What Happens Tomorrow (26 page)

I feel embarrassed for the way he found me earlier, and the fact that he’s still dressed while I, on the other hand, am completely naked. I look up into his handsome face, feeling shy and a little self conscience. “Hi,” I remorsefully reply as I break eye contact. I move to lean my head into his chest, trying to deflect his attention, but he stops me, pushing my shoulders back.

“Don’t look away from me. I want to know you’re okay.”

I look, pulling my lips into the closest thing to a smile I can form. “I’m okay. Embarrassed, but okay. I’m really sorry you had to find me like that.” It’s hard to look him in the face knowing he’s seen me at one of my lowest point. “It’s been a long time since I felt that, but I promise I’m okay now.”

Affectionately grabbing my face in his hands, he leans down and gently kisses my lips before pulling away and staring into my eyes. “You
would
tell me if there was something wrong, wouldn’t you?” The questioning tone in his voice has me wondering if he thinks my meltdown has something to do with him. I never want him to confuse the sadness I feel for my past with my love for him.

“Everything’s good with us. I promise. I love you more than I ever thought possible but sometimes it isn’t enough. Sometimes no matter how much I love you my heart still grieves. I don’t have any control over where or when…it just happens.”

He props himself up on his elbow. “I hated seeing you like that…so lost, and not being able to make it better for you. I would move heaven and earth to make you happy, you know that, right?” I knowingly nod at his heartfelt words. “What made you so sad that I found you sitting on the floor of your tub underneath an ice cold shower? Please, I need to understand.”

A stray tear slowly rolls down the side of my face as I watch the look of concern grow across his face. “Ever since we got home from Oregon I’ve felt a little sad. I had you all to myself, all day everyday, occupying my thoughts. But then we came home, back to reality and…well, I just get lonely sometimes and when I do.…”

I fill my lungs slowly and completely before I get the courage to continue on. “I was thinking about Katelin. And how much I miss being a mom.”

His face relaxes as he nods in understanding. “I knew there was more to it. Thanks for telling me. Do you wanna talk about it?”

I nod. I do want to talk. I need to talk. He needs to understand what’s going on in my head because this is a part of me that will never ever go away. “I miss her. I miss her so much that some days I don’t know if I can go on without her.” He pulls me in, hugging me tight against his body. “I never thought I would feel this way again…wanting a future, but then I met you, and you made me feel for the first time in what seemed like forever. Alive. And then you made me fall in love with you.”

He’s about to kiss me when I pull away, stopping him. I need to tell him how I feel without interruptions before I lose my nerve. “You’ve awakened all of these feelings in me that I thought were gone forever. I thought all my feelings died with Matt and Katelin, but you brought them back. I love you so much, Tyler. And because I love you…”

I nervously chew my bottom lip.

What if telling him how I really feel is a mistake?

What if it’s too soon?

Tenderly, he tilts my chin towards him util I’m staring into his eyes, “Don’t stop. Please…go on. You can tell me anything.”

I need to make sure I choose the right words. “I’ve thought about it a lot lately…about what it would be like to have another baby. I know another baby will never replace Katelin, but I miss being a mother. I never thought I’d be ready to love another child, but I love you so much and…well, lately I’ve been thinking about us…and our future.”

I close my eyes as tight as I can when I feel his familiar lips against mine. He abruptly pulls away and I’m terrified to look into his eyes for fear of rejection, but there’s none to be found. Instead his eyes are bright…elated.

“Do you have any idea how happy it makes me to hear you say that?” Barely finishing his words, he reaches over and grabs my neck with his free hand, pulling me swiftly to his lips. I’m completely consumed by the feel of his tongue stroking mine. As he runs his fingertips up and down the bare flesh of my back, every inch of my skin is alive and on fire. I desperately need to feel close to him, so I take his face in my hands and kiss him with everything I have.

He breaks our connection as he pulls back to look at me. “I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I want to see and feel our baby growing right here,” he tenderly says, touching my stomach with a splayed hand.

My heart melts.

Home.

I forcibly push him down onto his back as I climb on top of him, kissing him hard. I realize that he’s still dressed in the pants he had on when he took me out of the shower. But right now, I don’t care. I just need to feel him. I glide my hands across his toned chest, his skin feels silky and warm under my fingertips.

God, he has an amazing chest, and I want to kiss every single inch of it. When I reach his shoulders I lean in, kissing the base of his neck and along the top of his shoulder. He lets out a low moan. “Do you have any idea what you’re doing to me?” he says in a deep breathy voice. My own breathing hitches as the familiar feel and smell of his skin dominates my senses.

Home.

With one swift move, I’m flipped onto my back as he begins a sensual attack on my lips. We’ve made love so many times since our trip, but this…this feels different. I can feel the desperate need in both of us to be so close to the other.

Sucking my bottom lip into his mouth, he abruptly lets go, crushing his strong lips against mine as our tongues tease each other. He pulls away, trailing kisses all the way down to the top of my breast until he reaches it’s painfully hard peak. As he wraps his powerful lips around my nipple, my body bucks from the sensation.

“Mmm, baby, you taste good.” He groans before latching back on, swirling his tongue around with enough pressure to make me beg for more. A familiar warmth spreads across my body as if I’m about to climax when, without warning, he releases the sedative nub and proceeds to trail hot, wet, deeply erotic kisses down my stomach where, he stops to lay chaste kisses along my c-section scar.

