Forever & an Engine (45 page)

‘O god Gabe,’
I moaned.

‘I’m going
to take this
very
slowly Mia, you hurt at any time you tell me, you know
the words to say and I’ll stop immediately ok baby?’ he asked. I nodded and
heard him hiss as he used his right hand to guide himself into the gap in my knickers.
I groaned as his fingers led the way, parting my lips until I felt the
thickness of his shaft follow until he was just resting at the edge to my
entrance. It felt like weeks since he’d been this close, not days. Suddenly my
muscles tightened as he slowly starting pushing into me, his right hand on my
hip pulling me back onto him, my hands trapped between my bottom and his abs.

‘Argggghhhh,’
I cried.

‘O god Mia you’re
so tight,’ he groaned. ‘Am I hurting you baby?’

‘No, but it’s
been so long I’d forgotten how big you are.’

‘Then I
need to remind you more often.’ He pushed further in making me gasp and my
muscles grip him, trying to suck him back in where he belonged. He waited a
second and moved again. ‘Mia, fuck, you feel so good, you just mould perfectly around
me.’

‘Gabe,’ I sobbed
with pleasure as he moved further in. I tipped my head back onto his shoulder
and closed my eyes.

‘Camera Mia,’
he barked. ‘I need to watch this back. I need to see your face, how good you
felt as I entered you and fucked you slowly from behind. I want to see the look
on your face when you come, for me, capture it so I can watch it again and
again. No one else will ever put that look on your face Mia, only me.’ He let
go of me then slid his arms between mine and my waist as I gritted my teeth, my
bottom lip held tightly between them as I looked ahead at the flashing light of
the camcorder. One of his hands rested on my stomach, his fingers circling my
naval and the other moved up and started to roll my nipple in his fingers,
pinching, pulling and squeezing it, his cock firmly embedded in me, but not
moving.

‘Gabe please
fuck me.’

‘You’re
shaking Mia,’ he murmured against my neck, his lips seeking out every erogenous
zone he’d already mapped out and committed to memory.

‘If you
won’t fuck me please touch me, I need you to touch me I’m dying.’

‘I am
touching you Mia,’ he reminded me with a playful tug on my nipple.

‘Not just
there,’ I sighed.

‘Where then
Mia?’

‘You know.’

‘I need you
to tell me.’

‘Gabe
please,’ I pushed my shoulders back forcing my breast further into his hand.

‘Where else
Mia?’

‘My clit. Please,
I need your fingers on my clit and I want to you tug my nipple harder while you
fuck me. You’re being too gentle with me, I need more, I need
you.
I
need
you Gabe,’ I sobbed. He bit my earlobe and straightened and flexed his fingers
before pinching my nipple so hard I yelped with pleasure. As he bit and sucked
on my shoulder, he moved his other hand down over my belly until he reached the
smooth skin at the top of the slit in my knickers. He ran his index and middle
finger down onto my clit.

‘Gabe,’ I
groaned as I felt the sensation of pleasure radiate through my pelvis when he
started to finger me. I imagined how I must look on camera, legs spread, being masturbated,
squeezed and skewered from behind, by this impossibly handsome man, who was still
fully dressed and I started to respond, my desire for him washing over me. My
vaginal muscles started to ripple up and down massaging the solidness of his erection
which just sat still, hibernating inside me.

‘
Miaaaa
,
o god baby,’ he groaned as I tightened my grip on him.

‘Gabe, please
fuck me please, I can’t take much more.’ He took his right hand off my breast
and put it back on my hip and started to grind from behind, the head of his
dick pushing so hard against my interior wall as his fingers slipped around my
clit with ease, my own plentiful arousal better than any artificial lubricant.

‘Tell me
you love me Mia,’ he groaned.

‘I do … god
I do Gabe.’

‘Say it,
say those words to me baby, I need to hear you say them.’

‘I
love
you,’ I sighed. ‘Noooo … it’s too quick … I can’t come yet … please.’ My thighs
were trembling and his lips on the back of my neck were pushing me to insanity.
I felt so full of him and he started groaning with every thrust up into me as I
squeezed and milked him as hard as I could. It
was
too fast, I didn’t
want it to end.

‘I love you
so much baby. No one else will ever fuck you, it will only ever be me. You’re
mine Mia, forever.’

‘Only … you
Gabe … GABE,’ I yelled. A bomb detonated inside me, I gripped him like a vice
as I started to shudder and he thrust harder and faster.

