Authors: Kirsten Osbourne
Tags: #Literature & Fiction, #Romance, #Contemporary
character to start with. Stephanie vouched so highly for you that I was able
to trust you before I ever met you.”
She could understand that. “Okay. What were the other reasons?”
He sighed. “I’m ready to have a family. I thought I’d found the perfect
woman, and she took off. I didn’t want to have to start over from square
one. I wanted to meet someone else, who felt they were ready to start
married life, and would be more amenable to a quick wedding.”
“Stephanie told you I was willing to get married quick?” she asked. She
knew she’d talked about how unsettled she felt, and how much she wanted
kids in some of the emails she’d sent Stephanie, but she hadn’t realized
just how much Stephanie had read between the lines.
“Yeah. Does it bother you she told me that?”
Amanda shrugged. “I’m not sure. I mean, it’s true, but it feels funny to
know that you knew that before we ever spoke.” She kicked at a clump of
dirt on the ground. “What other reasons?”
“I don’t really have time for a real courtship to use an old-fashioned word. I
work a whole lot of hours, and don’t want to have to drive somewhere to
see a girl all that often. I mean, I know every girl in these parts. I don’t
want to have to drive all the way to Madison three times a week to see
some girl. Does that make any sense?”
She nodded. “It makes a lot of sense. With me, you can talk if you have
time, or not talk if you don’t. You have to pick up the phone, but don’t have
to make the long drives. Well, except this weekend, of course.”
He stopped walking and turned to her. “This weekend was necessary for
me. I needed to meet you and find out if we were compatible. I think we
are. What do you think?”
She looked up into his big brown eyes. She was already half in love with
him. What could she say? “Yeah, I think we are.”
He smiled. “I’m glad.” He cupped her face in both hands and leaned
slowly toward her, brushing her lips with his. When she leaned toward him,
he wrapped an arm around her waist and pulled her more firmly against
him. His tongue traced the line of her lips, and she parted them, giving him
access to her mouth.
She wrapped both arms around his neck and pressed herself up against
him. How had she lived all her life without his kisses?
After a moment, he broke off the kiss. Both of them were breathing heavily
as they faced one another. Her cheeks were tinged pink with
embarrassment, but she wouldn’t turn away from him. “What would you
think about getting married this summer?” he asked.
Her eyes grew wide as she stared at him for a minute. “This summer?
Like August?”
He smiled. “I’m thinking more like June. When is school out?”
She swallowed. “The last week in May.”
“How about the first Saturday in June then?”
Was this what she wanted? She wanted a family. She needed a change
so desperately. But was that enough reason to marry? If she agreed, they
wouldn’t see each other again until right before the wedding. She’d have
no time to get to know him or to get used to his kisses.
“I wasn’t expecting you to ask me that. Not yet, anyway,” she said
honestly.
He smiled, his thumb rubbing her lower lip. “I don’t want to wait. I want
you in my life.”
She stared into his eyes. She wanted to say yes. She really did. She just
wasn’t sure if she was ready to agree. Shouldn’t she know him better first?
He lowered his head and brushed his lips across hers again. “Please?”
She rested her head on his shoulder. Why was she even debating with
herself? She wanted children, and so did he. She found him incredibly
attractive. Why not? She lifted her head up and nodded. “Yeah. I’ll marry
you.”
“Really?”
She smiled. “Really.”
He kissed her again quickly, and slipped his arm around her as they walked
back toward the house talking as they went.
She told him that she’d already resigned her position with her school,
knowing that she was going to do something outside of her small town.
“I’m not sure if I even want to keep teaching. I have some money saved.
Enough that I could take a year off and it wouldn’t hurt me too badly. I’ll
probably apply at Stratford High, but I’m not even sure yet. Maybe I can
just teach some quilting classes or something.”
“I make enough that you don’t have to work if you don’t want to. I’d
probably rather you didn’t once we have kids, but we can talk about that
later.”
She shrugged. “Maybe I’ll spend a year not working and see if I can handle
it. I may go insane.”
He laughed. “Hopefully not. I’m sure you could sub if nothing else.”
She nodded. “That may be the best solution. If I sub, I can work when I
want and not work when I don’t want to. I’ll call the school system here on
my break on Monday and see if I can get an application. Or check out their
website. I’m sure it’ll have the information I need.”
“I’d like to see you with something to do if you want to do it. You might get
bored just being a farmer’s wife.”
She laughed. “I doubt it. I’d love to get involved in the church. Maybe
work with the children’s ministry. That’s always been a passion of mine.
There are so many books I want to catch up on. I love to quilt. I enjoy
making quilts and selling them. I don’t get bored.”
He grinned. “Sounds good to me.”
They were nearing the house by this time, and he suggested they drive into
town for lunch. “I’d invite you to eat with me, but honestly? There’s nothing
fit to eat in my house. I pretty much live off of sandwiches and microwave
dinners. Oh, and frozen burritos. I’ve never been much of a cook.”
“I love to cook. That’s part of the reason I became a homemaking teacher.”
They went inside so she could get her purse from the counter, and got into
his truck. “The church isn’t big, but it’s big enough for a small wedding. Do
you want Bob to marry us?” he asked.
“He’s the only minister we both know, so yeah, he’s it. I’ll talk to Stephanie
about it. I’m sure she’d be thrilled to take care of most of the plans for me.
She loves bossing people around. We can email about flower
arrangements and that kind of thing.”
