eyes. I run my fingers through
her hair and kiss her lips. She kisses me back and slips her arms
around my neck.

We’re soon
making out and it feels great. It’s amazing having her lips on mine
and snuggling her close as we lay across the sofa. We start to kiss
a little more passionately as I do open-mouth kissing. This feels
even better and my hands slide down her back. I run my fingers
along it, feeling myself go harder when my fingertips brush over
the clip of her bra, which is hiding beneath her t-shirt. I want to
take it off so badly but I know that’s too forward right
now.

I quickly drop
my hands down to her waist instead, but I can’t help slipping them
under where her t-shirt is coming up and feeling her slim waist. I
run my fingers over it, loving the way it curves, and she sighs a
little as we continue kissing, enjoying my touch.

Just hearing
her sigh like that makes me more excited and I want her even more.
I pull her waist even closer to me so there’s no gap between us at
all. We’re still open mouth kissing, so I know I can get a chance
to French kiss her like I’m longing to.

I carefully
slip my tongue into her mouth as we kiss, find hers and brush
against it softly. She responds, brushing against mine too until
we’re having the best French kiss ever. She moans a little with
pleasure, although it’s a little muffled from our kiss.

I return to
open mouth kissing again. I want to stay French kissing her
forever, but I know that doing it too long will start to get too
sloppy and wet. We keep returning to a few seconds of French
kissing before taking a break of normal kissing.

I’m just
enjoying feeling her tongue against mine again when I hear the flat
door open unexpectedly. I jump away from Starlet in surprise, my
heart beating fast. I turn and see that Carl has entered the flat
and is now staring at me and Starlet in shock.

Luckily he
doesn’t make a scene. He just politely says hi to both of us, his
face red with embarrassment of finding me making out with someone.
Then he quickly escapes to his bedroom and we’re left alone
again.