‘Mia, I’m
coming baby, for you. Do you realise what you do to me? You completely wreck me,’
he groaned. My skin had a light sheen of sweat and my mouth was opening and
closing as my climax started to ripple outwards. His fingers worked fast, his
hips pistoning himself up inside me. Tears streamed down my cheeks as I came
sobbing his name. ‘
Mia,
’ he whispered. I felt him surrender and twitch
inside me, blasting me forcefully with his scorching hot come, as he unloaded
time and again. ‘Mia, I love you so much. Look at me, kiss me, I need you baby.’

‘I love you
Gabe,’ I whispered, my voice fluttering as my body continued to tremble from
our efforts. I twisted my head to find his lips and finally closed my eyes as
our tongues sought each other’s out. He took his hands off my clit and breast
and moved them, clamping his arms around my shoulders and holding me tightly as
he continued to flex inside me as we kissed. He pulled his head back and panted
and I let my head drop, my chin on his forearm as I caught my breath.

‘Mia I
don’t know what I’d do if I ever lost you baby, you’re my whole world,’ he
whispered. I lifted my head and tried to look at him, but he buried it in the
crease of my neck and shoulder nibbling it.

‘Gabe
you’re mine too, I’m not going anywhere,’ I replied as I rubbed my cheek
against his hair.

‘I’m going
to make sure you don’t Mia. You’re mine until your last breath.’ He slid out of
me, suddenly, making me wince. I wobbled as he side stepped and moved in front of
me, my hands were still in the back of my knickers unable to support myself, so
he gently pushed me back against the wall his hands on my shoulders and kissed
me savagely, bruising and biting my lip until I yelped from a mixture of
pleasure and pain. He suddenly dropped to his knees, laying kisses along my
belly, taking his time over my scars and tattoo.

‘This body’s
mine too Mia.’ He ran his fingers through my wet lips, ‘this beautiful cunt’s all
mine as well, to lick and suck and fuck whenever I want.’ I shuddered, bothered
that his coarseness turned me on so much.

‘It’s all
yours, everything’s yours Gabe. Please don’t touch me, I need to shower,’ I begged
as I looked down at him. He gazed up at me, through his long dark lashes, his
eyes glittering in the soft light, I don’t think I’d ever seen him look so
happy and it warmed me through to the tips of my fingers and toes.

‘I don’t
care Mia. I want to taste what I’ve done to you, I want you to taste it,’ he said
as he pushed two fingers up inside me and stirred them around.

‘Gabe stop,
please, it’s so wrong, I need to wash.’

‘There’s
nothing wrong with it, it’s us Mia, it’s what we do to each other.’ I inhaled,
shocked, as he sucked one of his own fingers and groaned. He quickly stood and
shoved the other in my mouth. ‘Suck,’ he ordered and his pupils expanded as he
looked at me. I did, I could taste both of us, sweet and salt combined, wet,
sticky and heavy and he closed his eyes and groaned again. He pulled his finger
out of my mouth and grabbed my face and kissed me before pulling away and sinking
back down on his knees.

‘No Gabe,
please no, not that,’ I begged. He just looked up at me again smiling and pulled
my legs further apart then thrust back into me with his tongue. I was so
desperate to run my fingers through his beautiful soft blond hair, that I dug
my fingers into my bottom cheeks to prevent me from removing my hands, my nails
forming crescent shaped dips in my skin. I laid my head back against the wall, closed
my eyes and moaned as his tongue fucked me again and again, before moving to
lash my clit as he slid three fingers up inside me thrusting in and out until I
climaxed again with a scream of pleasure.

‘O shit,’ I
groaned. I opened my eyes as he stood and looked at me tenderly and wiped his
mouth on the back of his hand. It was too much, I couldn’t wait to touch him
any longer, I didn’t care about his rules anymore. I yanked my hands out of my
knickers, grabbed his waistcoat and spun him around, slamming him back up against
the wall, taking him by surprise as I greedily went for his lips. Our teeth
clashed as he opened his mouth and let me inside him. I lifted my leg and
wrapped it around him and rubbed myself against his semi erect cock and he
groaned.

‘I thought
I was in charge baby?’

‘Hmmm, I’m
a switch remember,’ I whispered into his mouth as my tongue rolled around his.

