The Midnight Rake (13 page)

She wavered on the brink of her reply. “I’m sorry. You’re right. My actions were foolish.” She closed her eyes and took a steadying breath to erase the tremble from her voice as the reality of what she’d done and how angry he remained, settled. When she dared glance in Phin’s direction, his eyes had softened and he no longer looked like he might enjoy wringing her neck.

She pushed on, anxious to fill the uncomfortable silence. “I acted without thinking. I thought I saw someone…” The tentative words dissolved on a self-deprecating note. Phineas gave a snort of disapproval. When he made no other reply, she placed her hand on his arm. “Thank you for rescuing me from danger. I did not intend to cause you concern.”

Her eyes searched his face, a mask of equivocation, but then his muscles relaxed beneath her touch, his forearm solid and strong, as protective as his grip when he’d heroically retrieved her from the possibility of harm.

“I accept your apology.” His words held no revealing emotion. “I reacted as any gentleman would. Now I suppose we should find Devlin and Lexi. I’m sure they are worried over your venturesome actions and anxious to see you return.”

He placed his ungloved hand over hers and the heat of his possessive caress flooded from that one point of contact throughout every corner of her body, settling in her soul. He’d worried over her safety; the fleeting condition a dire yearning in her heart. Then he must care, shouldn’t he?

Silent seconds ticked by before he lifted her fingers in his, sliding her hand to his elbow so they could proceed down the walkway. The street bustled with activity, carts rolled past, horses snorted, harnesses jangled, but they walked in silence until they reached the carriage. When one step remained, he leaned in and whispered a silky warning meant for her ears alone. His words, a mere breath at her temple, told her everything he hadn’t said minutes before.

“Don’t ever scare me like that again, Penelope Rosebery.”

He gave her hand a tight squeeze and offered her up into the carriage, calling out to Devlin and Lexi as if nothing had transpired.

“Phin, third time at the club this week? What has you sparring with such aggressive vigor?” Harry’s voice rang across Jackson’s Saloon, although a ruckus existed in every corner as men trained to improve their boxing technique. “We’d all but given up on you.” He stepped past a series of sand bags, dodging their intermittent sway and the muscular men who pummeled the canvas into motion, to move closer to where Phineas practiced in an elevated ring.

Phineas flicked a quick glance to Harold before he dodged and avoided an oncoming blow. He answered the parry with a counterpunch combination that had his sparring partner scampering a hasty retreat. Everyone at Jackson’s knew Phin’s left hook to be lethal. He’d honed the move to be wickedly fast, precise and effective. But today’s practice was about more than endurance. Sparring would burn off the frustration keeping him on edge.

His desire for Penelope gnawed at him from the inside out and while his mind consistently delivered the message she was not his for the taking, his body had an agenda all its own. No matter she ignited his anger, when he caught hold of her on Bond Street and pulled her hard against him, his first thought had been to turn her around and kiss her soundly, so sweet did she feel against him. The haunting thought fueled his vexation. He needed no complications in his life. He threw a powerful jab as if to punctuate his silent conclusions.

“Anxious to get back into routine. That’s all. You can’t blame a man for wanting to stay fit.”

A year ago, he’d punished himself and taken a long break from boxing for altogether different reasons, but found despite the power of repentant emotion attached to the sport, the need for release proved more significant. He’d exorcised his pain in the ring even when he was fighting himself, conquering past regret, the loss and pain of grief. No matter how boxing linked to his transgressions, he needed it, to obliterate his anger and feel the pain.
He liked the pain.
Now Penelope instigated the same driving force.

He delivered a sharp right and then realizing the lamb’s wool wrap on his fist had unraveled, signaled for a break. He walked to the corner where Harold and Con waited, dropped his gloves, and took a sip of water. “Haven’t you something clever or sarcastic to add to Harry’s assessment?” He flicked his eyes to Con as he retied the strings.

“No.” Con scanned the room with disinterest. “I’m here for conversation only. You know I never engage in this sport. If Harry hadn’t the sudden thought to stop at seeing your gig, we would be well on our way to Tatts by now instead of sequestered in this dank arena of masculine superciliousness.”

