Authors: Xanthe Walter
going to come and bring you pizza afterwards!"
"Well, you know what they say - no good
deed goes unpunished." Rick said that straight into
his ear, and Matt could almost feel his infuriating
smile as he spoke.
Matt closed his eyes and tried to maintain his
bad mood, but he had to admit there was something
exhilarating about flying down the road on Rick's
Harley. Rick might be reckless and ridiculous, but
there was something reassuringly safe about being
pressed up against his broad chest. Not that Matt
ever intended to let Rick know that; he'd be
insufferable.
Matt was almost disappointed when they
swept through the studio gates. All the same, he
shoved Rick's hand away when he tried to help
him off the bike and threw his helmet back at his
co-star in a huff.
"I hate you," he said, before storming off
towards his trailer with Rick's annoying guffaw
following him all the way to the door.
Their arrival caused such a stir that people
had come out to watch, and Matt flushed and thrust
out his jaw defiantly as he marched to his trailer. It
really was unbearable. He liked his routines. He
liked waking up in his own bed, not on someone's
sofa; he liked being in his own home, with his own
choice of breakfast cereals; and he liked peace and
quiet, not being hauled over some big dom's
shoulders, thrown onto his bike, imprisoned
between his strong arms, and whisked away
against his will. It was… the most fun he'd had in
ages.
He stopped short in surprise, his hand on his
trailer door.
"Are you okay, Matt?" a concerned voice
asked, and he looked around to see Karl standing
nearby, a bemused expression on his face. "That
was quite a dramatic entrance you made back
there."
"Well, it's Rick, so what do you expect?"
Matt snapped. "You know what he's like."
He stomped into his trailer, slammed the door
shut behind him, and stood there, his chest heaving.
He felt strangely exhilarated and alive, and he
couldn't remember ever feeling like this before.
Damn it - this was another reason to hate Rick! He
didn't want to feel this way.
He grabbed his script and sat down on his
couch, trying to calm down so he could
concentrate. It took a while for his heart to stop
beating at twice its normal speed and the flush to
fade from his cheeks enough for him to brave his
nosy co-workers. There was no place like a set for
gossip, and Matt was sure that the news of him
staying over at Rick's last night and arriving on his
bike this morning would have gone all around the
place like wildfire. All he could do was to refuse
to dignify any of it with a response.
"Never complain, never explain," he told
himself, nodding at his reflection in the mirror. It
was a little saying his mother had taught him when
he was a kid.
Everything was calm and peaceful when he
arrived on set. Daniel was already there, reading
his script intently, and Matt was relieved when he
didn't ask him any questions or make any jokes
about the events of the morning.
"Where's Rick?" Matt asked, realizing they
were all ready to shoot the scene but, as usual,
waiting on their errant co-star.
"Petra wanted a word with him," Daniel
replied, with a meaningful twitch of his eyebrows.
"Oh shit." Matt had forgotten, in all the
drama, that Rick was probably in trouble for his
all too public appearance at the Justice Hall the
previous night. He had been in Petra's bad books
even before that had happened - supposing she
decided this was the final straw and fired him?
Matt couldn't bear to even think about that. The
Collar Crime
set was a great place to work
precisely because Rick made it such fun; it would
lose its heart without him.
He studied his script morosely, going over his
lines for the upcoming scene, and his heart thudded
a few minutes later when he heard Rick's familiar
long strides as he walked onto the set.
"Hey, did you start without me?" Rick joked,
but Matt could hear that he wasn't his usual
ebullient self; he glanced up to see his friend
looking pale and chastened.
"Just adjusting the lighting and then we'll be
ready," the director said.
Matt grabbed Rick's arm and dragged him
into a private corner of the set. "Are you okay?
What did she say?" he asked quickly, all his
earlier annoyance forgotten.
"Aw - you care." Rick broke into one of his
annoying grins.
"No, I don't." Matt bristled immediately. "Oh,
for fuck's sake - of course I do. What happened,
Rick? Was it bad?"
Rick dropped the act and ran a hand through
his hair. "Pretty bad, Matty, yeah. I can't screw up
again this season - not once, not in any way, shape
or form, or I'm fired. Petra was pretty clear about
that. She really means it too - I screw up, or bring
any kind of bad publicity down on the show, then
I'm out on my ass."
"She can't fire you! You're the main reason
this show is a hit."
"That's nice of you, Matt, but there are plenty
of actors in Hollywood who can do what I do.
Nobody's irreplaceable." Rick shrugged.
"You are." Matt stuck out his chin obstinately.
"Look at those stupid photographers this morning
and the news item on TV last night! They could
have caught me and Karl having sex on the lawn in
front of the Justice Hall and that wouldn't have
gotten half the publicity you did."
"Nah. They just like me because I live it
large." Rick shrugged. "And is that your fantasy?
You and Karl making out in public?" He leered at
Matt suggestively.
"Don't be an idiot." Matt bashed his arm.
"And don't change the subject, either."
Rick sighed. "Look, I don't kid myself, Matt;
I'm not a great actor. Daniel is - and you have the
chops for it too - but I'm just very good at the one
thing I do."