‘Suck me
baby, wrap your tongue around my cock like that. Make me come in your mouth, I
want to see and feel you swallow me,’ he begged. I broke away and stepped back
as he held onto the wall this time. I watched him harden and swell again as he
looked at me and I smiled. He was quite a sight, he looked like a young
professional model, or dashing business man, but with such a flagrantly erotic
edge with his erection, wet and shining, poking out of his tailored trousers.
He reached up and loosened his tie and undid his top button as he caught his
breath and his eyes blazed with lust as I stepped back to him and gripped his cock
firmly making him jump.

‘If I’m
yours Gabe Austin, then this gorgeous face, sensational body and big hard beautiful
cock are all mine. Understood?’

‘Everything’s
yours Mia, from the moment I first saw you owned me. Jesus you’re so beautiful.’
He went to kiss me and I put my left hand between our lips and he looked at me
surprised.

‘I told you
we’ve switched for a while Gabe, I’m in charge so I’m going to blow you and make
you come in my mouth and swallow every last drop of you. You’d better be hard again
as soon as I finish, because then I’ll want you to lay me on that bed and fuck
me properly, preferably all night, no holding back this time. Am I clear?’

‘So clear
baby, I promise I won’t let you down,’ he grinned as he watched me kneel before
him and strain to take him in my mouth.

I woke up, draped over his
warm muscular torso and watched the sunlight’s rays moving along the wall in front
of me. I had a dull internal ache from the many additional orgasms he’d given
me on the bed last night and I could feel myself still slick and sticky between
my thighs. He’d refused to let me wash, still wanting to taste and feel himself
in me as he fucked me until I’d begged him to stop last night and we’d fallen
asleep with our arms wrapped around each other. He’d woken me up another two
times later in the night, sinking into me and filling me with his essence
again, like he was reclaiming me after our few days apart.

I carefully
sat up and looked at the clock, it was only just past eight. I touched my tacky
thighs and shuddered, I needed a shower, desperately. I wriggled to my side of
the bed and got up stretching my aching muscles. I was still wearing my soaked
knickers and the garter and smiled as I rounded the bed to see the rest of our
clothes strewn all over the bedroom floor. The camera stood on its tripod,
facing the bed, he’d wanted to film us again on there and I was looking so forward
to watching that footage. I wondered how he’d feel about pizza and ice cream in
bed as we watched it all the way through tonight.

I looked down
at him fast asleep on his back, the duvet pushed off him. I could hear his
gentle breathing, his toned body looked oiled from the sheen of perspiration
still clinging to it from his exertions and my eyes travelled down to his
pelvis. It was one of the rare times I’d seen him without a hard on and I bit
my lip smiling as I felt my stomach flip. God I loved him so much, it still amazed
me how hard and fast I’d fallen for him, after a string of boyfriends that I
felt nothing for.

I went to
the bathroom pleased to find no evidence of blood, internally or externally. He’d
become more vigorous with each session last night, as I assured him each time
he wasn’t hurting me. I removed my makeup, brushed my teeth and climbed into
his shower, turning it on full blast washing and scrubbing myself clean before
drying off and drying my hair. I headed into the dressing room pulled on my Westhampton
Uni t-shirt, deciding I was going to go down and make us some coffee and toast and
went back into the bedroom.

He’d
shifted, his arm lay across his face, he was hard again and his cock lay heavy
across his stomach, jerking itself every now and again. Just like that I forgot
all about breakfast, I wanted him again, I needed him back inside me. I
carefully straddled his lap and as he started to wake up and yawn I took him in
my hand, put him in position and slid down his shaft. I groaned as he stretched
me to my max and I closed my eyes leaning forwards putting my hands on his shoulders
as I rotated my hips.

‘
Mia
Page
. I feel violated,’ he sighed. I half opened my eyes as his hands
gripped my hips and I looked down at him and smiled through my pleasure.

‘Sorry but
I needed you, you looked so delicious just lying there. I can get off.’ I
pretended to make a move and he laughed, grabbed my hands and linked fingers. He
pulled our hands above his head, tipping me off balance so I fell forwards onto
his chest, my face hovering above his.

‘You stay
right there, I could get used to being woken up like this. If ever you need me
when I’m asleep just climb right on board baby, no ticket required, this is a
free ride and there’s no complaints department,’ he grinned as he thrust his
hips up, pushing further into me making me gasp and he kissed me.

‘I
really
enjoyed date night Gabe. It was amazing.’

‘Me too, we’re
going to have thousands more like that and I forgot all about my presents. When
you’ve finished abusing me can I open them?’

