His Love Shattered (Love Shattered #2) (8 page)

Courtney

The second Dexter ripped my panties off and then my shirt something feral took over my body. My inner sex kitten wanted to come out to play. I decided to let her out in full force tonight.

The second he entered me, my body felt like a volcano about to erupt. I have had plenty of orgasms before but with Dex… he takes me to a whole new level. The sex with Dexter and me. It’s fucking incredible.

He flipped me over onto my back and stroked and kissed my skin like it was his greatest treasure. He was gentle with me but his thrusts were powerful bringing me right where I wanted and needed to be.

“Oh God Courtney you feel so good. So tight and wet baby I can’t hold out much longer. Come with me Courtney.” Dexter’s sexy growl rings out into my ear.

After we both climaxed together in earth shattering bliss we both just laid there beside each other breathing heavily not saying a word. No words needed to be spoken. Dexter neglected to use protection again and at that point I didn’t even care about that. I loved this man with everything that I had. There was no way I was going to be able to leave him. Especially after what he just told me and what we just shared together.

Seeing my strong handsome man sobbing so hard that his body was shaking brought the reality to life. If I left him it would break him and I just couldn’t do that to Dexter. When Dave was asking me to go with him, he didn’t show even a tenth of the emotion or compassion Dexter just showed me when he practically begged me to stay.

When Dave mentioned that we had the choice to go with him, it was as if he was doing it to be polite. He actually acted like it would be better if we stayed, but he was just throwing it out there that we could go if we wanted. He didn’t beg and plead like he couldn’t live another day without us if we decided not to go with him.

Dexter got up and headed for the bathroom and came back with a warm wash cloth and he proceeded to clean me up. He threw the cloth in the clothes hamper and crawled into bed next to me. He molded my body to his. His body was hard and soft at the same time and also warm but the closeness of our bodies caused me to shiver sending goosebumps along my skin. He tugged me closer burying his face in my hair and then he let out a contented sigh.

“I love you so much Dexter.” I whispered into the dark room.

“I love you too Courtney, more than you will ever know. That was amazing. You don’t think the kids heard all that do you?” He asked causing me to giggle.

“No Dexter. We weren’t that loud and they all sleep with a box fan going to drown out noise. They can’t sleep without the fans so I think we are good to go babe. Plus they were exhausted after our night out at the sports park. I am sure they are sound asleep.” I reassured him but he didn’t look convinced.

“Yeah I was trying to keep quiet as much as I could but we kind of got carried away there at the end.”

“I am sure its fine. Quit your worrying. We should probably get dressed though because they do have a tendency to come in here in the middle of the night if they get scared or need something. I wouldn’t want to scare them even more if they showed up in here to us both being naked.” I slapped my hand across his abs playfully and got up to put on some clothes.

I picked up the ripped items off the floor and threw them in the trash can by my dresser.

“I can’t believe you ripped my clothes. That was sexy as hell Dexter.” I say over my shoulder and I notice him staring at me with a wicked grin.

He walked over to me, wrapped his arms around my back and grabbed my ass. “It was pretty hot wasn’t it baby? You like when I get so lost in you that I can’t even think straight?” His sexy as sin voice washed over my ear.

“Mmm Hmm so hot.” I whisper, he just held me like that for several minutes.

He lets go of me and stalks back over to the bed and sits down on the edge of it. He puts his elbows on his knees and runs his hands through his hair repeatedly. I can tell he is still upset. I wish I could tell him that I have decided to stay but I don’t want to do that to him in case something was to happen that caused me to go with Dave instead. I wouldn’t want to get his hopes up and then have to crush him if that happened.

“Damn it Courtney. I forgot the condom again.” So that’s what is bothering him. My poor handsome guy. So conflicted. I hate that I am doing this too him. I walk over to him and sit down beside him. I place a comforting hand on his shoulder. He turns his head to look at me and I can see the pain clear as day in his eyes.

“Dexter it’s okay, honest. Everything will be fine. Let’s just get some sleep.” I tell him wondering if he picks up on the fact that I don’t mean that I won’t end up pregnant, but the fact that if I do get pregnant I plan on being around to raise the child with him.

