The Totem 1979 (21 page)

Because really this was something that engaged him. If he didn’t dare consider all the trouble that was maybe on the verge of breaking out, he found the problem in the abstract quite attractive. He was intrigued the way he once had been in Philadelphia. A riddle to be solved. A secret ready for him to discover. He was driving, glancing at a cat that perched in royal splendor on a porch rail. He was passing a young boy who walked a cocker spaniel. And because the day was hot, he leaned his elbow out the open window, his arm hairs shifting in the wind that the motion of the car made. He was almost startled by the excitement that he was feeling. Ten blocks later, he turned up the driveway toward the parking stalls behind the hospital. He waved to a man from the childrens’ ward who drove out past him toward the street. He reached the back and pulled in at his parking space, getting out, his key in hand to open the trunk when something slowed him and then stopped him.

It was something that he’d grown so used to that he’d long ago stopped being aware of it. Except last night when he and Slaughter had been talking in the office, and he’d noticed it, but Slaughter had first turned to it, unconsciously reminding him, and anyway the thing had been so much in keeping with their conversation that of course he would have noticed then, but normally it simply blended with the background, and it wasn’t worth consideration. Now when everything that he’d been mulling through distracted him, the sound had changed, had drawn attention to itself.

He stood motionless, his head turned, his hand still outstretched to unlock the trunk. Even when he shifted his body toward the trees back there, his hand remained outstretched and stiff until he noticed it and lowered it slowly to his side. He felt his muscles tighten. He almost couldn’t make them work as he walked squinting toward the trees. In all the years he’d worked here, he had never gone back in them, never once been curious. There was a dry streambed, he knew, that in the spring was filled with rushing snowmelt from the mountains. But a flashflood was not a thing to walk near, and he’d always watched it from the distance of his parking space. The trees here all had leaves, their branches bare in the early spring, and there had been no trouble seeing. But in June now, everything was like a jungle back there, the trees thick, drooping, the bushes full and vine enshrouded, not to mention that there was a rusty fence.

He had a fear of snakes, of things that crawled and he couldn’t see, but he was thinking only of the sound beyond the trees now as he reached the fence, and glancing at the thick high grass beyond it, he gripped the sagging post to balance for a foothold on the wire.

There was no need to climb the fence. The post continued sagging as he gripped it, and his weight kept pressing, and the post snapped softly, weakly, toppling toward the ground where it hung bobbing in the wires.

He looked down at ants, a hundred of them, next a thousand. They were scurrying to flee the ruptured nest inside the base of the post, rice-shaped eggs gripped by their pincers, rushing off in all directions. He lurched back, revolted. All those ugly crawling things. His skin began to itch. His mouth tasted sour. He was conscious of the irony that he could look at burned and mutilated corpses, maggots on them, and be concerned only about how much damage had occurred within the lungs, and yet he couldn’t bear to see these insects and their crazy panicked scurrying below him. Well, he thought, in the morgue he had control, but here the situation governed him, and as the sound beyond the trees became even stranger, he made himself go near the fence. He stepped across the sagging fallen wires, avoiding where the ants were, staring at them even as he worked around them toward the trees.

He felt the bushes clutch his pants, and he was turning forward, stooping underneath a tree branch, soon encircled by the trees. The ground sloped: long grass, vines that clung hard to his pant cuffs. Everything was close and dark and humid. Then the trees gave out, and he was looking at the streambed. It was deep between the banks, dry, with sand, and here and there a rock or water-polished piece of driftwood. He saw tiny tracks of animals in the sand. He glanced along one track and saw movement ten feet to his right along the bank-a chipmunk up on its hind legs staring at him, in an instant darting into a hole beside a tree root. Then the chipmunk poked its head out, blinking at him.

He glanced toward the streambed once more, swallowed, and with one leg cautiously before him, he eased down the loose earth of the bank. The sand at the bottom was soft beneath him, and he didn’t like that feeling, didn’t like the lacerated tire he saw wedged among the silt and rocks. He was eager to get up on the other side, edging slowly up, then listing off balance, clutching at a tree root up there, but the clutching was instinctive, and abruptly he released his grip, scrambling upward, dropping to his knees and clawing.

