Diana in Search of Herself (74 page)

9
   “adored”: B-AM1, p.26

10
   “She was overtaken by the busyness”: B-PJ1, p. 68

11
   “a teacher’s dream”: Ibid., p. 64

12
   “I was very naughty”: B-AM1, p. 26

13
   “Diana has been outstandingly”: DM, 7/2/98

14
   “I wasn’t university material”: WO, 4/8/78

15
   “wary of adults, often prickly”: Ruth Rudge,
West Heath Magazine
, no.85, p. 26

16
   “She was wary of people”: Interview with Ruth Rudge

17
   “ghastly … calm and sorted out”: B-AM1, p. 27

18
   “she must try to be less emotional”: DT, 8/29/98

19
   “She was a very strong character”: Interview with Ruth Rudge

20
   “I didn’t think you had it”: B-AM1, p. 27

21
   “I would have been involved”: Interview with Ruth Rudge

22
   “buoyant and noisy”: B-AM1, p. 87

23
   “I was always looking for”: Ibid., p. 28

24
   “The compassion and caring”: Ruth Rudge,
West Heath Magazine
, p. 26

25
   “for anyone who has done things”: Interview with Ruth Rudge

26
   “She had a very caring heart”: Interview with Violet Allen

27
   “Mostly it was a traumatic time”: Ibid.

28
   “Most of the girls from”: Ibid.

29
   “was always very controlled”: B-PJ1, p. 65

30
   “A terrible terrible wrench”: B-AM1, p. 28

31
   “a difficult phase”: Ti, 10/17/98

32
   “a chilling time warp”: Spencer, p. 2

33
   “never grew to be fond”: B-PJ1, p. 82

34
   a controversial image: Ibid.

35
   one of her cousins: SuMi, 5/18/80

36
   “When I met Johnnie”: DEx, 11/30/81

37
   By the time Johnnie brought Raine: B-AM1, pp. 91–92; B-PJ1, p. 82

38
   “In the beginning I was very”: Interview with Robert Spencer

39
   “used to … pour us”: B-AM1, p. 28

40
   Diana enlisted a friend: B-AM1, p. 92

41
   Diana’s mistrust of Raine hardened: ST, 10/17/98

42
   “resented”: DEx, 11/30/81

43
   “intense love affair”: WO, 4/8/78; B-AM1, pp. 90, 96

44
   “domestic upheavals concerning my family…. bring it up again”: WO,4/8/78

45
   “I sought a lot of medical help”: I-FSK

46
   “like something out of.… I wouldn’t admit it”: WO, 4/8/78

47
   Sarah later acknowledged: Ibid.

48
   “Bulimia” comes from the Greek:
Handbook of Treatment for Eating Disorders
, second edition (1997), edited by David M. Garner, Ph.D., and Paul E. Garfinkel, M.D., p. 13

49
   Although bulimia nervosa was not: Ibid., p. 11

50
   “inappropriate compensatory behaviors”: Ibid., p. 25

51
   “It started because Sarah”: Mi, 5/8/97

52
   “I don’t think I have”: I-FSK

53
   “She was often seen lurking”: Ruth Rudge,
West Heath Magazine
, p. 26

54
   “midnight feasts”: ITV-Doc

55
   “loved food”: B-PJ1, p. 72

56
   “I ate and ate”: B-AM1, p. 27

57
   She recalled sneaking: Ibid., p. 27

58
   As the movers were packing up: B-PJ1, p. 81

59
   From a very early age: Ibid., p. 50

60
   “was always washing or tidying”: Interview with Robert Spencer

61
   “I would go in sometimes”: Interview with Violet Allen

62
   “Diana had strong”: Interview with Kent Ravenscroft

63
   “just came out of the pen”: B-AM1, p. 88

64
   “always released tremendous”: Ibid., p. 28

65
   “I didn’t allow best friends”: Interview with Ruth Rudge

66
   On one hand, she recalled liking: B-AM1, p. 28

67
   but she was easily distracted: Ibid., p. 26

68
   wrote a lot: Interview with Ruth Rudge

69
   “Any child from a broken home”: Ibid.

70
   “At the age of fourteen”: B-AM1, p. 24

71
   she “froze”: Ibid., p. 88

72
   “exams made her panic”: B-PJ1, p. 71

73
   “I never remember walking”: Interview with Ruth Rudge

74
   “something special”: B-PT, p. 31

75
   “winding road”: B-AM1, p. 68

76
   “going somewhere different”: Ibid., p. 24

77
   to marry a prominent man: Ibid.

