Read Through a Camel's Eye Online
Authors: Dorothy Johnston
TWO
Anthea Merritt had been disappointed to be sent away from Melbourne, and in her first few weeks at Queenscliff police station had allowed this disappointment to show, getting off on the wrong foot with her boss. It wasn't so much that she objected to stray dogs and complaints about speeding fines as the highlights of her week's policing, with Friday night drunks thrown in - though she
did
object. It was a poor conclusion to two and a half years of training. Anthea knew she hadn't graduated with as good marks as she'd hoped, and that this was largely her own fault, which brought her to the real reason for her discontent, and that was separation from her boyfriend.
She couldn't phone Graeme again, at least not for a few days. She'd read a piece in the paper reminding women that men knew how to use the phone. If a man didn't return your messages or calls, it was because he didn't want to. Some women unfortunately just didn't get this, the writer of the piece had said. Anthea's ears had grown hot as she read his words. She'd hated his tone of infinite superiority.
Anthea was eating her morning tea in a park overlooking the bay, having told herself that she needed some fresh air. Her inability to appreciate the view only worsened her mood. She supposed that, in other circumstances, Chris Blackie might have become a kind of mentor. But if there were things that she could learn from him, he was keeping them well hidden. In a rut had been her instant summing up, and nothing had happened to make her change her mind.
Anthea was afraid of arguing with Graeme, afraid of the shutting down of her mind and body that a confrontation would produce. She forced patience on herself, knowing that Graeme was the kind of man for whom the present moment, and the people who occupied it, took up all of his attention. She must wait until it occurred to him to miss her.
There were women friends in Melbourne with whom she could have talked about this, found some comfort in airing her feelings. But increasingly these friends seemed far away, busy with their own lives. Negotiating traffic every day, getting from here to there, took up heaps of time; and there was always somewhere to go in the evenings. In Queenscliff, Anthea felt time as a physical burden, a weight that must be lifted, invisible, yet no less a force for that.
Her first impression of the station had stayed with her. The well-tended beds of lavender lining the path that led to the front door, next to it the sign with the royal crown and ER in a curly script, looked as prissy and ridiculous as they had the day she'd arrived. Lavender grew along the fence as well, while roses formed the centre piece, in circular beds in the middle of a lawn. The fence was divided by a white-painted wooden gate, offering no security whatsoever. It was a plain brick veneer house, built in the early 1960s. For its present purpose, the basics would have done - Anthea was sure there must be other country stations like it - but instead the building had been turned into a confection. A Hansel and Gretel house. Anthea felt so bored she wished that she could find a witch.
The first time she'd seen Chris Blackie bent over in the garden with his bum in the air, she'd had to turn away to hide her smile. Apparently the man thought it was normal to grunt and wave his gardening gloves in his junior constable's direction, not bothering to look up as he outlined her tasks for the morning. This was his daily exercise, Anthea soon found out, and he got to work early in order to accomplish it. He didn't run or swim, and played no team sport. She imagined his own garden, no leaf out of place.
Constable Blackie was one of those sleek, smooth men who look young, apart from thinning hair, through their forties and even past that; men who, when they age, age suddenly, shrinking and shrivelling, a thousand fine lines appearing all at once, their skin drying and flaking as though at the switching off of an internal sprinkler system. Anthea had known men like this, and immediately picked Chris for one of them, recognising also that the process was still some years away for him. She had seldom met a man who paid less attention to himself
as a man.
Not that he was dirty or untidy. His uniform was always pressed, his shirts changed every day. His fine, dark brown hair was short and neat underneath his cap. But this was the work of others - dry cleaners, laundries, barbers. He put armour on each morning, with no more thought than he gave to brushing his teeth.
This lack of definition in his masculinity, his maleness - when Anthea thought it over, she was unable to hit on the right word - made her conscious, along with her irritation that it should be so, of a vagueness, an amorphousness, in their dealings with each other. The image she came up with was walking on a waterbed, but this was inaccurate and irritated her as well. Again she was reminded that she would have laughed, and her cross mood would have faded, if she'd had a friend to share it with.
Anthea was fond of summing people up, and fancied she was good at it. She would have liked to dismiss Chris Blackie as an old fuddy-duddy, or a closet gay; but found she couldn't, quite. She was conscious of a quick defensiveness when it came to men, and was not above donning her own uniform as a suit of armour, an action - not that she could
choose
to leave it off when she was on duty - that sometimes provoked them further. She'd been trained to confront and handle aggression in many forms, and was proud of this training and acquired skill. She was sensible enough not to seek to provoke anyone, man or woman, in the course of her work; but there was something else, an innate timidity perhaps, or else simple inexperience, which she was scarcely aware of, and preferred not to acknowledge. It showed itself in her attraction to forceful men with definite ideas, men who knew what they were about as men.