Phineas knew, as they all did, of Con’s dislike of boxing and how it had nothing to do with his exceedingly good looks or his favor within the
ton.
With consideration for their friend’s privacy no one asked why his aversion to boxing caused him to walk out of the club at times without a by-your-leave.

Con continued as an afterthought. “I do recall you mentioned your mother disfavored this habit. I suppose we all assumed you’d given up boxing permanently.”

Phin released a disgusted sigh. “I shudder to think my closest friends expect me to do whatever whenever my mother wishes.”

His friends remained unusually silent.

Devlin entered the Bond Street boxing school and joined the other two men as they stood outside the ring. “Well this is a bit of a chance. All four of us in one place at one time. Doesn’t often happen anymore, does it?” Devlin slued his eyes to Phineas in the ring.

“You are always at home with Lexi and the baby.” Phin hoped his feigned accusatory tone disguised the fact he missed time spent at Kenley Manor.

Con interjected, his casual remark implying only partial interest. “You cannot criticize. You leave every social event before the eleventh hour.”

It was Devlin’s turn and ripe for the witty banter he eyed Con. “And you cannot complain. You are rarely in London, always off on a jaunt to discover a higher quality of grape for your champagne vintner. When you do remain in London, you are holed up in Mayfair with Isabelle by your side, politely ignoring a mountain of social invitations and calling cards.”

“What of me then? I am almost always in London.” Harold looked to his friends with expectant chagrin.

Phineas knew Harold to be one of the most affable gentlemen of the
ton
. “You, Harry, are the anchor. You remain our one constant in this ever-changing city.”

Pleased with the description, Harold cheered up readily and the four men turned to discussing current events. Con held the floor as they listened with interest.

“You’re not going to like what I’ve discovered of Ridley’s past. His connection to anyone with aristocratic lineage is reaching at best, fictitious at its worst. He lies without hesitation, possesses little wealth and was almost arrested last year at Bartholomew Fair.”

“What gentleman of good standing would frequent such a low form of entertainment?” Harold’s objection pierced their conversation.

“It gets better. Ridley failed to leave the traveling peep-show. After he paid his penny price, he wanted more than his coin entitled him.” Con’s voice reflected distaste.

Phineas gripped the ropes and passed through, jumping from the ring. “Something odious about Ridley troubles me and it has little to do with the Trumpington grey.”

Devlin scoffed. “As well it shouldn’t. Your poor behavior kept you daydreaming when you should have been bidding on the horse.”

“Don’t mince words, Dev. Tell me what you
really
think.” Phin made no attempt to disguise his displeasure. “I’ll strive not to take it personally.”

Chuckling, Devlin nudged him on the shoulder. “You know what I mean. The horse should have been yours and would have, were you not so distracted.”

“Regardless, if left to his own devices Ridley’s actions will affect one of our lives in an irreparable manner.” Phin’s low-toned comment emphasized a fair degree of warning.

His friends nodded in agreement, but Devlin’s face transformed into a mask of anger.

“I will happily kill anyone who thinks to harm Lexi, no matter your desire to better humanity and society, Phin.”

Understanding his devotion, Phineas absently spoke aloud. “As would I, were it Penelope.” By damn, he sounded like an overprotective swain. He punched his palm in disgust.

The admission went ignored by Con and Harry who had turned their attention to another boxer sparring in the ring. Only Devlin caught the soft-spoken remark.

“Penny in your thoughts? I thought you had a firm hold on where you stood in the relationship. Something’s changed, I take it?”

Phineas could not deny it. Devlin was his closest thing to a brother and he’d be hard pressed to admit the manner in which his heart squeezed while he searched the crowd for her on Bond Street. If his towering height hadn’t aided him in viewing the city bustle, he would never have been able to find her and protect her from harm. Devlin spoke correctly, something had changed. Worsened, actually, despite he’d sworn not to get involved.

“After what happened yesterday, I’m convinced she has one solitary mission in finding this unknown gentleman who owns her affection. And again I must apologize for not continuing our outing yesterday. I was not in the right mind to watch horses run in circles after chasing Penelope through the streets.” He paused, not voicing the plethora of horrible situations he’d imagined in the short span of time it took him to locate her.