"That's not true. You should see yourself the
way everyone else does."
"A total screw up?"
"No - an idiot, sure, but an idiot with a big
heart who manages to touch people in every scene
he's in. You make it feel real, Rick; I do my best
work whenever I'm in a scene with you because
you make me relax, and you throw out this good
vibe and sort of coax the best out of me. I'd be so
anxious I'd freeze if you weren't here, cracking
your truly appalling jokes."
Rick looked genuinely surprised by the
compliment. "Thank you, Matty," he said quietly.
"So you absolutely mustn't get into any trouble
between now and the hiatus!" Matt told him
sternly. "Promise me, Rick - because I really don't
want to do this show without you." That sounded
kind of sappy, so he added; "You're my only
chance of ever winning an award one day!"
Rick grinned at that, responding to the teasing
as he always did. "Okay, Matt, I'll do my best."
"No - I want you to promise."
"I promise then. I already promised Petra: No
clubs, no subs, no trouble - nothing at all to give
the show bad press." Rick gazed blankly into
space. "Shit, Matty - how the hell am I going to do
that?"
"I'll help you. We all will." Matt gestured
around the room. "You can do it; I know you can."
"You have more faith in me than I do." Rick
gave a wan smile, and Matt realized that was the
truth. Rick didn't have a lot of faith in himself; he
seemed to almost expect to screw up, and Matt
wondered how much of the goofing off was simply
to pre-empt the inevitable moment when it all went
wrong for him.
Impulsively, he reached up, put his hands on
either side of Rick's face, pulled his head down,
and kissed him firmly on the forehead. "I mean it.
You can do this," he whispered fiercely.
He released Rick and walked back to his
position on set, aware that everyone was looking
at them again. Damn it, they were really giving the
gossips plenty of fodder today. He wasn't used to
being the center of attention, and he felt himself
flushing at the scrutiny. Rick came to stand
opposite him ready to start the scene a second later
and gave him a little wink, and Matt flashed him an
encouraging smile in return.
Rick could do this - he had to.
It was like going cold turkey, Rick thought a
few days later, gazing at himself glumly in the
mirror in his trailer. He felt utterly miserable - it
wasn't so much Petra's embargo on clubbing,
although that didn't help, but it was that he couldn't
be himself. He had to monitor his behavior all the
time, watch what he said, and keep one eye on the
clock so he wasn't late, and it was making him
depressed.
He couldn't even ride his bike in the hills in
case he zoned out and was pulled over by the
police again. Even apart from Petra firing him,
there was a good chance he'd lose his license if
that happened.
So he was stuck in a nightmare of
timekeeping, politeness, no sex, and, worst of all,
no spanking!
He had been surprised to find that what he
missed most of all was not so much the sex, as that
time he spent with a sub over his knee, gently
warming a cute ass. That was something to be
relished and savored, something he could lose
himself in, and something he knew he was damn
good at.
He missed making a sub squirm, squeal,
giggle, sigh and melt into a ball of relaxed
submission over his knees. That was when he was
most in touch with his own dominance - when he
was spanking a willing sub who loved it as much
as he did. That was when he was the master of the
universe, flying as high as his sub on the sensation.
He didn't have any energy these days and felt
tired all the time. He didn't like sleeping without a
beautiful, naked sub curled up beside him, ready to
service him sexually at any point during the night.
He needed the distraction of having a sub to
explore. Without it, his demons came out and
tormented him, keeping him awake at night. Subs
were his drug of choice and without that drug he
was slowly drowning.
He couldn't go out clubbing to find a willing
sexual partner - it was too risky. Besides, the
paparazzi were all over him right now after
catching Matt staying over.
At that moment there was a sudden flurry at
the door, and the human whirlwind that was Matt
in a bad mood stormed into his trailer without
knocking.
"Have you seen this?" He threw a magazine
across the trailer, and Rick caught it in one hand
and glanced at the front cover.
Is Rick swimming in Matt's lake?
the
headline screamed, over a picture of him and Matt
emerging from his house a few days ago, Rick's
hand clamped firmly around Matt's wrist.
"They made a pun out of your last name being
'Lake'?" Rick shook his head sadly. "That's crappy
writing."
"Really? They're insinuating that we're having
an affair and your problem is that the writing's
crap?" Matt glared at him.
"Well, it is!"
"Yes it is," Matt conceded. "And this one is
even worse!" He flung another magazine at Rick.
“
Rick
ochet
! TV star Matthew Lake takes a
walk on the wild side with his handsome co-star!
This one had a picture of Rick throwing Matt
over his shoulder and striding with him towards
his bike.
"
Rick
ochet! Hah!" Rick laughed. "Now that
one is actually pretty good."
"Yes, yes," Matt said impatiently. "The first
headline is a feeble play on my name, and the
second is an even worse pun on yours. Hah, hah,
very funny."
"Rick O'Shea… ricochet." Rick was still
laughing at the joke. "I love it!"
"Well, I don't! And I do damn well feel like
I'm ricocheting all over the place because of this!