Astray (23 page)
Authors: Emma Donoghue
Children don’t decide where to live, or what ventures are worth the risk; they get sent around the world as helplessly as parcels. While Lily May Bell, aka Mabel Bassett, zigzags
her way west in “The Gift,” both her birth mother and her adoptive father repeatedly stake their claim to her in correspondence with an intimidating bureaucracy. As a mother, I grit my teeth to think of Sarah losing her child forever because she was once poor. As a mother, again, I defend the Bassetts when they insist on the primacy of their de facto, hands-on parenting. So “The Gift” is an epistolary duet between rivals who never address each other directly, because I could think of no other way to honor their bitterly irreconcilable demands to be the girl’s family.
Sometimes settling in seems almost impossible for emigrants, especially if their destination keeps failing to live up to the Promised Land of their imagination. The Puritans, for instance, soon discovered in the “virgin territory” of New England all the horrors they thought they’d left behind in Europe. Like “stray,” the word “lost” has always had a moral meaning as well as a spatial one. The ultimate punishment, in Puritan communities, was to be banished, sent into a literal wilderness that matched what they saw as the spiritual wasteland of the sinner’s heart. “The Lost Seed” is the opposite of a story I meant to write: its inverted mirror image. For years I was intrigued by an odd incident in which two women in Massachusetts were charged with being “lewd” together on a bed. But when I tracked down the source, what began to fascinate me was not the accused but their accuser. Fiction does that, in fact that is one of its most radical strengths; it disrupts the writer’s sympathies as much as the readers’.
A particularly liberating thing about historical fiction is
that people rarely guess how autobiographical it can be. I wrote “The Lost Seed” as a shell-shocked immigrant during my first winter in Ontario, when, exactly as Berry remarks, the icicles hung over my front door like swords pointed at my head. “Vanitas,” by contrast, came out of a trip I made through rural Louisiana. In my story, Aimée Loucoul’s whole French Creole clan define themselves by reference to the home country for which they yearn; the cult of Frenchness is their true vanity. If travel is a stay-at-home girl’s fantasy, nostalgia for a lost Eden can be a family’s blight.
Whether in the form of military campaigns or the consequent flight of refugees, war is the root of many journeys. For “The Hunt,” a story about the contemporary-seeming topics of child soldiers and rape as a war crime, I went all the way back to 1776. When you are uprooted from your familiar landscape, and from your home culture, how can you hold on to your sense of what’s right? By telling the story of this fictional boy and girl during a terrible historical moment, I wanted to ask about what it means to be (paradoxically) an unpaid mercenary, sold into service in a far country; about the ethics of obeying orders; about victims who have themselves betrayed others.
Sometimes it is someone else’s journey, someone else’s decisions, that leave a thumbprint on your life. What haunts me about Minnie Hall in “Daddy’s Girl” is the idea of a life lived in a strong character’s turbulent wake; Minnie’s path is shaped by her father’s complicated prior journey. Like Mabel in “The Gift,” Minnie has to live with
a parent’s commitment to a secret; she will never know where she came from, nor where Murray did, nor what lay behind Murray’s decision to cross over the highly policed border of sex. So often these tales of emigration turn into tales of transformation, as if changing place is just a cover for changing yourself.
The sculptors in my last story, “What Remains,” have lived and worked together all their lives until the moment Queenie goes ahead of Florence, straying across the line between clarity and confusion. As in “Counting the Days,” this is a story about a couple divided, not by space this time but by a more painful alienation. Florence tries to bridge that terrible distance by means of love and memory, reckoning both the sum of what their long shared life amounts to and the dwindling total of “what remains.”
Her task reminds me of my own. When you work in the hybrid form of historical fiction, there will be Seven-League-Boot moments: crucial facts joyfully uncovered in dusty archives and online databases, as well as great leaps of insight and imagination. But you will also be haunted by a looming absence: the shadowy mass of all that’s been lost, that can never be recovered.
Unease. Wonder. Melancholy. Irritation. Relief. Shame. Absentmindedness. Nostalgia. Self-righteousness. Guilt. Travelers know all the confusion of the human condition in concentrated form. Migration is mortality by another name, the itch we can’t scratch. Perhaps because moving far away to some arbitrary spot simply highlights the arbitrariness of getting
born into this particular body in the first place: this contingent selfhood, this sole life.
Writing stories is my way of scratching that itch: my escape from the claustrophobia of individuality. It lets me, at least for a while, live more than one life, walk more than one path. Reading, of course, can do the same.
May the road rise with you.
Emma Donoghue
London, Ontario
2012
“Man and Boy” was first published in
Granta
(the Fathers issue, ed. by Alex Clark, December 2008).
“The Widow’s Cruse” first appeared in
One Story
(August 2012).
“Counting the Days” was first published in
Phoenix Irish Short Stories 1998,
ed. by David Marcus (London: Phoenix House, 1998), and broadcast on CBC Radio, May 2001.
“Snowblind” was first published in
The Faber Book of Best New Irish Stories,
ed. by David Marcus (London: Faber, 2007).
“The Body Swap” first appeared in
Princeton University Library Chronicle: Special Issue on Irish Prose
(2011).
Earlier versions of “The Lost Seed” were broadcast on BBC Radio 4 in May 2000 and published in
Groundswell: The Diva Book of Short Stories 2
(London: Diva Books, 2002).
“Vanitas” was first published in
Like a Charm: A Novel in Voices,
ed. by Karen Slaughter (London: Century and New York: William Morrow, 2004).
“The Hunt” first appeared in
The New Statesman,
January
2011, and was short-listed for the 2012
Sunday Times
EFG Private Bank Short Story Award.
A slightly different version of “Daddy’s Girl” was first published in
Neon Lit: The Time Out Book of New Writing,
ed. by Nicholas Royle (London: Quartet, 1998), and broadcast on BBC Radio 4, May 2000.
“What Remains” was first published in
Queens Quarterly
(spring 2001) and was shortlisted for the Journey Prize.
I would like to express my appreciation to all these editors, especially the late, great David Marcus. Also to Susan L. Johnson, whose essay “Sharing Bed and Board” sparked two of these stories, and to Scott Anderson at Sharlot Hall Museum and Christopher Dears, for going out of their way to help me with research inquiries for “The Long Way Home” and “Daddy’s Girl” respectively.
Born in Dublin in 1969,
EMMA DONOGHUE
is an Irish emigrant twice over: she spent eight years in Cambridge doing a PhD in eighteenth-century literature before moving to London, Ontario, where she lives with her partner and their two children. She also migrates between genres, writing literary history, biography, stage and radio plays as well as fairy tales and short stories. She is best known for her novels, which range from the historical (
Slammerkin, Life Mask, The Sealed Letter
) to the contemporary (
Stir-fry, Hood, Landing
)
.
Her international bestseller
Room
was a
New York Times
Best Book of 2010 and was a finalist for the Man Booker, Commonwealth, and Orange prizes. For more information, go to www.emmadonoghue.com.
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