Wreckers or Checkers: In It to Win It (3 page)

Kim cleared her throat, “Chase sweetie, you do look like him don’t you?  I bet you grow up to be just a handsome as him then.” She told him in a sweet voice while trying to hold back tears. 

He placed his little hand in mine and yawned again, “Yeah probably.” He said then his entire body relaxed. 

I looked at Jerod, Jason, and Mitch they all had a look of complete shock on their faces. 

“He’s asleep.” Kim whispered to Mike and me and then she smiled and stood up.  “Is it okay to take a picture of you two?” she asked softly.

I nodded my head and smiled as she took pictures with her cell phone, then text them to me.  My phone vibrating in my pocket didn’t even wake Chase up.  I carried him to their car and put him in his car seat then told them to let me know when they got to the track the following day so I could buy them pit passes. 

After they had left I went back to the motor home, I had stayed busy so I wouldn’t call or text Chassis but I was going crazy not talking to her.  I laid down on the couch and sent her a text;
*Met Chase and his parents today,wish you could have been here.  I miss you so much Chassi
s
it’s killing me that you won’t talk to me.*
I attached a picture that Kim had forwarded to me of me and Chase beside my race car.  I looked through all of the pictures on my phone, I stared at every picture of Chassis and me then the ones of me and Chase.  I fell asleep waiting for a reply from Chassis.

Chassis

****

Once we arrived at the airport I called Lance to have him come get Asher and
me.  I was in no mood to explain anything to him over the phone so on the drive back to campus I explained everything that had went on.

“Chassis, I guarantee you he knows he fucked up and I can promise you he’s beating himself up over it.  It sounds like to me she knew exactly what she was doing and she got exactly what she wanted…you to leave.” He said then looked back at the road.

“Uggg!  It’s so frustrating, he would have flipped out on me and beat the hell out of the guy.  He was pissed I wouldn’t let him in the bed with Carley and me…”

“Carley?  You bedded down with another chick?  So technically YOU cheated on Jet!” Lance said and started laughing. 

I crossed my arms over my chest turned in the seat and glared at him, he looked at me out of the corner of his eye and stopped laughing. “Sorry, but it’s not every day that I hear a woman cheats on her boyfriend with another woman.”

“Hardy har har jackass, he claims he didn’t screw her but do you really think he could walk away from her?”

Lance watched the road and remained silent, “Honestly yeah, Jet’s had it bad for you since the first time he laid eyes on you at the party.”

I didn’t say anything back, I shook my head and watched as the landscape flew by.

We arrived back at campus about seven that night, Lance helped us get our luggage back to our dorms then left.  I decided to take a nice long hot shower to relax and think about everything that had happened.  Before I got in the shower my phone went off with a text, when I seen it was from Jet I hesitated to read it but when I did I started crying again.  *
Chassis, I’m sorry, so fucking sorry.  PLEASE, I love you, I’ll do anything, ANYTHING to have another chance with you.  I know I fucked up baby you have to believe me, I didn’t fuck her.  I have no reason for why I did what I did.  I promised you that I wouldn’t hurt you and I did.  I’m so fucking sorry.  Please, please baby, I love you.  I can’t lose you.  I love you!  I’m coming home after the races Saturday and we are going to talk.  I’m going to race my hardest and win this mother fucker for you.  If you want me to quit racing I will, I’ll do whatever you want me to.  Please just one more chance let me prove to you that I only love you and will always only love you.  I love you Chassis Brinn Heart.  This is me wide open begging you for forgiveness.  I can tell you a hundred times in this text if I have to, I love YOU!  I’m so sorry for what I did, I swear it’ll NEVER happen again.  I love you...and I’m sorry!
*

I ran the hot water out completely, then dressed in some baggy
sweat pants and one of Jet’s t-shirts.  I went out to the living room, Asher was sitting on the couch texting somebody.  She told me Jet had called and what she had said to him, “Chassis he’s tore up about it, he wanted to leave and follow us back here.”

My eyes burned with more tears, I crossed my legs under me and leaned my head against her shoulder.  “Am I over reacting?  Is every relationship like this?”

“No, you two really need to talk about this Chassis.  I have no doubt in my mind he loves you, he knows he screwed up.  I’ve talked to Mitch and he said that he believes that Jet didn’t do anything besides kiss her and feel her up a little.  I think that you just need to go to bed and try not to worry about this until he comes back.  Then you two have GOT to talk if you want to work things out with him.”

