Forgetting August (Lost & Found) (22 page)

I
didn’t know how long it would be before Everly would be able to move into the master—if ever. So, the next morning, I decided to move my things into the guest bedroom with hers.

I hadn’t asked her to elaborate on her fears over the master bedroom, but I had a feeling I already knew based on the lock I’d removed from the outside. Proof that I’d really had locked her in there.

Why?

What reason would a man have to lock the woman he loved in their bedroom? I just didn’t understand it.

“Why are you up so early?” Everly asked, peeking in at the doorway. She had a towel wrapped around her head and chest and drops of water dripped down her arms.
If she didn’t have to be at work in thirty minutes…

“I wanted to see you before you left…and drink the coffee you made,” I grinned.

“Who said I was making coffee?” She laughed.

“If there’s one thing I’ve learned about you in the last few days, it’s that you cannot survive without coffee running through your veins. Especially in the morning.”

She smiled brightly, something I’d never take for granted. “You’re right. I’ve already had a cup. There’s a fresh pot downstairs.” I expected her to head back to the guest room and finish getting ready for work, but instead, I heard light footsteps enter the bedroom. It wasn’t the first time she’d been in here. She’d wandered in here a few times, only to scurry back out in record time. The first time had been on that evening she drove me home from the hospital after my car accident.

I’d seen the torture and misery then. I had assumed it was all directed at me—and I’m sure a good part of it had been, but I’d never thought about how much a room could affect someone.

How many memories a house could carry.

“Are you happy here?” I asked.

“What do you mean?” she asked as she roamed around the room, looking at some of the pictures I’d recently hung. After I’d purged the house of everything Everly, I’d begun hanging my own photography. It filled me with pride to see her admiring it now.

“I mean—this room, this house…it’s filled with so many memories. Would it be easier to just…start over?”

“You want to sell this place?” she asked in shock.

“I would—for you,” I said, taking a step in her direction. “I’d do anything to make you happy.”

She continued her long walk around the room, stopping at the large dresser by the bed as she silently thought. “This house is filled with memories. So many of them—both good and bad. And sometimes it’s overwhelming being here with all of them swirling around in my head.”

“So, let’s move,” I urged.

“Let me finish,” she said. “As overwhelming as it is sometimes, it’s also soothing. Like therapy. The fact that I can walk into this room right now gives me a great sense of peace. Knowing I can face my fears head on, rather than running away from them like I usually do? I can’t tell you how good that makes me feel. I may not be able to sleep here, but at least I can take baby steps for now.”

“I just don’t like seeing you in any kind of pain. If I could take it away by just erasing it all—”

“No,” she said adamantly. “I love this house. Despite everything, it means a great deal to me. Right now, I need to work on fighting the ghosts—not running from them.”

Finding my way to her as she fiddled with my watch and other various things that sat in a large ornamental bowl on the dresser, I asked, “Is there anything I can do to help?”

Looking up at me over her shoulder, she gave a small smile. “Yes. Help me make new ones.”

“Gladly,” I whispered, leaning in to capture her lips. She pulled back, laughing under her breath. “I didn’t mean this second—you’re going to make me late for work!”

“Very very late,” I agreed.

“August!” she yelped, twisting out of my grasp.

“Okay, okay!” I chuckled. “But you owe me—the second you get home.”

“Deal,” she agreed with a Cheshire Cat grin that nearly had me on my knees forgetting everything I’d just agreed to.

“Hey, can I borrow your watch?” she asked, grabbing it from the large bowl.

“Sure, why?” I asked, looking over her shoulder.

“I usually wear one to work and in my rush to pack yesterday, I forgot mine. I can go back to get it but—”

“It’s yours,” I said, placing my hand over hers. “But don’t just settle on that one. There are a few more in there. Take a look and pick whichever one you want. I was going to donate them to charity since I have no need for six different watches.”

“You realize,” she said, standing on her tip toes as she dug through the bowl. “That most people keep these types of watches under lock and key, right? Not in a glass bowl on the top of their dresser? Do you know how much these are worth?” Her eyes darted back to mine with an amused grin.