78
   “it was well known”: B-RK, p. 44

79
   “according to Diana”: B-PT, p. 32

80
   “never had her marked down”: WO, 4/9/88

81
   “something like one hundred twenty letters”: B-AM1, p. 30

82
   Violet Allen couldn’t help: Interview with Violet Allen

83
   “If Diana was in a safe and secure environment”: Interview with Ruth Rudge

1
   couldn’t wait to go to London: B-AM1, p. 30

2
   “By the late seventies”: Interview with Robert Spencer

3
   But Diana felt overwhelmed: B-PJ1, p. 99

4
   “all the tendons”: B-AM1, p. 102

5
   injuring her leg “slightly”: B-PJ1, p. 100

6
   “She did not hang about”: Interview with Robert Spencer

7
   “velvet hairbands”: B-AM1, p. 31

8
   “When it came to children, [Diana] had”: ITV-Doc

9
   “Diana was pure state-of-the-art”:
Newsweek
, 10/26/85

10
   “the new school of born-again”: VF, 10/85

11
   “loner by inclination and habit”: B-AM1, p. 99

12
   “I kept myself to myself”: Ibid., p. 31

13
   “You always felt that”: Ibid., p. 105

14
   “Diana didn’t enjoy parties”: B-PJ1, p. 106

15
   “sexually attractive”: B-AM1, p. 105

16
   “Lady Diana’s life in London”: DT, 9/1/97; interviews with William Deedes, George Plumptre

17
   Diana explained that she: B-AM1, p. 28

18
   “I had never had a boyfriend”: Ibid., pp. 33–34

19
   “tuck into a good-sized”: B-PJ1, p. 99

20
   “got terribly fat”: B-AM1, p. 31

21
   Her friend Rory Scott vividly remembered: Ibid., p. 127

22
   “Do you have anorexia? … just common sense”: WO, 4/8/78

23
   “Bulimia ranges from fad”: Interview with Kent Ravenscroft

24
   “touching side to this friendship”: DEx, 7/18/77

25
   “He makes me laugh”: Sun, 11/8/77

26
   “I never thought there was”: B-SB, p. 182

27
   “His closest friends began to”: B-JD, p. 315

28
   “When she was twelve”:
Time
, 9/8/97

29
   “After the investiture”: Interview with Ruth Rudge

30
   “His first impression”: B-JD, p. 337

31
   “The first impact was ‘God, what a sad man.’… He was charm itself”: B-AM1, p.31

32
   “were seen walking around the corridors”: DEx, 1/17/78

33
   several weekends later: DM, 2/2/78

34
   “show [her] grandchildren one day”: Interview with James Whitaker

35
   “a romantic who falls in love”: Sun, 2/18/78

36
   “I’m not in love with Prince Charles”: DM, 2/18/78

37
   “This is the first time”: DM, 2/18/78

38
   “What a girl!”: NOTW, 2/19/78

39
   one of his six pseudonyms: B-DK, p. 88

40
   “panicky perspiring figure”: DEx, (“William Hickey” column, written by Peter McKay), 4/5/78

41
   “thousands of boyfriends”: WO, 4/8/78

42
   “You’ve just done something”: Interview with James Whitaker

43
   “by foul means”: DM, 4/4/78

44
   “My sister Sarah spoke to the press”: B-MR, p. 40

45
   “I know who you are”: Interview with James Whitaker

1
   “He was a complete bachelor”: Interview with Michael Colborne

2
   “I’ve fallen in love with”: B-DK, p. 213

3
   By pushing himself to the limit: B-JD, p. 184

4
   As a young boy: Biographical material on Prince Charles was drawn primarily from
The Prince of Wales
, the authorized biography by Jonathan Dimbleby, which is the most reliable source.

5
   “deep if inarticulate love”: B-JD, p. 59

6
   “she was not indifferent”: Ibid.

7
   “the most intimate of the Prince’s”: Ibid., p. 19

8
   “I simply dread going to bed”: Ibid., p. 76 (PC letter 2/9/63 to unnamed recipient)

9
   “I’m not a gregarious person”: Ibid., p. 44

10
   “sensitive musician”: Ibid., p. 88

11
   “surrogate elder brother”: Ibid., p. 102

12
   “to find himself”: Ibid., p. 107

13
   “sow his wild oats”: Ibid., p. 220

14
   “just the girl”: Ibid.

