Diana in Search of Herself (73 page)

44
   “She lived in an extreme”: Interview with Cosima Somerset

45
   “wolf pack”: B-DK, p. 243; Ti, 12/28/83

46
   “I didn’t like”: Ti, 9/6/97

47
   “She remained intact”: Tribute by Earl Spencer

48
   “Whenever things got too”: SuTel, 9/7/97

49
   “I think essentially that she”: Interview with Dr. Michael Adler

50
   “As she expressed it to friends”: B-JD, p. 478

51
   “She scoured the newspapers”: Ibid., pp. 477–78

52
   “Her whole life”: ITV-Doc

53
   “The haircut was a way”: Interview with Roberto Devorik

54
   “From now on, I am going”: B-AM2, p. 155

55
   “Whatever I do”: DM, 9/1/97

1
   “when Mummy decided to leg it”: B-AM1, p. 23

2
   “sat quietly at the bottom”: Ibid., p. 70

3
   “I will always remember [my mother]”: Sun, 1/12/98

4
   “cowering behind a curtain”: SuEx, 9/7/97

5
   “I remember her telling me”: Interview with Cosima Somerset

6
   “Her mother left at the moment”: Interview with Elsa Bowker

7
   The Spencers were one: The history of the Spencer family was drawn from various sources, including Ti, 3/30/92; DT, 9/1/97; DM, 4/3/92;SuTel, 9/5/93

8
   “most serious, exclusive and illustrious”: David Cannadine,
The Decline and Fall of the British Aristocracy
(1992), p. 503

9
   “Diana was brought up to believe”: Interview with Paul Johnson

10
   “tended to be populist”: Ibid.

11
   “Despite their calm”: Cannadine, p. 504

12
   “It was instinctive”: Interview with Paul Johnson

13
   “curator earl”: Charles Spencer,
Althorp: The Story of an English House
(1998), p. 3; DT, 3/30/92

14
   “intolerant of differences”: Interview with Fiona Fraser

15
   “Jolly Jack”: Spencer, p. 109

16
   “Grandfather found it hard”: Ibid., pp. 6–7

17
   a formidable memory: DM, 12/27/97

18
   surprising shrewdness: I-CS

19
   “I found him to be adorable”: Interview with Fiona Fraser

20
   Perhaps his most memorable: DEx, 4/28/81

21
   “He was in many ways”: Ti, 4/2/92

22
   “Frances was dominant”: Interview with Robert Spencer

23
   “rather fast romantic”: I-FSK

24
   “sweet, amusing”: DM, 6/15/93: Angela Levin, excerpt from
Raine and Johnny
(1993)

25
   proposed marriage to Frances during: I-FSK

26
   “It was a real love match”: Interview with Robert Spencer

27
   “for four generations”: I-FSK

28
   “mongrel”: Frances Shand Kydd interview with Cathy Macdonald,
V.I.P
. (Scottish) ITV, 10/20/95

29
   “It really upsets me when”: DM, 5/20/97

30
   The Fermoys came from: Various sources on Roche family, including I-FSK; Fiona Fraser; and B-PJ1, pp. 28–29

31
   “the most compassionate, sensitive”: DM 5/20/97

32
   “I don’t think I’ve ever”: I-FSK

33
   A streak of instability:
Royalty Monthly
, 8/88; NOTW, 6/19/88; DEx,12/6/97

34
   In 1984, at age forty-five: DM, 8/21/84

35
   “She has a very quick”: Interview with Fiona Fraser

36
   “good with people”: Ibid.

37
   “Frances has an inner strength”: Ibid.

38
   her mother took Johnnie’s: Ibid.

39
   “mirages of happiness”: I-FSK

40
   “immensely happy for a long time”: Ibid.

41
   “honeymoon baby”: Ibid.

42
   “enormous sadness”: Ibid.

43
   “She was very attractive”: Interview with Fiona Fraser

44
   Frances’s substantial inheritance: B-PJ1, p. 36

45
   “I was blissfully happy”: I-FSK

46
   “I never saw him, never held him”: MOS 3/9/97

47
   “Thwarted in his wish”: DM, 6/15/93

48
   “for intimate tests”: B-AM1, p. 71

49
   “It was a dreadful time”: Ibid.

