Honor Thy Teacher (9 page)

“I really miss you hair in my face, and the way your innocence tastes”

I lumped formed in my throat and I switched off the radio and rode home in silence. I
couldn’t
give her anything but heartache.

Chapter Fourteen

I awoke on the couch, reaching out for someone who
wasn’t
there. I
couldn’t
bring myself to sleep in my bed alone. I ran my fingers through my hair and stumbled into the kitchen, pouring a cup of coffee. I looked around for my phone and realized I had left it in my car last night. As I opened the door, a tiny scrap of paper fluttered to the ground. I picked it up and flipped it over in my fingers. I read it over. As the words sank in, I let it flutter to the ground. I sprinted to my car and immediately began calling Emma. Her phone rang endlessly. I ran back up the steps, grabbing the note as I pulled on clothing. I needed to make sure she was okay. If anything happened to her because of me, I
wouldn’t
be able to live with myself.

I made it across town in record time. Emma’s driveway sat empty. I called to be sure but she
didn’t
answer. I banged on the door, hoping that she was okay. The door flew open and there she stood, looking slightly shocked and
absolutely delicious
.
She was wearing nothing but an oversized t-shirt. I had to take a moment to regain my composure.

“William?” My name sounded sweet across her lips.

“Are you okay?” I searched her face for any sign of distress.

“I’m fine.” She said as she walked into the kitchen. I reluctantly stepped inside, not wanting anyone to see me. “What’s wrong?” She asked as she prepared her breakfast.

“Why didn’t you answer my calls?” I was growing frustrated with her calm demeanor.
Was she ignoring me on purpose?

“I was going to as soon as I ate something.” She held the spatula up to show me she was in fact busy.
“Why are you here? If my Aunt was home she would call the police!”
I watched her pull out an extra plate, so I knew I was right that no one else was home. Her shirt lifted as she reached in the cupboard, revealing her small cotton panties. I felt myself grow hard.  I cleared my throat.

“I parked down the street. Has anyone come by here?
Anyone who seemed strange?”
She
didn’t
seem to take my urgency seriously.

“Only you” She joked. I rolled my eyes at her and took the extra plate of food from her hand. “Why? Is someone looking for me?” She asked. I tried not to look too worried. I ran my hands through my hair and let out a deep sigh.

“I can’t stop thinking of you.”
Her eyes met mine and I could think of nothing else. She flushed red and looked away. “Look at me.” She had no idea how
absolutely beautiful
she was.
When her eyes
met
mine
I couldn’t keep myself from touching her. I stroked her cheek with the back of my hand. She
didn’t
recoil. She bit her lip and it was my undoing. I found her lips with mine. My fingers laced throughout her hair.

“We
can’t
” She
moaned as I kissed a trail down the hollow of her throat. I turned her around, bending her body over the table.
The cotton panties peeking out from under her shirt.

“You better show me your room before I fuck you right here.”
I traced the line of her underwear with my fingertip.

“Okay” She panted.

“Good girl” I whispered into her ear before pulling back and allowing her to stand. I followed her down the narrow hallway, anxious to touch her again. I was drunk off her beauty. I could no longer resist the pull she had on me.

As we reached the doorway
, I could no longer hold back. I lifted her and carried her inside, kicking the door closed behind us. She wrapped her arms around me and for once, I
didn’t
recoil at the touch. I laid her down on her bed and began to undress. She watched me with large doe eyes, biting her lip as she waited for me to touch her again. I took in the length of her legs as I undid my belt. She was perfection.