He sighed. “I’m going to have to wear a suit, aren’t I?”
“At least a suit. I’d prefer a tux.”
He nodded. He didn’t want to, but he’d do it. “You gonna wear one of
those long white dresses?” he asked.
“Yeah. I should have time to make one between now and then. If I don’t
have enough time, I’ll turn my classroom into a sweat shop.”
He laughed. She loved how his deep chuckle filled up the cab of the truck.
“That works for me.”
By the time he’d dropped her off that evening, they had talked through the
important things. She and Stephanie would worry about the details. He
kissed her goodbye in the driveway. “I’ll see you tomorrow evening.”
Time flew by once Amanda was back home in Texas. She put her house
on the market, knowing that she could stay with her friend, Beth, if the
house sold before she was ready to move. She got everything packed up
and went to work on her dress. Every evening she talked to Jason. They
laughed and joked. She felt closer to him every day. And more nervous
about marrying him.
She closed on the house the day after school was out, but they gave her
three days to vacate. In those three days, she’d be in Wisconsin. She
came home after signing the papers and slumped onto the couch. She’d
just sold the only home she’d ever known. Was she doing the right thing?
She called Stephanie, and didn’t even wait for her to say anything. “House
is sold. Everything is packed. Movers are coming tomorrow, and I’ll be
flying up there. Am I insane?”
Stephanie laughed. “You’re not getting nervous are you? Jason’s a great
guy. You’re doing the right thing.”
Amanda felt tears prick her eyes. “I’m moving a thousand miles for a man
I’ve met once. Once! My father would kill me.”
“It’s going to be okay. Everything is ready here. I’ll probably be picking you
up at the airport on Friday afternoon.”
“I thought Jason was picking me up?”
“He’s having some tractor issues. He has to get them taken care of before
the honeymoon.”
Amanda sighed. “Am I even going to get to see him before the wedding?”
“Probably not. You’ll get to see him during the wedding, though.”
“I’m so nervous. I was hoping he could talk me down from the emotional
ledge I’m perched on.”
Stephanie smiled as she looked at the phone. Amanda was usually so
calm about everything. These pre-wedding jitters were amusing her to no
end. “He said he’d call you tonight.”
“Well, that’s better than nothing, I guess.”
After they’d hung up, Amanda went into her bedroom and stroked the dress
hanging in her closet. She’d worked so hard on it. She knew that it
showed her slim figure off to its best advantage. Hopefully Jason would
like it.
Hours later, her phone rang. She checked the caller ID and answered it.
She was determined not to sound like a hysterical idiot. “Hey there.”
“Hi, sweetheart. How did the closing go today?”
She sighed. “It went well. It’s all done. I’ve sold the only home I’ve ever
known.” She dashed the tear off her cheek as she said the words. She’d
planned to sell the house anyway. It wasn’t his fault, so why was she half
mad at him for it?
“You doin’ okay?”
“Not really. I’m in the middle of an emotional crisis. I keep asking myself if
I’m doing the right thing.”
“And how do you answer yourself?”
She laughed. “I don’t know. That’s the problem. I can’t figure that out. It’s
not that I don’t want to marry you. It’s really not. It’s just that I’m moving so
far away from Texas. And I’m going to be having sex with a man I barely
know.” She put her hand over her mouth as soon as she realized what
she’d said. She hadn’t meant to bring that up.
“Is that the problem? Are you worried about the wedding night?”
She blushed. “That’s part of it.”
“Why does that make you so nervous?” he asked.
“Well, it’ll be a new experience, and I don’t feel like I know you well enough
yet. Not really. Maybe we could get married, but wait a week or two?”
He’d figured she was a virgin, but she hadn’t come right out and said it until
now. “It’s going to be okay. I’m not willing to wait, but it’s not going to be
some horribly traumatic experience. I promise. You’ll enjoy it.”
She sighed. “I hope so. I know it’s not fair to even ask you to wait. I’m
sorry. I’m just a little messed up right now. Too many changes too fast.”
“There’s no need to be sorry. Once we’re married, everything will settle
down, and things will be easier,” he promised.
“I hope so.”
*****
that Jason wasn’t going to meet her. She needed some time with
Stephanie before she had a mental breakdown.
Most of her things had been sent ahead, so she only had her overnight
bag, one suitcase, and her wedding dress with her. Everything else was
already here. Jason had told her the night before that the moving truck had
arrived and where he’d put everything. She picked up the only suitcase
that she’d checked and searched the people around her again.
She was looking for Stephanie, so was surprised to be caught in a bear
hug by Jason. She pulled back and looked up at him her eyes showing her
happiness at his presence. “You made it!”
“I couldn’t not meet you with how freaked out you sounded the other night.
My friend, Steve, is dealing with the tractor.”
She grabbed him in another hug. “I’m so glad you came.”
He tucked his forefinger under her chin and lifted her face up to his. His
lips descended slowly, kissing her softly. “I missed you.”
“I missed you, too. I can’t believe that we’re going to be married at this
time tomorrow.”
He picked up her suitcase and started toward the truck. She carried her
garment bag and her overnight. When they reached the truck, he stowed
them behind the seat and they climbed in. He immediately caught her
hand and pulled her close, kissing her passionately this time. They were
both panting by the time he broke off the kiss. “I’m looking forward to not
stopping at a kiss,” he whispered.
She blushed. “I’m really nervous about that.”