pale and bloated became visible. Pale moonlike disks
surrounded us, floating like buoys on the surface of the
river. I leaned out of the dinghy, squinting to make out what
the queer shapes were and clapped a hand over my mouth
to stifle a scream when I saw they weren’t buoys but
disembodied heads. Al around us cold, dead faces
bobbed in the water, their hair fanning like seaweed, their
vacant eyes staring straight at us. The one closest to me
had once been a woman, but now her skin was puckered
and gray like she’d spent too much time in the bath. The
severed head knocked ghoulishly against the side of the
boat. I swal owed back the questions on the tip of my
tongue when Tucker threw me a warning look.
When he moored the boat near a flat outcrop of rock, I
leapt out grateful y. We were standing in an alcove that was
about the size of a smal inlet. In the center was a body of
water shimmering like diamonds. It flowed into several
tributaries to an unknown destination. It was so clear I could
see straight through to the pebbled floor. The rocks where
we stood had been worn smooth as silk. I gave Tucker a
questioning glance, unsure whether it was safe to speak yet
or not.
“This is the place I was tel ing you about,” he said. “This
here is the Lake of Dreams.”
“The one that wil take me back home?” I asked,
remembering our last conversation that had been cut short
by Jake’s arrival.
“Yes,” Tuck said. “Not physical y, of course. But you’l be
able to go there in your mind.”
“So what now?”
“If you drink a mouthful, you’l be able to see what your
heart most desires. The water acts like a drug, only it stays
in your bloodstream for ages. You’l be able to project
anytime, anywhere.”
I didn’t need further encouragement. I moved quickly to
kneel at the lake’s edge and scooped the crystal-clear
water into the palm of my hand. Without hesitating I raised
my cupped hand to my mouth and drank eagerly.
A gentle hypnotic hum began in the air like the whirring of
cicadas. I leaned in closer scanning the surface of the
water for a sign. Looking into the lake made me feel
disconnected from my body, as if I were fal ing under a
spel . Suddenly I had a sensation very much like being hit in
the chest with a punching bag. When I exhaled, I saw my
own breath like a glowing orb. It hovered in front of me just
inches from the water. Inside it, thousands of tiny bal s of
white light skittered furiously. I watched the orb descend
slowly and disappear.
“Don’t worry,” I heard Tucker whisper. “The lake is
reading your memories so it knows where to take you.”
For a while nothing happened and there was only the
sound of our combined breathing. Tucker was talking to
me, but his voice was muffled. Then I couldn’t hear him at al
and realized why. I was looking down at him from above.
The lake and its surroundings began to dissolve although I
knew I was stil physical y there.
A panic began to rise as a new location formed around
me. At first it appeared pixelated, like a photograph
someone had tried unsuccessful y to enlarge. But when it
came slowly into focus, I was no longer afraid.
Instead I felt a rush of emotion so powerful it felt like
tumbling headlong into a whirlpool. I was going home.
11
Reunion
THE kitchen at Byron Street was exactly as I remembered
it; large and airy with views of the frothy ocean on every
side. I was standing in the middle of it with al my senses
functioning and yet I knew I was only a spectator watching
from the sidelines. I could move freely in the space and yet I
wasn’t part of it. It was like watching the opening of a movie
from inside the screen. It was early morning. I could hear
birdsong as wel as the whistling of the kettle on the bench
top. The French doors were open and someone was
mowing the grass at Dol y Henderson’s place next door.
There was a tiered cake plate with iced cupcakes that I
remembered Ivy baking some days before I’d disappeared.
They hadn’t been touched and looked stale now. A vase of
wilting cornflowers also sat on the bench, a reminder of the
cheerful place the kitchen had been just a few days earlier.
In the next second the scene burst into life. Xavier was
sitting at the kitchen table with his head in his hands, just a
few meters from me. His posture drew my attention
because I’d never seen him slumped over like this before.
He was wearing a familiar fitted gray T-shirt and
sweatpants, but the stubble on his face suggested he
hadn’t made it to bed that night.
I wil ed myself to move closer to him and was excited to
find I could do it without too much effort. The proximity was
dizzying. I wanted so badly to reach out and touch him, but I
couldn’t. My ghostly self had no substance and my hand
passed straight through him. Xavier looked different. I
couldn’t see his face properly, but his shoulders and the
muscles in his forearms were tense. I could feel the sense
of grief hanging in the room.
The scent of freesia wafted past me, a fragrance I knew
only too wel . My sister appeared in the doorway and
looked at Xavier with concern. Ivy appeared as angelic and
composed as ever, but the uncharacteristic crease in her
brow betrayed her. I could see she was overcome with
worry.
“Can I get you anything?” she asked Xavier gently.
“No, thanks,” he replied. He sounded distracted, as if his
mind were far away, and he barely raised his head.
“Gabriel’s gone back to visit the Knox place,” Ivy
continued. “He thinks he might pick up some clues.”
Xavier was too lost in his own brooding thoughts to reply.