“If you say so baby. If you aren’t worried about it then I won’t worry about it. Plus there really isn’t anything we can do about it now and I sure as hell don’t regret what we just did.” He kisses my cheek. I crawl under the covers and wait for him to slip in behind me. When he does my body relaxes into his. I run my hands through his hair until his breathing evens out and I know that he has fallen asleep.

“I love you so much Dex. I am not going anywhere. You are my future now.” I say softly wishing more than anything I could tell him the words when he is awake to hear them but for now it just has to be my little secret.

I haven’t heard a word from Dave and it has been a week. Who the hell does he think he is? He just drops a bomb on me like that then doesn’t show his face again. I know he said he would be back in two weeks for my decision. If he seriously wanted us to go with him I thought I would have at least heard from him again before the two weeks was over.

He isn’t really doing anything to convince me we should leave with him but I have my whole family and Dexter here fighting for me to stay. We will be okay without Dave in our lives. We have survived this long without him. I am sure we can make it the rest of our lives without him too. He claims the house on the island is mine if I want it but I don’t want that house. Not anymore.

If I am being honest with myself, I can see us living with Dexter on the farm and then I could go back to being a stay at home mom again, if that was okay with Dexter that is. I could do some baking on the side, maybe some wedding cakes or cakes for special occasions. Wow I am getting way ahead of myself here. I couldn’t deny that’s where I saw my life going. I just need to get all this stuff with Dave out of the way so we could move forward with our lives.

I will decide in the future if I ever want to tell the kids the truth. When they are older and can understand everything that is going on. They may get furious with me when they find out but they will have to get over it eventually. They wouldn’t stay mad at me forever right? I am their mother and I am just trying to do what I think is right.

I can only hope for the best in that situation hopefully they can find it in their hearts to see where I was coming from.

Dexter stirs in his sleep and I hear him start to murmur something. At first I can’t make out what he is saying but then it comes out clear as day.

“Courtney don’t go. I can be good for you.”

Dexter must be dreaming about me leaving. I feel terrible that I have caused him so much pain. Not only is he dealing with it while he is awake it’s also affecting him in his sleep. I start to run my hands softly through his hair again to calm him down.

It takes a little while but he eventually falls back into a peaceful sleep.

I kiss him on the lips and lay my head down on his chest.

The sound of his heart beating a steady rhythm was starting to lull me to sleep. My eyes grew heavy and the sadness of the day vanished from my mind just from being in his arms.

“I am not going anywhere baby.” I tell him again just before my eyes close.

Dexter

It was now Wednesday and Courtney and I had been back in North Carolina for four days now. Courtney went back to work Monday for the first time since the accident. She would come home every day dog tired but she would put on a happy face when she entered the front door. She wasn’t fooling me though. She could go on and on about how she loves working and supporting her family but I could tell that she missed the kids. I know she would give anything to be home with them all day.

It was summer break and the kids were out of school. I know it broke her heart every morning when she had to leave to go to work knowing that the kids were still asleep in their beds and that she had to work instead of spending the summer with them. It must be so hard for her. She was telling me the other night that they usually did fun things together all summer like going to the water park or amusement park. Taking trips to the beach, bowling, seeing a movie. You name it they did it.

This summer she could only do those fun things on the weekends. The bakery had reached its busy season causing Courtney to have to work Monday through Friday now. She did have off on Mondays and Fridays when she first started working there but when she got back to work after the accident they informed her they needed her every weekday. She was pretty pissed about it because the time off was a major factor in why she took this position. She felt guilty that she had been out of work though and felt like she needed to make it up to them somehow. Having me here is helping her save up some money though and for that I am thankful. She doesn’t have to pay for childcare and the kids are able to do the things they normally do so I am happy that I am here to help.

I wanted to whisk her off to the farm and have them move in with me. Courtney could go back to being a stay at home mom and she wouldn’t have to want for anything. We could spend our summers all together since I am off from filming during the summer months. I knew it was a little too soon to ask her to move to Alabama though. As soon as she makes a decision about what to do with Dave that would be one of the first things I will ask her if she stays.