‘Of course
you can,’ I sighed as I rocked on him.

‘O god
baby, even with that creased t-shirt on, you still look so sexy riding me,’ he
smiled. I smiled back and kissed his lips and ran my tongue around them as he
pushed his hips harder against mine, thrusting into me in time with the rhythm I’d
set. It was slow and gentle and felt just fantastic. He pushed his tongue into
my mouth and slowly sat up taking me with him, still holding my hands. I leaned
back gripping onto them as I started to circle my hips and thrust back against
him.

‘
Gabe,
’
I sighed. I felt so connected to him when he was inside me, like I was complete,
like we were whole as one. He took me by surprise and I squealed and giggled as
he tipped me over, rolling with me and suddenly I was under him as he started
fucking me faster. I put my legs around his waist as his lips nibbled my neck.

‘Christ you
feel so warm inside. I love you baby,’ he groaned and I felt my heart bloom.

‘Move in
with me Gabe.’ It came out so quickly that I surprised myself. I’d planned to
talk to him about it, discuss my sudden desire to spend every waking second
with him rationally, to maybe have him talk me out of it and tell me it was way
too soon, that we weren’t in that place yet. I certainly hadn’t intended to blurt
it out like that. I’d just wanted him to know how much I loved him and it was
the only way I could think of showing him, convincing him what he meant to me. But
to do it like that? How the hell had that just happened? He’d stopped dead in
his tracks and looked down at me his blue eyes wide with shock and I suddenly
felt sick, it
was
too soon. How could I’ve been so stupid, we’d only been
together four weeks, not even four weeks, what the hell was I thinking? That he’d
want this? That the serial self-confessed shagger of hundreds of women would
suddenly want to be tied down to me, to come back to my apartment every night
and play at domesticated bliss. He’d still not said a word. ‘Shit, I’m sorry. I
don’t know what just happened, I’m talking crazy. Can you forget it? Please
just forget it Gabe,’ I begged as he just stared down at me, still with that
shocked and confused look on his face. I shut my eyes and I struggled to get
out from under him, but he gripped my hands tightly and was too heavy on me.

‘
Forget
it?
You just asked me to move in with you after a few weeks together and
you want me to
forget it?
’ His voice was shaking. ‘Mia stop fighting me
and look at me please.’ He let go of my hands and sat back on his heels so he
could look down at me, his erection still tightly embedded inside me. I covered
my eyes with one arm.

‘I’m sorry
ok. I just hate being apart from you Gabe. I don’t know what I was thinking, it’s
too soon, it was a mistake.’

‘So you’re
taking it back? Mia look at me, please.’ He pulled my arm away I looked at him
quickly and my eyes filled up to see him looking so confused. ‘You said from
the start that you didn’t want to be suffocated Mia, I thought you wanted to
take things slowly.’

‘I did
Gabe. You have no idea how slowly I wanted to take things, but everything’s
changed since then. You were just going to be someone to lose my virginity to,
to just fuck now again, but I … I fell in love with you and it became more, you
became more, so much more and we’re not going slowly Gabe, we’re going fast,
really really fast.’

‘
You
want me to move in?’ he repeated.

‘Yes,’ I
whispered as I tried to look away, but found I couldn’t, I needed to know what
he thought, I’d never put myself out there like this for a guy and it was
killing me. I felt my cheeks turned scarlet as he looked down at me and I tried
to work out what he was thinking. I felt some tears spill out as I waited for
him to say something.

‘Baby don’t
cry, please don’t cry you know what it does to me.’ He bent back down onto his forearms
and kissed the tears on my cheeks as he clasped my head in his hands. ‘You’ve just
taken me by surprise,
seriously
by surprise, I wasn’t expecting it, I’d
never have dreamed of you coming out with that in a month of Sundays.’ It was
as if the air had been suddenly sucked out of the room. He was looking at me so
strangely, I knew I’d over stepped and freaked him out.

‘Please
forget it Gabe, forget I even mentioned it. I need to get up I can’t breathe … please
let me up … I can’t breathe with you looking at me like that.’

‘Baby it’s
ok, calm down,’ I felt his lips on my neck gently kissing me.

‘Gabe stop,
please, I need some air, please get off me.’ I suddenly felt nauseous, clammy
and dizzy and started to take quicker shallower breaths as he started to nibble
my neck, his erection flexing inside me.

‘It’s ok
baby,’ he murmured in my ear.

