Beautiful Strangers (13 page)

  
“Lover you feel a bit warm
perhaps I should cool you down.” He groans, and takes one last bite of ice
cream. He leans down and places a cold vanilla kiss on my core and the
sensation of cold is enough to send chills all through me pushing my want over
the edge.

      
I let out a hushed moan.
“What is it darlin'?” he asks as he delves his tongue further inside. The
warmth inside of me meeting the coolness of his tongue is like fire and ice.

  
“Your turn,” I breathe. We
change positions as I take a bite of chocolate into my mouth and repay the
favor. I run my tongue over his hard shaft and he shudders being shocked by the
cold sensation. I take my time playfully licking him, until he can take no more
and begs me to take him into my mouth.

   
We take a short shower to get
rid of the stickiness left behind from dessert. I feel so spoiled because Jax
massages my back until I fall asleep.

Mortified!

    
I awaken late in the morning
being jarred from my sleep by Jaxson shaking me and shouting.

“Wake up Grace! Your nose is bleeding all over the pillows!”

 
Shit! Now I’ve done it, how am I
to explain this to him?

  
Please be a nightmare, I think
to myself. But when I get my eyes fully open and see the scared look on
Jaxson’s face I know that this is my worst nightmare come true. I bolt out of
bed and into the bathroom. I can’t breath, my chest is pounding, and my
forehead is beaded with sweat.

  
I take a washcloth and wet it,
and slide down to the floor. I am having a full blown panic attack. I think I
am going to vomit. I empty my guts into the commode and turn to see Jax
standing in the doorway staring at me with worry spread across his face.

    
“Are you okay Grace? Do I need
to call a doctor?”

   
“Please just get out of here; I
don’t want you to see me like this!” I can’t hold back my tears. I am so angry
and embarrassed. He tries to come further into the bathroom.

  
“Just don’t. I need a minute
Jax, please!”

  
“If you are sure you’re
alright?” I nod and he leaves giving me some much need privacy.

 
I quickly wash my face and start
gathering my things. I need to get out of here before he demands answers that
I’m not prepared to give.

 
“I hate to rush off, but I
promised I’d meet Jojo for lunch.” I start out the door, but he catches my
elbow.

  
“First you scare the shit out of
me, then you freak out, and now you are just going to take off?”

 
“I know we need to talk Jax, and
we will soon just not right now. I’m sorry but I have to go.” He lets go of my
arm and I get the hell out of there as fast I can. I feel more nervous than a
whore in church.

  
I’m shaking, and sicker than I
have ever felt. I take a stomach pill and text Jocelyn to let her know that we
need to reschedule our lunch date. I go home and crawl in my own bed. I know
what I have to do. I am going to tell Jaxson the truth, all of it.

   
But before I do, I want one
more night in his arms feeling that spark that flickers between us one last
time before I blow the flame out.

Truth….

    
The longer I put our talk off, the
harder it’s going to be. I get out of bed and do something I should have done
so long ago; I flush the last of my dope down the toilet. If only I could flush
my feelings for Evan away so easily. I still wonder if any of his smiles were
ever true, or when he looked into my eyes if it was all
fake
for him.

   
Shifting my thoughts back to
Jaxson when he looks in my eyes I can feel the truth radiating back at me
through those electric blues, and that’s what makes giving him up so hard. I
know when he gets on his plane for LA I won’t be sitting next to him and he
will be relieved.

   
Maybe him and Sadie will find
their way back, I’m not so bitter that I don’t want him to be happy. As much as
I wish it was me I think somehow I’ve known all along that we would end and I
will be alone. Love never lasts it always fades, and before I am burned again I
will let Jax and Evan go.

  
There is a knock at my door and
wouldn’t you know princess Sadie has come back for another visit. I hope she
doesn’t plan on making these little visits a habit.

  
“Jax told me about your little
incident this morning. You’re not pregnant are you?”

  
“What? NO!”

  
“I told you before Jaxson
belongs
with me. Don’t think for one damn minute that you
will join us on tour.”

    
I hold my palms out to her.
“Sadie you can stop right there, let me make a few things clear right now. I care
enough for Jax that I will let him go so you can stop with your tantrum.”

     
She gives me a confused smirk
and I continue.

   
“I haven’t the slightest
intention on going on tour with him, I will end this. I won’t be responsible
for the downfall of his career. But I will do it my own way without any
interference from you. By this time next week I assure you, Jax will be all
yours.” She stands to leave.

  
“You’re smarter than you look
Grace, you may love him but I am
what’s
best for him.
Deep down he knows that, the contract isn’t binding he could have gotten out of
it at anytime. That’s how I know he will come back to me, then again he really
never left did he?” she laughs. Sadie lets herself out. I was too stunned by
what she just revealed to form a coherent thought.

  
She must be lying.

  
Jax said his lawyers has been
tirelessly working to find a loop hole that would let him out of the contract
he entered into with her. I feel like I was just punched in the stomach. How
could he tell her about my getting sick this morning?

   
I tell myself just get through
the next week. What is it going to hurt to enjoy the last of the time we have
together soon he will be on tour.

   
I need a long hot bubble bath
and some cherry Garcia.
 
I text Jax and
let him know that I am okay, and I will call him tomorrow. I listen to my voice
mail while pigging out on my ice cream, there is a message from Jojo telling me
she has quit her job at Masquerade. She doesn’t go into detail; just that I
won’t be seeing her for a little while. She and Robert have a lot to sort out
now that he has filed for divorce.

  
I know she has a lot going on
but quitting her job and shutting me out, just isn’t like her.

