Authors: Sara Craven
father, his dark face softening to
tenderness as he looked down at a
white-wrapped bundle in his arms. She
had seen earlier how Maria's little boy
had run to him as he had entered, and
how he had swung the child laughingly
up into his arms without a trace of self-
consciousness. Up to that moment she
had never thought of him as a lover of
children, or possessing any of the
conventional urges to settle down and
raise a family of his own, but now she
clearly had to think again. She
remembered what he said about the
Llanos and how he might find his future
there, and wondered if that was where
he intended his future home to be.
She still had very little clear idea of his
own family background, but the brief
glimpses he had afforded her had shown
her that her first impressions of him had
been totally misleading. He was
certainly not an ex-cowboy on the make,
but that did not make him less of an
enigma to her. Besides, a family with a
children's nurse betokened a certain
degree of affluence, she thought, yet the
mere fact that he had not enlightened her
on the subject indicated that it was not
necessary, in his view, for her to know.
She would not be around long enough for
it to matter, she thought, bending her
head unhappily.
When the meal was ended, she rose as
Maria rose, in a mute offer to help with
the clearing away, and was vehemently
gestured back to her seat. Beer was
brought for the men, and for her a glass
of what Vitas told her was
guarapo,
made from fermented cane juice. Its
potency alarmed her and she sipped at it
with care.
Maria cleared the dirty dishes from the
table and vanished, taking the clearly
reluctant children with her—to put them
to bed, Rachel guessed. She was absent
for a considerable time, and when she
returned, she stood in the doorway and
beckoned
to
Rachel
almost
conspiratorially.
She soon discovered the reason. Behind
the screen in the lamplit bedroom, her
own bath had been prepared. Maria
drew her into the room chattering
volubly, and indicating by gesture that
Rachel should undress and get into the
water. Rachel hesitated. How did she
explain to a former children's nurse who
didn't speak a word of English that she
was used to taking her baths without
assistance?
she
wondered
with
embarrassment. Apart, that was, from
summoning Vitas to act as interpreter,
which was the last thing she was going
to do.
She looked down longingly into the
gently steaming water on top of which a
few crushed green leaves were floating,
giving off a faintly aromatic scent.
She turned and saw that Maria was
standing by one of the beds, holding her
saddle pack in one hand, and in the other
the torn shirt and bra that she had
forgotten to burn.
Her face was a study as she held up the
ripped garments and she turned a
wondering face to Rachel, her dark
twinkling eyes suddenly solemn.
'El
senor?'
Her
voice
was
apprehensive, but her face cleared
magically as Rachel shook her head,
although she still seemed puzzled. As
well she might, Rachel thought, as she
began resignedly to unbutton her shirt.
It was heaven to slide down into the
scented water and feel it lap the heat and
grime of the day away from her body.
Maria, busily collecting her soiled
clothes from the floor, gave her a smile
of satisfaction and approval. Her hands
moved in a vigorous mime, and Rachel
realised she was offering to wash her
hair for her. Now that would be heaven,
she thought, her fingers releasing it
completely from its loosened knot, as
she nodded and smiled at Maria. She sat,
her eyes closed, as Maria soaped and
rubbed and rinsed, her fingers firm and
oddly reassuring as they moved on her
scalp. She had a sudden vision of a
number of small dark-eyed children with
hair like ravens' wings lining up
obediently to have their hair washed
under Maria's tutelage, and something
twisted painfully in her heart as she
realised whose children she was
contemplating. There would be a wife
too in the background. Not one of his
casual amours, naturally, but a convent-
trained
senorita
from one of the
expensive suburbs in Bogota. Someone
like Isabel Arviles, who had never
worked or had to work for her living,
and would be content to spend her days
keeping her face and body beautiful for
her husband.
When her shampoo was completed, she
allowed Maria to help her out of the bath
and wrap a towel around her like a
sarong. Then she knelt down at the older
woman's feet as she was gestured to do,
and submitted to having her hair
towelled dry. It was like having all her
worries and concerns whisked away,
and being allowed to lapse into
uncaring,
unencumbered
childhood
again, she thought, and how blissful it
would be to be allowed to stay here for
ever with her head resting on Maria's
comfortable lap.
But already Maria was gently chirruping
at her to rise. Rachel got up and went
across to where her belongings were
strewn across the bed. Her hand reached
down for her nightdress and paused. It
was not there. She turned over the spare
shirt and jeans that remained and her last
set of clean underwear to see if it had
slipped underneath. It was just a brief
lawn shift, after all, hardly taking up any
room at all. And she must have left it in
her luggage, back at Asuncion.
'Que pasa, senorita?'
Maria came to
stand beside her.
Rachel searched her vocabulary.