“Probably a fortune, and I’m sure the old me cared about that kind of shit…but really? It’s just a watch. It tells time just as well as something I could pick up at Target.”

“I’m pretty sure some people would argue with you on that,” she laughed, trying on another bold silver watch. She held out her arm to look at it and then shook her head and moved on.

“Yeah—rich snobby people.”

“Like you?” she teased.

“I’m rich, but definitely not snobby.”

“No,—hey, what’s this?” she asked as her hand dug to the bottom of the bowl.

I came to join her and saw her hesitantly pull out the tiny green bead I’d found in my coat pocket when I was in the hospital.

“Maybe you can tell me,” I said as she swiveled around to face me.

“What do you mean?” Her eyes were wide, like I’d said something to ignite panic.

“I found it in my belongings when I was in the hospital. It was in my coat, so it must have been there the night of the mugging. I just thought you might know what it is,” I said, placing my hand on her shoulder.

“I’ve never seen it before,” she said, jerking back as she eyed the tiny green bead.

“Hey, are you all right?”

“Sorry,” she mumbled, averting my gaze. “It’s just that night—it was scary. I don’t like reliving it.”

God, I’m an idiot.

“No—shit, of course not. Come here,” I said, pulling her closer. She came into my arms and I felt her shaking against me. “I’m so sorry, Everly. I’ll never mention it again.”

I felt her nod as she pulled herself back together.

“It’s okay—you didn’t know. I better get ready for work. I’m definitely going to be late if I don’t hurry.”

“Sure, of course,” I answered, watching her flee for the guest bedroom.

Would she ever stop running?

Over the next few days, Everly and I settled into a happy rhythm. I woke up with her early in the morning, sometimes waking her myself with a dip beneath the covers or a gentle kiss to pull her from her slumber.

Alarm clocks were greatly overrated.

Most days she’d make it to work on time, although I had made her late a time or two. She’d threatened life and limb if I kept it up so I just woke her up earlier. She wasn’t too pleased.

At first.

I found Everly was easy to persuade once my mouth was buried deep between her legs. Of course, much the same could be said of me when the situation was reversed and she was in the driver’s seat. If Everly wanted anything, it could be hers in those moments when I was buried deep inside her.

But the only thing she asked for was more.

And more was exactly what I gave. Every damn time.

Everly showing up at my house that night, angry and hurt, had changed my entire life. I’d never thought I’d get a single smile from her, much less be able to reach for her without her recoiling in fear. What I thought might have been lingering feelings left over from a former life only intensified with each passing day.

The more I learned about her, the deeper our connection grew…and the further I fell.

It wasn’t just the girl in the picture I was falling for; it was Everly, the coffee-addicted, quick-witted woman who always managed to keep me on my toes. She was funny, bright, and she could make dynamite pasta out of basically nothing.

It was a wonder I could keep my hands off her for a second.

It was also the excuse I gave myself for driving toward the café instead of home after running errands early one afternoon, with hope I could take her out to a late lunch.

Parking was a bitch, as was the case in most of San Francisco, so I ended up several blocks away and had to huff it to the café on foot. Luckily, the fog had mostly cleared and the sun was attempting to peek through the clouds, bringing the promise of warmer weather with it. The light jacket I wore hopefully would no longer be needed later in the day. San Franciscans, I learned, loved the sun. They wouldn’t live anywhere else. This foggy, cloud-covered city was the only place in their eyes, but when the sun managed to make its way through the gray sky, it was like a damn miracle. People flocked to the parks, bike rentals sold out, and everyone ran out to enjoy the great outdoors.

As the heat from a small ray of sunshine warmed my chilled face, I didn’t blame my fellow city dwellers one bit.

Not one damn bit.

Just as I reached the little café, my phone began to buzz in my pocket. Curiosity got the best of me and I reached in to grab it, wondering who could be calling me.

I very rarely received calls. I had been in the hospital for over two years and had not had a single visitor, so I considered myself not exactly popular.

