Never say forever (Never series Book 1) (16 page)

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Yeah I hear you. I love kids too. I would love to have some with Serena when the time is right. She’s also my shining star. I went without her for a brief two weeks. I tell ya man, that was the worst two weeks of my life, and that was before I told her I loved her. I have high hopes for us though,” I say confidently.

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That’s good. I’m glad you found your other half. I always knew someone was out there for you and you found her.” He slaps me on the back as he hugs me.

We arrive at the store and I literally go crazy. I look for anything and everything to make my baby feel better. Ben must think I’m love-crazed based on the items at the checkout. I had soup, crackers, Gatorade, ice cream, teddy bear that says I love you, a dozen roses, some Dayquil/Nyquil, jello and some ginger ale. I’m not sure what she likes so I got everything, so I know that she will feel better at some point. I just want to put that smile back on her face.

We get back to the house and I see Serena scrambling with her purse. I’m not sure what to make of that. Is she hiding something? Maybe she was just putting Abby’s number in her purse. I bring the bags in and set them in front of Serena.

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What’s this?” She has a confused look on her face.

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It’s for you, I bought some things to make you feel better.” She starts opening the bags. Once she gets to the roses and the teddy bear, she starts crying. Fuck! That was not the reaction I was hoping to get. I made her cry.

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I’m sorry baby, I thought that might make you feel better. I can take it back if you don’t like it.” She looks at me with her teary eyes and my heart breaks.

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No, I love it. I’m just so happy. No one has ever done this for me. You just melted my heart. Thank you.” Okay. I feel better now. She’s crying because she’s happy. I can work with that.

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Anytime, Sweetheart.” I kiss her forehead. As I do this I hear clapping. I look up and Abby has got the biggest grin on her face and she’s clapping.

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Oh my goodness, you guys are so cute. Bennie, you should take some pointers from your boy here.” She winks at me.

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Aiden, man. You’re getting me in trouble with your romance. You’re not allowed here if you’re going to outshine me in my own home.” He laughs.

I laugh back at him. “Sorry man, she’s sick.”

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I know. I’m just fucking with you. Do whatever you need to do to make her feel loved,” he said.

Before we leave, Abby and Serena exchange numbers. Abby gives her a big hug and whispers something in her ear. I’m not close enough to hear but I’m not worried about it. I don’t need to eavesdrop. She made a new friend now and I’m happy. I walk her to the car and open her door. I carry her bags and place them in the backseat. I start the car and head home.

I keep glancing at Serena. She still looks ill. She hasn’t really said anything, she’s just staring out the window. I sure hope she’s okay. I feel as if there might be something else she’s not telling me. I wonder if it’s something to do with me. Although, she was really happy when I brought those things, so she can’t be unhappy with me for some reason. I just don’t know what to think.

We arrive at her house and she turns to me. “Thanks for taking me out. Even though I don’t feel well, I still had a good time. Your friends are really nice. I really like Abby. She’s really sweet.” She goes to kiss me on the cheek. I just want to kiss her on the lips but I know her hesitance with it because she’s sick.

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Anytime, baby. We can hang around them anytime you want. You’re welcome in their home anytime. Why don’t you go get some much needed rest and get some fluids in you? I want you better as soon as possible. Ill text you when I get home.” I lift her hand and kiss it. “Goodnight beautiful”

She smiles and says goodnight. I start driving away as she is walking in the house. I had a good time today. I’m really glad that she got along so well with Abby. I still can’t deny the unease I feel because of how sick she is. I hope my baby gets better. Only time will tell. I arrive home and send her a quick text.

My Violet,

Get better honey. I love you and I can’t wait to see you smile again!

I don’t even wait for a text back. I know I probably won’t get one. She’s probably passed out. Still worrying about her, I end up falling

asleep.

Chapter 10

Serena

I arrived home from our dinner with Abby and Ben. I really like Abby, she seems very nice. She also seems very trustworthy. When I left the house, she gave me her number. She whispered to me to text her when I decide to take the test. I feel I can fully trust her. I am not looking forward to taking this test.

I have avoided my mother all day today. I feel as if she may be able to see right through me. I sure hope not. I walk in the house and my mom must be in her room, but it’s a good thing because I can skate on through without her noticing anything.

I enter the bathroom and place my purse on the floor. I sit on the toilet seat trying to collect myself before I take this life changing test. I open the box with shaky hands. I take out the applicator which is in a sealed wrapper. I pull out the instructions. The instructions tell me I have to pee in a cup and then place the applicator in the urine and then it’s the waiting game for two minutes. I don’t see a cup that I can use to pee in. I especially don’t want to use the one on the sink we use to rinse our mouths out when we brush our teeth. That is just gross. Looks like I have to pee on the stick.

I open the wrapper slowly, not anticipating this at all. I take the cap off the portion I’m supposed to pee on. I lift the toilet seat and lower my panties.

It’s now or never.

I lower the applicator in the toilet right under me. I’m trying to hold this still with my trembling hands so I don’t drop this in the toilet. This is my only test, I can’t ruin this. I peed on the stick and placed the cap back on. I set my timer on my phone and put something over the test so I don’t see the result too soon. The box says its two lines for positive and one line for negative.

