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Meetings as with appropriate departments of state, societies of Law, of all religion, associations of medical doctors, mind doctors, aviation doctors and agricultural doctors, all such
prosecutors, pathologists and coroners that we might resurrect all older generations of colleagues, colleague-grandparents, all dead people, families and friends, if so mister preseedente.

Who may award support to us. If on single issues we can show you these. If we are committed to the struggle on behalf of victims of terrorist abuse, all State-inspired? We spoke to them. Who
else. Colleagues so had to do.

What discussions, questions. We may say meester presidente, of one fight for the testing of terror of all victims. Show to us such terror. Bring to us the more advanced technology, finer and
finer scans for heads and scans for brains and for our spirit beings also bring scans, head doctor mind doctor religious doctor, from all so meeting places, temple, church, mosque, synagogue, bring
to us everything.

And for all peoples now at risk from state operatives and terror doctors, now at risk from the establishment of all gods’ finance houses here on Earth as it is on Planet Mars my
colleagues. Bring to us a Hospice for terminally-ill victims of State-inspired terror, Resting Houses for grieving families and all relatives of disappeared persons. Please institute an institute
for the funding and coordination of proper research on this subject, wholly independent, freedom from all propaganda bodies. Bring proper needles for biopsies on suspect victims of State-inspired
terror [so-called], attempting to isolate these strata, our colleagues shall assist you, if to affix appropriate diagnostic criteria on prescribed horrors, extending the set of terror-related
atrocities prescribed by the State Security Council in accordance with external guidelines and rules of behaviour, thus to include all trauma syndromes now established by caring humanities of all
European, African, Scandinavian, Asian and onwards, all geographic formations, Amereecas also, who are granted financial reward by these overt covert agencies operating for on behalf of greater
business, corporate international, financier bodies of the world, all insurers of terror, those that do exist, not as so told to us as for official purposes, please, what is our prognosis, if I so
am monitored, I so am being monitored.

I can know this presently, what historically, if it so may be known.

Younger colleagues will know history. If it is said some may have said it. I too am a younger colleague.

Yes, precedent. What precedent is. If to effect change through precedent, what precedent may be. Colleagues tried so to do, speaking to media, all various, communicating directly and
establishing contacts for radio, television, journals, all newspapers, globally from internet, yes also, website magazines, email factsheets, fax all press releases, scholarly articles and
features, imparting knowledge, acquiring publicity for our lives and deaths, holding press conferences, academic conferences, all conferences. We consolidated and extended our contacts, peoples in
the world, all humanitarian bodies, human, civil, democratic rights’ campaigners, all religious charitables, organisations for world health, safety in every environment and workplace
also.

If groupings had the interest in our struggle but not only it then also there were links in to these as “struggles-in-general”, what “struggles-in-general” may be, if
these are something, what thing might they be. Such questions.

What of learning also, in these new proposals, looking at former colleagues older colleagues, how these did peruse and study closely theoretical works, all computing and languages of computing.
Other languages, what inventions, if they might have been, if new languages were there, are such languages possible, we could propose such models, adopting innovatory techniques, amalgam of logic,
linguistical, in algorithms, all modern technologies but to remember also that these have derived from somewhere.

It was reinforcement that our “campaigning formation” so might strengthen.

So colleagues did spread and make stronger that network, maintaining our communications system with associate individuals, groupings, yes abroad, abroad farther and all elsewhere if the universe
may broaden or towards infinitum, onwards if so these Star Wars, are we into exile, where is Planet Mars. If within our own terrortories colleagues sought to advise and support all associates,
other formations if these so were desirous, actions so for all people, healthier people, in safety people, all human beings. Colleagues held meetings formal informal to establish personal contacts,
also within dubious agencies, if we might so do we must so do.

Might so is must so.

State, yes, securitys and all personnel, military, educational, industrial banking groups, external officers for international welfare, for the diaspora, for rights of all victims who are human
beings, all military, medical, legal and religious professions, leaders and disciples, all prophets, executives in foreclosures, we established personal contact with such individuals, overt covert,
please not to foreclose us oh master authority.

From our monitoring work on all violence towards people, all abuses, terrors, State-inspired, all atrocities and horrors. We gave of ourselves to others. They would look to ourselves. They must
protect themselves.

What are sympathetic bodies, and to a “campaigning formation” such as ours? We discovered. Where were management meetings, and seminars for business economics from foreign
terrortories.

People would be there for us. Colleagues, it is we ourselves who were there for such meetings, elsewhere that could have been. Colleagues distributed leaflets, colleagues giving talks, assisted
also by more famous sympathisers, foreign sympathisers.

From ourselves also the organisation of educational workshops, displaying reality of struggle, what struggle may be in general, information also of our own, these foreign capitals and greater
cities where if people might come to know and understand something, if truth may be for our people, what it might be, truth for our people, for other peoples. We would have supporters and
sympathisers, intellectuals, others, gestures to us, solidarity for us, rock people, art people.

Our “campaigning formation” supported and advised all people who enquired, seeking from us informative writings, all humanitarian, rights bodies, from all other countries and
terrortories, all colleague-representatives from these foreign “campaigning formations”, speaking to field workers engaged in newer struggles or if in preparation for such a
beginning.

What of education groups, yes, we had these, here is the history of our struggle, the history of our movement, here is where all stripping and removal operations began in our lands.

