Read The Old Man in the Club Online
Authors: Curtis Bunn
When the marriage came to a head and all the emotions poured out, Elliott apologized and told Lucy the family was bigger than the indiscretion. While she intuitively agreed with him, the hurt and disappointment ruled, and something in her believed the breach was too much to overcome. So, she insisted Elliott leave.
Upset, Lucy wanted to tell their kids why the family was splintering. Elliott pleaded long and hard for her to agree with him to never divulge the specifics of what had taken place. “Honor is at stake here,” he said to Lucy. “I don't want that to be blemished.”
Lucy reluctantly agreed, and despite Danielle's and Daniel's efforts to get details, the parents held to their promise.
“I know,” Lucy texted Elliott. “It has been too long. It will be good to catch up with you.”
“I feel the same way,” he responded. He set down the phone and rushed to the bathroom to relieve himself. He thought of taking the phone with him, but he did that once and it slipped out of his hands and into the toilet. It was ruined.
When he returned, Lucy had sent another missive.
“I must warn you,” it read. “I don't look the same.”
Elliott said aloud. “Oh, no.” He knew that meant she had gained weight.
“How so?” he texted.
“I don't use chemicals in my hair anymore,” she responded. “I have been natural for about nine months and I love it. I feel free, in a sense.”
Relieved, Elliott was prepared to respond. Before he could, Lucy sent another text.
“You thought I was gonna say I had gained weight, didn't you?” she wrote.
And Elliott laughed.
She knows me so well,
he thought.
“You set me up for that,” he responded. “But you're right. You wearing an Afro now?”
“Like Pam Grier back in the day,” she wrote. “No, just kidding. I wear locs now.”
“Oh, wow,” Elliott answered. “You wear dreads. Interesting.”
“I don't wear âdreads.' I wear locs,” she insisted.
“Aren't they called âdreadlocks'?” he wrote.
“Many people do. I say âlocs,” Lucy answered. “Dread has a negative tone, don't you think?”
“I guess you're right,” Elliott said. “Never really thought about it.”
“What if I said you wear a dreadcut? How would that sound to you?”
He could not tell if she was offended or if she was being matter-of-fact. More than once his words in text messages were interpreted incorrectly, causing drama.
“I hear you,” he responded. “I hear people with locs calling them dreadlocks. But I get your point. Locs it is.”
“Thanks,” she replied. “Dreaded weather. I dread going to work. The movie was dreadful. All negative.”
He knew then it was a sensitive subject for her. So, he made sure to calm her.
“I can't wait to see them. I'm sure they are beautiful,” he said.
“They are. I love them. I can swing them in the air if I want. LOL.”
“Swing on,” Elliott responded.
“Well, I'm going to read before I go to sleep,” she wrote. “I will look to see if you can fit me in Wednesday.
“One question before we end this?” Elliott asked.
“Sure.”
“Why do want to see me? You have avoided me for a long time, wouldn't even talk to me. Suddenly a phone call, long conversation, text messages and now lunch? That's a lot.”
Lucy was expecting that question, but was hoping she would not have to address it until Wednesday. It was logical that he would go there.
“Well, I will give you the full story whenever I see you,” she wrote. “But let's just say I realize it is important to embrace the people who really love you.”
“I'm glad you know I'm among them,” Elliott wrote back.
“Thank you,” she texted.
“Thank YOU,” Elliott responded.
T
he idea of the Monday blues never registered with Elliott. It was a new day, one to be thankful for and to savor. The start of the week was the day in which he visited the two car dealerships he owned: one in Cobb County and the other near Midtown Atlanta.
He enjoyed his summer experience when he was a kid at that Virginia dealershipâ¦until his arrest. When he won his $2.4 million civil suit, he put away $1 million in an interest-bearing account. He used some of the remaining money to purchase real estate and eventually two small auto dealerships, among other things.