That windy morning, sitting on her park bench, nursing her bad mood, Anthea was prepared to dismiss her boss, kneeling in his flower beds on a rubber mat, in his dark brown gardening gloves and track pants, old white shirt and heavy cotton hat. She dismissed the senior constable's hobby and his means of pursuing it. It embarrassed her to receive compliments about his roses, in the chemists or the greengrocers, delivered as though she could not be anything but grateful; almost as though she'd had a hand in growing the prize specimens herself.
She ached with embarrassment as she imagined accepting his offers of beans, carrots and tomatoes, as though there was no question that she'd stay on through the summer. She'd learnt from the woman in the sandwich bar where she bought her lunch that Chris lived in a fisherman's cottage next to the boat harbour, the same house he'd been born in, where he'd nursed his mother until her death from breast cancer. Anthea had nodded as though she already knew this, though the shrewd look the woman gave her indicated that she saw through the pretence. One point of the story was that the house was on a tiny block, front and back yards no more than pocket-sized.
âOf course he grows what he can,' the woman had said, as though to teach her a lesson.
Anthea's phone rang, startling her. She hoped, as always, for Graeme. But it was Chris, with some twaddle about a missing camel.
THREE
âThe lock's broken!' cried Julie Beshervase. âWho'd do such a thing?'
Chris Blackie, who'd brought Julie to the station and was questioning her while Anthea took notes, asked when she'd last seen Riza.
âLast night. Evening. Getting dark. Who's taken him? Where is he?'
âCalm down, Ms Beshervase, we'll get your camel back. He's too big to hide.'
âThat paddock is deserted! No one ever goes there, except me and mad Camilla Renfrew. It must have been her!'
Frank Erwin met them at the paddock he rented to Julie, looking, Chris thought, as though he wished camels had never been invented.
Chris wore gloves to remove the broken lock and chain.
âThey must have come in a horse float,' Frank said. âSee these tyre marks? Two together either side.'
âRight,' Chris said. âI'll look into that.'
âAre you going to question that witch-woman?' Julie demanded.
âIf you want to help, Ms Beshervase, start by asking round the village. If a horse float was used to steal your camel, someone will have seen it.'
From the look on Camilla's face she'd forgotten what a horse float was. Chris sighed. He might have known that it would be like this. He'd had to wait outside her house for twenty minutes before she appeared on the dunes path, wearing a ridiculous hat and looking like a scarecrow.
When he'd instructed Anthea to begin a door-to-door, she'd looked mutinous and pressed her lips together.
Chris sighed again. Camilla approached him with a desperate expression.
âHow often do you go to the paddock, Mrs Renfrew?'
âAt what times?'
âWho do you see there?'
Camilla shook her head from side to side. Spittle flew from her mouth and Chris, embarrassed, looked away.
âMrs Renfrew, can you hear me? When did you last see Riza?'
Camilla held up her hand to indicate that he should wait. She disappeared inside the house and came back a moment later, carrying a notebook and pencil.
âWhat's happened?' she wrote, and underlined it twice.
âRiza's missing. Looks like he's been stolen.'
Chris continued asking questions while Camilla wrote. When she'd finished, she handed over her notebook.
1. I was at the paddock yesterday. 2. I saw Riza. 3. I heard a woman scream.
Aware that his own nervous tension was making her worse, Chris took a deep breath and said, âWhen was that, Mrs Renfrew?'
Camilla took her notebook back and wrote,
in the summer.
Chris thought it would be better to come back after she'd had a chance to calm down.
Of course, it didn't have to be a horse float, he reminded himself as he got into his car. The camel could have been led away. But then, where were its footprints? Once on the road, they wouldn't show. But the same damp earth that had recorded the tyre marks Frank had pointed out would surely have held prints of those large, gentle feet.
Chris felt sure that the thief was someone local and the motive personal. He made a mental note to ask Julie if Riza was insured, and how much he was worth. It couldn't have been easy to catch Riza and lead him into a horse float. The Erwin's farmhouse was on the other side of the hill. Lights might have frightened the young camel, unless of course he'd known the person and gone willingly.
Chris's reaction, as he approached Julie Beshervase's house, was that it was far too big for a woman on her own. The house looked deserted, curtains drawn and front garden neglected. Chris parked a short distance from the overgrown driveway and paused for a few moments, wondering how Julie occupied herself when she was not with Riza.
âHave you found him?'
It was clear that Julie had run to the door.
