King 02 - Breathless (8 page)

“Ah,” he answered appreciatively. “Did your mother take pictures?”

“Maybe,” I answered cautiously.

“I know she did. Make sure I get one, okay? Email it to me this afternoon. How are you beyond your wardrobe?”

I wanted to answer breezily and offer him assurance, but, as always, the more overwhelming need was to share my heart with him.

“I’m a little nervous, and kind of tired,” I admitted. “I didn’t sleep well last night. Bad dreams.”

Even across the miles, I could sense the shift in his tone. “About last year? Nell?”

“Kind of…” I hesitated. “It was more than that. It wasn’t the old nightmares where we don’t get away. It was… I thought I was in the cafeteria, and Nell was there, talking to me. She was warning me.”

Michael’s apprehension was palpable. “About what?”

“Ms. Lacusta. Telling me not to trust her, things like that. I know it was a dream, but Michael, it felt so real. I would have sworn I was really there, and so was Nell. She was… she was wearing a strait jacket.”

He sucked in his breath. “Yeah, I can see how that would freak you out. But you’re right, it was just a nightmare. Probably because you’re nervous about going back to school, and maybe even a little scared about seeing Ms. Lacusta again.”

“She didn’t bother me the rest of last year,” I reminded him.

“I know, but you’ve gone all summer without being around her, and now you’re going back. It would give me bad dreams. But that’s all it is. Try not to worry.”

I was quiet a moment, thinking. Then I frowned. “Why aren’t you in class? I thought you had an early lecture today.”

He laughed again. “I do. I excused myself and slipped out for a minute. Just wanted to check on you and remind you that I’m thinking of you today.”

“Wish I could hear you,” I murmured wistfully.

“Me, too,” he agreed. “Have you tried to listen all the way up here? We really don’t know what the radius of your ability is, after all.”

I sighed, heavily. “Yes, actually I
have
tried. Sometimes lying in bed at night… but all I get is the noise from the neighbors and then so much sound that I couldn’t find you even if it did stretch that far. Too much interference.” I made a face, frustrated at my own limits.

“Well, good thing we have telephones then,” Michael remarked. “And right now I need to turn mine off again and get back to that lecture. Remember I love you. Have a good first day. I’ll call you tonight.”

“I love you, too,” I returned, but I wasn’t sure he heard me, since there was nothing but emptiness on the other end.

The parking lot was beginning to fill with other cars. Slowly I climbed out and locked the doors. Tossing my bag over my shoulder, I headed for the school.

My locker assignment was the same as last year, and I walked there simply to have a destination. There were some students already on the walkways; most of them seemed very young, and I guessed they were freshmen.

The school is so big… I know we came here for orientation, but I don’t remember anything… I can’t open this locker! Where is my first classroom? Why does everyone but me seem to know the way around?

I hid a smile of sympathy. I had been in that frame of mind so many times during all of our moves. I knew that within a week, most of them would feel as though they’d been here forever.

“Tasmyn!” A voice cut through my musings, and I turned to see Amber hurrying toward me, smiling.

What a difference a year made! When I had met her, Amber had been a rather non-descript quiet girl, fearful of the new friends she’d made (and rightfully so, as it turned out) and cowed by her dread of being alone again. She had dressed to blend, walked with her eyes down and never seemed at ease.

But the young woman approaching me now bore almost no resemblance to that girl of a year ago. Last spring, Amber had put herself into the hands of Anne’s mother, who cut her hair into a becoming new style that shaped her pretty face. Anne and I had taken her on several shopping excursions, mostly in the thrift and consignment shops of nearby towns, and now Amber sported a flattering wardrobe of bright colors.

But the biggest change was in her eyes. No longer did she look at the ground; now she met the gazes of those around her with a confidence that I knew drew admiring glances—and thoughts—of several of the boys near us. Amber didn’t pay much attention to them, as she was beaming at me.

“You look so pretty!” she exclaimed, and I could feel that she was intent on distracting me from missing Michael. “I love that skirt. And you were smart to leave your hair curly. It’s so muggy today.”

I smiled in appreciation of her friendship. “Thanks. You look wonderful yourself.”

Amber giggled and gave a little spin. “Kudos to my personal stylists. Anne helped me pick this out before she left.” As if just now recalling the absence of our friends, she glanced around. “Seems funny not to have them here, doesn’t it?”

I nodded in agreement. “Very lonely.”

Amber bit her lip. “Sorry. I didn’t mean to bring it up. I know today has got to be hard for you. Is there anything I can do?”

I reached out to give her a quick hug. “You’re already doing it. You’re a good friend, Amber. Thanks.”

The bell rang, and I turned toward my history classroom. “See you at lunch?”

Amber waved as she moved away from me. “Of course! I’ll save you a seat!”

As I had expected, I loved my first class immediately. Ms. Jones was a tall woman whom I guessed to be in her mid-thirties. She presented her plan for the year in an organized and understandable manner, and she made it clear what she expected from all of us. The only thoughts I picked up from her reinforced what I heard her speak aloud.

Physics and calculus were as torturous as I had feared, although Mr. Stevens, my science teacher, seemed to be reasonable in his expectations of the class. He, too, seemed genuinely excited about his subject matter, and I was relieved to note that he was an unlikely candidate for a coven leader, in contrast to Ms. Lacusta, my junior year science instructor.