What are people’s own assets, land and water, crops or oil, mountains and valleys or forests if we have these, what, what we have, are these yet in existence or picked clean by master
vultures. Here also is where our people’s involvement developed in these townships and communities of them, here from help and advice groups from community homes and safety of these homes,
making them so, local issues, who has no home and bedding, who has no food, how are babies fed, if inoculation is desired, medicals, all pharmacy, necessity, girls must survive, what is tortures.
We have all tortures, history of torture, it is history of our people, yes, History of Torture is History of Our People. We said it, sloganising.

All questions, such questions, women spoke with women, village and community. What women were there our colleagues discovered, women always in struggle, seeking out women, advising and
supporting, imparting skills and technique, offering to them organisational experience, receiving also if it may be. Volunteers also came for us. Women knew more of disappeared people, they came to
us, offered advice, sharing with us. Now colleagues monitored disappearances. How so to do. Offering advice and assistance to younger, newer colleagues, inexperienced volunteer workers.

Ask us.

Colleagues established contact with people of outer communities, leaders there, tinier pressure groups, tinier campaigns in tinier townships, little little villages. These were distrustful, that
the involvement of our “campaigning formation” would bring to them trouble from securitys or military. It so was for them, and so would be. All retributive practices. Colleagues
convinced them not convinced them, not convinced them. But also learned, inter, one another.

What of day-to-day management, of our secretariat who held monies, domestic and foreign. These are important matters. Who operate technologies, who perform diplomacies, who have these skills, we
discovered them. Can one speak, let him speak. Can one discuss foreign affairs with foreign guests, at what level. We discovered them. Who can take telephone calls, improving our data-bank and
filing systems. There is information gathering and dissemination of knowledge and currently-available research. What is world history of State-terror, State-torture, slavemakers, displacements, all
enclosures, law-making and withdrawal of all human resources. Yes, if people have all medicines if we have none, what information. Treaties of kings and master authoritys, all mafia families of
royaltys that now are binding for all time to infinitum. What of these. Colleagues obtained such information from the world beyond, all worlds beyond, and not then wwwdotcom. Or if not if someone
might assist practically in these things, who it is, we found these capable individuals, and all stories may be told of that time, earlier time, if younger colleagues seek learning, know only the
history of our “campaigning formation”. I too am a younger colleague.

If it is a clearing of our head only, the nonsenses, sand grittings are into our brain, if it is clearing it is possible and if so it is good. Time is short, always is short. Colleagues can find
the many points we have missed, greater variety of them, many. If it is a necessary freedom of expression of conscience, yes, they must have it, know of its presence. What they are to say, yes, say
it, have no fear. What is constitutional, not constitutional. If we are to lay down our lives. Colleagues should create agendas, their lists, listings, all items. Beyond here and now must come open
discussion in all meetings, as to get such open discussion organised it all may be raised. Of course. This has not happened as to be better. Many have thought themselves under suspicion, that they
so would become, thus have been fearful to speak. Problems then arise through natural ignorance. Colleagues must speak, speak publicly.

She lay beside me, looking to the fire. My hand then lay at her breast and she allowed it, until putting hers onto it. If something was wrong, I did not ask her. Over several
weeks I knew her, and what not to say, if something was wrong, I knew it. If it was the woman’s time. Her being close to my body, she said it was the need in her, not for myself but all men,
any man. I said, Men are not different, women think so but not here, men also have such a need.

Perhaps some men.

No, all men.

Some men, if any. She raised herself, reached for the water.

We also need warmth, other bodies.

I do not think so, she said, passing the water to me

Then comfort.

I said she was naked, she was not self-conscious. I lifted the covering, she returned beside me. I put my arm round her and she lay on me for a long period. I do not know how long, my shoulder
and upper arm aching but this was a moment that should extend and the ache meant nothing to me. I said so to her. And that you are not self-conscious, it is complimentary to me.

What?

You trust me. The male has a need and a need also is to be trusted by women.

She did not reply but there was movement from her and I saw something in her face and I said nothing further. It was more than one hour since our last sexual intercourse. She got to her feet,
went from the room. The fire still burned, barely, I did not replenish it. She returned with drinking water and also wine, placing it nearby. I watched her. I said, You are a genius.

She was uncorking the wine bottle, herself drank from it, not offering it to me, nor returning beside me and I had raised the covering that she might return, instead she knelt by the fire.
Silence for minutes. She did not offer me the wine and I did not ask. Until when I saw that her mood had turned once more I said, Why do you think that of men? Not to be trusted, surely that is
what they want, trust in them? Even those who wish to abuse.

I waited but she made no answer. I again had raised the covering that she might return beneath, she ignored it, sitting near in to the fire, her side to me. I put my hand to her back, rubbing at
her spine. I saw that her shoulders lowered. Now she straightened. There was the need to relax but no, if it was so, she did not allow it. I said to her, You cannot relax. Why is that? You do not
trust me? What shall I do? What is it that you think? I smiled. You will not give me the wine?

If you want the wine take it

Yes, I said, taking it to drink.

I cannot relax, she said, it is foolish to ask, why do you, always asking it. She moved further from me. Men’s want is to be like women but you are not and cannot.

No, I do not think that.

Life is this moment for you but not for us, we are women, we think differently, live differently

Fight differently, yes. I smiled.

Arrogance. Fight differently. What is it you mean?

I do not mean anything, I am sorry.

But tell me.

I do not mean anything, I am sorry.

But you think it

No

I cannot understand you, except I think the worst and know this is the way of them. What is the worst, then that is men.

I returned the wine bottle to her and she corked it, reached to place the bottle beneath her coat, at her belongings. Her legs were nearby the fire, she rubbed the side of her thigh. If we had a
cigarette, she said.

Your feet may burn.