Unraveling (45 page)

“No, not at all. The beach is usually crowded with other kids, but our group won’t be that big,” he gave me a reassuring smile.

I let out a breath I didn’t know I was holding.

I could do this.

I could spend the holiday weekend with Jared’s friends and act like a normal human being.

“You’ll be fine, Katy,” Jared sa
id, reassuringly.

I swear, that man could read my mind sometimes.

“Stop worrying,” he continued. “I know you think they won’t like you, or something silly like that, but that’s not true. They’ll love you.”

“I’ll be fine. I can do this,” I nodded my head.

He chuckled. “I never had any doubts, kitten.”

~***~

We checked into the hotel and went up to our room. It was surprisingly nice; the walls were a pale blue-green with white furniture and bed coverings. It wasn’t over-done, the sole focus being the solid wall of windows overlooking the beach below.

A vo
lleyball game was being set up and many people sunbathed. It was so peaceful that I instantly found myself relaxing.

Jared came up behind me, rubbing my shoulder blades.

“Beautiful, isn’t it?” he kissed the back of my neck.

“Incredible,” I
said. “I can’t wait to dig my toes into the sand.”

“What are we waiting for then?” Jared asked, lightly pinching my side.

I changed into my bikini in the bathroom, while Jared changed in the bedroom.

Before my rape,
I had worn bikinis to the pool and beach, but since then, I’d avoided both of those places like the plague.

Piper had helped me pick it out.
It was pretty, but sexier than something I would pick out.

The top covered the necessities, dipping into a V at the front, and tying at my neck. The bottoms didn’t cover up much either, the front and back connected by two wide strings. Both the top and bottoms had pale orange, gray, and white stripes. I looked at myself in the
mirror, startled by the amount of skin, and was thankful I had talked Piper into letting me buy the sheer white cover-up; it would at least make me feel a little better.

I let my hair down from the messy bun, brushing through it, before pulling it back again.

“What’s taking so long in there?” Jared asked.

“Sorry, just give me a second,” I said, pulling on the cover-up.

I opened the bathroom door and found Jared sitting on the bed, flipping through the limited number of channels.

He looked absolutely lickable, not that I was going to lick him, in his hot pink swim trunks. I didn’t see how any man could pull off pink swim trunks, but Jared definitely could. A sleeveless white top hid his tan chest.

“Ready?” he asked, focused on the TV, and not me.

“Yeah,” I said, moving across the room to grab my beach bag. I pulled the sunscreen out; rubbing it into the areas I could reach with my cover-up on.

“I talked to Holden, he said they should be here in about thirty to forty minutes.”

I laughed. “I still can’t believe you talked him into riding with Piper and Rollo. I’m sure he’s loving that.”

Jared shrugged. “It was stupid for us all to come separately, but I wanted to drive down here, just you and me,” he reached for my arm, pulling me against him. He leaned back so that I was lying flat on his chest.

“Jared!” I shrieked, my palms flat against his chest.

He was smiling at me, but there was seriousness in his eyes. He cupped my cheek. “What if I had never met you?” he whispered. “Do you have any idea what you’ve done to me? What you’ve made me feel?”

I shook my head.

He cupped my cheek. His Adam’s apple bobbed as he said, “You make me feel worthy, Katy. I don’t like to talk about my past, but before you came along, what my father did to me, made me feel like the lowest scum on earth. But you showed me that wasn’t true. I’ve loved you for a long time, even before I said the words, and I think you felt the same. Even if you didn’t, it doesn’t matter, because I know you cared for me. What he did to me was horrible, but it was out of my control. Just like what Preston did to you wasn’t your fault. What we went through was tragic, horrible, but it’s made us stronger people. It has made us worthy of each other, Katy,” as the last syllable of my name was uttered; he crushed his lips to mine.

This kiss was rougher than any we had shared, almost desperate.

I gripped his shoulders, leaning into his mouth. My tongue flicked out, licking his bottom lip and he moaned in response, pressing against me.

My legs tightened around him and he gripped my thighs. My heart rate spiked in pleasure, not fear.

Jared pulled his lips from mine and I mewled in protest.

“Stop. We have to stop,” he was breathless. “If you keep kissing me like that this is going to lead somewhere I don’t think you’re ready for.”

“I am… ready, I mean,” I kissed his neck.

His hands tightened against my bare legs. “Please don’t say things like that to me where there’s barely any clothes separating me from your perfect body.”

“I want you, Jared,” I ground my hips against him, the friction sending shivers up my spine.

His fingers tangled in my hair and he opened his mouth to say something, when there was a knock on our hotel room door.

“Kaaaatttttyyyy? Jaaaaarrrreeee-Beeeeaaaarrrr? The party has aaaarrrriiivvveeeddd!” Rollo sang through the door. “Get your butts out here! I want to go to the beach!!! Katy? I know ya’ll are in there! I heard your voices!”

Jared sighed, running his hand through his hair. He lifted me off of him and sat me on the bed. “You,” he pointed at me, “are a temptress.”

“Just a second!” Jared called. He took a deep breath, looked at me for a moment, and then opened the door.

Rollo looked at Jared, then me, before his eyes settled on the rumpled bed. “Oh. I interrupted something.”

Jared chuckled and leaned against the open door, but didn’t say anything.

“Okay then…” Rollo looked embarrassed. “Uh, I’m heading down to the beach. Holden says he’s taking a nap and Piper is flirting with the check-in guy.”

“We’re going to the beach too,” I said.

“Uh-huh,” Rollo licked his lips. “That’s exactly what it looked like you were doing, baby cakes.”

I blushed and Jared groaned.