He always takes time to acknowledge my past.

He tells me it’s beautiful because it’s the part of me that show him just how much of a woman I am.

He reaches the top of my thigh, and the anticipation of what is about to happen next nearly drives me insane. Teasingly, he runs his fingertips from my stomach down my thigh, stopping to push my thigh out. There’s no hiding my excitement as he lowers his mouth and proceeds to painfully lick and suck his way down my leg and back up, stopping at the top of my thigh. His eyes are dark and thick with desire as he looks up at me, whispering provocatively while placing sensual kisses to the inside of my thigh.

“You have no idea how fucking sexy you look right now sprawled across the bed…so pink, so perfect and so wet for me.” His lips shift to my other leg, paying equal amount of slow seductive attention until both thighs are spread wide apart, trembling with anticipation. “I’ve thought about nothing else for the last two days but feeling your sexy body come apart against my lips. Do you think about how it feels when my mouth is on you, Brooke? When I kiss you…here? And suck you…here? When I taste you…here?”

I feel his lips suck my painfully hard clit and the combination of his seductive words and his strong lips licking and sucking at my delicate flesh is too much to take.

He pulls back, his eyes almost black as he looks at me. “I promise, baby, I will never stop worshipping your fucking beautiful body.”

He disappears between my thighs again to finish his attack on the tiny bundle of nerves, his fingers delving deep into me. It doesn’t take long before the rhythm that his fingers and tongue are playing brings me to the brink. I moan as he lifts his head back from my body, a sexy grin across his face.

“That’s my gorgeous girl. Relax, baby. Let me take you there.”

My entire body is consumed by a euphoric wave of pleasure. My toes curl even though they’ve gone completely numb as ecstasy takes control of my body and I scream, but he doesn’t stop his assault. He keeps it going until the over-whelming sensation is too much for me to handle and I pull him away. Climbing up on the bed beside me, I roll onto my side and reach for the button on his pants, quickly ridding him of them. I reach into his boxer briefs and am instantly rewarded by the silky smooth feel of his hard length. He lets out a primal moan and I can’t wait any longer to feel him inside me.

My breathing is ragged as I desperately pant out, “I need to feel you, Tyler. I need to feel you inside me now.”

Gently, rolling me onto my back, he slowly lowers himself between my legs. I don’t think he has any idea how desperately I need to feel him inside me. I don’t need him to make slow and gentle love to me.

I’m not delicate.

I’m not about to break.

I want him to fuck me!

I pull him close and kiss him hard, tasting myself on his lips. “I love you so much.”

“I know, baby, I love you too.”

“Tyler?”

He pulls back and looks into my eyes with a growing look of concern. “What? What’s wrong?”

“I don’t want you to be slow and gentle tonight. I want you to take me, Tyler. I want you to…fuck me…please. Show me how I make you feel,” I whisper in his ear.

With a raised eyebrow and devilish smile across his lips he slowly nods his head like he’s just won the lottery. He nudges himself against my aching, swollen entrance, and his dark blue eyes never leave mine as he thrusts hard, letting out a primal growl. “You’re so tight and warm, and so fucking wet.”

I’m so incredibly turned on right now. His thrust are harder and deeper than ever before. I’m not sure how long I’ll last because my body clenches around him with every word and every thrust. “I’m so close,” I pant. “I nearly came the moment you pushed into me.”

“Oh baby, if you need to come, I wanna feel you. You consume me, Brooke Adams, so tonight I’m going to give you exactly what you want. I’m going to consume you.”

He brushes his lips against mine at the very moment he moves his hips back, then thrusts hard into me. I moan into his mouth as he speeds up his thrusts, pounding into me. I’m so close. He pulls his body back and looks down at me.

“I want to watch you come, baby.”

I feel the build of my release start to take over my body, and it’s the most powerful internal orgasm I have ever had in my life. I scream his name and with one final pounding thrust, his body stills as I feel him pulsing inside of me.

“Oh, Brooke…”

He collapses on top of me. I don’t know what happened, but I feel closer to him tonight than I ever have before. Rolling onto his back, he pulls me tight in his arms. “Come here, you,” he says as he kisses my forehead.“I know I promised you a sleepless night, but if it’s okay with you, I just want to fall asleep with my girl in my arms.”

I kiss his chest, running my fingers tips up and down the toned muscles. “I think I’d be more than okay with that.”

IT’S A LITTLE after ten in the evening. Tyler went out with his brother Ethan tonight which still has me puzzled. After our Oregon trip, he decided to try and make amends with his brother for the sake of their family. He knows how much it hurt his parents to not be able to have both of their sons attend family dinners and things at the same time. He says nothing will ever fix the rift between them, but he can learn to grin and bear it for the sake of his parents. Of course, I supported it, even though Ethan makes my skin crawl. Life’s too short to have regrets, this I know well, so if there was a way for them to somehow work past their issues they should.

Since Ty’s out for the night, I thought it would be a great opportunity to catch up on some uninterrupted reading. He’s pretty good at distracting me from my books, but I’m definitely not complaining. Charlie and I curl up on the couch with my warm fuzzy reading blanket when my cell phone rings. Tyler’s picture pops up on call display and my stomach instantly fills with butterflies.