Discipline (21 page)

“Aaron, oh my God...”

Letting my head fall back, I pulled his head
closer, closer till it felt like every bit of me was consumed in
his mouth, being lapped up and sent deeper into ecstasy.
So this
is what it feels like to be put first.
I could hardly wrap my
head around the pleasure I was feeling. Eyes rolling behind my
closed eyelids, I felt my every muscle tightening, spasming as I
got closer.

He must’ve felt me contracting around his
fingers because he suddenly laid me down on the bed, kneeling on
the floor and pulling me to the edge of the mattress. Hands under
my ass, he propped me up, returning his mouth to me, bringing me so
dangerously close to that edge again. I feared for how loud I’d be
as my throat let out only squeaks, whimpers as my body bucked,
seconds from orgasm.

“I’m gonna…” My lips refused to finish my
sentence as Aaron’s soft, gentle sucking grew suddenly hard,
intense. I was paralyzed for a moment, every movement in my body
frozen and waiting to unleash only once that moment arrived. “
Oh
God!
”

Colorful dots clouded my vision and the
earth shattered around me as his tongue brought me to a finish, my
lips screaming his name, my back arching so hard that the top of my
head touched the mattress.

“Holy fucking shit,” Aaron breathed arousal
at the sound of my ecstasy. My eyes were closed but I knew he was
watching me as my body gave one last spasm before going limp on his
bed.

I couldn’t move. I tried to speak but
slurred nonsense came out.

“Shh.” I felt Aaron climb onto the mattress,
his body hovering over me before his lips gave me a gentle kiss on
the forehead.

~

When I woke up, it was morning.

Holy shit
. Still naked, my groggy
eyes surveyed my spot on the bed. I’d fallen asleep in the same
position I’d collapsed in, and I hadn’t moved all night.

“Oh my God.”

I shot up in bed, hit with the realization
that I’d left Aaron hard last night. Whipping around, I turned to
see him sleeping peacefully beside me, boxer briefs on, quite the
morning wood underneath.

Oh my God, had he stayed hard all
night?
No, that would be impossible. He had to have relieved
himself before going to bed.
Oh God, but still, I’m an
asshole
, I berated myself. I’d never in my life done anything
so selfish in the bedroom.

But then again, I’d never done anything
selfish at all in the bedroom. There was no room for that when I
was busy serving Ben, the king of selfishness. He should’ve been
the one to bear the agony of overnight unfulfillment so I could
know real pleasure, not Aaron. Not that I wanted him anywhere near
me anymore.

Laying back down, I gazed at Aaron. At his
sweet, peaceful expression while he slept. It was kind of funny to
think that he was so rock hard and unaware of it.

“Hey,” I whispered, feeling the need to
apologize for what I’d done to him last night. He stirred but
didn’t awake. “Aaron.”

“
Mmm
,” he rumbled, so sexy even in
his damned sleep.

“Aaron, I’m so sorry I passed out last
night,” I whispered, rubbing his chest.

“Mm-mm,” came his response, eyes still
closed.

“I just… it was amazing,” I giggled softly,
wondering if he’d fallen back asleep until eyes still closed, a
slow grin crept across his lips.

“Good.”

God, he was so damned cute. Still stroking
his chest, I gave him a kiss on the cheek, watching his expression
as I let my hand slide down his abs… and down to his package.
Immediately, his lips parted and his eyes blinked open. “Hm?” He
was still groggy, not entirely sure of what was going on.

But he woke up quickly once I had his dick
out, my fingers wrapped around the base.

“What are you — ?”

His question cut off, his jaw dropping the
moment my tongue ran along his sensitive tip. “Oh God, Nina.” His
neck craned immediately to watch me and he let out a long, drawn
out groan once I covered the entire, smooth head with my mouth,
swirling my tongue over it. “
Ahh Christ
…holy
shit
.”
My body draped over his right leg, I felt it twitching underneath
me as I began to gently suck. “Oh, that feels so good, Nina…”

I thought about how long he’d gone without
this as I worked inch by inch down his shaft, reveling in the sound
of his pleasured groans. His hand was behind my head now, his neck
still craned to watch me as my head moved up and down steadily on
him, my left hand following suit as it grasped and jerked whatever
length of his long shaft that my mouth hadn’t covered. Aaron was
groaning almost nonstop at this point, a sound hot enough to make
my thighs pump as I took all of him in my mouth.

