A Novel
Part One
freshman year
Chapter One
I fucking loved her like no guy has ever loved…
Chapter Two
Even though I was the one who hit my head…
Chapter Three
I’ve known Kyle since third grade. His father has worked…
Chapter Four
A few weeks had passed. Class was actually starting to…
Chapter Five
I didn’t really know what was going to happen once…
Chapter Six
My stepmother had, once again, nagged my father into taking…
Chapter Seven
After the night she gave me the most incredible blowjob…
Chapter Eight
He was actually really good at sex. I kind of…
Chapter Nine
She was a cunt. There was absolutely no question in…
Chapter Ten
She kept saying how bad she wanted to go to…
Chapter Eleven
I got this text from Kyle saying he had something…
Chapter Twelve
The morning after the homecoming party I was coerced into…
Chapter Thirteen
The next month was probably one of the best in…
Chapter Fourteen
My first abortion was in high school and it was…
Chapter Fifteen
The last day of our winter vacation coincided with my…
Chapter Sixteen
Our first week back at school was kind of weird.
Chapter Seventeen
Rush week was seriously like one of the best weeks…
Chapter Eighteen
Rush week, for me, was little more than a series…
Chapter Nineteen
I didn’t see too much of Heather for the rest…
Chapter Twenty
I mean, yeah, I felt bad about not calling Kyle…
Chapter Twenty-One
A few months or so before the end of our…
Part Two
sophomore year
Chapter One
The first day of my second year at SMU was…
Chapter Two
I know it probably pissed Kyle off that I spent…
Chapter Three
The morning after the first big party of my sophomore…
Chapter Four
That feeling was fucking worse than anything. It was like…
Chapter Five
Oh my God. Seriously, how did he find out? Was…
Chapter Six
To say Kyle was merely upset over his breakup with…
Chapter Seven
I guess part of me thought that it just wouldn’t…
Chapter Eight
I had just had some breakfast in the Kappa kitchen…
Chapter Nine
I admit I was surprised that Kyle was able to…
Chapter Ten
It was only a few weeks after having sex with…
Chapter Eleven
By the time homecoming came our sophomore year, Brian and…
Chapter Twelve
I was returning from a blood test that was mandatory…
Chapter Thirteen
I was so fucking stupid. Everything with Erin was good,…
Chapter Fourteen
I don’t know why I never told Brian about seeing…
Chapter Fifteen
The Heaven and Hell party was, for me, an exercise…
Chapter Sixteen
There was still some time left until the end of…
Chapter Seventeen
I only talked to Brian one other time after the…
Chapter Eighteen
I was taking quite possibly the most foul shit of…
Chapter Nineteen
That night, in terms of making mistakes, was one of…
Chapter Twenty
I was like so excited. I mean a little part…
Chapter Twenty-One
The information divulged to me by Kyle the day after…
Part Three
junior year
Chapter One
Going into my third year at SMU, I couldn’t have…
Chapter Two
That first night back was like seriously the best. Kyle…
Chapter Three
Year three of my mandatory and pointless four-year stay at…
Chapter Four
Of course I had thought about marrying Heather a few…
Chapter Five
I was on my way back from my first actual…
Chapter Six
Kyle’s apartment was nice enough. I didn’t mind spending time…
Chapter Seven
I hadn’t honestly ever given it much thought in my…
Chapter Eight
A bunch of us were like sitting around trying to…
Chapter Nine
After a particularly boring business ethics lecture I returned to…
Chapter Ten
I had been to probably every jewelry store in Dallas…
Chapter Eleven
The next kind of big thing that happened that semester…
Chapter Twelve
There were only two days left in the first semester…
Chapter Thirteen
That winter break, Heather ended up spending almost the entire…
Chapter Fourteen
I like don’t even know how to describe what it…
Chapter Fifteen
I hadn’t heard from Kyle since the night of the…
Chapter Sixteen
I knew something was up before Heather even came over…
Chapter Seventeen
I seriously went through like all the same stages a…
Chapter Eighteen
My wounds weren’t significant enough to require any type of…
Chapter Nineteen
I guess I had never felt that empty before. Nothing…
Chapter Twenty
I know it was like seriously one of the most…
Chapter Twenty-One
The months that followed the demise of Kyle and Heather’s…
Part Four
senior year
Chapter One
I’d made it through so much shit with Heather and…
Chapter Two
The first day back was like seriously not fun. I…
Chapter Three
Viking’s Resort was, in short, the greatest place on planet…
Chapter Four
After what I did to Erin, something changed in me.
Chapter Five
It was a few days after I had sex with…
Chapter Six
Every six weeks I was required to take a blood…
Chapter Seven
Brett was the first person I knew who had any…
Chapter Eight
I had just spent like two hours looking through pretty…
Chapter Nine
I explained to Kyle that Heather was the first girl…
Chapter Ten
I got the first F of my entire life a…
Chapter Eleven
I had been out with Brett on like three dates,…
Chapter Twelve
It was with great pride that I found myself knocking…
Chapter Thirteen
After getting the good news from Brett about Heather, something…
Chapter Fourteen
I didn’t get to see Brett like at all over…
Chapter Fifteen
I was perusing the personal ads at a website called…
Chapter Sixteen
I felt like the Incredible Hulk immediately after he was…
Chapter Seventeen
I was like, “Uh…are you fucking kidding me?” Seriously, I…
Chapter Eighteen
I called Kyle immediately after she left to confirm her…
Chapter Nineteen
I couldn’t believe she actually did it. As she sat…
Chapter Twenty
I like knew it was going to happen so it…
Chapter Twenty-One
And so on my graduation day, instead of having a…