Second Chances (17 page)

*Luke*

I stood in
Zoey’s
bathroom looking into the mirror. I couldn’t believe that we just made love.
Yeah made love that was exactly what it was. It sure as hell isn’t just sex
with her. I never loved anyone I had sex with until now. It felt different
completely different. There was closeness an unexplainable connection with her.
I felt it in my heart and I put everything I was into it. I wanted it to be
special for her because she will never know how special it was for me. I was
completely in love with her.

When I walked out of the bathroom
she was sitting on her bed in just her panties and a T-shirt. She was so
beautiful. When I looked down she was holding a phone…my phone looking at it.
My heart sank! I walked over to the bed and sat next to her she never looked up
just stared at my phone in her hand. “
Zoey
…,” I
brushed her hair back tucking it behind her ear so I could see her face. “Baby…
are
you okay?” A few minutes passed, “I was…I was perfect
actually more than perfect...um your uh… your phone beep and I was just picking
it up off the floor when I saw your screen.” She took in a deep shuddering
breath as if trying to hold back her tears. “I saw Whitney’s name and I guess I
shouldn’t have let my curiosity get the best of me because now I can see she’s
been texting you for over a week. Some of these are really good actually. I
especially like the ones toward the end here where she starting including the
photos of herself. I mean this girl has no shame does she…what is this right
here a picture of her crotch…that’s great...It seems like she’s getting a
little more graphic with her wording though. I mean the latest one she gives in
detail how she wants to suck your cock AGAIN while you’re driving down the
road.” She threw my phone at me and got up off the bed grabbing her pants. I
quickly followed her and grabbed her around the waist from behind, “
Zoey
wait please listen. I haven’t text her back. I told
her to quit so many times. She knows that I love you and that we’re together.
She just keeps sending them.”  She pulled my hands loose from her and
stepped away. “Luke I need you to leave please.” Mother fucker…I was scared
this was going to happen. I wanted to kill Whitney. “
Zoey
please…there is nothing going on with Whitney. Baby you got to believe me
please.” I tried to walk to her but she just pulled her pants on and walked
away. I followed behind her down the stairs and into the living room. She
walked straight to the front door and opened it. “Leave now Luke!” I tried again
to hug her but she pulled away. “God
Zoey
…don’t do
this please! I love you okay. There is nothing going on. Baby I promise you I
wouldn’t do that…Please!” She was looking at the floor and that was my queue
that she wasn’t going to listen to me. I could see she was pissed off and hurt.
The look on her face was killing me. After what we just shared together
upstairs this shouldn’t have been happening. Our night should not end like
this. I stood in the doorway holding my phone and keys in my hand. I didn’t
even care that I only had pants on. She bent down grabbing my shoes and pushed
them into my chest as she nudged me out of the door. When she looked up into my
eyes I saw the tears and I almost lost it myself. “
Zoey
don’t make me leave. I was going to tell you Sunday about it but when I got
here that night well with what happened I didn’t feel it was the right time to
bring it up and…” she cut me off. “Oh wait a minute you wanted to see how far I
would let you get with me before you told me that you keep a collection a
masturbating worthy photos of your ex fuck buddy on your phone…I see you sure
didn’t want to interrupt the blowjob you got from me to be honest. Just get out
Luke!” She shoved against my chest hard pushing me out the opened door. “I
should of deleted them I’m sorry. I’ll delete them
Zoey
…I’ll
delete them,” I was desperate for her to listen to me. I was now standing on
the front porch. She looked up at me and the look on her face was filled with
such hurt. It was breaking me completely. Through her gritted teeth she said,
“Thanks Luke but don’t do me any Fucking favors!”
Zoey
slammed the door and turned off the porch light. I stood there hoping she would
open the door but she never did. It was now eleven and I knew her mom would be
heading home soon. I had tried calling her phone from the porch over and over
leaving a number of voicemails but had no luck. I walked to my car and drove
home. When I got there I couldn’t go to bed. My heart was aching and I
seriously needed
Zoey
. I had this really bad feeling
and I couldn’t get past the idea that I may lose her and that was sickening.

*
Zoey
*

I slid down the door crying into
my hands. I was so disgusted at the vision in my head of Whitney spread eagle on
Luke’s phone. Why would he keep those on his phone? Did he look at them? Was he
cheating on me? I wasn’t having sex with him so was he satisfying himself with
her. They were familiar with each other and that made me sick. Some of the
things she said on his phone really just turned my stomach.