When he spoke again, his voice sounded closer to normal. “In the lady’s regard, I’ve pushed myself to the limit.” He cleared his throat while Devlin scoffed with audacious humor.

“You have not even begun. Look.” Devlin rapped him on the arm, ensuring he held his full attention. “I realize you are the never man. Never rude or inconsiderate. Never one to disappoint. Vowing never to marry. In my opinion, you need to make some changes or you will also never be happy.”

“I’ve wondered about that myself, but it matters little.” Phineas shot a glance in Harry and Con’s direction before continuing, “I’ve tried love in the past and it ended miserably. Not to mention I’ve other important responsibilities to mind.”

Devlin could not contain his grin. “Is that the same manner you’d approach a fight in the ring? Once defeated, never to enter again?”

Feeling foolish, Phin hesitantly continued. “The last thing I need right now is an uninvited complication.”

“How I see it, you’d be simplifying your life. Your mother would have nothing to complain about.”

“The whole business is terribly confusing and it does not help that Penny is always in my thoughts. She has an infectious smile, and her lips…” His voice trailed off and when he found his way back to the conversation, Devlin wore an incredulous expression.

“If you desire her, you should pursue her.” Constantine took the conversational pause as an opportunity to chime in. “It’s unlike you to remain at odds. You’re usually the decisive member of this foursome.”

Phin looked to his friend, surprised Con had an ear to the conversation. “Simplistic advice from someone who never falls short. Ever.”

“That’s not true.” Laughter rustled in Con’s throat. “And besides, we’re talking about a young lady, are we not? You overcomplicate things.” He leaned against the post, a carefree smile turning his lips.

“Again, easy for you to say. Everyone adores you. You do no wrong in the eyes of the
ton
.”

No one warranted a reply and Con continued in a nonchalant tone. “Honestly Phin, it’s not so terrible to break rules once in a while. Most especially if a good reason exists. I can’t recall ever seeing you so upset over any woman.”

“She’s not any woman.” Phin straightened his shoulders, compelled to correct his friend’s choice of words. “She’s a diamond of the first water.” He had no idea why he defended Penny’s honor with such vigor. It wasn’t as though anything could become of their relationship. They’d locate this elusive man sooner or later and then his life would return to normal. He would no longer be forced to endure her laughter or notice how the sunlight danced in the depths of her brilliant green eyes.

Still he’d never met a more intriguing and infuriating female. “I can’t stop thinking about her, even when I retire to bed.”

“That seems to me, the best time to be thinking about her.” A devious smile flickered across Con’s face. “Besides what’s all this talk about dreams and diamonds? Dreams are for people who go through life sleeping. I say, wake up and take action.”

Devlin scoffed irritably. “Phin would never overstep society’s bounds. How you do on occasion and remain the darling of the
ton
is beyond my comprehension. It will work in his favor by the end and his mother will be thrilled.”

“Mother rhymes with smother.” Con’s sharp interjection evoked laughter from everyone but Phineas. “Of all of us, Phin is the least likely to maunder through life playing at ducks and drakes. Not when the opportunity to offer someone assistance presents itself. I suppose it’s all part of his eternal mission to make the world a better place.” Con strove for gravity although laughter danced in his eyes. “It strikes me as extraordinary to watch him agonize over the favors of a pretty chit.”

“I’m standing right here.” Phin sputtered. “You are aware I hear your comments. And I’m not agonizing.”

“He’s not agonizing. Let him be.” Harold interrupted, anxious to keep everyone on an even kilter before their conversation gathered momentum and unraveled. They were all the closest of friends, however at times their opinions and personalities overlapped into chaos.

Phineas did his best to bury the subject, full knowing Devlin would excavate it later. Until then, fortitude would force him to stop thinking about Penelope’s silky soft skin and heavenly formed body because he would go mad with the wanting if he did not resolve his obsession. The sooner the better.

It was half past midnight when he turned the key in the lock and made his way to the back of the townhouse. Poor weather threatened, the flash of lightning and echo of thunder accompanying him the entire way to Kent Road. Surprised not to be met at the door, he wondered if Benjamin had woken from the oncoming storm. His answer was supplied not a heartbeat later.