Autum's Lost (A letting go series) (15 page)

“No way José! Clarissa is here and I’m not taking the chance at her seeing my bare ass up in the air.” Michael smiles and stops tugging me across the garage.

“Fine, but just so you know beautiful, your ass is mine tonight!” I wink at him.

“Hmmmm….you are on!” Just then the house door opens and Clarissa’s head pops out.

“ADDY!!! Yay!!! You came!!” She runs over and gives me a big hug.

“Yes, your dad doesn’t take no for an answer very well.”

Clarissa starts laughing. “You are preaching to the choir on that one. Let me get your bag and I will meet you two inside. Sound good?” Clarissa looks over at her Dad.

“That sounds perfect flower. Give me one more minute with Addy and we will be right in.”

“Okay Dad.” With that Clarissa grabs my bag and bops back into the house.

“You ready for bed beautiful?”

“No. You owe me something to eat remember?” I raise my eyebrow at him.

“Right! Let’s get my girl some food. You will need your energy for what I have planned.”

“Such a naughty boy.”

“Oh baby, you have no idea. But you will soon see.” I laugh and give him a quick peck on the lips before I walk into the house.

Since it was so late, we made Panini sandwiches and paired them with Doritos. Sitting on the couch, Clarissa told me about her new job at the pool and how her and her dad went car shopping last week. When I asked her about college, she got pretty quiet.

“Rissa, is there something wrong?”
I asked with concern in my voice. Clarissa looks away.

“No, not really. I still can’t believe I am going to college by myself. I know I am only a junior but this was something we were doing together.” I squeeze her hand. Autum and Clarissa had college planned out. They were both applying to the University of Wisconsin so they would be close to home. They both did the same extra-curricular activities. Autum was in basketball and football cheer, Clarissa was in softball and football cheer. They both were in chorus and on the student council. Autum was on the B honor roll and Clarissa is
A honor roll.

“As sad as it is and hard to think about, Autum was sure about you guys and college. I know she would be proud of you.” I hug Rissa and hold back my tears. She has small tears on her cheeks. “Sometimes the life you have planned out for yourself isn’t the path you are supposed to be on. Trust me on this one.” She laughs once and pulls back to wipe her tears.

“Yes, I believe you on that one. I don’t know how you do it Addy, an over the top crazy ex and losing your daughter. I would be in a nut house.” I give her a tight smile and feel Michael coming up behind me. He leans over the couch and wraps his arms around me.

“It’s because she is an amazing woman flower, and she has us, so she will never be alone.” I lean into Michael’s arm and he kisses the top of my head. Clarissa smiles brightly.

“I’m glad you are here Mumma Addy. This makes me feel whole, even without Auty with us, I know she would approve of you being happy.” I nod my head yes. “Well I am off to bed, I have ice cold swim lessons for the kidlets at eight in the morning.” I hug Rissa tightly.

“I love you sweets. Your smile always makes me feel one hundred percent better.”

“I love you too Mumma Addy.” Rissa gets up off the couch and hugs her dad, and even though she was whispering to him I heard every word.

“Love her forever daddy, I never want to be without her.”

“I always have flower, good night my darling.” I sat still and the tears slide down my face as Clarissa heads up the stairs to her bedroom. Michael comes over to the couch and sits down by me and pulls me into his lap wiping my tears with his fingers. “My beautiful girl, you are safe and loved here. You know this….yes?” I take Michael’s face in my hands.

“You and Clarissa are my family now. Does this scare you Michael? Tell me the truth. Tell me you want me to be here forever.” Michael wraps his strong arms around me.

“There is nothing I want more. You are my forever, Addison.” I close my eyes and smile through my tears, feeling absolute contentment for the first time in years. I yawn loudly and sit up and wipe my tears.

“I am exhausted Britty, I need sleep. Is that ok?” Michael smiles.

“Yes beautiful it is. I don’t think you need a shower?” He is smirking and his dimples are starting to show.

