Authors: Marge Piercy
and out of rubble into some venue
of light, of warmth, of dignity, into
whatever peace they imagine. Out
of ruins eerie in their torn decay
where people lived, worked, dreamed
something yet begins to rise and grow.
My junior year of college I played
a record of Archy and Mehitabel
dozens of times. I knew all
the alley cat’s lyrics. I was sure
I was her, poor, ill dressed
in a crowd of cashmere virgins
already had several lovers, a self
administered abortion, working
three jobs to stay in school, a poet
no one but myself took seriously.
Poets weren’t street sluts from Detroit.
I dressed all in black, turtleneck,
black jeans, heavy eye makeup.
Black doesn’t show dirt. Not
infrequently I was hungry. No
winter coat so I shook in the wind
like a tree stripped of leaves. I drank
whiskey as poets were supposed to.
While good girls were locked in dorm
rooms, I wandered, partied, got laid.
I expected little but trouble. Yet
I wrote and began to win prizes.
I still expected to die young, poor
and unmourned, but with a grin,
a wry joke, in love with lady irony.
I’m middle class now and loved
in a funky house I own with money
from writing I saved to buy. I take
in cats. I drink good wine and my
own cooking. I’m still surprised.
Oh mother running an old vacuum
back and forth on a threadbare rug
while my retired father supervised—
if you had the wings of the robins,
jays and cardinals you fed daily
out of the window you’d have flown
to some garden of peach trees
and peonies, a garden of roses
and tomatoes red as lipstick:
a garden where you could sit
on cushions and cats would circle
your feet purring your Hebrew name.
Oh mother your ashes feed
wisteria rampant as your dreams
that withered to salt on your pillow.
You dreamed of love that would
bathe you in radiance and got
the lye of contempt in your throat.
Who ever looked past the faded
housedresses limp on your breasts
to the child still hungering within?
That hunger haunts me staring
from eyes of women in the subway,
women in the unemployment office
women cowering under a rain of fire,
women bruised in emergency rooms.
You are my first muse. Your pain
is my ink. I am the daughter
of your fierce lonely cry: poverty
of respect, of love, of hope.
How long do we mourn our mothers?
Unfinished business. Unspoken
sentences that burn on the night.
Tangled thickets of stymied
love. Steps worn smooth
with scrubbing, never to be
climbed again.
We mourn our mothers till
we ourselves are out
of breath. That umbilical
cord between us, never
really cut no matter how
hard we tried in adolescence
to sever it.
Once there was warm
milk in a sweet stream
Once there was a brush
stroking through my long
hair. Once there was a lap.
Once there was a slap.
Shards of glass.
Will anyone ever come
as close or push as
hard? As we age we
see your face mirrored.
Your diseases weaken
us. Your silences haunt,
your stories echo.
We feared becoming our
mothers yet when we were
not you, we felt guilty.
You made us even when
you hated the results
for you opened your fists
and off we flew.
I put my mother into the garden
I put my father into the sea.
Without her he complained of the fish,
the cold salt water too rough.
Without him she became
a climbing rose and rushed
up the arbor, twining, bursting
into lush pink perfumed bloom.
Gradually he swept out toward
tankers, container vessels,
a passing destroyer. He liked
their engines. He understood
engines. Women were too
emotional. He had to scare them
quiet, but ships had a purpose.
When my cats died, she welcomed
them into her bed. When I
picked her roses, she crooned
to me.
I don’t need lullabies
,
I said.
Everybody nowadays
needs more sleep
, she whispered.
I sleep much better here
.
Snow turns the garden white
as soap powder with blue shadows
striping the abraded furrows.
Even the pebbles in the drive
glint with ice, but inside bent
over an old coffeetable dragged
from the shed, we peruse out loud
seed catalogs, debate inflated
verbiage on tomatoes, peppers,
lettuce. What glorious photos
of polished perfect eggplants,
of even orthodontist rows
of corn kernels like model’s teeth.
Everything is super early, tasty
and resistant to all plagues
known to the studious gardener.
Surely we’ll be buried in squash.
No cuke beetles will nibble on us.
Our harvests are blessed in advance
by glossy pages of promises
that seduce us to order too much
of what will endure weeks of rain,
a month or two of drought, beetles,
chipmunks, deer, hail and hurricane
before we plop it into our mouths,
the freezer, the frying pan, or, alas,
rotting into the compost pile.
The faintest paring of moon rises
tonight just barely silvering the mounds
of snow that used to be cars, fenceposts,
bushes, a wheelbarrow perhaps.
The world has become anonymous
everything painted and padded white
the road the same as the field it ran
through, the tallest bushes bowed.