15
   “with a searching look”: PE, “Grovel” column, 7/3/81

16
   “dashed [emphatically] accurate”: Interview with Nigel Dempster

17
   “With all the intensity of first love”: B-JD, p. 221

18
   “live inside [her] trousers”: SuMi, 1/17/93

19
   Parker Bowles was a ladies’ man: B-PJ2, pp. 47–49

20
   By mid-1972 Charles and Camilla had struck: B-JD, p. 232 (PC letter 4/27/73 to unnamed recipient)

21
   In Camilla’s company, Charles became: Ibid., p. 222

22
   “the last time I shall see her”: Ibid. (PC letter 12/72 to Mountbatten)

23
   “such a blissful, peaceful”: Ibid., p. 232 (PC letter 4/27/73 to unnamed recipient)

24
   “I must say, Amanda really”: Ibid., p. 230 (PC letter 4/25/73 to Mountbatten)

25
   “Perhaps being away”: Ibid., pp. 248–49 (PC letter 3/74 to Mountbatten)

26
   “Our editor said … ‘We want”: R&R-Doc, Part I, p. 21

27
   “You’ve got to remember”: BBC/ITV interview with Brian Connell,6/26/69

28
   “His bride needed to have”:
Harper’s & Queen
, 4/90

29
   “choose a suitable”: B-JD, p. 248 (Mountbatten letter 2/74 to PC)

30
   “A woman not only marries a man”:
The Observer
, 6/9/74

31
   “My marriage has to be forever”: ES, 1/7/75

32
   “a secure family unit”: WO, 2/75

33
   “You must get married at once”: Colin Clark,
Younger Brother, Younger Son: A Memoir
(1997), p. 154

34
   “beginning on the downward slope”: B-JD, p. 316 (Mountbatten letter undated, 1978, to PC)

35
   “I must say I am becoming”: Ibid., pp. 317–18 (PC letter 4/15/79 to unnamed recipient)

36
   Clearly he admired and respected her: Ibid., p. 249

37
   She grasped all too well: Ibid., p. 322

38
   Charles had recently renewed: B-JD, p. 335; B-RK, p. 91; B-PJ2, pp.48–49

39
   “warmth, her lack of ambition”: B-JD, p. 335

40
   when Andrew left that year: DM, 1/14/93; PE, 1/4/80

41
   “began to suppose that they”: B-JD, p. 335

42
   Yet the Queen, in her customary: DT, 10/20/98

43
   “The surgeons didn’t want to operate”: WO, 4/9/88

44
   “I was the first person”: Ibid.

45
   They felt that Raine kept them: B-AM1, p. 29

46
   Detecting signals that Diana hadn’t “twigged … amazing place”: Ibid., p. 32

47
   “that weekend was the beginning”: B-PJ1, p. 97

48
   “They were shooting pheasants”: Interview with James Whitaker

49
   “Charles probably didn’t see”: B-PJ1, p. 97

50
   “Charles found himself strangely”: Ibid., pp. 113–14

51
   “quite a lot”: Ibid.

52
   “He would ring up Cadogan”: Ibid., p. 97

53
   “no one ever took much notice”: Ibid., p. 103

54
   “She could have been amongst”: Interview with Michael Colborne

55
   “disorganized about arrangements”: B-SB, p. 111

56
   After her customary visit: B-PJ1, pp. 101, 116

57
   “I have lost someone infinitely special”: B-JD, p. 324

58
   The daughter of a millionaire: B-PJ1, p. 117

59
   “caviar queen”:
Sunday Times Magazine
, 12/22/85

60
   “Whiplash Wallace”: Mi, 8/22/80

61
   “There is a risqué picture”: DM, 6/10/80

62
   “enormously attracted”: B-SB, p. 171

63
   In February 1980, she traveled: B-PJ1, p. 117

64
   “Can you see me swanning”: B-AM1, p. 105

65
   “perfect English skin”: B-MR, p. 15

66
   “casual encounters”: B-JD, p. 337

67
   “began to think seriously”: Ibid., p. 338

68
   “You’re a young blood”: B-AM1, p. 32

69
   tabloid veteran James Whitaker: Interview with James Whitaker

70
   “He was all over me”: B-AM1, p. 32

71
   “how she had sensed his loneliness”: B-JD, p. 337

72
   “It was to Lady Susan”: B-SB, p. 184

73
   “he had met the girl he intended to marry”: B-JD, p. 337