I stood, smoothing my cover-up, and grabbing my tote bag. My sunglasses were on top of my purse, so I added them to my already overflowing tote.

The walk down to the beach was quiet, which was surprising with Rollo in tow. I knew he was bursting with questions, but was waiting for Jared to leave.

We found an empty spot in the sand and I pulled out
mine and Jared’s towels, spreading them out side by side.

Rollo fixed his towel next to mine and immediately sat down.

“I’m going to swim,” Jared said, already pulling his tank off.

I swear I heard a few female gasps when his chest
was revealed.

“Don’t let anyone take my spot,” he kissed my cheek before jogging away.

“Never,” I said, even though he was far enough away that he wouldn’t hear.

I sat down, stretching my legs out in front of me. With a deep breath, to renew my bravery, I pulled the sheer cover-up over my head and tucked it into my tote bag before applying sunscreen to the spots I’d missed.

“What did I interrupt?” Rollo asked. I knew he wouldn’t wait long.

“I –uh- I kind of put the moves on Jared. I basically told him I was ready to take the next step,” I blushed, biting down on my lip. Saying the words, out loud
, in the daylight, seemed so bold.

Rollo let out a high-pitched shriek. “
Ohmigawd! Baby cakes! You’re growing up!”

I laughed. “I don’t call that growing up.”

“It’s progress, Katy! I thought this would never happen for you!”

I lay back on the towel and adjusted my sunglasses. “I didn’t think so either, but when the
right person comes along, it changes things.”

“So, you’re really over the whole Preston thing?” His voice grew serious.

I gave a little shrug, propping my head up on my hand to see him better. “I don’t think I’ll ever truly be over it. When something like that happens to a person, it haunts you. You have good days, you have bad days, and you have in-between days. I’ve just decided to stop letting it control my life. I do deserve happiness and love. I thought when Preston raped me that he took something from me, some essential part of my person, but I realized that
I’m
the one that took it.
I
killed a part of me, not Preston. I let what happened consume me. I let it shape me as a person and turn me into someone who wasn’t even living. I realize now, that it wasn’t my fault. I couldn’t have prevented it. I’m not dwelling on it anymore, Rollo. I’m going to live my life the way I should, to the fullest. I’m not saying all my hang-ups are just going to disappear, but hopefully, in time, they’ll lessen.”

Rollo sniffled. “You have no idea how long I’ve been waiting for you to say that. Hug?” he held his arms open.

I sat up all the way and hugged my best friend. Tears of happiness and relief threatened to fall. When they did, I let them.

Rollo pulled away and took in my tearstained cheeks. He reached up and wiped them away, smiling.

“You’re the bravest girl I know, Katy Grace Spencer,” he hugged me again.

“And you’re the best friend any
one could ever have,” I sobbed. “You’ve been there for me, through everything, even when I tried to push you away.”

“I’ll always be here for you, baby cakes. I’ll never give up on you
,” he patted my back.

“Thank you,” I said, putting so much emotion and meaning into those words. I wa
s thanking him for everything, for now, for the past, and for the future.

40

The heat of the sun warmed my skin.
It was making me sleepy, all I wanted to do was drift off, but Jared wasn’t having it.

“Kitten, come on, the water’s nice and warm,” he begged.

When he used that tone of voice, I was a goner.

“Fine,” I said, letting him pull me up off the towel.

“Thanks, kittycat,” he grinned, pulling me through the warm sand, and to the water’s edge.

The cool water tickled my toes and I shivered in response.

“Come on,” Jared said, pulling me in further. Soon, the water was up to my waist, and just above Jared’s knees. “Ready?” he asked.

“For what?” I asked.

He pulled me under the water.

“Jared!” I screamed as I came up. “That wasn’t nice!”

He chuckled, the water dripping down his body. He looked like a model while I looked like a drowned rat. How was that fair?

He swam into deeper water, expecting me to follow him, which of course, I did.

Jared was able to stand, but I had to tread water.

“Come here,” he crooked a finger at me.

I swam towards him and his arms wrapped around me.

He picked me up, my hands automatically going to his shoulders.

I stared into his eyes, the water dripping from my body, and said, “How did two messed up people, like us, fall in love?”

Without hesitation, he said, “
It’s destiny, Katy. It always has been.”

~***~

The sun had long ago set, the beach now bathed in darkness, the only light came from the little sliver of moon.

Jared came up behind me, kissing my neck, and I instantly relaxed into his embrace.

His lips traveled upwards. Brushing my chin, my cheek, and my ear.

A knock on the door startled us apart.

“Damn,” Jared cursed. “Is this going to happen the whole time we’re here?”

“Probably,” I laughed.

He opened the door and Holden was standing there. “I wanna go to the pool,” was his greeting.

“Dude, it’s like eleven o’ clock, it’s closed,” Jared rubbed the back of his head. “Go to bed like a normal person.”

“Fine, I’ll go by myself,” Holden strutted down the hallway.

“Fuck!” Jared groaned. He looked at me with pleading eyes. “I have to go with him to make sure he doesn’t do something even more stupid.”

“It’s fine, I’ll come with you,” I said, pulling a sweater on, and jeans over my pajama shorts. The nights were cool here, especially with the wind blowing off the water.

Jared reached for my hand, and we jogged down the hall
, after Holden. He must have already gotten in the elevator, because he was nowhere in sight.

Jared impatiently pressed the round button.

“What’s going on with Holden? You look worried, and I don’t just mean worried about him sneaking into the closed swimming pool,” I squeezed his hand.

“I don’t really know. He hasn’t been the same for a while. I wonder if it has anything to do with his dad,” Jared muttered the last part under his breath. “I don’t know why Holden goes and visits that bastard.”