They're sure it is. With DNA, they can do that too. I guess you didn't know that . . .
Silent, Stella studied Sam. âTell me, Mr. Robb, do you believe that a fetus is a life?'
âYes. I do.'
âDid Marcie?'
Sam's eyes narrowed. âI don't really know.'
âYou didn't know that Marcie was a committed Roman Catholic, who believed that abortion was morally wrong?'
âI mean, I knew she was Catholic. We just never talked about abortion.'
âYou knew Marcie was Catholic, you were having sex, and you never talked about what would happen if she got pregnant?'
âNo. We didn't.'
âEven after the condom broke?'
Sam shifted his weight, uncomfortable. âI mean, we talked about what to do. She got a diaphragm â'
âBecause for Marcie to get pregnant would be a disaster for you, right?'
âYes. It would have.' Looking up, Sam added softly, âIt has been. On top of everything else.'
Stella watched him, stymied for the first time. That he had helped make Sam a better witness, Tony was discovering, filled him with disquiet that kept growing, moment by moment. Though Sam had not directly answered him, Tony felt certain that he had not known about DNA.
âAll right,' Stella was saying. âYou've testified that you wish Marcie had told you she was pregnant.'
âYes.'
âWhat would you have done, Mr. Robb? Suggest an abortion?'
âMaybe.'
âAnd what if she'd refused?'
Sam slowly shook his head. âI don't know,' he finally answered. âHelp her have the baby, I guess.'
âBut that would have ruined you, wouldn't it? Destroyed your career, your reputation, probably your marriage.'
Sam wiped his brow. âI guess so, Ms. Marz. . . .'
âBut that's not the choice you made, is it?' Stella's voice was quiet now. âYou needed your baby to die, and so Marcie Calder had to die. Because that was the choice you gave her.'
Sam's eyes filled with tears again. Blindly, it seemed, he sought out Sue. âNo,' he said softly, as if to her. âI'm not like that. Despite everything else I've done, I'm not like that.'
Stella gazed at him and then slowly shook her head. To Karoly, she said simply, âI think I've seen enough of Mr. Robb.'
Standing, Tony faced Sam again.
Just concentrate
, he told himself.
Be a lawyer
. But he felt empty to the core.
âWe've heard testimony,' Tony began, âthat human life was precious to Marcie Calder. Is it precious to you?'
Slowly, Sam nodded. âYes. It is.'
âIncluding Marcie Calder's life?'
âEspecially Marcie Calder's life.'
âAnd why is that?'
âBecause I was proud of her, as a coach. Because I became close to her. Because she was a beautiful young woman with so many good things ahead of her â a marriage, a family. All the things that I've had, and maybe lost.' Sam paused, swallowing. âBecause, even though I betrayed everything I stood for, I've devoted my adult life to working with kids like Marcie.'
Watch it
, Tony thought reflexively.
It's too much
. He put his hands in his pockets. âAnd when you went to the police, Mr. Robb, did you really think you could keep yourself out of trouble?'
âNo. It was from conscience â I was either going to be the person I used to be or let the bad things I'd done take over. Going to the police is the only thing I did that gives me any kind of self-respect.' He paused, voice quieter yet. âI'd do it again, if they could find her still alive . . .'
Sam's voice faltered, and then, quite suddenly, he lost all composure. âHe faced the courtroom, tears running down his face.
âWe're through now,' Tony said softly, and sat down.
When he glanced at her, Sue's face was stiff, expressionless. From her table, Stella gazed at Sam with narrowed eyes.
At last, Sam stood, unsteady, giving a tentative glance toward Sue. Then he walked across the courtroom, to Tony, and put his arms around him, tears brimming again, just as he had on that spring day twenty-eight years before, carrying a trophy, applause washing over them both.
âWe're still a team,' Sam whispered hoarsely. âStill a team.'
Chapter 24
Minutes later, after Tony had rested his case, Stella Marz declined to call rebuttal witnesses.
âAll right,' Karoly said. âWe'll have closing arguments tomorrow morning. Nine o'clock.'