Elliott had no financial concerns. He was debt-free after buying his place at the W Residences and paying off his Mercedes-Benz S550. But he was proof that financial freedom did not necessarily translate into complete happiness.
“Your need to date younger women and to keep yourself busy is an attempt to prevent yourself from focusing on the reality of your life,” Dr. Nottingham told him during his session that afternoon.
“Which is?” Elliott asked.
“The reality of your life is that you are unfulfilled because you do not have the family life you expected to have, that you
need
to have,” she said. “And that's normal. To not have what you once coveted can be difficult to face.”
“But,” Elliott said. “I know there's a âbut'.”
Dr. Nottingham smiled. “But not facing it can be replaced by irrational behavior.”
“What's my irrational behavior?”
“Irrational behavior is subjective,” she answered. “For me, in your case, it's pursuing young women less than half your age. It's going out every chance you can get, to places your peers would not think of going.”
“It doesn't feel irrational to me, Dr. Nottingham. It feels right. I feel like I'm getting back what was taken from me.”
“Really? That's what you really think?”
“Okay, well, let me ask you something then,” she said. “I was going to wait to ask this at another time, but this is the perfect time. If you believe dating young girls and frequenting places young people frequent is helping you get back what was taken from you when you were incarcerated, why aren't you developing friendships with twenty-something young men? Why don't you go to sports bars with twenty-somethings? Why don't you go to strip clubs with younger men? Why don't you dress like you're their age? That's what young men do and you missed out on that.”
Elliott looked at her. Then looked away.
“See, Elliott, if you were truly trying to recapture your taken-away youth, why not recapture all of it?” she added. “If you did those other things men in their twenties did, then maybe it could be considered recapturing your lost youth. But you're only focusing on one aspect of life in your twenties: women. And that says to me that you're more about avoiding what's missing in your life than trying to fill it with what you didn't get to experience.”
Elliott was speechless. What she said made so much sense. He never considered the other aspects of being in his twenties. He had no interest in gaining a friend among young men. There was nothing in common.
With younger women, the common thread was companionship. There was no age limit on companionship and how you get it or from whom you receive it.
“So,” he finally said, “I'm just a dirty old man?”
“Well, I'm older than you, and I don't consider myself an old womanâso that's not it,” Dr. Nottingham said. “What you are is a normal man who has been confused about how to move on after losing his family. Your love for your wife is evident. So, you have thought the best way to not think about her is to be involved with people who are not likely to remind you of her.”
“Here's the thing, though,” he said. “She called me yesterday. She eventually told me that she misses me, always loved me and wants to see me. She asked me to meet her for lunch on Wednesday.”
“How do you feel about that?” the psychiatrist asked.
“I feel great about it,” he said. “But, to be honest, I did think to myself: Why am I so accepting of her after she basically ignored me for three years?' What does that say?”
“What do you think it says?” Dr. Nottingham offered.
“I need you to figure this one out,” Elliott said.
“You should try first, don't you think?”
“Well, maybe I was so accepting because I want her approval. When things got ugly at home, she insisted I leave. She rejected me. I want to get past that rejection.”
“You should be sitting in my chair,” she said, smiling. “Very good, Elliott. So, now that you know that, what do you do?”
“My instincts say to do what I need to do to remove feeling rejected.”
“I see,” Dr. Nottingham said. “And how do you do that? How far do you go? At what point is rejection rejected?”
“I don't know. I guess I'm going to have to feel that out. I will know when.”
After his session, Elliott called Lucy, who did not answer. He left a message: “Hey there, how are you? This is Elliott. Do you notice that the kids never leave messages when they call? It must be an age thing. They tell me that I see that they called and that's enough. Anyway, Wednesday is good for lunch. Let me know when and where and I'm there.”
He jumped in his car with intentions to head toward Midtown from Buckhead. He called Daniel.
“Got a question for you,” he said. “First, how are you?”
“I'm good,” Daniel said. “What's wrong?”