“
Fuuuck
.”

My lips smiled at the sound of his reaction,
all the while swelling against his rock hardness. Turned on by the
tingling sensation, I quickened my pace, bringing him to another
sexy moan only to slow my pace completely, drawing an anguished
grunt from his throat as he squeezed a handful of my hair. I
repeated this for several minutes before returning to a steady
pace, both hands joining my mouth in stroking him until his muscles
tensed underneath me. “Nina, that feels so fucking good, you have
no idea… Oh God, I’m…” His body spasmed. “Ohhh… God, I’m gonna
come…”

Mouth full, I glanced up to see the muscles
of his abs contracting and releasing, over and over.

“
Nina, I’m coming
,” he rasped with
urgency this time. I watched him, the way his eyes flashed with
surprise as I kept going, unfazed by his words. “
Nina!
I’m…
holy shit…
”

His body jerked and trembled, his eyes wide
with shock since my lips stayed wrapped tight around his shaft as
he pumped warmth onto my tongue. Shock and excitement gleamed in
his eyes, even as his rigid muscles relaxed, his head falling back
onto the mattress as he tried to catch his breath.

“Holy… fucking
shit
, Nina…”

It was odd to credit Ben for anything, but
he’d been the one to make swallowing the norm for me. I didn’t
particularly enjoy it with him, but the experience was exhilarating
with Aaron. The absolute opposite. I felt powerful. I wanted to
give him every second of the pleasure he deserved. It was well
worth it to hear him take a solid few minutes to come down from his
total awe.

“Nina.”

It took a little while for his voice to be
steady as he said my name. I looked up to see his hand reaching for
mine, squeaking with surprise when he took it and easily pulled my
body up the mattress with one curl of his bicep, so that we were
face to face.

“Hi.” I grinned, getting a good look of him
as I lay on my stomach and rested on my elbows. His mindblown
expression felt like quite the compliment to me.

“It’s crazy.” He studied me, one arm bent
behind his slightly shaking head. “I already thought you were like
my walking fantasy but then you go off and do that.”

I blushed, which made him laugh.

“And the fact that you’re blushing after
doing that is even sexier to me somehow.”

I smiled, tucking my hair behind my ear.
“I’m not usually like this… crazy nymphomaniac. I didn’t know I
could even be this enthusiastic about sex until you.”

“Trust me, I didn’t know this about myself
either.”

“I guess we bring out a certain side of each
other.” I giggled. “The… forbidden, bad side. That’s okay with
practically ripping my shirt off in the middle of the street.”

Aaron let go of a breath, giving a little
whistle of disbelief to go with his sexy grin. “Again… don’t really
understand what the hell comes over me around you. I’m sorry about
that.”

“Trust me, don’t be.”

“I just lose control when I’m around you. My
mind goes blank and I forget the rules.” He paused for a moment.
“Or rather, I remember them but I can’t bring myself to care.” His
strong arm pulled me onto his chest. I lay there, soaking in the
comfort of its strength and broadness, feeling his lips in my hair
though I detected uncertainty in his voice as he continued. “I
actually
want
to break every rule I’ve ever committed myself
to when I’m around you. And I don’t know what the hell that means
for next week when I’m back to spending sixty hours a week at the
school. With kids, with parents, faculty. I don’t know how that’s
going to work.”

“You won’t see me anymore,” I murmured,
realizing it only at that second. The giant knot that formed in my
throat surprised me. “I’ll be in the city and you’ll be here.” God,
it sounded like torture already. With my cheek on his warm chest, I
was glad that he couldn’t see the sudden distress on my face.

“I will. I need to.” Aaron’s arm tightened
around me. I heard his sigh of content when I ran my hand up from
his chest to his shoulder, finding the perfect crook in his neck
for my head to lie. “I know what we do when we’re together may be
the opposite,” he laughed quietly, “but things have never felt this
right in my life. It’s like I was on autopilot for years and you
finally woke me up. I remember what it’s like to want something.
Someone.” His lips found the top of my head. “The fact that I get
to have you feels too good to be true. I love my job, but I’m not
going to let go of this feeling.”