I put my hands to my head and silently freak out. I can’t believe I’m even in this position. How can I be so dumb? What am I going to do if it’s positive? Is my mom going to turn on me like Cadence? Is she going to ask me to have an abortion? I won’t be able to do that. If I am, I have to keep this baby. This baby would be a creation of mine and Aiden’s love and I can’t tarnish that. What would I even do? I have no job. Aiden isn’t working. I know I could be freaking out for nothing because it could be negative, but what else can I do? It could also be positive.

I haven’t told Aiden about the pregnancy test because I don’t want him to worry. What if he doesn’t even want kids? I know he’s a sweetheart but that’s without a baby thrown into the mix. What if he changes? Will I lose my one and only true love over a night of passion? I don’t even know how this is possible. We used condoms every time and none of them broke, to my knowledge. My mind is working in overdrive with what seems like hours for this test result. My phone finally chimes, alerting me it’s time to check the test. I pick up the test and hold my breath as I look at the results. Two fat pink lines! I’m pregnant.

FUCK!!!

I sat on the floor with my hands over my eyes just silently weeping, trying not to alert my mom just yet. As I am letting everything out my phone chimes with Aiden’s text. My vision is so blurred from the tears I can’t even read the text, but I know it’s something sweet.

I finally regain some composure and text Abby.

Abby, I took the test. It’s positive. I don’t know what to do. I’m freaking out here.

It feels weird that Abby is the first one that I talk to. Larissa has been my best friend for so long, she should be the one I go to. It’s just
that Abby thinks I’m pregnant and she’s the only one who saw right through me. I just need to talk to someone before this gets out. Just then my phone rings and Abby’s name shows on the screen.

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Hello?” I try to sound the best I could but she can probably hear my strained voice from crying. I am also whispering so my mom doesn’t hear.

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First off, congratulations. Second, I’m not sure what you are planning to do but I recommend going to the clinic and getting tested there for confirmation. Sometimes tests can give you false positives.” She is so informative and I’m thankful that she is here to help me.

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I just don’t understand. We’ve used protection every time. We never did it without a condom. Why is god punishing me?” I ask through whisper.

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Honey, condoms are only 98% effective. You can still get pregnant using those. I understand what you’re going through. I’ve gone through the testing and emotions while you try to decide what the hell to do. Believe me girl, I’ve been there and it doesn’t feel pretty. Listen, if you don’t want to be by yourself, I can take you to the clinic tomorrow. Completely up to you,” she said.

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Yeah I’d like that. I don’t want to be by myself. It’s bad enough freaking out in the bathroom by myself.” I wish I had someone here in the bathroom when I took the test. Maybe I wouldn’t have freaked out as much. I really wish Aiden was here. I hope not telling him yet was a good decision.

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Okay, everything will be fine. I’ll pick you up in the morning.” Thank goodness I met her.

***

I end the phone call with her and go to my bedroom. I attempt to fall asleep but it’s very hard with everything clouding my mind. I don’t want to be in this position, especially alone. I wish Aiden was here, but he can’t know about this yet. I’m afraid to tell him.

***

I woke up in the morning to Abby’s phone call telling me she’s on her way. I know I took like complete crap and I don’t even care. I’m wearing sweatpants and a t-shirt but I’m comfy. I don’t even get ready, because let’s be honest. They aren’t going to be worrying about my face, and who am I looking to impress. I’m pretty sure once they confirm pregnancy I’m going to break down, which will defeat the purpose of getting ready.

I texted Abby my address and walked out to the corner of the block. She arrived in a truck. This little petite girl driving a truck? I did not see that one coming. I get in the car. “Aww you still don’t look too good. I hope you feel better. Let’s get to this place.”

I don’t even answer her. I’m not trying to be rude but my emotions are soaring and I just don’t even know what to say. We arrive at the place and sit in the waiting room. My mind is reeling with all the possibilities of what’s to come.

They call my name and I go back. Abby follows me after I give allowance with the doctor for her to enter. “I need you to undress from the waist down and put the blanket over you. I know it seems unusual but we need you to be naked below in case we have to do an internal exam. I’ll give you a few minutes and I’ll be right back. Make yourself comfortable.” The doctor or nurse, whatever she is, walked out the room. Abby turned around so I could undress. I’m nervous as hell. I quickly undress so I can get this over with as quickly as possible.

I am laying in this seat with the blanket over me when the nurse knocks. I tell her it’s okay to come in and she enters. She grabs some equipment I’m assuming she’ll need. I’m new to this, so I have no idea what to expect. She sits right by me and squirts some cold jelly on my stomach. I am already not liking this feeling. I don’t like to be cold. She then moved this object over my stomach that she just covered in this gel. She turns the computer or TV monitor in my direction. “See that?” She points to a little dot, kind of looks like a jelly bean. I nod my head. “That’s your baby. Congratulations.”

I thought I would break down, but I’m amazed. Now that I can actually see the baby in my stomach, I’m in shock. I start crying on the spot. I know it’s silly, but my emotions are running haywire and I don’t know how to stop it. They are happy tears now. I may not know what to do, but I do know that I want that baby. More than anything, that baby is a keepsake of our love.

The nurse walks out to give me some time to digest everything I just found out. Abby walks up to me and hugs me. “Congratulations, girl! I’m so happy for you.”

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I don’t know how to break this to Aiden. He needs to know but I’m afraid of his reaction,” I said.