“No
smartee I don’t. Besides I think
you
used up all my soap that I had in the shower.”

“Hey, I like to smell like exotic coconut once in a while.” I shake my head smiling.

“Well I’m glad your coconuts need to smell exotic.” Michael pulls me to him.

“I can show you how clean I am. How about it beautiful?”

“HMMMM…no would be the answer to that one.” Michael laughs.

“Ok fine, sleep it is.” We both stand up and Michael takes my hand to walk me to the opposite end of the house.

“Where are we going? Wasn’t your room upstairs?”

“Yep
, it was until two years ago. When Rissa turned fourteen I needed to get out of the area she was in. With all her friends coming over sleeping was next to impossible. When she had sleepovers it was sofa city for me and a backache for a week.” We walk and stop at a big brown door that was rounded at the top, unique and almost hobbit-ish. “I had this extension built; it’s part man and part lady. Clarissa helped decorate it and give it girl touches.” Michael opens the door and it’s absolutely beautiful, like something out of Better Homes and Garden, only with a little more man added in. You step up into the room and the walls are cream with cherry hardwood flooring.

“This flooring looks like what I have in my loft.”

“I know, when I was up there I was stunned on how much our tastes were similar.”

I smile as I look around. There is king sized four poster bed with cream sheets and a chocolate covered comforter
folded up at the foot of the bed. Cream and chocolate pillows of every size line the head of the bed. There are two bedside tables that are the same wood as the columns. I walk over to his desk on the other side of the room. There are four framed pictures, one of him and his Dad, one of his Mom, and one of Clarissa and Autum at a football game. But the one that I pick up and stare at is of me. Michael comes over and sits on the edge of the desk.

“What are you thinking about? Talk to me Addy.”

I run my fingers over my high school senior picture. “I haven’t seen this picture in years. I looked so different. No worries, just happiness. You can see it in my eyes.”

Michael takes the picture and places it back on the desk and takes my hands in his. “That girl in the picture is in front of me. I can see it in the way you laugh, smile and when I hold you. You can’t see past the flaws that you beat yourself up with. I don’t see flaws Addy. When I look at you I see that picture
: the smiling blue eyes, your humor and laughter. It’s all there, always has been, at least for me it has. When I have a shit day at work I come home and look at this picture. YOU make me smile.”

I look over at my picture one more time. “Thank You Michael. Next to my Auty, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me.”

Michael pulls me into him and rests his forehead against mine. “I loved you twenty years ago Addy, but now I have fallen even deeper. Every day that we are together is like a gift for me.”

I wrap my arms around his neck.
“Cuddle with me, Britty. I need your arms around me.”

“With Pleasure Addy.”

I back up just enough to kiss Michael. I step away from the desk and walk over to the bed. I turn and look at Michael who is still sitting on the desk. I take my shirt and slowly lift it over my head and I let it drop to the floor. I turn away from Michael and unsnap the front of my bra, sliding the straps off my arms teasingly one at a time. Holding the bra with my fingers I drop it to the floor. I look over my shoulder at Michael and he is now sitting in his leather recliner watching the show I am giving him. I slide my hands down my sides and place my fingers in the waist of my yoga pants. I achingly slide them down my legs and bend at the waist pushing the pants down to my feet. I teasingly stand up and step out of the pants. Only in my red satin panties I turn around and see Michael leaning in his chair with his left hand under his chin. I prowl towards him like a lioness, covering my breasts with my arms. Standing in front of him, Michael takes my arms and pulls them away from my chest letting them rest at my sides.

“That’s quite the show beautiful. Now, turn around and stand still.”

I bend down and kiss him. “Since you asked so nicely my Lord, I will.”

Michael’s lip curls up in a sexy smile and his eyes are now ablaze.
“Call me that when we are in here. I like that more than Britty.” I turn slowly so my backside is to his front.

“Does this please you, my Lord?” I can feel Michael’s hot breath at the base of my spine and his hands on my panties. He runs them under the elastic that lines my cheeks and squeezes.