Goodbye You….

  
I close everyone out for three days.
I didn’t have it in me to face anyone just yet. Lets be honest, there wasn’t
anyone who wanted to see me either. I have gotten a lot of packing
accomplished, it’s not like the rehab will allow much. I have done some serious
soul searching over the past few days, and tomorrow I will face Jaxson Hayes
and set my truths free.

   
My day of reckoning has
arrived, I take my time showering and getting dolled up. This will be my last
night with Jax and I want to enjoy our spark one last time, I need something to
look back on.

  
My chest hurts, and the demon
whispers one name in my ear, Evan. I’m not falling into old habits, at least
not today. I don’t know how to feel or what to believe anymore. I am not made
for this. I just need to hold it together just for tonight. I want to feel
Jaxson’s touch once more before I end this. One more week and I can kiss this
life goodbye.

  
I drive around in circles trying
to clear my head and get it together before I see Jax. I don’t want him to see
me fall apart just yet. I need one last night before he gives me the look I’ve
been dreading. The look I have hoped I would never see coming from him, the
look of disgust I wear every time I think of what Evan done to me, and what I
have done to myself.

  
I need to see those blue eyes
shine once more. I pull into Jax’s driveway and push the dread aside and feel
one thing, my hunger for his touch.

    
Jax is waiting at the door for
me. “Hello lover I have missed you.” He says greeting me with a tender kiss.

   
“I have missed you too Jax.”

    
“We will talk but first.”
 
He begins removing my shirt, and his pants.

  
We don’t waist any time as he
leads me straight to his bedroom leaving a trail of clothing up the stairs. We
barely made it up the stairs before I had my legs wrapped around his waist and
he pushed my back against the wall just inside the door way of his bedroom. His
lips are crushing mine. His kisses are so insistent I wonder if he too realizes
this is it, our last night.

 
“Damn Gracie I’ve missed the way
you taste.” He whispers in my ear.

  
He throws me on the bed and
begins assaulting my wet core with his tongue, and with that I lose myself in
him completely. His pace slows and he savors ever drop as my sex thrust forward
allowing him to taste all of me as I find my release. He wipes his mouth
against my thigh and I pull him to my mouth by his hair. I will miss running my
fingers through this messy black hair.

   
“Look at me lover; I want to
see your eyes.” I look into his electric blue eyes and I know he really loves
me and I have to break his gaze before my own eyes give me away.

    
He gradually dips the tip of
his erection into me, as he begins finding his pace circling his hips slow then
he pauses and enters me fully taking me hard and deep. Our bodies shudder
against one another as we climax together. He collapse beside me on the bed and
traces my cheek with his tongue, licking my sweat, causing me to blush.

  
We lay there side by side facing
one another; the only sound is our breathing; for what seems like an eternity
we just lay there studying the contours of one another’s faces.

  
“Shower with me.”
 
He says pulling me out of bed.

   
Not much washing went on. When
Jaxson started washing my back he let me know just what he had in mind when I
felt his erection pressing into my backside. We went at it again in the shower.
My face was pressed against the tiles of the shower wall, the water spraying
over my face hiding the few tears that escaped when I realized this would
probably be the last time I would be with him. I collected my clothes from the
stairs and dressed hastily.

  
I convinced Jax it would be
better if we stayed in for dinner, though I wasn’t going to be able to eat. We
ordered a pizza and settled into his media room for a movie. We watched one of
his favorites “Viva Las Vegas” an Elvis classic. I must have fallen asleep
sometime during the movie because I awoke much later in bed with him planting
small kisses on my belly.

   
I pushed him onto his back, and
tickled each of his pecks with my tongue. I kissed my way down his stomach and
took the head of his swelling cock into my mouth mischievously licking the
length of him.

  
“Gracie” he growled “I want to fuck
your mouth.” I wouldn’t deny him this request. I get down in the floor on my
knees and push him in my mouth digging my nails into that perfect ass. He grabs
my hair with both fists, guiding me into the rhythm he craves.

  
I feel a few warm drops trickle
down my throat. He pulls out of my mouth in a rush and curves me over the bed;
he spreads my legs with his knee and enters me from behind once more. He
doesn’t last much longer, and he fills me with all of him and I want him to.

   
I try to fall back asleep but
my thoughts begin to creep back in. I let Jaxson sleep as I just laid there
trying to put together the words that I need to say, but in my head the words
all blend together. My fidgeting must have woken him.

  
“What’s wrong Grace?”
 
He mumbles.

  
“Go back to sleep we can talk in
the morning.” I tell him and he begins to snore. I hug myself, I will miss that
sound. Finally somewhere between his snoring and my racing thoughts I drift
into my own slumber. I awaken the next morning with my head curled in the crook
of Jax’s arm and in an embarrassing puddle of drool.

     
To add more to my humiliation
Jaxson was wide awake and grinning as I roll over to hide my flaming red cheeks
and wipe my mouth on the t-shirt I swiped from his closet some time during the
night.

    
“I’m sorry for slobbering all
over you,” I say hiding under a pillow.

   
“It’s all right Gracie, I find
it quite charming. Almost like a little puppy.” He laughed and I felt the
weight shift on the bed as he stood.

   
The sight of this gorgeous man
stretching naked in the morning was definitely a sight to behold. The sunlight
streaming through the French doors seemed to bounce off every muscle as he
worked out the crick in his neck. He caught me staring at him and thrust his
hips forward, bouncing his length towards me.

   
“See something you like lover?”

     
I burst out in an
uncontrollable laughter.