At last, he reached the level, and he stood there, breathing, glancing all around. He brushed the dirt from his pantlegs, staring at his hands. The noise was even stranger, though, and slightly to his left, not straight ahead. He angled toward it, stooping past more trees, avoiding bushes, suddenly free of them, stark sunlight on him, open air before him, just the houses past the yards here, the white fence all along this back end of the houses.

He prepared to climb the wooden fence when he thought better. Down there to his left, the sound was even closer, stronger. From that backyard two lawns down. He walked along the fence, and then he saw it, tangled in its chain, the doghouse scratched and bitten, splinters and blood spots on the lawn, an Irish setter, and the sound it made was chilling. Not a growl exactly, not a bark. Much lower, almost speaking, deep within its throat, long and drawn out, suddenly a sequence of quick choking, then that drawl-like laryngitic moaning. He stared at the bloody lips, the froth that dripped in great gobs from their corners, and as it stopped biting at the chain and went back to the bone-revealing sore that it was chewing on its left hind leg, he gripped the fence, peered down at the unmowed yard, and gasped, desperate to control the churning in his stomach. He’d seen what he could only term the face of evil. Later he would recollect how those peculiar words occurred to him. He’d judge and weigh them, hoping to condemn their wild emotion, but he knew that they were fitting. He had never seen such open, brutal, insane evil, and his instinct was to flee, to repel the image from his sight.

Instead, he rushed along the fence until he faced another backyard, climbing over, straining to see every portion of this yard in case there was a dog in here as well, but there was nothing, just a tiny plastic wading pool, and he ran past it, hurrying along the side until he reached the sidewalk in the front, and then he swung across the next yard toward the front door of the house in back of which the dog was baying even more grotesquely.

If he’d been the man he claimed to be, he would have known what next would happen, would have paid attention to the weed-choked lawn, the untrimmed bushes, would have understood the owner here. But he was taken up with urgency. He gripped the wobbly railing, charging up the stairs. On the porch, he pressed the doorbell, but the sound of a television blared out from the open windows so he couldn’t hear the doorbell. He couldn’t even hear the dog now, and he pressed the button once again, staring through the screen door past the open main door in there, toward the shadowy living room. He realized that the doorbell wasn’t working. As a crowd cheered on the television, he banged at the screen door. He shouted, “Hey, is anybody home?”, hammering so fiercely that the wood trembled and a shadow moved in there, pale against the murky sofa, a man coming to the door.

The man was husky, naked to the waist, a can of beer in one hand. He was surly, unshaven. “Yeah, what is it?”

“Look, your dog-“

“I know. The bastard won’t stop barking.’

“It needs treatment.”

“What?”

“You’ve got to get it to a vet,” the medical examiner blurted.

“Up your ass. I told the neighbors I was working on it. Hell, I even got a special collar.” “I don’t-” “One with batteries. The kind that every time the dog barks sends a shock to stop it barking.”

The medical examiner was speechless.

“Who the hell are you? I’ve never seen you anywhere,”

the man said.

“I’m …” The medical examiner explained who he was.

“You live around here?”

“No, I-“

“Then up your ass, I said. If this isn’t where you live, why don’t you mind your own damned business?”

There was no way that the medical examiner was going to make him understand. He gripped the door to pull it open, heading in.

“Hey, now wait a minute. What the hell do you think you’re doing?” the man demanded, blocking him.

“I’ve got to use your phone.”

“The beer store has one on the corner.”

“There’s no time.”

The crowd cheered on the television. As the medical examiner squirmed to get past the man, he saw beyond the sofa where the television showed two boxers slugging at each other.

“Hey, buddy, I’m through being patient.” The man shoved him hard.

“Rabies.”

“Don’t be nuts. The dog just had her shots.”

“Christ, go back and look at her.”

“The collar makes her act that way.”

“I can’t afford to take the chance.”

The two men struggled toward the middle of the room.

“I have to phone a vet.”