As the courtroom cleared, Saul said to Tony, âNo Ernie.'
Tony nodded. âWhich means she still can't account for his whereabouts between eight-thirty and ten-eighteen. Without that, I'm sure Stella figures that to have him simply repeat that he didn't kill her would dignify our defense.'
Saul glanced at Sam. âMaybe,' he said, and Tony understood at once: in Saul's view, Stella had decided to go to the jury with Sam's testimony fresh in their minds. Watching them as they filed out, eyes downcast, like strangers on an elevator, Tony could not tell what Sam had gained, or lost.
Sam himself sat in a wide-eyed stupor that, to Tony, mimed the sightlessness of someone in profound shock. Perhaps this was exhaustion, Tony thought, or that utter loss of dignity that separates the person who sustains it from all those who have watched. Or, perhaps, it was Sam's final, crushing acceptance of what his life had become. But the thought that troubled Tony most was that this Torpor might be a clever self-portrait â another face Sam had chosen to present, which masked a perverse feeling of triumph. Whatever it was, Tony felt tired.
Gently, he patted Sam on the shoulder. âLet's go.'
Looking up, Sam gave him a wan smile. âThanks for helping me,' Sam said. âNo matter how bad it was, I needed to do this.'
Then it was the right thing
, Tony might have said in other circumstances. His silence was the echo of his own disquiet.
Together, they turned to Sue.
Her gaze was not on Sam, Tony realized, but on him. Before he could interpret this, she flinched; at the corner of his eye, Tony saw a blur of motion.
Frank Calder came across the courtroom toward Sam, scalded face distorted by loathing. Sam looked at him in dull astonishment, making no effort to defend himself.
â
You scum
,' Frank Calder said. As he raised his fist, Sam did not move.
Stepping between them, Tony grabbed Calder's arm, jerking him sideways. Their faces were inches apart; Tony could see the pain in Frank Calder's face as Tony twisted his arm, smell the man's breath. Over Calder's head, Tony saw a sheriff's deputy hurry toward them.
â
You
,' Calder burst out. âYou're as bad as he is.'
Tony jerked his arm. There was something cold in Calder's hatred, Tony thought, a reptilian quality that must have always been there. But what Tony felt most was pity for all that this man had been forced to hear, and for the things that he would never understand.
âI'm sorry,' Tony said, and then the deputy clamped Calder's arms and took him back to his wife. Nancy Calder stood there, pale, her expression one of grief, of estrangement from her husband. She could barely look at him.
âJesus,' Sam whispered.
His voice held a hint of awe, the recognition of human wreckage. âThey'll never make it,' Tony murmured. âThey were on trial too.'
Then he noticed Sue. Briefly, she touched Tony's wrist, then she told Sam in a toneless voice, âWe should leave.'
Taking Sam by the arm, she headed for the door of the courtroom, to meet the two deputies assigned to keep them safe. When Sam turned to her, speaking softly, she did not look at him.
That night, Tony tried to push everything else from his mind and review his final argument.
He had outlined it before the trial. Very little had changed, because very little had surprised him. It was the sign of a professional.
Lying on the bed, Tony put aside his legal pad. He had been a lawyer for twenty-one years: five years longer than Christopher's life, fourteen years longer than his marriage to Stacey. At this age, forty-six, he was older than Saul had been when he saved the seventeen-year old Tony Lord and, by doing this, changed the course of Tony's life.
To defend those who might be guilty had always meant that he could not dwell on their presumed crimes, but on the need to make the government prove its case, to question its errors and assumptions, to ensure that it not convict on supposition. But that the defendant was Sam, and the victim a teenage girl, had made Tony face, and then inhabit, the gulf between the morality of the defense lawyer and that deeper morality, the layman's sense of right and wrong, which had been part of Tony since childhood. He envied Stella Marz this much â that her public beliefs and her private self were not in conflict here.
As for Tony the lawyer, he did not know that Sam was guilty. He was not even certain that he had lied on the stand.
Picking up the legal pad, he began scratching notes in the margin, and then he heard a knock on the door.