'Mi
camison,'
she managed at last.
Maria gave the garments on the bed a
perfunctory poke as if expecting the
missing item of nightwear to leap out
and bite her, then patted Rachel
reassuringly on the shoulder before
vanishing out of the door.
She was soon back, her arms full of a
billowing mass of white linen, which
she shook out for Rachel to see. It was a
nightgown, of an age and design which
would have fetched pounds in a second
hand clothes shop in England, Rachel
knew. High-necked and long-sleeved, it
was decorated with what appeared to be
handmade lace, and the full skirt seemed
to spread endlessly. Apart from a faint
yellowing along the creases where it had
evidently been laid away as a cherished
possession, it was in perfect condition.
Rachel began to protest. It was a
beautiful thing, almost an antique, and it
deserved to be in some museum case,
but Maria would hear none of it. Before
Rachel could stop her, the concealing
towel had been deftly whipped away,
and the folds of cool linen were being
tugged over her still-damp hair. Maria
reached for the hairbrush which lay on
the bed and brushed Rachel's hair until it
lay smooth and shining like honey-
coloured silk over her shoulders. Then
she swept the bed clean of clothes and
clutter, and went round the room
pinching out the wicks of the lamps until
only one remained on the cane table
which separated the two narrow beds.
Collecting the damp towels, she went to
the door, flinging Rachel a last arch look
over her shoulder before she vanished
completely.
Left alone, Rachel sat limply down on
the edge of the bed. Bathed, scented,
brushed and dressed in white, she had no
illusions about what she must resemble
—a Victorian bride on her wedding
night. And that was one of the funniest
jokes she had ever heard, only she had
never felt less like laughing in her life.
She spread out the folds of linen
wonderingly. It was exquisite material,
and a faint beguiling scent hung about it
as if it had been stored with herbs. Some
Spanish nun had probably made this
lace, she thought dreamily, for the
trousseau of one of the chaste girls being
reared for wifehood in the seclusion of
the convent. How shocked the good
Sister would be—a painful little smile
quivered on Rachel's lips—if she could
know it was now being worn by a girl
calmly contemplating a night of love
with a man she hardly knew. Although
that wasn't strictly true. There was
nothing calm about her. The humming
birds in the forest had nothing on the
strange quiverings and flutterings taking
place in her abdomen. She wanted Vitas
to come into the room and take her in his
arms and stop her from thinking.
She stood up. The gown was a little too
long for her, completely masking her
bare feet, and she held the folds of skirt
out a little.
She didn't hear the door opening, but
suddenly she was aware with every
sense she possessed that he was standing
in the doorway watching her.
She looked up at him. He was
motionless, almost as if he had been
frozen there on the threshold, and he was
looking at her as if he did not believe
what he saw.
She wanted to make some kind of joke,
for her own sake as much as anything, to
ease the inevitable awkwardness of the
next few minutes, but she couldn't speak.
Her mind seemed to have become a
blank. All that she was aware of was the
ache of wanting him, and the slow
unsteady bumping of her heart.
Hold me, she begged him silently. Kiss
me. Make it all right for me tonight, even
if I regret it for the rest of my life.
He moved at last, walking forward into
the room, and kicking the door shut with
one booted foot. She felt herself tense,
her eyes fixed to his face, as she waited
for him to come round the narrow bed to
her side.
Only he didn't. He stood on the other
side of the bed and began to unfasten his
shirt.
He said coolly, 'Get into bed,
chica,
before you catch a chill. And don't forget
to turn your back because I've no
intention of asking Maria if that
incredible garment has a male twin in
order to spare your blushes.'
She lay on her side, staring at the dark
blank of the window, with its protective
netting against insects, trying to shut out
the quiet sounds of his movements, the
rustle of his clothes as he removed them.
She heard the other bed give a slight
protesting squeak as it took his weight,
then the lamp went out.
For a long moment she lay quite still, not
really believing what was happening,
and then coldly and stiffly her clenched
fists came up and pressed themselves
convulsively against her trembling lips.
It was late when she opened her eyes the
following morning. She could tell that by
the angle of the sunlight across the floor.
She sat up and glanced across at the
other bed. It was empty, and the blankets
were folded back. It looked as if it had
not
been
occupied
for
some
considerable time.
Drearily she pushed her own covers
back and swung her legs to the floor.
Her eyes felt raw as if she hadn't closed
them all night, and yet she knew that
wasn't true. She had slept, with vague,
discomfiting dreams to keep her
company.
Someone—Maria?—had placed a jug of
water, now cold, and a shallow tin basin
on the table between the beds, and she
washed quickly, enjoying the cool
sensation of the water on her face and
body. She folded the nightdress with