“Yes, my beautiful girl, this pleases me very much.” Michael runs his warm tongue down my lower back to the top of my panties, as he massages my ass with his hands and he nips at my hips. He takes his fingers and curls them around the edges of my panties and methodically pulls them down. A low moan escapes my mouth as Michael runs his hands to the front of my stomach.

“Step out of the panties and turn around beautiful.” Michael’s voice is deep with lust. I do as I am told and Michael’s hands are now on my backside and running his fingers up and down its valley as he is lightly kissing my stomach. “You smell delicious Addy, I think I will have a taste of my sweet girl.”

Michael’s head dips lower to the top of my bare mound kissing lightly. He runs his tongue up and down the outside of my slit. I can’t stop the moans coming out of my mouth as he starts to suck on my lips. I place my hands in his curly hair, gently pulling as my core starts to melt. Michael stops and looks up at me.

“I need you on the bed. I want to lick and suck and feel every bit of your body fall apart under my kiss.”

I nod my head yes and in the blink of an eye Michael stands and picks me up to carry me to the bed. I wrap my legs around him and when I feel the bed I let go and slide down him.

“Lay back and spread those gorgeous legs.” I cover my face with my hands. “Hey, don’t cover your face, talk to me.”

“This is embarrassing.”

“What? Why do you feel like this? I see a beautiful woman in front of me that has me rock hard by all her moans and perfect ass.” Michael unzips his pants, taking them off and throwing them across the room. His shirt follows the pants and he lays on top of me moving my hands off my eyes. “Now I am going to eat that sweet pussy of yours.” He nips my neck and his hand moves down my stomach and his fingers slip into me. “God Addison, you are always wet and ready for me.” He starts
moving his fingers in and out causing my body to start building. He stops and brings his fingers up to his mouth sucking on them. “Oh FUCK! Yes beautiful I am going to eat you and you are going to enjoy this experience. Do you trust me Addison?”

I am breathless. “Yes…my
Lord.”

Michael breaths heavily. “Good girl.” Michael starts down my body and using his hand plays with my nipples as he moves. I feel his tongue run over my mound again and he hits my clit. My body jerks and I place my hands in his head of curls. Running his tongue up and down, he takes his hands and pulls my legs further apart. He swirls his tongue and starts sucking gently and then my body builds fast and hard.

“Michael….fuck, right there!” I can’t stop the feeling, my mind goes blank. I come hard and fast grabbing his head and grinding myself into him. Michael stops sucking and gently licks me before he slides back up my body. I grab his face and kiss him tasting myself on him.

Looking at me he asks, “Did you like that beautiful?”

“Oh.My.God!! That was the best feeling in the fucking world!!”

Michael smiles his sexy smile.
“It will happen all the time. I will make sure you are always taken care of.” I grab his leaking cock that is straining against his boxers.

“Fuck me, my Lord. Fill me up please.”

In one swift motion his boxers are off and he is back on top of me sucking my nipples and making me moan. I wrap my legs around his hips and he slips inside me.

“God Addy, you make me want to fuck you hard. I can feel you still pulsating around me.” I look into his eyes
.

“Then do it, fuck me hard. I can’t promise that I will be super quiet
, but I want you and I want it hard!”

With that Michael starts pounding me
, I try and keep my moans low but fail. Michael pauses.

“Turn over Addy and put that glorious ass in the air.”
When I do Michael places kisses on my ass before he slips back in me. He starts going in and out. “Do you like this beautiful?”

“YES….YES!!!” Michael takes my arms and holds them in the middle of my back and my face goes into the bed. Then he starts pounding me hard. I start
cumming again instantly. With my face in the bed, my screams of ecstasy are muffled. I can feel Michael pound harder, then he thrusts one last time letting go of my hands and then he grabs my ass to keep me tight against him. I turn my head so I can breathe a little better and I can feel Michael pulsating in me.