Jason and Caleb are over at a friend’s house and I have Miley here with me today. I get to take her to dance camp in a little bit and I couldn’t be more excited. I love that Courtney trusts me to be here for the kids, look after them, and take them places they need to go. We had all started getting into a good routine with me being around. I stayed home with the kids whenever they were here and I took them to practices and to do other things.

It was like we had reversed our rolls. She was the one going to work and I was home with the kids doing the stay at home mom routine. If I have it my way before long she will be back into her stay at home mom roll full force by the end of summer.

In the meantime I got to spend a lot of time with the kids and I am getting to know each one of them better. I haven’t had them here all at once yet. I have just had them one at a time which has given me the chance to get to know them one on one without having to spread my attention between the three of them. It has been great.

“Miley are you ready to go to dance camp?” I call for her down the hall. She comes toddling out of her room wearing two tutus and three leotards. She is also wearing her toy bracelets on her arm and a tiara on top of her head. She is wearing a pair of socks over her tights which I am pretty sure may be on inside out I am not really sure. She has her ballet slippers on and she looks so adorable that I can’t help but chuckle at how cute she is.

“Is that what you are supposed to be wearing to dance?” I ask her skeptically.

“Mommy lets me wear this.” She says back to me. Her voice and the expression on her face is so sweet how am I to say no to that?

“Okay lets hit the road then.” Courtney is probably going to kill me when she sees what I let her wear to dance camp but I didn’t have the heart to ask her to change. Dressing yourself has to build up some kind of independence right? See I am learning a few things here.

We arrive to dance camp with twenty minutes to spare. I like being on time for everything and usually show up early everywhere I go. I look out the passenger window through the glass windows to the dance studio and I notice that it looks like I am the only guy here. Great. There is a sea full of women all dressed to the nines. Do they really need to dress up to drop their kid off at dance camp? I open my car door and step out putting my sunglasses over my eyes and slipping a ball cap on. My disguise I use when trying not to get recognized.

I grab Miley out of her car seat and we head inside. The sucky part about having to go indoors is that I have to take my sunglasses off. I slip them off my eyes and stick them onto the collar of my shirt. I walk around with Miley in search of which group of kids she is going to be joining.

Once she is situated with her group I head off to the side away from where everyone else is standing but still staying where I can keep Miley in my sights.

I see a group of moms that keep dipping their heads together talking in a huddle and glancing up at me. I bet they are trying to figure out if I am Eric from
By the Light of the Moon
. I have seen that look many times and have come to recognize it on spot now.

They must have been contemplating on which one would be nominated to come over and talk to me because one of the barbie dolls leaves the group and strolls my way. Just great. I should have known coming to a dance practice that there would be an overabundance of women here.

The lady walks over to me with flirtatious eyes. I have to suppress an eye roll trying not to be rude. She stands next to me putting her hand on my arm and rubbing it slightly. I take a step over breaking the connection.

“Hi I’m Amber. We had a bet going over there. Are you Eric?” She asks me and then giggles.

I hate when people do this. They don’t care about me as a person, all they care about is the character from the show.

“Well my names actually Dexter.” I say not clarifying whether I am “Eric” or not.

“Oh yes of course. So which little girl is yours? I didn’t know you had a daughter.” She says coming close again placing her hand on my shoulder. I shrug her hand off.

“Well there is a lot you don’t know about me. That one there is mine.” I smile proudly as I point Miley out to Amber.

She follows my finger to where I am pointing and a look of disgust crosses her features briefly before she schools her face and goes back to her fake smile.

“What in God’s name is she wearing? You let her leave the house like that?” She has her hand on my arm again. Jeez when is this dance camp thing going to be over? I can’t put up with this much longer. Just then the hairs on the back of my neck prickle and the sense of calm washes over me. I know without having to look that Courtney is standing right behind me.

I hope she doesn’t jump to conclusions seeing this Amber chick with her hands on me.

Courtney surprises the shit out of me though when she comes around to stand in the front of us with a brilliant smile in place. A pure real smile not like the fake one barbie next to me is sporting.