“I know, I love him too, I’m just so confused why he let it go as far as he did
.”

“I know you are, that’s why you need to talk to him.” She told me then hugged me before she stood and went to her room.  I went to bed and laid there thinking about everything until I finally fell asleep.

The next morning after I woke up I dressed in my workout clothes and went to the track to run.  I had run about seven laps, and started walking when Lance caught up with me.  He put his arm around my shoulder and smiled down at me, “Everything is going to be okay, why don’t you finish up your workout then we can go out to lunch?”

“That sounds great, come by the dorm in about an hour.” I told him then we went our separate ways.

I got back to the dorm, showered and put on my black leggings, a white oversized t-shirt and my Converse tennis shoes.  Just as I pulled my hair into a sloppy bun Lance knocked on the door then walked in.  Asher wasn’t feeling good so she waved from the couch as we walked out of the dorm.

“Subway sound good?  We can go over to the park and have a picnic since it’s so nice out?” Lance asked. 

“Yes, I’ve been craving that actually!” I told him with a laugh. 

We walked the ten minutes to Subway, waited in line another five minutes then finally made our way back to the park.  We sat dow
n under a huge oak tree and started eating our sandwiches.  Lance devoured the first half of his, then stopped eating and sat there staring at me. 

“What?  Do I have something on my face?” I asked and wiped at the corners of my mouths.

He shook his head and smiled, “No, I just like looking at how beautiful you are.  I wish Carey wouldn’t have fucked up my chances with you.  Jet is one lucky guy, your beautiful just being you.  You don’t wear tons of make-up and spend hours getting ready to go out.”

I felt myself blushing, “Thank you…I think!”

“No, really.  I know that he’s feeling like a complete dick head right now, I’m sure watching you with another chick about put him over the edge.  I’m honestly surprised he didn’t try to follow you or stop you from leaving.”

“Well, when I left I didn’t exactly tell him I was leaving.” I told him as I picked at the bread on my sandwich.

“Ahh, so that’s why.  I thought it was pretty odd he wasn’t hot on your heels.” He told me then took another bite of his sandwich.

Just when I got ready to take a bite my phone rang, I pulled it out of my purse to see that it was Jet calling.  “Just answer it.” Lance told me with a wink. 

Much to my surprise it wasn’t Jet on the other end when I answered, it was Riley.  My blood instantly started to boil and I wanted to do nothing but hang up on her, I put it on speaker phone so Lance could hear what she was saying.  She was telling me how Jet stopped anything from going too far, that she had seen me peeking around the front of the semi and was trying push Jet to take things further.  What really shocked me is when she admitted to poking holes in the condom so she could get pregnant by Jet again if things actually went that far.  Then she admitted that she was still in love with him.  I looked at Lance after she told me that, his eyes were big and he was just as speechless as I was.  When I didn’t respond to her after she was done talking she had to say my name a few times.   I didn’t know what to say I’d met two of Jet’s ex-girlfriends and they were complete psychos, so that’s what I told her.  I had obviously struck a nerve with her so I went on about how if Jet loved me he would have NEVER touched her.  The more I talked the more mad I got, I know he was just trying to get me to believe what he was telling me but I couldn’t stand her.  So I hung up, I was in no mood to talk to her…and never would be.  I sat there staring at my phone, tears started to burn my eyes when Lance pulled me tightly against his shoulder. 

“He’s just trying to get you to listen I’m sure.  I know Jet and I know he didn’t do that to throw it all in your face.  She was pissed she was calling you could hear it in her voice.” He told me as I wiped a few tears off my cheeks. 

“Gawd I’m so sick of crying, I swear I’ve turned into a big baby since I started dating him.” I said with a small laugh.

“Nah, you’re not a baby, things just got a little fucked up after you found out who he was.  You two are good together, you’re good for Jet, he’s not near as cocky and hot headed as he
used to be.” Lance told me. 

I finished the first half of my sandwich then put the rest in the baggie to eat later.  As we walked back to the dorms I decided to ask Lance what was going on between him and Carey.

He shook his head, “That woman won’t leave me alone, I try to push her away and she practically throws herself at me.  I really wish she would move on so I could too.”

