Diary of a Teenage Taxidermist (22 page)

“Oh, oh… okay…” Ethan uttered, looking back at Rob. He slowly pushed down on the penis, but not strongly enough to have the cockhead pass the sphincter. He rubbed against it in a teasing motion. Robert felt his lips twitch with a smile. What a little devil Ethan was to play with him like this.

He grabbed his cock and patted it against Ethan’s hole, shuddering with every touch. He couldn’t wait to push in again, to have Ethan ride him for the first time. Ethan took loud, raspy breaths as he lowered himself right onto Rob’s dick, accepting it inside with a grunt that only made Rob hotter. With his chin resting on Ethan's fragrant shoulder, Rob had the perfect view on his boyfriend’s pale chest and the stiffened nipples. Rob’s gaze slid lower, to the tattooed rats dancing on Ethan’s belly with every breath he took. The pressure bearing down on Rob’s cock was so mind-blowing that he pulled Ethan tight against his chest and clenched his teeth not to come as his dick sank into the sweetest, tightest ass he could imagine. He never even realized initially that his thighs had started trembling.

“Ohh.... it’s amazing,” he whispered, chaotically petting Ethan’s slim body all over. It was burning, as if Rob’s cock was the fuel to Ethan’s lust. Robert rubbed the angular hip bone with his fingertips, delighting in the sight of Ethan’s reddened dick sticking up like it was just asking to be touched.

Ethan slid his arms behind Rob’s back, hugging him close this way, as he let his head fall back to Rob’s shoulder, plump mouth open, cheeks pink. “I love you,” he whispered breathlessly, tensing his ass in the most delicious way.

The words, spoken so softly, were like the smoothest chocolate drizzling all over Rob’s heart. He gasped, pushing his hips up, deeper into the pliant body. He hadn’t expected to hear this, especially not today, but most of all, he hadn’t expected it to feel this good. With a low hum, he pulled Ethan’s face back and stifled the sudden pain in his own chest with a deep, gentle kiss.

Ethan was hungry to reciprocate, his hot tongue exploring Rob’s mouth as if he wanted to rub his declaration into Rob’s gums. They moved together, and it took Rob to a whole new understanding of what sex was, and what he wanted it to be. It definitely wasn’t just about something dirty for him, a tight ass and a forgettable experience. With Ethan, it was something they shared, both each other’s first, both equally hungry for touch. He wanted to make this as unforgettable of an experience for Ethan as it was for him, even if he couldn’t declare anything just yet. It wouldn’t be fair to spill out something like that just because of passion. Completely embedded within the warm glove of Ethan’s body, he sucked on his lips while gently running his fingers up and down Ethan’s chest, thighs, and then his tight balls, his hard cock, which Rob could suck on for minutes at a time.

“You feel so good.”

All of a sudden, Ethan’s body became stiff and rigid, his ass clenching so hard Rob almost came on the spot. He looked around the car, holding onto Robert with his arms twisted back. “Wait, wait, Rob?” His breath hitched, but it sounded more like hyperventilating than panting.

Robert hugged him tight, suddenly alert. “Did I hurt you?” he whispered, stiff with nerves at the idea that maybe he pushed in too hard, was too enthusiastic and selfish. “Do you want me to stop?” he choked out through clenched teeth, pressing his mouth to Ethan’s salty temple.

“I— I don’t know, I think I had a lapse,” he uttered with a voice so small Robert would do anything to help. “I can’t believe this is happening. Just… I… We went here to the back…” Ethan’s ass was slowly relaxing, and he stroked Rob’s forearms.

Robert’s chest clenched so hard he couldn’t breathe properly. Was Ethan suddenly finding himself during sex to which he didn’t remember he consented? How fucked up was that?

He started raining small, soothing kissed all over Ethan’s cheek. “I’m so sorry, baby. Do you want me to pull out? It’s not a big deal,” he promised, hardly keeping his nerves in check. The last thing he wanted was to have Ethan scared while having sex with him. This was a nightmare, yet he felt guilty for even thinking that because it was surely worse for Ethan.

“Y-yeah, sorry… I’m just… confused…” he moaned, slightly wiggling his ass. The movement wasn’t making it easy on Robert. “Just fill me in, please. Oh God, that was a horrible way to put it.” He put a hand over his face.

