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CÃ©line Curiol's first novel,
, written when the author was in her late twenties and published just after her thirtieth birthday in 2005, is a rare and unforgettable book, one of the most stirring literary debuts I've come across in recent years.
What distinguishes Curiol's writing is its uncanny fluidity and masterful control over multiple stylistic effects. The reader is both inside and outside at the same time, immersed in the inner life of the central character and yet vividly aware of the world that surrounds her as she floats through an all-too-real present-day Paris, a city that presses down on her throughout the novel with all the force of a dream. The main thrust of the story concerns the adventures of this nameless young woman, but Curiol's eye for detail is so sharp, so exact in its renderings of the world beyond her character's skin, that even as the narrative concentrates on the actions of a single individual, we are simultaneously given a crystal-clear picture of French society at largeâthe new France, the France of the early twenty-first century. Much of the book's mordant humor is lavished on the hypocrisy, irrationality, and outright absurdity of the social arrangements, class differences, and no-so-buried racism the heroine sees around her.
is a story of obsession, alienation, and a descent into near madness. The central character, who works as a public address announcer at the Gare du Nord, falls for a man who is attached to another woman. Slowly and inexorably, something begins to happen between themâor almost. Such is the
not so terribly complex plot of this deeply complex novel. Meanwhile, hundreds of events, both large and small, are recounted as Curiol's damaged and poignant heroine goes about her life, which is filled with numerous random encounters with people as diverse as a female impersonator named RenÃ©e RisquÃ©, a forlorn African immigrant, a photographer with the delicious name of Olivier Chedubarum, and an actress who happens to have the same name she does. Curiol's prose moves with the emotions of her character, from the precise, clinical tone of an empirical observer to the opulent, disjointed streams of thought assaulting a mind in the grip of hallucinations. In one startling passage toward the end of the book, as the heroine rushes desperately from her apartment to catch a subway that will take her to the train station, her frantic state is beautifully matched by the frenzy of Curiol's writing. “She puts on the clothes she finds on the floor, then her coat, slings the sports bag and her handbag over her shoulder, looks for her keys, hears objects dropping to the floor without knowing what they are, finds her keys on the kitchen table, battles with her feet and shoes to get the former into the latter, glimpses 8:15 somewhere, opens the door, locks the door, rushes down the stairs into the street, quick glance to the right, to the left, hesitates, searches her mind for the shortest route to the station, begins to run.” On the next page, as this race against time continues, we come to one of the most astonishing sentences in the novel: “Her mÃ©tro pass isn't in her bag, her mÃ©tro pass is in her bag.” Thought is perfectly wedded to action here, and only a brilliant, daring artist would have the wit and courage to come up with such a formulation.
I admire this book for its grace and economy, for its vigor, compassion, and often humorous turns. Curiol pulls us into her narrative with the assurance of a veteran storyteller, and after only a few pages, we are already deep into the novel. Without
the slightest shred of sentimentality, she explores the innermost crevices of her heroine's soul to create a fully realized portrait of a human beingâa person of manifold contradictions and impulses, a figure who embodies both the tragic and the comic in ways seldom seen in contemporary fiction.
Take note. A superb new writer lives among us.
Yes, it is rather an ambiguous voice and not always easy to follow, in its reasonings and decrees. But I follow it none the less, more or less, I follow it in this sense, that I do what it tells me. And I do not think there are many voices of which as much may be said. And I feel I shall follow it from this day forth, no matter what it commands. And when it ceases, leaving me in doubt and darkness, I shall wait for it to come back . . .
hey have known each other for a long time. She has never quite been able to recall the moment when they met, the place, the precise day, whether she shook his hand or they kissed on the cheek. Nor has she ever thought to ask him. She does have a first memory, though. As she was climbing into her coat in the narrow hallway of an unkempt apartment, she had caught his look of distress. The woman he had flirted with all evening was refusing to leave with him. He was trying to persuade her with an insistent barrage of words, which fell to pieces in the face of the majestic creature. She thought the idea of being suddenly deprived of the object of his affections must have been more than he could bear just then. And seeing him this way, in love, had moved her. She had slipped between the two of them and said, I'm off. But he had not replied.
She still remembers his hair and his hands. In her mind, she retains a distinct image of their thickness and color, their size and shape. Because to touch these parts of him is perhaps what she most spontaneously desires, is what for her would open up the path to intimacy.
In the window of the wine shop, each bottle has been set at a slight angle to those on either side. No prices are marked on the labels; she decides to go in. In order to help her with her choice, the man behind the counter wants to know what dishes will be
served at dinner. She doesn't dare tell him that they won't be eating, she fears he'll take her for an alcoholic. I've been invited, I haven't been told anything, she says, improvising an answer to counter the hint of reproach dawning in the man's eyes. I'll take some white and some red, I suppose, she adds by way of conclusion. He picks out three bottles; she accepts at once. He wraps them in shiny paper, sets them down vertically in a bag. Back outside, she walks along with the promising clink of glass in her arms.