“Hey Dexter.” Courtney says and I take my arm and sling it over her shoulder.

Just as I am about to respond back to Courtney we are rudely interrupted.

“Well hello there. You must be Dexter’s little sister my name is Amber. We were just talking here so if you’ll excuse us.” She did not just try and dismiss my girl like that. What is wrong with people?

I look over at Courtney and she has devilish sparkle in her eyes. Uh oh she is going to start some trouble. I can see it coming.

“Actually… Amber was it?” She asks like she already had forgotten her name. ”Dexter is my husband so I would appreciate it if you would remove your hands from him please.” When she called me her husband my dick stood at attention. Man did I like the sound of that. My girl was sexy when she was pissed. I couldn’t deny that either.

Amber started laughing like she had just been told a funny joke. She obviously didn’t believe that I could be married to Courtney.

I’ll show her.

I grabbed Courtney by the waist with one arm and pulled her close. I grabbed her hair with the other hand. I pull her hair gently to tilt her head up so I can take her lips into a passionate kiss right there in front of everyone. Claiming her as mine so there is no doubt in anyone’s mind that she belongs to me as much as I do her.

Amber stomped her foot and stalked off back to her group where all the ladies stood staring in shock towards Courtney and me with their mouth gapping open.

“Might want to close your mouths ladies, unless you wanna catch some flies.” Courtney yelled and gave them all a cutesy type wave with just her fingers wiggling.

I was just trying not to laugh. Courtney was a feisty little thing. I didn’t know she had it in her.

“Dexter I can’t believe you let Miley dress herself for dance class.” Courtney begins and I feel a lecture coming on so I try and stop her before she can say anything else.

“I know maybe I should have gotten her to change but she looked so cute and proud of dressing herself that I didn’t have it in me to tell her to change. I am just a big softy when it comes to her.” I try to explain myself. I look over at her shyly with an unsure grin. She places her hand on my chest.

“Oh no, Dexter, I am not mad about it. Sorry for making you think that. I was just going to say that I love that you let her wear what she wanted to wear. It’s exactly what I would have done. You are going to make a wonderful Dad someday.” She stands on her tip toes and kisses my cheek.

I can’t help it, I blush like a little girl and my chest swells with pride. She thinks I will make a great dad. It means a lot to me to hear her say that. I just hope that she is referring to herself as being the one to give me children. The kids she already has and the kids that I plan on having with her in the future. Which will be the near future if I don’t remember to wrap it up from now on.

When Miley’s dance class is finally over, much to my relief I drive Courtney back to work. She had just walked over during her lunch break because she wanted to take a peep at Miley and see how class was going. I drop her off with a quick kiss and then I take Miley to get some lunch before we head home.

After lunch Miley is tired and cranky, so I take her to her room to put her down for a nap. She wants me to read her a story, so I agree. She falls asleep in my lap while I am reading some book about mermaid princesses. I find myself wanting to know how the book ends so I finish the story to myself while she sleeps peacefully in my arms. I lay her down on her bed above the covers and grab a quilt off the couch to cover her up with. She is still wearing her dance get up. I snap a picture of her with my phone so I can always look at it and think back on this day and remember it.

I head to the kitchen to figure out what to cook for dinner. I decide on making a chicken pot pie. I go ahead and get all the ingredients together and throw them into a baking dish, cover the dish and put it in the fridge for now. That way later all I have to do is add the topping before baking.

Look at me becoming a little Suzy homemaker. It’s a good thing my momma taught us how to cook when we were growing up, otherwise we would be having pizza and other various take out on the nights I am home to make dinner.

Jason and Caleb will be staying at their friends again tonight, so it will just be Courtney, Miley, and me for dinner. I can’t wait for her to get home from work. I miss her when she isn’t around.

I think I am also going to tell her that she needs to quit work and that I can help support her. That is what a man should do for the woman he loves. You support and take care of them and I am fully prepared to be that guy. If she decides to leave with Dave she won’t need a job any way. If she plans on staying, then I plan on convincing her to move to Alabama with me. I know she will miss her family but at least my option still allows her to see them whenever she wants.