50
   “instinctive understanding”: DM, 6/15/93

51
   “One had to keep a stiff”: MOS, 3/9/97

52
   “The death of John was a deep”: Interview with Fiona Fraser

53
   “She had been married six years”: Interview with Robert Spencer

54
   “a perfect physical specimen”: B-PJ, p. 37

55
   “the girl who was supposed”: B-RK, p. 42

56
   “nuisance to have around … try again”: B-AM1, p. 24

57
   “Diana was a different soul”: DM, 3/9/97

58
   “I don’t know what to say”: Interview with Robert Spencer

59
   “was feeling pressure”: Ibid.

60
   “violent and unhappy”: B-PJ2, p. 59

61
   “motherless years”: B-JW, p. 241

62
   “violent scenes which went”: Ibid.

63
   “a wife beater”: Ibid., p. 240

64
   “believed to have extended”: DM, 11/27/97

65
   “Over the last three”: I-FSK

66
   “We hadn’t fallen apart”: DEx, 11/30/81

67
   “It was never discussed”: Interview with Fiona Fraser

68
   “showed no evidence”: Interview with Robert Spencer

69
   “She was a wonderful mother”: Interview with Fiona Fraser

70
   she would find that Frances: B-JW, p. 137

71
   “He was a reasonably intelligent”: DM, 6/15/93

72
   “There is a thing called”: I-CS

73
   “I don’t touch [Raine]”: DEx, 11/30/81

74
   “It wasn’t love at first”: I-FSK

75
   Shand Kydd’s family: B-PJ1, pp. 44, 48

76
   “bohemian”: B-PJ, p. 44

77
   “
bon viveur
”
:
B-AM1, p. 77

78
   “That’s when we realized”: I-FSK

79
   “Peter wasn’t responsible”: Ibid.

80
   “She fell in love with Peter”: Interview with Robert Spencer

81
   “It was a terrible shock”: DEx, 11/30/81

82
   The day after her departure: DEx, 8/14/82

83
   “trial separation”: I-FSK

84
   “It was something I put a lot”: Ibid.

85
   “playing quietly on the floor”: B-AM1, p. 78

86
   “Of course there were tears”: I-FSK

87
   “He refused to let”: MOS, 3/9/97

88
   “I was devastated”: I-FSK

89
   “always felt especially bleak”: B-SS, p. 52

90
   “only through lawyers”: I-FSK

91
   just two newspapers: Ti, 4/11/68; DT, 4/11/68

92
   “adultery by Mr. Peter Shand Kydd”: DT, 4/11/68

93
   The following June: DEx, 8/14/82

94
   That December, Frances filed: Ti, 12/13/68

95
   “fearful the details”: B-JW, pp. 240–41

96
   “In those days, [an accusation of] mental cruelty”: Interview with Fiona Fraser

97
   He summoned a string: DM, 6/15/93; B-PJ1, p. 46

98
   It was not until 1982: DM, 8/16/82

99
   “Only now is the full story”: Ibid.

100
   “My grandmother tried to lacerate”: B-AM2, p. 65

101
   According to the
Evening Standard:
ES, 4/15/69

102
   “Adultery was alleged”: Ibid.

103
   “was granted custody”: DT, 4/16/69

104
   “The fact that the father was”: DEx, 8/14/82

105
   Two years later, in July 1971:
Majesty
, 4/95

106
   which “unbalanced” Frances: Interview with Robert Spencer

107
   “He was really miserable”: B-AM1, p. 81

108
   “body language was appalling”: DM, 6/15/93

109
   Diana recalled that not only: B-AM1, p. 24

110
   “asking where [my mother] was”: I-CS

1
   “The emotional drama”: Luise Eichenbaum and Susie Orbach,
What Do
Women Want?
(1984), p. 38

2
   “It is hard to imagine”: DS, 7/1/81

3
   “never been able to become”:
The Borderline Child: Approaches to Etiology, Diagnosis, and Treatment
(1983), edited by Kenneth S. Robson,M.D., p. 5

4
   According to psychiatrist E. James Anthony: Ibid.

5
   “I always felt”: B-AM1, p. 24

6
   “I always had this thing”: Ibid., p. 25

7
   “I felt I was in the wrong shell”: Ibid., p. 68

8
   “Between their divorce”: I-CS

9
   “It was a very unhappy”: B-AM1, p. 24

10
   Diana recalled that she: Ibid., p. 23

11
   “Diana and I had a nanny”: I-CS

12
   “like a little bee”:
Fox Files
, Catherine Crier interview with Charles Spencer, 7/16/98

