The Arrangement Anthology (35 page)

CHAPTER 12

By the time that we pull up at the restaurant, I feel more poised. Gabe pulls up to the curb and the valet opens the door. I step from the back of the car, smooth my sexy, red, silk dress and look up.

Henry is standing a few feet away. He waves at me and hurries over. “You look stunning.”

I smile warmly at him and take his arm when he offers it. “So do you.” My voice is a little too deep, but that’s okay. It’s better to think I’m a sex fiend, right? We walk inside and get led to a table at the back of the restaurant. It’s an Italian place with stucco walls and a rich red carpet that matches the color of my dress. Each table has a drippy candle in the center, along with beautiful plates and a million pieces of silverware.

When we are both seated, Henry orders wine. I smile at him from under my lashes. I decided to take Mel’s advice and pretend this is a date. “So, how has your day been?”

He beams at me. “Fantastic. I can’t even begin to tell you what that patent has done for me. I wanted to see you again. I had to thank you.”

“You could have done that without all this.” I wink at him and the man smiles harder. Damn, he’s cute. He’s acting like I’m a goddess or something. Every compliment lights him up to full wattage.

“Yes, but I wanted the chance to show you off and tell everyone I meet that you’re the woman who changed my life. You tamed the beast for me. Ferro had no intention of giving me that patent, but you got it from him. It makes me wonder what you’re capable of, so I wanted to take you out, alone, to see for myself.” His gaze is dark. Henry’s eyes don’t dip below my neckline even though I’m sure he can see the little bumps from the crystals under my dress. He doesn’t look.

Sean stares.
Stop thinking about Sean
.

I lean forward and say in a breathy voice, “You will.”

The meal passes quickly. I try not to think about later, about doing things with him afterward, but images of naked bodies flash through my mind and sour my stomach. After dessert, I excuse myself. As I pass by the bar, Gabe falls into step with me.

“One hundred and ten percent, Stanz. I’ve already told her that the guy is eating out of your hand.”

“Thanks, Gabe.”

He nods and turns like he was going somewhere else. When I’m in the bathroom, I walk up in front of the sink and stare at the mirror. I want to splash water on my face, but it’ll mess up make-up. I stand there for a moment and primp until I’m alone. Then, I sigh and try to work up the nerve to do whatever I need to do with Henry. I’m not cut out for this. Sex and love are tied together in my brain. I don’t know how to tear them apart.

That’s why you can’t be with Sean. That’s why you can’t finish your job tonight.

I look at myself. This isn’t what I thought my life would be like. But the money, oh my God, the money is good. Does it really matter that I fucked a really nice guy to survive? I might have slept with Henry anyway. He’s sweet and funny and… not Sean.

When I leave the ladies room, I know what I need to do. I plaster a sexy smile on my face and saunter back to the table where Henry is waiting for me.

“Are you ready to go?” Henry stands and offers his hand.

I take it in mine. I lean in close to him and run my fingers over his shirt front, letting my fingers slip between the buttons. “I can’t wait.”

Henry squeezes my hand and we head out to the car. He remains a gentleman all the way up to the hotel room. He doesn’t try to kiss me or do more than hold my hand. He smiles like he’s happy to be with me and holding hands in enough. But I’m not that naïve. I said I’d do anything he wanted once we were in the hotel room. For all I know, he might be as twisted as Sean.

My heart pounds a little harder as Henry opens the door. I brush past him slowly, making sure I’m a tad too close. My chest brushes against his. I smile as I do it. Henry sucks in a jagged breath, and steps inside, letting the door close behind him.

He finally looks at my cleavage and his eyes wander over my smooth satin dress to the bumps where the silver rings are located. “Are your nipples pierced, Miss Stanz?” A surprised smile lines his lips.

“Sort of, Mr. Thomas. You’ll have to wait and see for yourself.” Henry knows me as Allison Stanz. Half of the time I don’t respond fast enough when he says Allison. I need to act like I want this. I need this job, I need Henry to want me so badly that he’s willing to triple his payment to have me a third time, assuming I get through this tonight.