After I escaped calculus, I made my way to the office to meet with Ms. Ross, the guidance counselor. The outer room was filled with freshmen, most with scheduling problems or locker difficulties. It was the lunch period for the freshmen and sophomores, and they all seemed very needy. Their thoughts were nearly as loud as their voices, and I concentrated hard on tuning them out.

“Tasmyn! Tasmyn Vaughn! Can you hear me?” A voice cut through my focus, and confused, I looked up into the quizzical brown eyes of the guidance counselor.

“Sorry,” I muttered, flushing. “It’s pretty noisy in here. I guess I just was in my own little world.”

“Come into my office,” she invited, stepping through a small door near the reception desk. I followed her in, and she closed the door.

“Freshmen,” she sighed, dropping into the chair behind her desk. “It’s the same every year. I don’t know why we bother to have orientation if no one is going to listen anyway—well, that’s not your problem. I’m sorry. Let’s see what we have here.”

Ms. Ross flipped open a manila folder in front of her, and I felt her trying to gather her scattered thoughts and focus on me.

What’s she here for… oh, yes, independent study assignment. That’s right… where is that other sheet…

Finally she looked up at me and smiled. “We have you scheduled for independent study during this class period. As you know, generally we encourage students who have completed or are in the process of completing their requirements for graduation to take an elective. However, you didn’t want to take woodshop or home ec?”

I shook my head. “Not if I can help it.”

“Well then, the requirements for independent study usually involve you deciding what area of study you’d like to focus on during this time and finding a teacher who is willing to facilitate that study. Generally you’ll spend the class period itself in the library. However…” She flipped over a piece of paper and then rested her elbows on the desk, scanning the words.

“However, sometimes a teacher will request a particular student. We always send a list of independent study students to the faculty, and if an instructor feels that one of those students would benefit from his or her personal instruction, he or she will volunteer to facilitate. We like to encourage this, since frequently the students themselves may not know what area of study suits them best.”

Presentiment was never my gift, but I was beginning to feel a creeping dread. I could feel that Ms. Ross expected me to be flattered and impressed by the teacher who had chosen me, as one of them obviously had. I could only hope that it was either Mr. Frame or Mrs. Cook, my history and English teachers from last year.
Please…

Ms. Ross was continuing. “So when this teacher requested you specifically, I was sure that you’d want to follow this course of study. Apparently it is one in which you have a special interest?”

“Which teacher?” I asked, my voice rough and barely above a whisper. I ran my tongue over my lips and tried to calm myself. “Mrs. Cook?”

“Actually, it’s Ms. Lacusta. She told me that you had a wonderful gift for chemistry and that you had enjoyed her class last year. Ms. Lacusta is fairly new here, and she’s never facilitated an independent study course. I think it’s a wonderful opportunity for you.”

It was as though I were back in the cafeteria with Nell.
She’s not going to give up on you… she wants you… she wants your powers…
I flinched.

“Don’t you think?” Ms. Ross was pressing, obviously waiting for my pleased approval.

“I don’t think it’s a good idea,” I answered, clearing my throat. “I—there was the incident last year—”

Ms. Ross was frowning now. “I assume you mean what happened with Nell Massler. Well, that was unfortunate. What was most troubling was that somehow Ms. Lacusta’s name became involved in the whole situation. It was always clear to the administration that she had nothing to do with what happened. Otherwise, of course, action would have been taken and she would no longer be teaching here.”

I shook my head. “But you don’t know—”

Ms. Ross raised her eyebrows. “Oh, I think I do know. Nell Massler was certainly a disturbed young woman. And in her sick mind, she looked upon Ms. Lacusta as more than a teacher. Of course, Ms. Lacusta had been kind to her, but there’s nothing wrong with that. You mustn’t allow the lies Nell told you to color your thinking.”

I was silent. There really was nothing I could say to change this woman’s mind. I could feel the firm set of it.

“I had been thinking more of history or English,” I explained. “Those really are my strengths. I didn’t like chemistry, and I barely made it through the class.”
In more ways than one,
I thought grimly.

Ms. Ross was impatient now. She had thought that her news would excite and flatter me, and my manner of receiving it annoyed her.

“There aren’t any teachers in those subjects available to facilitate,” she informed me briskly. “So you can either accept Ms. Lacusta’s kind offer or you can take an elective during fourth period.”

I was at a loss. The idea of purposefully putting myself into the hands of the chemistry teacher made my skin crawl. I guessed that even an elective would be a better option, and I opened my mouth to say that.

But just then something occurred to me. It was clear that Ms. Lacusta was not going to give up her pursuit of me. If I refused this option, she’d simply try another direction.

What if I didn’t refuse? What if I agreed to accept her as my facilitator? It would give me the opportunity to find out exactly what she planned to do, to listen to her mind and perhaps to catch her thinking in English once in a while. I could keep one step ahead of her, bolster my own defenses.

Who was it that said
keep your friends close, and your enemies closer?

I took a deep breath. “All right. I’ll take the chemistry study.”

Ms. Ross beamed. “Wonderful. You’re making the right choice. I’ll get it all set up, and you can report to Ms. Lacusta tomorrow during fourth period.”

As I stood and left the small office, I wondered what on earth I’d just agreed to do.