She has sat down at a deserted outdoor cafÃ©. From the heights of his elongated spine, an ashen-faced waiter takes her order while checking to see that nothing has changed on the terrace of his little domain. The espresso arrives with the bill. The coffee is cold and bitter. In spite of her exhaustion, she has no intention of missing the party: that would show she was unworthy of his friendship. No doubt one of the guests will have remembered to take along candles. It would be a shame if he had nothing to blow out, no wish to make, no icing to lick off the little plastic holdersâhe who is so keen on celebrating his birthday. Honoring a person's arrival into the world has never seemed to make much sense to her, but in his case she can understand. What is a birthday? A mark on time to reduce it to human scale. The waiter is closing up the cash register, he wants his coins. The palm of his hand is a tracery of jumbled lines imprinted by hundreds of adroit, repeated actions everyday. All of a sudden, she has an urge to put something on it other than metal, perhaps her own hand.
Her apartment smells of varnish and incense. She takes the bottles out of the bag, lines them up on the kitchen table. A moment's hesitation, and then she opens the bottle of white,
pours herself a glass, and waits for the time when she will go to his house.
People are talking in groups around a chair or a sofa. There's laughter, joking, merriment; everyone's loosening up without too much trouble. The wash of conversations follows her from room to room, the voices modulating, bursting like giant bubbles against her ears. Already, her head is spinning. Someone asks if she's seen the corkscrew. She shrugs her shoulders; the muscles in her jaw are a bit stiff. Drinks are handed to her; she's made to clink glasses, to take sips. There are more and more unfamiliar faces, and she hates being the one to make the first move. An overexcited girl with dyed-blonde hair knocks into her coming out of the toilet. She tries to catch her aggressor's eye to let her know that the gesture has not been well received, but the girl ignores her, heads straight for the living room. She bolts the door, gathers up her dress, and sits down clumsily on the seat. She yawns; her head weighs a ton and a half, and it's not yet even midnight. When she emerges from her hiding place, he is in the hall. A woman has just arrived and has her hands around his waist. Her name is Ange. The woman is almost as she remembers her, but slightly more friendly than at their first meeting in the doorway. They exchange a smile. Yes, she tells herself, they do make a nice couple. He has won his bet: the rebellious angel has been conquered, and here she is at his big annual party. It is only now that she sees the white wings sprouting from Ange's back. A harmless pair of little wings, of a down soft enough to cure the worst insomnia. He has touched those wings, and that is what has drawn him to her. Who could resist a pair of wings? She, too, would like to be able to touch
them, to find out the sensation they leave. But she isn't the type who could interest angelsâeven one with crumpled wings. How's it going? She gives a nod. That's when she remembers the reason for her presence. Happy birthday. She says the words in a tone that makes them sound more like an excuse than a wish. He comes up to her, takes her in his arms. She stiffens, unwilling for him to hold her in that way. She wants to tell him that certain gestures are not to be granted so lightly, especially not in such mundane circumstances. You have to take precautions, wait for the right moment. The grip of his arms is firm, his hands are spread out like stars and press into her back. For one brief moment she manages to let herself go, then, very quickly, the arms release her, but the mark is already made.
She has a drink on the sofa, next to a man she doesn't know. She remembers vaguely the song and the clapping; it was Ange who'd remembered the candles. The man beside her is not moving a muscle. She presses gently against the arm that is flung out along her thigh. The man's eyes blinkâas for the rest of him, not a twitch. He's beginning to worry her, staying frozen like that. I can tell I've made a big impression on you! The words slipped out. His face remains impassive. Aren't you feeling well? Her question provokes no response. The man seems to have abandoned his body, a hollow shell of flaccid flesh, as if he had catapulted his spirit to a place where no one can dislodge it. His eyes see nothing, not even the spot on the wall in front of him, which he appears to be staring at. Only his nostrils continue to shudder. She notices that he is freshly shaven. A few hours earlier, he passed the blade of a razor over his cheeks, sketched out bands of smooth skin in the foamy whiteness. His skin is unlined, his lips are dark and chapped. Something to drink,
you'll feel better, no need to get so worked up, we can talk it over, there's always an answer . . . She casts about for the words to shake him out of his lethargy, but all that comes are phrases warped by alcohol. How to guess the cause of the state he is in? Even depressed people don't do that. She doesn't do that, not thatâimitating a dead body in that way, it's enough to give you the creeps. She takes a sip of wine. No one else has noticed the lifeless body on the sofa. A man is wrestling open a bottle, a couple are kissing by the window, a woman patiently cadges a cigarette, a trio burst into laughter. No one is aware of anything other than the person he or she is speaking to. And so she wraps her fingers around the man's unresisting fingers. She lifts his heavy hand and places it on her belly. For an indeterminate length of time, she keeps it there, its warm weight upon her.