The name “Trent” flashed across the screen, the same name my attorney had mentioned a while ago. Although seeing the name piqued my interest, I seriously wondered if this call wasn’t going to be like all the others. This wasn’t the first random phone call or blast from my past, as I liked to call them. I’d been naive in the beginning and had answered a few, only to discover that my attorney was quite the talker, and word had gotten out that I had miraculously “risen from the dead.” Many of my former acquaintances had called, saying they wanted to check on my progress now that I was out of the hospital. When asked why they hadn’t bothered checking on me sooner, I received several colorful answers, including one from a Mr. Parker who said he knew me from “the club”, but who said he hadn’t wanted to bother me in my delicate state.

I’d been in a coma.

For two years.

I wised up quickly to the money-grubbing assholes and stopped answering my phone. My former life had been filled with fake people and their fancy shit. I’d had enough. I stuffed the phone back in my pocket and reached for the café’s door handle.

Everly had once said she loved working at the coffee shop not only for the endless supply of coffee but also because it was never the same from one day to the next. Because she and her coworkers always divided up the duties, she would end up working the counter one day and barista the next. It kept her on her toes.

As I walked in that afternoon, her smiling face wasn’t the first thing I saw—which meant she was the one in charge of the crazy machinery that churned out the caffeine. As I heard her call out a double whipped, extra hot something or other, I began to understand why she took her coffee plain and black.

I had no idea coffee could be so damned confusing.

“Can I help you?” A perky young blonde asked from behind the counter.

“Yes,” I answered, giving her a lazy smile.

“What can I get you, handsome?” she winked.

“Actually, I’m just here for Everly. Wanted to see if she had lunch plans.”

She looked me up and down. Her caramel brown eyes assessed me before she turned and hollered over the noise. “Everly, you have a visitor!”

“Okay!” she yelled back, and I saw a tuft of her red hair peeking over the tops of the coffee machines.

“And who might you be?” the blonde asked, placing her hands down on the counter as if she had all the time in the world. I looked behind me, realized I was indeed the only person in line, and grinned.

“I’m Everly’s—”

“Friend,” Everly rushed over and cut me off. “Longtime friend,” she stressed again.

“Well…does your hot friend have a name?” the blonde asked, now looking me up and down like I was a large slab of steak and she was a caged lioness just waiting to sink her teeth in.

“August,” I answered, holding out my hand in greeting, although my eyes never left Everly’s.

“Well, feel free to visit more often, August. Much more often,” she purred.

“Will do. And I’m sorry,” I said, turning my attention back to her. “I didn’t catch your name.”

“Trudy,” she answered, blushing.

“Nice to meet you.” I gave her a wink before Everly tugged me away.

“I’m going to take my lunch break. I’ll be back in an hour,” she said as we made our way toward the door.

“Okay, hon. Enjoy!”

We stepped out into the fresh air and began walking—no place or destination in mind. Just mindless, silent walking.

“So, do you think you could get me Trudy’s phone number?” I finally asked, the bitterness clear in my tone.

“Just stop.”

I froze on the street corner, anger radiating through my veins.

“You’re angry at me?”

“Yes! Why didn’t you call or tell me you were going to stop by?” she yelled.

“Would that have made it better, Everly? Would that have given you time to make up a better story about who I was or why some guy other than Ryan was coming to take you out to lunch? Because that’s what this is all about, isn’t it? You haven’t told them?”

“It isn’t any of their business,” she said softly.

“It isn’t any of their business or it isn’t worth telling anyone? Because I remember you telling me you and your coworkers were pretty damn tight, so if you can’t admit what’s going on to them, who can you tell? Have you told anyone?”

Silence followed, telling me exactly what I wanted to know.

“Is this a joke to you?”

“What?” Her eyes grew wide. “No, August. God, no.”

“Then why do I feel like the biggest idiot in the world right now, Everly?”

Her arms wrapped around me and as confused as I was, I sank into her warmth. “I’m sorry. It’s still all so new. I’m still working through what to say—what to tell everyone. No one knows about that part of my past. I don’t know how to explain you.”