13
   “I’ve got what my mother’s got”: B-AM1, p. 61

14
   “Diana could not be called”: B-JW, p. 137

15
   “She was very modest”: Interview with Fiona Fraser

16
   “on the go all day long”: B-PJ1, p. 50

17
   “long list of questions”: Ibid., p. 7

18
   “became introverted”: DM, 9/30/93

19
   “In school I was taught to”: DM, 5/20/97

20
   “ever so talkative”: MOS, 5/25/86: Mary Clarke, excerpt from
Little Girl Lost: The Troubled Childhood of Princess Diana by the Woman Who Raised Her
(1986)

21
   “whether a psychologist would say”: B-AM1, p. 82

22
   She was so afraid of the dark: B-AM1, p. 24

23
   “wasn’t particularly happy”: I-CS

24
   “her early life had indeed been”: B-PT, p. 23

25
   “trailing after her father”:
Birmingham Evening News
, 9/1/97

26
   She kept twenty stuffed animals: B-AM1, p. 24

27
   a “green hippo”: Ibid., p. 25

28
   “lay in a line”: B-AP, p. 93

29
   “a self-contained unit”: I-CS

30
   an affinity for nicknames: B-AM1, p. 83; Sun, 7/1/98: “Duch” stood for Duchess, which, according to Charles Spencer, came from the Walt Disney film
The Aristocats;
“The Admiral” referred to the admiral’s hat Charles wore as a child; and “Ginge” was for Sarah’s red hair.

31
   “an introspective and shy”: Ti, 6/20/98

32
   While Diana claimed not to be jealous: B-AM1, p. 30

33
   Diana’s relationship with her sisters: Ibid., pp. 23, 30

34
   “Like me, he will always”: Ibid., p. 30

35
   Many of their friends thought: I-FSK

36
   “I didn’t like being a girl with”: DM, 2/18/78

37
   Diana prided herself on: B-AM1, p. 23

38
   “Jane and Diana had this thing”: Interview with Felicity Clark

39
   “confident about her gracefulness”:
Fox Files
interview with Charles Spencer, 7/16/98

40
   “She loved to show off”: ITV-Doc

41
   it has often been said: B-PJ1, p. 104; B-AM1, p. 79

42
   “Cheer up and grin and bear”:
Birmingham Evening News
, 9/1/97

43
   “was a wonderful father”: ITV-Doc

44
   go into a “panic”: B-AM1, p. 26

45
   “every step she took”: DEx, 4/28/81

46
   “My father always said”: B-AM1, p. 25

47
   “one of [Johnnie’s] greatest achievements”: I-CS

48
   “He was of a generation”: ITV-Doc

49
   a “very kind, understanding man”: MOS, 5/25/86

50
   “There were long periods”: B-PJ1, p. 60

51
   “She did fret about Johnnie”: Ibid., p. 56

52
   “particularly fond of her father”: Interview with Robert Spencer

53
   “to be left in the custody”: B-JW, p. 241

54
   “distant and remote”: B-PT, p. 23

55
   “Poor Daddy, I feel so sad”: MOS, 6/1/86

56
   “there were no tears”: B-PJ1, p. 56

57
   “I can remember Mummy”…“devastating”: B-AM1, p. 25

58
   “make unfavorable remarks”: MOS, 6/1/86

59
   “After he made them welcome”: SuEx, 11/10/96

60
   “It was agonizing”: Interview with Fiona Fraser

61
   “Peter and I had no wish”: I-FSK

62
   “She never felt good enough”: Sun, 1/12/98

63
   “Diana said her mother”: Interview with Roberto Devorik

64
   “totally traumatized”: B-AM1, p. 25

65
   her “father’s favorite”: Ibid., p. 30

66
   “The problem was”: Interview with Robert Spencer

1
   “beginning to gain confidence”: DT, 8/29/98

2
   “bright and chatty”: B-PJ1, p. 58

3
   “quiet and shy”: B-AM1, p. 81

4
   “horribly different”: Ibid., p. 25

5
   The school staff waited: B-PJ1, p. 54

6
   “a stable family atmosphere”: Ibid., p. 60

7
   “I used to make threats”: B-AM1, p. 26

8
   “those downcast eyes”: MOS, 5/25/86