I found myself wondering back to
my room I grabbed my sheet and took it to the washer throwing it in. It was as
if everything was robotic. My mind wasn’t in what I was doing but I still did
it. I remade my bed. When I found the condom wrapper I rolled it into toilet
paper tightly and then flushed it. I showered quickly and crawled into bed.
Once I made it there I cried myself to sleep.

I woke at three thirty in the
morning screaming. My mom came rushing into my room. “
Zoey
…Honey
are you okay? It was just a dream sweetheart...your safe…your safe
Zoey
!” I cried into her shoulder shuddering deeply. When I
woke the next morning my mother was still in bed with me and I was so glad she
was there.

Going to school was a challenge I
felt like staying in bed. I got there five minutes late and checked through the
office getting a pass for an excused tardiness. When homeroom came around I
walked through the door to find Sophia texting. She looked up and I could tell
she knew. I sat down next to her, “
Zo
…are you okay? I
have been texting and calling you all day.” I dropped my bag to the floor. “Oh!
I turned my phone off last night.” She reached her hand out and put it on mine.
“Luke called Evan last night and he was at my house. He feels horrible but he
screwed up so he should.” I just blew out a deep breath, “I just don’t know why
he kept them on his phone. I mean did he really need them on there. Makes me
think he looked at them. You know what makes it even worse? I finally did it
last night…we had sex and then I find all that on his phone.” She didn’t say
anything in return what could she say. I just floated through my day and didn’t
talk much.

Later that night when I turned on
my phone I had so many voicemails and incoming text. I sat down on the couch as
Lily sat on the floor in front of me watching cartoons. I began flipping
through the texts. Most were from Luke a few from Sophia. I read them quickly
trying not to cry. I listened to his voicemails and it sounded in a couple of
them that he may have been chocking up.

I decided to text Sophia and let
her know I have my phone on.

Me: ‘Okay so I caved and turned
my phone on. Just FYI’

Sophia: ‘Good! At the football
game and I must say they are getting their ASSES kicked BIG TIME!’

Me: ‘Well I guess they will need
Luke’s party tonight so they can get out of the funk then huh’

Sophia: ‘Are you coming?’

Me: ‘Don’t know I need to talk to
him but not sure if I am ready.’

Sophia: “Call me if you decide
to’

Me: ‘K’

I looked through the texts from
Luke again and then decided we needed to talk.

It was about ten thirty when
Sophia text me.

Sophia: ‘Luke is seriously
hammered he is going on and on about losing you and I think any minute he may
break out into full blown tears. No Joke!’

Following the text
came
a photo of Luke on the floor against a door which
appeared to be the closet by the front door with a bottle of whiskey in his
hand and he looked like complete shit.

I texted her
back.

Me: ‘
L
’

My mom got home about eleven
thirty and after a little bit of reluctance from her she decided to let me go
to Luke’s I wasn’t going to argue with her about staying because I wasn’t sure
what was going to happen and I may be back home later. I would deal with all
that when and if the time came. On the way there I debated on calling Sophia to
tell her I was coming but decided she would know soon enough.