âI'm afraid not. May I come in, please?'
Chris followed Julie down a dark corridor. She didn't ask him to sit down, but he did so anyway, on a chair next to large windows facing west, overlooking the back yard. The windows were dirty, but at least the curtains were pulled back.
âI'm sorry about Riza, Ms Beshervase. Was he entirely yours?'
âYou mean, did I own him, had I paid for him, do I have a receipt to prove it? Yes!'
Julie lowered herself onto the edge of a straight-backed chair. Chris thought it odd that she should be so tense and ready to run in her own house.
âCamilla Renfrew took him,' she said.
âWhy?'
âBecause she's nuts.'
Chris decided to ignore this. âRenting the paddock from Frank Erwin - how did that come about?'
Julie said she'd heard that the farmer made a bit of money out of horse agistment. She'd rung up and inquired. The rent had not been impossible. The situation was good, and there was water.
âHow did Riza get here?'
âIn a horse trailer. The man who sold him lent it to me.'
Chris asked for contact details.
âYou don't think
he
stole Riza, do you?'
âI'd rather keep an open mind at present. Did Riza settle in well?'
âPerfectly.'
âWhat about Mr Erwin? Were there any problems there?'
âWhy should there be problems? I've always paid on time.'
âDid Mr Erwin ever help you out with transport? Did Riza ever need to be taken to the vet, for instance?'
âYou mean in Frank's horse float? It's falling to bits.'
âSo Riza's never needed to be taken anywhere?'
âNot since I got him. He's a perfectly healthy young camel.'
âIs he insured?'
âNo,' said Julie. âI couldn't afford insurance.'
Her voice caught and she bit her lip.
When Chris asked how much the camel had cost, Julie said, âFive hundred dollars', and explained that, after his mother had rejected him, Riza had been sent to a horse stud up along the Murray, but that none amongst the small herd of camels there had wanted to have anything to do with him.
Chris wrote down the name of the stud, then asked Julie where she'd got the money
Julie bit her lip again and looked annoyed. âMy brother lent it to me. My older brother. And in case you're about to ask, no, I couldn't afford to rent this house on the open market. It belongs to friends of my brother's. They've gone to France and Italy.'
âDo you train camels for a living?'
âNot much of a living, obviously, but you could say that.'
Chris went on asking questions in a mild, uninflected voice; how Julie had found out about Riza in the first place, who had watched them together besides Camilla, whether she'd seen anyone suspicious hanging round the paddock. He left when he thought he'd got as much as he was going to get from her, for the time being at least.
Julie had begun that morning by eating a small bowl of cereal. She'd put an apple and banana in her backpack along with the water bottle that she always carried. She'd planned to introduce Riza to the halter. She'd found one on eBay, where she'd also bought the saddle with the mirrors and the fringes, now sitting on two chairs in front of her living-room windows. Sometimes she liked to take it to the paddock with her; it seemed to hold a kind of promise for the future, and it made her happy to watch the sunlight reflected off the mirrors. On these days she walked, carrying the saddle. But that morning was cloudy, and she'd decided to leave it behind.
She'd strapped the halter onto the back of her bike, turning her head, as she wheeled it down the driveway, for a last look at the house. Riding to the paddock, avoiding a patch of sand, she'd reminded herself that she ought to get a job. Her inquiries, since she arrived in Queenscliff, had drawn the response that there were waiting lists for the few casual jobs available. Disagreeable reflections on the state of her finances sank as she breasted the last rise. She had to puff up the rise; but liked forcing herself, liked the warmth flowing through her legs and back.
She had not been able to believe that the paddock was empty. She'd run round and round it, calling Riza's name.
When Julie thought of Camilla Renfrew, anger made sharp red points in front of her eyes. It was a ruse, a trick, that not speaking thing. It was like the child who covers her eyes with her hands and imagines herself to be invisible. The old witch had the locals wrapped around her little finger, but she'd done an evil thing.
Camilla wasn't considered mad because she was a local, having lived in the town all her life; whereas she, Julie, was a newcomer, and engaged in what she was well aware some of the locals described as mad behaviour. âWhat on earth's she training a camel for?' âWe've got plenty of sand, but we don't need camels to get round on it.' âPretty beast. Maybe she'd going to sell him to a circus.' These were some of the comments that Julie half-heard, as she turned away with her litre of milk or half kilo of apples from the small supermarket.
âBit eccentric, but she's harmless,' was how Frank had described Camilla, when Julie had asked if he might persuade the old woman to stay away. She hadn't liked Frank's smarminess when he'd rolled up in his ute, the excitement in his eyes when he'd been told that Riza was missing.