‘No, get
off. I don’t want you inside me, it’s too much. Get off it’s too much.’ My ears
were ringing and my mouth felt dry, I needed him off me, out of me, right now. ‘I
QUIT,’ I cried and immediately felt the pressure on me release as he rolled off
me.

‘Mia?’ I
could hear the confusion in his voice as I started to sob. My body was trembling
as I sat up and leaned over the edge of the bed, quickly pulling my hair back
and was violently sick on the floor.

‘Shit Mia,
what’s going on? Are you ok?’

‘No,’ I
cried as I tried to wipe my tears with shaking hands. I tried to stand up and
felt my legs buckle and he moved and reached up, grabbed me and pulled me back
down to sit on the edge of the bed his legs either side of mine and his chest
pressed up against my back. He put one arm loosely around my waist and his
other hand stroked my hair as I sobbed and gasped for air.

‘It’s ok
breathe, just breathe Mia. I think you’re having a panic attack. Take small
gentle breaths ok? Just breathe.
Sssshhhh
it’s ok baby, it’s going to be
ok.’ He curled around me as he held me and laid his cheek against my shoulder. I
closed my eyes and tried to do as I was told and focus on my breathing. When I
was calmer he stood, pulling me up with him and then carefully laid me back
down in the bed and covered me up. I curled into a tight ball, the taste of
bile stinging my throat and squeezed my eyes tightly shut to try and stop the
room from spinning, blood was pounding in my ears so loudly. I heard him pull
something on and whisper something and leave the room. I pulled one of his pillows
down to me to hug and breathed slowly through my nostrils. I was suddenly exhausted,
my body felt so heavy and I sighed as I fell into a deep sleep.

I was
jolted awake by the sound of a siren and looked back around at the clock to
find it was coming up to eleven. There was a glass of water on the bedside
table and I drained it and looked around. He’d cleaned up all the clothes and
my sick and the camcorder had gone. I noticed a note on my pillow, it looked
scribbled, like he was in a rush, it wasn’t neat and tidy like normal.

I’m so sorry
Mia. I kept you up way too late last night, you’re exhausted and need to rest.
I’ve gone out and we’ll talk when I get back and you’re awake

He hadn’t
even signed it, or put a kiss on the end. I put my hands over my face, I felt
like I’d just driven a wedge between us. We’d got through so much lately and
I’d just ruined it all with four little words blurted out during sex. I lay
back down fell straight back to sleep.

I woke up again
at quarter to twelve and went to the bathroom, washed my face and put some eye brightening
drops in, then soaked some cotton wool pads in cold water and held them over my
eyes to ease some of the puffiness from crying. I ached all over and was unsure
if it was the after effects of my operation, or a whole night of sex after a
few days off, probably both. I scrubbed my teeth again, just to try and take
away the taste of sick then piled my hair up and put on some clean underwear, my
black jeans and a red vest. I felt shivery and pulled on my black thick ribbed
cardigan and belted it around me and put on some socks and my red converse
trainers and sighed.

I needed some
fresh air and maybe a walk. I also needed to find him to talk. I went
downstairs, the house was silent. When I couldn’t find him anywhere I went to
the kitchen and made myself a hot chocolate with lots of sugar. I sat at the island
as I swished it around my mouth, until all I could taste was the sweetness. I
checked my phone, it was twelve thirty and I had no messages from him, but
weirdly some missed calls from Doug. I’d ring him later when I’d dealt with
this Gabe situation. I didn’t want to have this discussion with Gabe over the
phone so I sent him a simple text.

Where
are you?

My stomach
knotted and I felt nauseous again, something felt off, seriously off. I suddenly
heard Lexi banging about upstairs. I put my cup in the sink and jumped as I
heard her yelling my name upstairs, she sounded in a panic.

‘MIA? Where
are you? MIA?’ she yelled. I walked out of the kitchen to the bottom of the
stairs and looked up.

 ‘Lexi I’m
down here. You ok?’ I shouted. She came hurtling down the stairs and grabbed me
squeezing me so tightly I could hardly breathe.

‘O god Mia.’

‘Lexi
what’s wrong are you ok?’

‘Mia shit,
Doug’s being trying to ring you on your mobile and you didn’t answer so he rang
me. O god I don’t know how to say it … fuck Mia, I’m so sorry but it’s Gabe.’
She let go of me and stood back. ‘Doug’s coming to fetch us now to take us to
him, grab your bag we need to go,
right now.
’