When I pulled up to the house
there were still a lot of cars out front. I got out and walked up I had dressed
in my Jean frayed skirt and a layered red and yellow tank with high heeled
sandals hoping to grab Luke’s attention. Yes I was mad at him but I wanted him
to see what he could lose if this couldn’t be resolved. I could hear the music
once I opened the door. I started to look around for anyone I knew. I finally
located Blake who was on the couch playing video games with a few other guys. I
knelt down next to him, “Have you seen Luke?” He turned toward me and smiled,
“Hey Zoe he was in the kitchen not sure though it’s been a while since I was in
there.”  I thanked him and walked toward the kitchen. There were so many
people in here I could barely move. After looking and unable to see him I
decided to go look around. I was just about to walk back into the living room
when I saw Whitney straddling some guy leaning over the top of him. It pissed
me off that she was even here. She was grinding on him to the music which was
so nasty to witness. I couldn’t make out who the guy was because I could only
see his legs but when I leaned over I saw it was Luke with his eyes closed and
his head laying back. I felt sick immediately. I wasn’t sure what came over me
but I walked straight over grabbing a hand full of Whitney’s hair and yanked
her right off his lap backwards. I never let go of her hair as she screamed and
threw herself around trying to get free. The moment I was able to see her face
I swung and connected. She got loose and stood up coming back at me. I picked
up a half full cup of beer and threw it at her screaming, “You’re a fucking
Skank!” I took the opportunity to punch her again when she was wiping the beer
off her face. People were standing around yelling things to us to attempt to
keep it going. Someone grabbed me from behind with their arm around my waist. I
fought against them trying to get away but they carried me out of the room into
the living room. We ended up in one of the side rooms before I saw that it was
Blake. He put me down blocking the doorway, “You idiot! Why the hell did you do
that? I am so sick of that bitch.” He made me sit down onto a chair. Sophia and
Evan came into the room. “
Zoey
holy hell you busted
Whitney’s eye open,” she was laughing so hard. I was still so pissed I could
hear her in the other room running her mouth which only fueled me and made me
want to punch her again. I stood up and Blake grabbed me again. “I’m leaving
Blake let go of me she can fucking have him.” They all were looking at me like
they had no clue why I went after her…like I just attacked her for no reason.
“Don’t look at me like that. Whitney was practically dry fucking Luke in the
kitchen chair.” They all looked back and forth at one another. I just wanted to
get out of there. I heard my name being yelled in a panic and then Luke stumbled
in through the doorway. The hurt and anger flared when I saw Whitney off behind
him in a distance as if she was following him. I felt overwhelmed as everything
hit me all at once. I started crying and Blake tried to guide me to sit back
down but I lost it. Luke walked toward me like he was confused about what was
going on obviously wasted. That look just made me even madder than I was just a
second ago, “You fucking prick! To think I actually came here tonight to work
things out with you. You know what…that stupid bitch deserves you. You two can
have each other.” I pushed past him, “
Zoey
wait
please” as he reached for me. I jerked my arm away hard. “Don’t fucking touch
me you asshole.” I slapped him across the face and he just stood there with his
arms down by his sides.  The tears were spilling over heavy. “I wish I
hadn’t had sex with you last night. I fucking hate you! You played me from the
beginning didn’t you? It was all just a game to see how long it would take to
fuck me huh? Well mission complete!” I shoved him back and walked out. Sophia
followed me, “
Zoey
wait please I can’t let you drive
like this.” As she reached for me I collapsed down onto my knees on the front
lawn and began crying even harder. I felt like my heart exploded from my chest.
How could he? How could he do this to me? I was crying so hard I was heaving.
She wrapped herself around me and let me cry it out. She let me scream and I
tried to yank away but she wouldn’t release me. “I thought he loved me…What a fucking
joke huh? I’m such an idiot.” Blake walked out and knelt next to me. “
Zoey
will you let me take you home? Come on I haven’t been
drinking.” He brushed my tears away and I let him pick me up and carry me to my
car as I just rested my head on his shoulder and cried. I felt empty all of a
sudden just hollow as Blake sat me into my car. I saw Whitney come out of the
front door…I jumped out and ran straight for her jumping and knocking her down
to the ground. I started hitting her and pulling her hair. Even when Blake
grabbed me and lifted me I kept kicking and swinging. Luke was trying to get
out to us but Evan was holding him back. His shirt was torn and hanging off.
“ZOEY!”
He was screaming when he finally got past them.
“Baby
please stay…don’t
leave.” He was within a foot
of me as I was still being held by Blake tightly. I could barely see through my
tears. “Fuck you! I hate you Luke…I H-HATE YOU!
We.
Are.
Over.”
I stopped fighting and
told Blake to take me home. A friend of his ending up following so he could
bring him back. I just stared out the window the entire way. Blake waited until
we reached my driveway before he spoke. “Listen
Zoey
I know your mad, and hurt. I don’t believe that Luke cheated or that he would
have. That guy is so wrapped up in you it’s sick. He was lost today at school,
at our game and tonight he got so drunk. I haven’t seen him drunk like that for
a long time. I think Whitney looked for his weakness and used it as her chance.
She has been trying for weeks
Zoey
and he has gotten
so pissed at her. He has told her off so many times regarding you and him. He
does love you.” I just looked up at him and said, “Well I guess now none of
that really matters anymore does it.” I got out and walked to my front door
after I shut the door I stood in the living room with no thoughts of anything I
felt lost. I heard my keys hit the floor as Blake dropped them from the front
porch in through the mail drop. I looked to the vibrating phone I held into my
hand to see Luke’s picture across my screen. He must have called twenty times
since I left. I just shut it off. I went straight to my bed and crawled under
my covers still in my clothes. I don’t know when I actually fell asleep.