Henry makes a content sound in the back of his throat and steps towards me. He hesitates for a second and then dips his head and presses his lips to mine. I lift my hands and tangle them in his hair, but he breaks the kiss before it gets going.

Holding out his arm, he says, “There are some things I want to know about you first.”

I’m knocked off balance, but try to hide it. I smile at him and sit down in a chair. Henry sits next to me. His eyes are on his hand, which he places on my thigh.

I touch my hand to his and say, “It’s all right. I’m yours. You can do anything you want.”

Henry presses his lips together and looks up at me. “That’s just it. You’re not mine, Allison. This is an illusion; I’m not naïve enough to think it isn’t. For all I know, you’re not even into guys like me, but the thing is, I’m really into you. I wish I could ask you on a date. I wish I knew you, the real you, and not this version.” He laughs and pulls his hand away. He stands and walks over to the bar. Pouring a glass of Jack, he turns back to me and says, “I’m a fool. I’ve paid an exorbitant amount of money for a beautiful woman who will do anything I want, and I say things like that.”

I stand and walk up behind him. I touch his shoulder lightly. “Is that why you’re being so careful? Are you afraid I won’t like you?” I turn him toward me and take the Jack out of his hand and put it on the dresser behind him.

“Here’s the truth,” I manage to spin a web of lies that sounds so convincing even I believe it. I have to believe it or I won’t be able to be with him. “I think you’re incredibly sexy. The moment I saw you, I wanted to wrap my arms around your chest. And, the way you acted at dinner the other night was incredible. I am attracted to you. I would have gone on a date with you, and this
did
feel like a date. A really good date.” I slip my arms around his neck and press my breasts against his chest. “It’s up to you how it ends.”

My heart is pounding. I want this and I don’t want this. Henry is older than me with a runner’s lean body. He’s all hard muscle. I can see that, but he doesn’t turn me on. There’s no spark.

We stand still for a moment. Henry looks down at me and sighs. “Is this the only way to have you?”

I smile slowly. “For now.”

“It’s cruel to give me hope, Allison, but I’ll take what I can get.”

I nod. I’m Allison. I keep forgetting that.

Henry dips his head and kisses me. My hands find the sides of his face as I kiss him back. I close my eyes and picture Sean. When Henry’s hands slide down my sides and cup my butt, I think of Sean’s strong hands holding me tight. I moan a little and lean into him more, but Henry kisses me slowly, gently. He’s lingering, so I follow his lead and slow down. The kiss dawdles and then Henry finally dips his head and kisses my neck. I tilt my head back and think about Sean kissing me in the dressing room. My body is confused. It remembers Sean’s kisses, but it knows this isn’t Sean.

Henry lifts his head and whispers in my ear, “Come to bed with me.”

He pulls my hand across the room to the bed and sits down and scoots back to the middle. I crawl toward him in my tight dress. His eyes dip to my neckline and stay there. As I crawl toward him, I slip up his body, brushing my chest against him.

Henry closes his eyes for a moment. When I lick my tongue across the seam of his lips, he looks up at me. He takes me in his arms and kisses me harder this time. I fall onto his chest, which makes the silver clips bite into me. It sends a jolt between my legs and I moan into his mouth. Henry kisses me until he’s breathless. Then, he flips me over and trails kisses down my neck and to my chest. He stops and traces his finger over the top of my breast. It’s sweet, almost hesitant.

“You can touch me, Henry.” I sit up and unzip my dress. I push the top down so he can see the bra.

“Oh, God.” Henry sucks in air like there isn’t enough. He stares at my breasts, salivating. I know he wants to touch, but he doesn’t. He just looks at me and freezes. His eyes rise to my face. “How far would you go on a second date?”

I don’t understand his question. I smile at him. “It depends on the guy. With you, second base is a given, and if you keep looking at me like that I might not be able to control myself.”

The words feel like acid in my mouth. I hate lying. I imagine what I’d say to Sean if he asked me that. I shouldn’t feel any remorse. Sean is fucking some other call girl right now, but I don’t enjoy this. I put on the best sexy smile I can manage and crawl toward him on my hands and knees with my dress pushed down around my waist. “Kiss me, Henry. Don’t make me beg for it.”