Tony half-expected Sue. When he opened the door, torn between worry and anticipation, Ernie Nixon was standing there.
âYou going to invite me in?' Ernie asked.
Tony's surprise became alarm. But he nodded and stood aside.
Ernie crossed the room and sat near where, a week earlier, Sue had read the travel magazine. His thin frame was taut.
Watching him, Tony shoved his hands in his pockets. âWhat can I do for you?'
Though Ernie's gaze was level. Tony saw that he was fighting for self-control. âNot much now, Tony. Not much, now that half the folks who send their kids to me don't want to anymore. All that you can do is satisfy my curiosity.' Pausing, Ernie looked up at him, his tight-lipped smile a grimace of repressed anger. âYou really believe I killed that girl, Tony? Or were you just playing the “race card,” as it were?'
Tony made himself be still, seemingly calm. âWhat difference would my answer make?'
âI'd just kind of like to know why I'm going through all this. And you're the only one who knows.'
âNo,' Tony retorted. âYou are. All
I
know is that you didn't use good judgment, and can't account for your time.'
The bitter smile vanished altogether. âBut what do you
think
, Tony? Are your palms turning sweaty 'cause you're locked in a hotel room with a murderer who's got every reason to hate you? Maybe you just think I was sleeping with her, or go around beating women? Or was all this another joke to share with your pal Sam?'
For a moment, Tony wondered if this was a trick â either on Ernie's own initiative or with Stella's collusion. Then he saw the Ernie he had known at seventeen, vulnerable yet contained, and felt again his own guilt. All that was left was to be honest.
âAll right,' Tony said at last. âDo I “think” you killed Marcie? No. Do I think you were sleeping with her? Probably not, though there's room to wonder. Were you emotionally involved with her? Damned right. And if you think any of this is
fun
for me, you're out of your mind.
âWhat I
know
is that Sam Robb is charged with a murder you
could
have committed, out of jealousy and anger, and that you shaded the truth about when and how you saw Marcie Calder. Probably you're not guilty of anything more than human weakness. But I don't
know
that's all it was, and I'm not entitled to guess.
âBut you already hate me, so I'll give you something to take home with you.
Yes
, I'm perfectly aware, and always have been, that some members of the jury may be more likely to suspect you because you're black. And when I repeated what your wife had said to you, I played into that. It may even help acquit Sam Robb. But Dee
did
say it, and you
did
hit her.'
Ernie stared at him. âYou know what's the worst thing about you?' he finally said. âYou don't believe in anything. You don't believe your client's innocent, and you don't believe I'm guilty. You're not even an out-and-out racist. You're just a hired gun, and you remember from Alison Taylor what worked for
you
.'
Like any half-truth, Tony thought, the part that was true hurt, the part that was unfair stung all the more for that. But he was through with offering excuses. âSo now that you've figured me out,' he said, âyou can go home.'
Ernie did not move. âWhat home, Tony? What home?'
Tony did not answer. Without resistance, the passion seemed to go out of Ernie. What Tony saw now was a hurt and loneliness that pierced him to the core. But Tony could say nothing, for he himself was the cause; he had damaged Ernie, for Sam's sake, perhaps as unfairly as the Lake City police once had damaged him.
Slowly rising from his chair, Ernie stopped two feet from Tony. âYou know what's worst of all for me?' Ernie asked. âHaving known Marcie Calder, and knowing that Sam Robb killed her. Knowing that you've done all this for a murderer.' He paused, finishing softly: âThat's what I wish for you, Tony. That you come to know it too. Although maybe
you
can live with it just fine, prick that you are. For you, winning is the only thing, isn't it?'
When Tony was silent, Ernie slowly shook his head, and left.
Chapter 25
When Stella Marz faced the jury, looking from one to the other, Tony knew at once that she had chosen her first words with care.
âThis is the trial,' she said with quiet contempt, âof a practiced â if not skilled â liar, who murdered a sixteen-year-old girl because lies could no longer protect him, and now asks you to accept his lies about
that
. And, when lies alone will not do, he asks you to accept concidence.