“That night at the part
y after Jet won the big race you sure didn’t look like you were trying to push her away, or that time when Jet and I came over when we were fighting.  You two looked pretty cozy, Jet told me you were seeing her while you were trying to get with me too.” I told him.

He blew out a breath, “I can’t get her to leave me alone, I think she just likes the way I fuck so I give her what she want
s.  She was the one that screwed things up between us.” He said then his cell phone chimed with a new message.  He pulled it out and read it, “So what are you doing tomorrow night?  I’m going to watch the races online, come over and watch it with me.”

“Okay, I’ll come over hopefully Asher is feeling better and she can come too.”

We said our goodbyes, when I got back to the dorm Asher jumped up from the couch, “We need to go to the store and get me a pregnancy test.  I think that’s why I’m feeling so crappy and I’m like a week late.  Oh gawd Chass what if I’m pregnant?  Mitch will kill me, he’ll break up with me, we are too young, I’m just a freshman in college…” she was talking so fast and crying.

“ASHER…STOP!  O
kay, I’ll go get you one, you stay here I’ll be back shortly.”

“Get three please!” she yelled out as I shut the door to our dorm.

Luckily the pharmacy wasn’t busy so I bought three EPT tests, then went back to the dorm.  Asher was pacing the room when I walked in, she ran over to me grabbed them then went into the bathroom. 

“Uhh, Asher your morning urine is the best the pharmacist told me.”

“I’ll use one now and the other two in the morning.  If this one is positive, I don’t know what I’m going to do!” she yelled through the bathroom door.  I heard the sink turn on then off, then she came out of the bathroom.  “Now we wait.” She said and slid down the wall and sat next to the bathroom door. 

We sat there in silence for a few minutes, “Let’s look at it together please, if I’m going to have a freak out moment you will need to slap me back to my senses.” She told me with a smile then stood up, helped me up, then we walked into the bathroom.  “You look at it!” she said as she chewed on her thumbnail. 

I walked over to the sink, looked down at the test, the little window said
not
pregnant
.  I picked it up and handed it to her, she looked down at it, “Oh thank god!” she breathed out, “Why the hell am I sick then?” she asked as she tossed it in the trash can. 

“Well I don’t know, but you can’t be one hundred percent sure.  Call the doctor and see if you should make an appointment to make sure.” I told her. 

I washed my hands as she walked out of the bathroom and called the doctor, a few minutes later she came into my bedroom and told me she was going to the clinic.  After she left I gathered all of my laundry and went to the basement.  I decided to call my mom since I hadn’t talked to her very much in the last few days. 

“Hi sweet heart
, how are the races going?” she asked in a happy voice.

“Asher and I came back to the campus, Jet and I had an argument.  I didn’t want it to affect his racing so we flew back yesterday morning.”

“What do you mean you had an argument?”

“Mom, I really don’t want to talk about it
.  Okay?”

“No Chassis it’s not okay, tell me what went on!”

“Fine!” I told her about everything but left out the whole incident with Carley.

“So, you didn’t think you could stay there and talk it through like two adults?  Chassis you can’t run every time there’s a problem.”

“I know mom but it really bothered me seeing them like that, I think I’m just afraid that I’m not good enough for him.”

She gasped, “Chassi
s Brinn Heart how dare you, I’m calling your uncle so he can chew you out for saying that!”

I sighed and rolled my eyes, “Mom please, he’ll be back Sunday and we will talk.  We don’t have school Monday so I’m sure we’ll go out for supper and go to a movie.  I’m still new to all of this relationship drama, well kind of
, but he’s the first guy I’ve ever been in love with.”

“Chassis, sweetie, I know you love him and I know he loves you.  If it makes you feel any better, your dad was the first man I ever loved and the only man I have ever slept with.”

“ARE YOU SERIOUS MOM?” I asked in complete shock.

“
One hundred percent!”

“Whoa, but you…umm…I don’t know what to say really.”

She laughed, “I know, but just give this thing between you and Jet a chance.  I know it seems crazy with what happened between his dad and your dad, but Jet’s a good kid.”

We talked for about ten minutes longer then finally we hung up. 

Asher called to tell me that she indeed is not pregnant that she has a sinus infection that’s draining and causing her stomach to be so upset. 

“Why are you a week late though?” I asked her.

“I’m not, I was off a week on the calendar.” She said and started laughing.

“Well don’t have unprotected sex while you’re on the antibiotic, or you WILL end up pregnant!”