“If you’re not out of here, you’re going to have to phone an ambulance.”

The medical examiner slipped past the man, dodging toward the phone that he had seen beside the sofa.

“Get out,” the man ordered.

But the medical examiner was dialing.

“Okay, buddy, don’t forget I warned you.”

As a woman’s voice came on the phone to tell him “Animal Associates,” the medical examiner turned just in time to see the hand that held the beer can lunging toward him. He was vaguely conscious of the other hand that set him up and held him steady. But the blow that split his lips and shocked him backward he was never conscious of at all. He had a sense of someone moaning, and he wondered through the spinning darkness what that murky cheering was about.

Chapter Four.

They ran with the bloodhounds up the steep slope through the trees. The dogs were silent, sniffing as they forged up higher, and the men who held their leashes were exhausted.

‘This is crazy,” one man said and pulled back on the leash to slow the dog. “If we keep on like this, we’ll be useless in an hour.”

He was gasping, taking in long breaths, exhaling like a bellows.

“Never mind an hour. Fifteen minutes is more like it,” another man said and swallowed, breathing, reaching for a tree to get his balance. “I say take it slower.”

They were five miles up from where they’d left the pickup truck. They hadn’t organized the search until almost three o’clock. It took that long to get their knapsacks and their dogs. Then there had been instructions, and the dogs had needed time to find the scent. The search had really started at three-thirty. Running with the weight of knapsacks, rifles, walkie-talkies, and ammunition, they had labored through the forest, climbing bluffs and crossing ridges, stumbling down and up through gorges, and a tangle of dead timber had been just about enough to finish them. They had to carry each dog through the tangle, but the dogs had not refound the scent across there, and the men had struggled with the squirming dogs to carry them back to the first edge of the tangle. Bodine must have tried to cross, then given up. But they themselves had managed to get through here. Why not Bodine? “Never mind,” one of the state policemen said. “Let’s just keep moving.”

So they had worked higher, and although they’d only gone five miles, they’d needed several hours.

“Christ, six-thirty.”

“Hey, it must be time to eat.”

“Another mile yet. If this guy’s in trouble, one more mile could be enough to help him.”

Which was understandable, so looking at the shadows stretching darker through the forest, they moved farther, higher, through the mountains. Slower, though. They couldn’t run up ridges as if they were sprinting around the local baseball field. They knew their breathing should be constant, their heartbeats steady. Keep things smooth and even. They had hurried at the start, but that had been because they were impatient. Now that this had become routine, now that it was boring, they were moving much less frantically. Something broke a branch up to their right, and they were staring, but the deer that showed itself and ran away only made them laugh.

“I don’t see why that guy went up here anyhow. If it was me, if I was chasing some wild dogs, I wouldn’t try it on my own.”

They heard the helicopter roaring closer. It had been a muffled droning far off to their right, but now it skimmed across the trees above them, and they saw the insignia of the U.S. Lands and Forest bureau.

“Air search to police,” a man’s voice crackled from the walkie-talkie.

They halted on an open bluff and squinted toward a line of trees that obscured the helicopter. They had little trouble hearing it, however.

Once again the static from the walkie-talkie. “Air search to police.”

The man in charge, a sergeant, gave his dog’s leash to a trooper beside him. He fumbled with the straps that looped his walkie-talkie across his shoulder. Then he pressed a button and put the walkie-talkie to his ear as he leaned back against a boulder. “Roger, air search. We can hear you. What’s the problem? Over.”

“Is that you on the bluff I just passed?”

“Roger. Affirmative. Ten-four. Over,” the sergeant answered.

The man beside him winced. He was well aware that there were special words you had to use with walkie-talkies. “Affirmative” was better than “yes,” which sounded like a hiss. But he’d seen some men pick up a walkie-talkie, and they suddenly were like some goddamned hotshot actor in a police movie. “Roger. Ten-four.” A smug look in their eyes like they were getting screwed while they were talking. Jesus.

A crackle from the walkie-talkie. “I just wanted to be certain. I’m done for today. The ground’s too dark to see much.”