Henry takes me in his arms and kisses me forever. I lose track of time, but it feels like he’s avoiding doing anything more. When I reach for his belt, Henry shifts so he’s on top of me. He finally dips his head to my breast. His lips are gentle.

I close my eyes and imagine I’m somewhere else. I want this to be over. My heart pounds harder and I realize that I’m afraid. Henry’s lips press against me over and over, but they feel like razor wire. There’s no connection, no desire. I know I need to force it. I thought lust would override my brain at some point, but it isn’t happening.

Henry’s hands move up and down my body and he pulls me up onto his lap. He dips his head and sucks my taut nipples between his lips. I finally respond. His touch, and the ring clamped around me, makes it so I’d have to be numb not to. My hips buck into his and I tilt my head back. I grab hold of that feeling, knowing I need to hold onto it to do this. I keep picturing Sean and begin to feel more into it. My hands tangle in his hair and I say things, but I don’t hear the words. Henry stays there like that, kissing my breasts, neck, and lips until he suddenly stops. Henry pushes away and shakes his head.

I’m flushed and breathing hard. I don’t understand why he got up. “What’s wrong?”

He rubs his hands over his head and down his neck. “Nothing. Nothing at all. You’re perfect.”

“Then, why’d you get up?”

He smiles at me, still trying to catch his breath. “You said second base. I have to stop or I won’t be able to.”

I grin at him and get up. His eyes fixate on my bra. The crystals are still dangling from my nipples. He finally tears his gaze away and looks up at my face. “You don’t have to stop, Henry. It’s okay, really.” I slip my arms around his neck and lock my eyes with his.

He shakes his head. “It’s my fantasy, Allison. I want it to play out longer.”

I don’t know what to do. Is he returning me? I freak out a little bit, but try not to show it. “So what do you want to do now? It’s still early.”

Henry steps back and pushes me away. “Please, put your dress on. I’ll arrange another date with you. We can hit third base next time.”

I smile at him, and reach forward, gently touching his arm. “Henry, I’m yours now.” He looks over at me with lust in his eyes, but he’s torn. I can see it all over his face. He wants me in a way that he can’t have me. “Have you hired a call girl before?”

“Not for this.” He watches me for a moment, and then lowers his lashes.

I wrap my arms around him and hold on tight. I hug him because he’s the sweetest man alive. I kiss his cheek and then step back and pull up my straps and zip my dress. “I can imagine why. You seriously bought me so you could date me?”

He nods. “It’s the only way, right?” I nod. His eyes drift over my dress.

An idea crosses my mind. I wonder if I should press him, but I do it anyway. I unzip my dress again and start to pull it down. “I want to show you something.”

He waves his hands at me. “That’s unnecessary.” He actually looks away like he shouldn’t be watching me, but he can’t help it. Henry keeps peeking at me out of the corner of his eye.

“Oh, it’s totally necessary. I want to show you what you missed.” I drop the dress to the floor and stand there in my little nothing bottoms and walk slowly toward him. “Do you still want to wait until next time?”

Henry swallows hard. His eyes sweep over me. “You’re not playing fair.”

I smile at him and back up. I want to make sure he asks for me again. This dating thing could help secure my job. I give him a sexy smile. “No, I’m not. Pick up your phone and take my picture. I want you to look at it later when I’m gone.”

Henry grabs his phone off the counter and takes a few quick pictures of me. I lay on the bed and he snaps more. When he’s done, I take it and delete all but one shot. Henry looks down at his one picture. “That was evil.”

“Allison does evil things.” I grin at him and slip my dress back on.

“Yes, you do.” After I’m dressed, he comes over and pulls me against him again. Henry presses his lips to mine and kisses me again. When he’s breathless, he pulls away. “You better go.”

He walks me to the door. I lean in and brush my lips lightly to his. “Good night, Henry. I can’t wait to see you again.” I wink at him and turn away. I make sure to sway my hips as I walk away. I can feel his eyes on me. I hope I made the right decision. I didn’t want to push him. It felt like he’d regret it. Henry wants this to feel real, so I’ll make it real.