“You have no idea the things I want to do to you.” The words burned as they left my lips. She really had no idea the things that ran through my mind.
I struggled internally not to become tha
t person with her, but
there is nothing I want
more
.
She reached for me, letting her fingers glide down my stomach.
Clearly
she knew she was breaking one of my rules. I captured her wrists in my hand and forced her back onto the bed, coming to rest on top of her.
“I like it when you fight.”
My words coming out in a growl.
She bucked her hips against me. I gripped her tighter, forcing her hands above her head.
Submissive perfection.
I quickly secured the belt around her wrists and took a moment to admire her. “That’s better” I smiled at her as an amused grin played across her face. I ran my fingertips down the length of her body. When I reached her
hips
I gripped them tightly and pulled her towards the edge of the bed. She gasped at the sudden movement. I only wish I could have seen her expression when I flipped her over onto her stomach. He
r
body folded at the hip as her legs hung over the edge of the bed. I quickly lowered my pants and took my time slowly peel
ing her panties off
her backside, letting them fall to the floor around her knees.

I brought my hand down across her backside. She gripped the blankets in her fists and whimpered. I stuck again, this time entering her before she could catch her breath.
She moaned. I
didn’t
stop her. I snaked my hand up to her mouth and let her cries
be muffled
by my fingers. I thrust into her rapidly, without compassion. Her body went stiff beneath me. I made sure she heard how please
d
I was by her. Her tongue ran across the length of my fingers. I bit gently on her earlobe as my fingers slipped into her mouth and she sucked them gently. I moved in rhythm with her mouth, pushing her farther as my other hand gripped her hair. I felt her begin to tighten around me and I was dangerously close to coming.

“Emma!” A voice called out from the other end of the house. I clamped my hand tightly over her mouth as her body shook below me. I slid painfully slow inside of her and held still, listening.

“Shhh
..”
I breathed in her ear as her body finally stilled beneath me.
“We will finish this later. You really need to get your own place.”
I quickly undid her hands and began to get dressed. She lay motionless before me. I pulled her panties back up her thighs, followed by kisses.

“Go see what she wants before she comes back here.”
She reluctantly got off the bed. Her eyes fixed on my chest. “We will finish this later.” I promised her as I watched her turn and leave. I pulled on my shirt and walked over to her bedroom window. It was already unlocked.
I’d
have to remember that. I glanced at a picture of her that looked to be a year or two old. She was smiling and
sit
t
i
ng in the sun, her long dark hair hung perfectly around her face. I slipped it into my pocket before I climbed outside and made my way down the road to my car.

I sat with my hands on the steering wheel, clenching it tightly, trying to convince myself to leave. My phone vibrated in my pocket.

This is a bad idea.

My heart sank in my chest as I read the words. I
was too far gone to be denied
her any longer.

It is too late for that. Are you alone?

I hoped she
wouldn’t
turn me away. I could still feel her against my skin. I
couldn’t
imagine not feeling that again.

I am in my car

She
didn’t
say no. I needed to see her.

Where are you?

The grocery store near my house.

I will be right there.

I
couldn’t
drive fast enough to be closer to her. My obsession with her was making me sick. There was no way around it now, she was going to get hurt and it would be by my hands. If I
had
any feelings at all I would have drove the other way.

I pulled into the grocery store park
ing lot and searched for her car.
It was getting harder and harder to breathe.

Chapter
Fifteen

As soon as I saw her, I could not take my eyes off her. She stared at me expectantly. I knew the damage
was already done
. I
didn’t
deserve her.

“Are you okay?” I asked, walking slowly, hoping she
didn’t
turn me away.

“I’m fine” I released the breath I
didn’t
know I was holding and took her face in my hands. I kissed her softly on the forehead. I could tell something was bothering her, but I was
fairly certain
it was not me.

“I’ll get your things. Wait in my car.” I clenched my jaw as I thought of what must have transpired between Emma and her aunt.
I grabbed her purse and headed back to my car
, willing myself not to care
.
I knew she was having doubts about us now. Her texts messages replayed in my mind.

“Find everything?” She asked as I slid her purse into the back seat. I nodded, not wanting her to see the anger that boiled under the surface. It made me sick that anyone would hurt her. I tucked her hair behind her ear. The irony of my thoughts was not lost on me.
I
hoped one day she would confide in me
. I wanted to know why she was so self-destructive. I had always been
pretty reckless
with my own life, but I couldn’t bear to see her destroy hers.
Perhaps that is all I was to her, a way to destroy herself.