“Nothing. Where's your shadowâI mean, your sister,” he said, laughing. Daniel laughed with him.
“I'm out on assignment for my internship. Danielle is taking a golf lesson at John A. White Park. What's going on?”
“First of all, I'm glad you answered the phone; that's a big deal. Thanks,” Elliott said. “Second, I wasn't sure whom to call or if I should call you. But I'm going to lunch with your mom on Wednesday. Anything I should know?”
“You're going to lunch with Ma? Why?”
“I'm not sure. She called me yesterday andâ”
“Ma called
you?
Are you serious?”
“Daniel, can you help me?”
“I don't know what to tell you,” he said. “She never talks about you. She literally never talks about you.”
“Well, what's been going on in her life? I'm trying to figure out why this is happening,” Elliott said.
“I don't know what to tell you,” Daniel said. “And, no disrespect, but you really expect me to help you if I did know something?”
“Yes, because I'm your father and I'm asking you. That's why,” Elliott said.
“Dad, I'm sorry. I don't know what to tell you,” Daniel said.
“She has been the same as far as I can tell. She hasn't been dating anyone. She's been the same.”
“Okay,” Elliott said. “Maybe she just wants to finally be friends after so long.”
“Come to think of it, something did happen,” Daniel said. “About two weeks ago, I didn't have to go to work until the afternoon. I came downstairs in the morning and she was dressed up, about to go out. It was a funeral. The mother of one of the families she covers on her job died. Don't know how, but it was sudden. She was sad. She said, âI visited her home that morning. Talked to her. She seemed fine.'
“She was devastated, Dad. She said, âI'm supposed to help people as a social worker.' Maybe she's thinking if something happened to you and you all didn't at least become friends again, she'd have regrets.”
“Yeah,” Elliott said. “That could be it.”
“You didn't think it was a romantic thing, did you?” Daniel asked.
“I don't know what it could be,” he said.
They hung up and Elliott returned Henry's call from Sunday. Turned out that he was at Lenox Square mall, and Elliott turned around and met him at Bloomingdale's. He was all right with going to that mall on a Monday, but the word was that Saturday was the day gay men used it as a meeting post.
“If you're straight, you do not want to go to Lenox on Saturday,” a woman told him. “They are everywhere.”
Elliott was not homophobic, but before Henry's revelation, he was as close as one could be without officially being one. So, he stayed away from the mall on Saturdays. When he caught up with Henry at the department store, they slapped hands and hugged like men do. Elliott, for all his accepting of Henry's lifestyle, was not completely comfortable being physically close to a gay man.
He, in fact, was uncomfortable as they walked the length of the mall toward the restaurant Prime. He noticed gay men walking together and straight people looking on as if offended. His mind played tricks on him; he thought people looked at him and Henry as a gay couple. And he started to sweat.
Henry did not notice and tried to carry on a conversation. “How did it go with your kids the other night?”
Elliott heard him but he was too busy trying to act like he was not with Henry.
“Hey, man, did you hear me?” Henry grabbed Elliott by the arm and he pulled away. “What's wrong?”
“Man, this is crazy.”
“What?”
“Nothing. I mean, I'll talk about it when we sit down.”
The five-minute walk down the mall and up the escalator to Prime seemed like a marathon to Elliott. He had accepted Henry as his friend, but they had not spent much time together beyond meeting out at a bar.
At the hostess stand, Elliott said, “Can we have a table in the back?”
“Why the back?” Henry asked.
“I don't know,” Elliot said. “Never mind. I'm good wherever.”
They were seated in a booth in the center of the restaurant, to Elliott's chagrin.
“What's up with you?” Henry asked.
“I have to be honest,” Elliott said. “I almost panicked in the mall. I felt like people were looking at us as a couple.”
“What?” Henry was appalled. “How did you get that?”
“I know what this mall is like on Saturdays,” he said. “And I saw some gay men just now. It made me feel like people thought we were gay, too.”