We are stuck here without exit,
barricaded into silence. The wind
that pelted the windows opaque
that broke the white fir at its base
that pushed tiny crystal knives
sideways and froze birds on their
perches has slunk away to sea
where it harries ships and gulls.
We will dig out. We will clean up.
A plow will come and recreate
the asphalt road. Town will awake
into lights and people will meet
and ask, how was the storm for you?
How long were you without power?
Trees down? We the survivors
cautiously examine our luck.
It was shortly after dawn.
We were passing an inn closed
for the season when I yelled
“Stop!” I’ve often heard night
herons squawking hoarsely
or the screech of a murder
victim deep in the marsh.
Seldom do I see them. They
hunch on dead trees like old
men in cold weather. But
this black crowned night heron
was standing in the driveway
of the inn engaged in mortal
battle with a five-foot-long
water snake twisting, striking
him whose impulse was to fly off
from us but here was a huge meal.
Breeding season. A nest of young
gaping for food. It stood its ground
the snake grasped in its beak
shaking it, biting into it, lashed
by the long muscular tail. We
crept close enough to see
the heron’s bright red eyes
polished buttons glinting fiercely.
It was an epic battle, Laocoon
encircled by serpents, but here
he was winning, barely. Not
a commanding figure, squatter than
most herons, drably plumaged
not the sort of bird we’d cast
as hero, but he wouldn’t give up.
At last he cut through the spine
and slowly overloaded made his
way flying low toward his home.
Robins migrate, all schoolchildren
learn but here on the Cape, every
winter a flock forms and stays,
long frigid months after their
compatriots have flown south.
They live deep in the woods on
hips and berries wizened by cold.
Sometimes they appear here
among the feeder birds, one
or two almost outcasts.
Off Alaska when humpback whales
leave in fall as the waters freeze
and the world turns white, heading
for mating grounds off Hawaii
and Mexico, certain whales remain.
What makes a creature stay when
almost all of its kind have moved on?
In burned-out areas of Detroit,
you’ll notice one house still wears
curtains, a bike locked to the porch.
Sometimes in the suburbs among
tract houses with carpets of grass
one farmhouse lurks, maybe even
with a barn. I imagine its owner
grey and stubborn, still growing
the best tomatoes for miles, refusing
to plant inedible grass, fighting
neighbors about her chickens,
a rooster who crows at four,
her clothesline a flag of defiance.
The ocean gives; the ocean takes away.
I walked the old coast guard road many
afternoons, just behind the last dune.
Storms slammed it down, the waves
ate it entire with the whole front dune.
I remember a summer house where we
dined with friends several times, remember
how one winter it hung awkwardly half
over the cliff and then it was gone.
A lone pipe remained for another year.
On old maps the hills on the Bay called
Griffin Island, Bound Brook Island were
just that and now solid land. Only
marshes of reed and sedge seethe
and ebb where tall ships docked.
The sea is restless and greedy. It mocks
the summer people with their million
dollar houses with huge decks, vast
glass, chews them up to splinters, then
totes their flotsam away to dump on some
beach fifty miles distant as grey drift-
wood. Every spring we visit town beaches
to find the parking lot broken to rough
chunks, the stairs washed away. Ocean
takes no guff from us tiny creatures
but we get ours back by poisoning it.
The rain that came down last night
in sheets of shaken foil while thunder
trundled over the Bay and crooked
spears of lightning splintered trees
is rising now up stalks, lengthening
leaves that wave their new bright
banners tender as petals, seventeen
shades of green pushing into sun.
The soil feels sweet in my hands
as I push little marigolds in.
Bumblebees stir in the sour cherry
blossoms floating like pieces of moon
down to the red tulips beneath
the smooth barked tree where a red
squirrel chatters at my rescued tabby
who eyes him like a plate of lunch.
The wisteria means to creep over the world.
Every day its long tendrils wave in the breeze,
seize the bench under its arbor, weave
round the garden fence obstructing
the path. Its arbor’s long outgrown.
Such avidity. Such greed for dominance.
It has already killed the Siberian irises
it shadowed, stealing all their sun.
Should I admire or resent? Neither.
I go out with loppers and hack and hack.
If it could, it would twine around my neck
like a python; like an angry giant squid
it would pull me into a strangling embrace.
I will grow back, it swears, and outlive you.
Its vigor outdoes mine. It will succeed.
The evening comes slowly over us,
over the cardinal and the wren still
feeding, over the swallows suddenly
swooping to snatch up mosquitoes
over the marsh where the green
sedge lately has a tawny tinge
over two yearlings bending long
necks to nibble hillock bushes
finally separate from their doe
mother. A late hawk is circling
against the sky streaked lavender.
The breeze has quieted, vanished
into leaves that still stir a bit
like a cat turning round before
sleep. Distantly a car passes
and is gone. Night gradually