Robert clenched his teeth and pulled out of Ethan, the cool air burning even through the condom. He quickly dropped to his knees on the floor and helped Ethan’s stiff form to lie on the seat. He didn’t want to be too imposing by crushing him with his own weight now.

But Ethan wasn’t pulling away. Instead, he reached out to hug Robert, though his eye had that red tint to it that made Rob panic. “I messed up, I’m so sorry. Was it nice before? I wanna continue, I just… I need to grasp things.” He hugged Rob tighter, his body trembling.

Rob moved closer to Ethan’s head and gathered it in his arms, sheltering him from all the bad things that could hurt him, at least those he could prevent. He gave him a gentle kiss on the lips and tightened his hands around him. “You didn’t, it’s not your fault,” he whispered into the smooth, soft skin. It was all
his
fault.

Ethan took a deep breath and stroked Rob’s back. At least they were safe and alone, with all the time they needed to finish things later. “Coming out of a lapse doesn’t feel all that bad with you around,” Ethan finally said and kissed Rob’s arm. “You wouldn’t hurt me. I just wish I could remember everything. If I forgot my first time, it would be the fail of the century.”

“That won’t happen,” rasped Robert, squeezing Ethan’s hand. “And even if it would, the next time would have been the first for you, wouldn’t it?” He couldn’t believe it was him who had irreversibly hurt the one guy he cared so much about. It even hurt him to think about it.

Ethan blinked at him and the one eye he had left welled up, even though his pretty lips curved into a smile, only adding to Rob’s confusion. “You’re right. I could have another first time with you.”

Robert swallowed hard, closing Ethan’s fingers in his. His heart was pounding so hard he could barely breathe when he realized that Ethan couldn’t remember one more thing—the fact that he had just confessed his feelings to Robert. Just the thought of it sent a piercing pain down Robert’s chest. This moment between them happened only seconds ago, and yet for Ethan it was as if it never existed, and it made Robert’s eyes sting with the pressure. That wasn’t right. This moment couldn’t just disappear from memory, he needed Ethan to know what it was all about.

“I love you so much”, he whispered, and the moment he said it, it dawned on him that it was exactly what he meant, and in some twisted way, he was the first one to say it. They both got to say it first.

Ethan’s smile widened, and he kissed Rob’s lips. “I love you too,” he said, looking into Rob’s eyes, oblivious to having said it once today already. His fingers tightened on Rob’s as well. It was as if the car was their cotton candy cocoon where life was only about being together, sticking to each other in the sugary sweetness.

Robert felt a prickling around his eyes. He already knew he wouldn’t regret that he confessed to having this bundle of intense emotions that seemed to have spread all over him like a parasite, changing the way he thought and what he did. Would he ever help anyone escape from their parents’ home when they were grounded? Of course not, but with Ethan, he seemed to lose some of his reason. As frightening as it was, he rather liked being so passionate about someone.

“I know, you just told me, baby,” he added, lowering his voice as it got hoarse.

“I did?” Ethan’s smile widened, making him look so cute, so handsome, that Rob couldn’t wait to have sex with him again.

Rob nodded and leaned closer, touching his forehead to Ethan’s. What he got in return was a kiss so hot it made Rob’s somewhat softened cock stiffen to full attention. Ethan ran his fingers over the sides of Rob’s side, tickling him. “I’m feeling better now.” He rubbed his thigh against Rob’s erection.

“You sure?” whispered Rob, closing his eyes. “I just want you to be comfortable.”

“That’s why I’m sure.” Ethan gave him another kiss, his hair tickling Rob’s face. “I can trust you.” He stroked Rob’s skin as they tried to work out a comfortable position in the backseat, with Rob climbing on top of Ethan before he even consciously thought about doing it. It was as if something about Ethan’s position gave him a clue.

“What do you want me to do?”

“I think I want to get back to what we were doing earlier.” Ethan smiled at him and stroked the back of his head. “But without a bed, I think it’ll be better if I turn over.”

Robert nodded but didn’t let him move yet. He cupped the soft cheek and stroked his fingers over the rosy flesh of Ethan’s lip. His chest was a bundle of emotions so powerful he didn’t know what to do with them. “I’m so happy we made this arrangement.”

Ethan laughed as his hands slid down Rob’s back. “Oh, my God! Don’t call it that.”

Robert chuckled, gently thrusting his cock into Ethan’s crotch. “How should I call it? Our first date?”