Ivy came to stand beside him. Reading his mood, she
placed a tentative hand on his arm. He jerked at her touch,
not al owing himself to be comforted.
“We mustn’t lose heart. We’l find her.”
Xavier raised his head to look at her. His face was paler
than I’d ever seen it and there were circles under his bright
blue eyes. His lips were pressed into a hard line. He looked
forlorn, consumed by his grief. I wanted to reach out and
take his face in my hands, to tel him that I was okay—
trapped, lonely and miserable but otherwise unharmed. I
might not be in his arms where we both wanted me to be,
but I was coping. I was surviving.
“How?” he said after a long interval. He struggled to keep
his voice even. “We have no idea where he’s taken her …
or what he’s doing to her.” That last thought proved too
much and his voice cracked.
I felt a cold lump of dread rise in my throat. If they had no
idea where I was, what hope did they have of ever finding
me? Neither Gabriel nor Ivy had actual y witnessed my
disappearance so al they had to go on was Xavier’s
sketchy report of what he’d seen before Jake had run him
down. As far as they knew I might be held hostage in some
remote corner of the globe.
“Gabriel’s working on it,” Ivy said, trying to sound
confident. “He’s good at figuring things out.”
“Shouldn’t we be there with him?” Xavier said helplessly.
“He knows what to do, what signs to look for.” There was
an awkward lul in their conversation when al that could be
heard was the ticking of the hal clock.
“It’s my fault,” Xavier said final y. Saying the words out
loud seemed to offer him some relief. “I should have been
able to protect her.” His eyelashes looked wet with tears,
but he brushed them away before Ivy could see them.
“No human stands a chance against that sort of power,”
said my sister. “You can’t blame yourself, Xavier. There’s
nothing you could have done.” Xavier shook his head
adamantly.
“Yes, there is,” he said through gritted teeth. “I could have
stayed with her. If I hadn’t been fooling around down at the
lake, none of this would have happened.” He curled his
hands into tight fists and swal owed hard. “Don’t you see? I
promised I’d look after her and I let her down.”
“You didn’t know. How could you know? But you can help
Beth now by not fal ing apart. Be strong for her sake.”
Xavier squeezed his eyes shut and nodded.
“Gabe’s back,” said Ivy, way before the key even turned
in the lock. Xavier rose from his chair and seemed to falter
forward. Minutes later Gabriel appeared in the kitchen.
Even though he was my brother and I knew him as wel as
anyone could, his radiance stil made me gasp. His perfect,
marblesculpted features were severe. His silver eyes were
solemn and his face grave.
“Any luck?” asked Ivy.
“I think I found something,” Gabriel said hesitantly. “It
may
be a portal. I could smel sulfur on the highway near the
Knox house.”
“Oh, no.” Ivy moaned and sank into the nearest chair.
“Why is that important? A portal? What’s a portal? A
portal to where?” Xavier asked his questions in rapid
succession, but Gabriel answered in a measured voice.
“There are openings in this world,” he said, “that lead
directly into other realms. We cal them portals. They can
appear randomly or they can be conjured by someone
powerful enough.”
“What kind of realms? Where’s Beth?” There was a
rising panic in his voice.
I’m right here
, I wanted to cal out
but my voice failed me.
“The asphalt on the highway was burned,” Gabriel
observed, sidestepping the question. “And everything
around it scorched. There is only one place that can leave
behind marks like that.”
Xavier took a breath as if to steady himself. I could see
the moment when the truth behind Gabriel’s words dawned
on him.
“That can’t be true,” he said weakly, his rational mind stil
struggling to comprehend.
“It’s true, Xavier.” Even Gabriel had to turn his face away
in order not to witness the effect he knew his words would
have. “Jake has dragged Bethany into Hel .”
Xavier looked as if his worst nightmare had been
realized. The news hit him like a slap in the face. His jaw
dropped and his eyes stared fixedly at my brother, as if he
were waiting for him to burst out laughing and reveal the
whole thing was a bad joke. He stayed that way for several
long minutes, as though he had turned to stone. Then
suddenly his whole body seemed to shudder with anguish.
My ghostly self, as insubstantial as vapor, grieved
alongside him. We made a sad and sorry pair—the human
boy and the apparition he could not see but who loved him
more than anything in the world.
Everyone it seemed was behaving out of character in my
absence. Gabriel did something then I’d never seen from
him before. He crossed the room and knelt down before
Xavier, his hand resting lightly on his arm. It was a sight to
behold—an archangel kneeling before a human in an
expression of humility.
“I’m not going to lie to you,” Gabriel said, looking him
directly in the eye. “I’m not sure how to help Bethany now.”
These were the words I most dreaded hearing. Gabriel
never glossed over the harsh truth. It wasn’t in his nature.
What he was doing now was preparing both himself and
Xavier for the worst.
“What are you talking about?” Xavier cried. “We have to
do something! Beth didn’t choose this. She was
kidnapped, remember? That’s actual y a criminal offense in
my world. Are you saying it’s okay in yours?”