I swallowed. “You won’t love your job if
your students and your coworkers find out about me.”

“Then I won’t let them.”

I let my hands curl up into his hair as I
tipped my face upward, smiling when he immediately turned his head
to kiss my lips. “Well,” I murmured against his warm mouth,
returning his sweet kiss. “We still a week left of summer. Let’s
have as much fun as we possibly can before it’s time for you to be
Mr. Cole again.”

~

“Where are you going?”

Kelsey poked her head into my bedroom as I
pulled every swimsuit and summer dress from my drawers, tossing
them all in the general vicinity of the straw tote I had open
between my freshly pedicured feet. They were the seashell color I
hoped to be seeing a lot of soon.

The girls would be picking me up soon and I
could hardly contain my delirious excitement. With Linh and Mike
confirmed to attend, Aaron had easily accepted my invitation to the
Todos Santos weekend in the Hamptons. Since Linh wanted to ride
with us girls in Em’s rental, Aaron decided to ride up to the house
with Mike.

“Tell me where you’re going,” Kelsey whined
when I didn’t answer her right away. I was wondering whether or not
I should tell the truth about my whereabouts, especially since they
involved Aaron. She rolled her eyes. “Okay, let me guess,” she
sighed. “You’re going to the Hamptons with the Todos people and
you’re afraid of telling me because I might get jealous that you
didn’t invite me.”

I paused, holding my white crochet dress in
my hands. “It wasn’t that, I was just —”

“Nina, don’t worry about it.” Kelsey’s voice
was genuine as she stepped into my room. “Really. I know you think
I’m like, this fragile mess because I cry about how boys don’t like
me I embarrassed myself in front of your friends, but I’m
fine.”

“I don’t think that you’re a — ”

“Yes, you do. And honestly, I don’t blame
you. But here’s the thing.” A smile wiggled on Kelsey’s lips and
she did a funny little shimmy of a dance. “I’m going to be partying
on the beach this weekend too! At Paige’s aunt’s house in Montauk.
She’s trying to hook me up with her cousin!”

My eyes popped wide open. “Oh my God! That’s
great! Is he cute?”

“Super cute. Like, cuter than Logan Foster
cute.” Kelsey bit her lip back as her cheeks flushed. “We comment
on each other’s Facebook statuses every once in awhile but for the
past few nights, he’s been like, chatting me. And we’ll talk on and
off for like, hours. I was up to four this morning, just talking to
him.”

I actually bounced on my toes, clapping.
This was what Kelsey needed, according to Adriana and Em. “I’m so
excited for you!”

Kelsey squealed. “I know! And since I told
you about my guy, you have to tell me about yours.”

I froze, my smile faltering, my heart
immediately thumping. “What?”

“I
know
you’re seeing someone,
stupid! You keep disappearing and I hear you and Adriana giggling
and whispering about things. I know it’s a boy.” She let her
shoulders slump dramatically while sticking her lower lip out.
“Come on, Nina, let’s share boy stories for once. I never get to be
a part of these discussions.”

True. I felt a smile creep on my lips as I
thought about Aaron. About going to the Hamptons with him. The
delirious excitement was bubbling in my head, my cheeks again.

“Ah, see! I knew it!” Kelsey pointed at me,
bursting into giggles. “There
is
a guy. Is he cute?”

I exhaled. “Yes. Very.”

“What the hell! How long have you been
seeing him?”

“I don’t know, Kelsey, like a month. It’s no
big deal. I don’t want to talk about him yet in case it turns out
to be nothing,” I lied convincingly.

“Shut up, it’s going to be something. I know
it!” Kelsey insisted, bouncing excitedly on her toes. “Love is
totally in the air. ‘Cause guess what I heard from Paige today that
would’ve totally bummed me out if I weren’t about to hook up with
her smoking hot cousin?”

I giggled. “What’d you hear?”

“Well. Woodhill’s Brad and Jen have
apparently reunited.”

“Come again?”

Kelsey shrugged with a breezy smile. “Mr.
Cole is back with Cara Fulton.”

I paused, staring at her. “What?”

“Oh no, you’re upset! Don’t be, you have
someone. And neither of us ever had a chance with him anyway. But
basically, Paige heard through her mom who heard through someone
who heard through Maura Lewis, who lives on the same street as Mr.
Cole…”