“My horrible, misguided way to get the guy I wanted?” Ethan licked his lips and moved in a similar way, his fingers dancing over Rob’s ass but barely touching it.

Robert smiled at him, breathless. “So when will we have our anniversary?” He started grinding his crotch against Ethan with renewed vigor. He would soon be ready for action again. Sliding his cock over Ethan’s stomach felt so amazing he could even get off on it.

“Three months next week.” Ethan moved against him, hard as well. A pink blush was blooming on his cheeks, and Robert kissed his way all over it.

“You make me act all crazy, you know that?”

Ethan grinned, breathing heavier again. “Your mom’s gonna hate me. I make you break the rules.”

“No way, she’s gonna love you, I promise.” whispered Robert, grinding his now hard cock into Ethan’s hip. Just being so close felt so achingly good. And Ethan accepted him in ways no one else did, let Rob inside of his body, baring himself in the most intimate of ways.

Ethan gave him one more kiss and bit his lip. “How about we stay like this, huh? Just rub against each other?”

Robert grinned and raised his hips to pull off the condom. “Baby, you have no idea how much I want to... you know, come on your skin,” he uttered, not wanting to sound insensitive.

Ethan swallowed and squeezed Rob’s buttocks so gently, as if he was afraid the world would fall apart if he did it harder. His eye was completely focused on Robert, dark and hazy. “We were both virgins, you know… Maybe we could lose the rubbers sometime soon? I mean, I trust you. I’d like it that way. That is if it doesn’t… you know, gross you out.” He looked at Rob’s chin instead of into his eyes, a flush spreading over his cheeks.

Robert frowned, surprised, and his mouth went dry. “I kinda thought... you’d feel safer with rubbers, you know, because you’re bottoming.”

Ethan took a deep breath. “I was thinking about it since yesterday. We could do with or without, depending on the situation. Like, in a car, I’d want a condom, for convenience, but maybe if we’re at home, in a bed, we can experiment…” His grip on Rob’s ass became firmer, and it made Rob’s head bob like a puppet’s. He did want that, to be closer to Ethan in every way, and for Ethan to accept Robert’s come inside seemed like the ultimate sign of acceptance.

“What if I... make love to your thighs, and then suck you off?” he proposed, flooded by heat.

Ethan chuckled and kissed his nose. “That sounds hot. Just please, never again say ‘make love to your thighs’. That sounds horrendous.” He raised his lips to Rob’s ear, soothing his embarrassment. “You can say you wanna
fuck
them,” he whispered and rubbed his cock against Rob’s stomach.

Robert exhaled and leaned in for a slow, deep kiss, which awakened thousands of nerve endings on his skin, on his torso where their chests touched, his hips and cock, which was so pleasantly tucked between their stomachs, his ass, grabbed hard like bread dough, and his lips, exploding with sensation. “I want to fuck your thighs,” he whispered, glad he didn’t offend Ethan. He didn’t want to be
that
guy.

Ethan licked his lips and turned under Robert, presenting his ass and thighs for the taking. The memory of Ethan riding his cock so eagerly just fifteen minutes ago was still tingling in Rob’s balls. Such a tight, hot ass. As if the view itself weren’t good enough, Ethan pushed back slightly, rubbing against Rob’s cock in a way Rob was sure he would never get enough of. He leaned in, tasting the sweaty skin on the back of Ethan’s shoulder and squeezed some more lubricant on his fingers, already grinding against his lover.

“I love it when it gets all hard and throbbing,” Ethan whispered, arching his back to the touch. In this position Rob could get his fill of the tangerine and bergamot smell of Ethan’s hair. He only wished he had a CD with that weird music Ethan liked so he could put it on.

Slowly, he slipped his hand between those perfect thighs and started spreading the lube all over not to rub his skin too much. “You can keep them together,” he whispered, fantasizing about the hot cavity he’d fuck.

“Yeah? So it’s tight for you?” Ethan panted against the upholstery and slid his thighs closer. “I’m so turned on right now.” Heat evaporated from his body as if he were a portable radiator.

“You like me on top of you? Squeezing in?” whispered Rob, furiously masturbating over the pale thighs. His head was filling with images of how they looked right now, with him on top, spread over Ethan’s lovely form. “Squeeze them as tight as you can, baby.”